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Red, the color of love and desire. Such a wondrous and powerful color from afar, but the closer you look the more twisted it becomes. You start to discover the disgusting parts of the color, the hate, anger and jealousy.
And right know if you were to describe me. The most accurate description of me would be the color red. Sadly not the nice part.
Those three emotions were now directed at the most beautiful, coolest and nicest girl I've ever known; Chay or now better known as Judas.
You better stay away from him you little temptress. As those thoughts entered my head, a new emotion coursed through my body; guilt. Jared wasn't mine, and I had no right what so ever to be mad at one of my most treasured friends for something as trivial as stupid teenaged boy drama. Chay didn't know that I had been pining after Jared ever since I was fourteen. To her he's only a nights worth of enjoyment, a hot body and a pretty face.
"Kim? Hello? Earth to Kim? Are you in that pretty little head of yours?"
I snapped out of my trance with the help of a dainty hand waiving up and down in front of my face. And that's when I noticed that Chay was staring at me, waiting.
"Huh?" I replied with crimson stained cheeks. Chay was tapping her foot and had crossed her arms over her chest, displaying clear signs of irritation.
"Girl, Sometimes I wonder what goes on in that head of yours. Must be something really good, because it takes you hell of a lot time to get out of there." Chay said, shaking her head back and forth.
Before I had the chance to even utter one syllable she interrupted me.
"As I was saying before you so rudely zoned out on me. It's no problemo, I think I can manage this costumer, If you know what I mean" She replied with wiggling eyebrows.
Oh scratch Guilt! Anger was reappearing again, more ferocious than the first time; Showing me Images of Jared trailing kisses along Chay's neck, his rough fingers stroking her arms tenderly while uttering words of endearments.
"No!" I shrieked. Disgusted by the images that came rolling into my head, crashing down; like waves
Chay jerked away in haste, a trace of chock staining her face at my sudden outburst.
"Okay? What's up with you Kim? You're acting really weird!" She looked both worried and confused.
"I'm just having a really off day; my emotions are all over the place. I just really want to work and get out of my head for a while and since I'm here and ready to work I just thought that you might need a break, because I know how tired you must be, looking after your niece and all." I was shocked at how simply the lie had slipped out. I'm usually such an awful liar, always tumbling over each word, my gaze wandering all over the place.
"I really do love you, you know that right?" She said with a beaming smile, my words seemed to have driven away any lust filled thoughts she had about Jared.
"Of course I do! What's not to love?" I laughed. "Go! Sit down, have something to drink! I'll take care of your costumers, go!" I shooed her away.
"Okay okay I'm going! Jeeesh! "She chuckled; turned around and started walking over to the counter where Nate was.
When I was sure that she was seated, I made my way over to booth number five where Jared and two other guys were sitting. They were talking; it must be about something really fascinating because they were all leaning into each other.
I took out my notepad and pen out of the aprons front pocket and cleared my throat. My heart was beating so fast that it made my stomach churn and my knees weak.
Don't be such a, well for a better word. A big vagina! You talked to him the whole way home! You shared laughs, thoughts and hopes! I think you can manage to utter the five words "What Can I Get You?"
Those Five words were on repeat in my head all the way over there. Until I just had enough and burst.
"Hi! What can I get you!?" I raised an octave.
All three heads snapped up in shock.
"Oh my god! I'm so sorry! I must have scared the living shit out of you guys. I didn't mean to be so loud! Jesus I think my eardrums exploded. Let me try that again without making your ears bleed. Hi what can I get ya'll?" I rambled; blushing profoundly, hoping that the ground would just swallow me whole and end my misery.
"You were right Jared, She's adorable when she blushes" Said the guy right to Jared who had a very cute smile. The sentence only caused me to blush even more, which made the guy who said it smile even wider. I turned my head way from the cutie and stopped abruptly when my eyes meet Jared's. He was smiling that special smile that made my heart pick up a few paces.
I cleared my throat in discomfort, in an attempt to break the awkward silence.
"Yeah? So are we all just gonna stare at each other like people who takes the short buss to school or are we actually going to order?" said the other guy next to Jared. Jesus this guy was huge! Even bigger than Jared! And he was equally attractive with his black hair and his big brown eyes. Come to think of it, they all resembled each other.
Before I could stop it, the words came out.
"Jesus, you're big! What do you eat!?"
They all burst out laughing.I tried to salvage my ever growing mortification by covering my face with my hands.
"I'm sorry that sounded very rude! It sounded better in my head, well not really. I just have a very big mouth that seems to have a mind of its own." I said biting my lip.
"I'm not offended; I take it as a compliment. I'd rather be my height and size than Jared's, if he didn't have short hair I would think he was a girl" He smirked.
"Jared doesn't look like a girl! He's too handsome and strong to ever be mistaken for a girl!" Oh god, please please tell me I did not just say that.
But judging by the shocked expressions I was met by says that I did. I was mentally kicking myself but stopped when I noticed Jared pleased expression. He liked it when I called him handsome?
"Okay… Let's try to circle back to the starting point of this conversation. What can I get you guys?" My face was probably as red as a tomato at this point.
The Cutie was the first to answer. "I'll take three of those delicious "Special" burgers with fries on the side and two cherry cokes."
"Ditto" Said both Jared and Humongous next him.
I lifted my eyebrows in surprise but lowered them instantly. I didn't want to offend them. I scribbled down the orders on the notepad, trying hard not to raise my head a little to catch a glimpse of Jared.
"Nine "Special" burgers, french fries and six cherry cokes coming right up." I smiled my brightest smile. "I really have to make special discount coupons for you guys don't I? Eat twenty burgers, get one for free" I chuckled. "I'm Kim by the way"
It was Cutie who answered first again. "We know. I'm Embry and this grumpy old man here is Paul and you already know Jared." He replied with a knowing smirk.
When I heard what their names were, realization hit me.
"Wait I know you two! I think Paul and I have gym together and Embry, you and I used to play together when we were little! How could I forget the guy who played tea parties with me? Wow you grew up" I exclaimed.
"Little Princess Kimmy?" Embry said shocked.
I started laughing. "You even remember the nickname I forced you to call me?"
"Of course how could I forget? You got so mad one time when I called you Kimberly that you poured imaginary tea all over my pants!" He laughed which caused me to laugh with him. All of the sudden I heard a voice that caught my attention behind me.
"Excuse me Miss, we would like to order" Said a nice older woman who sat with what I presumed to be her husband.
"I will be right there" I replied with a smile. I turned my attention back to Jared, Embry and Paul. "It was nice seeing you again Embry, or should I say Princess Em? I'll be right back with your orders!" before I turned around I sneaked a glance at Jared and discovered that he was also looking at me in wonder. I quickly turned my head around, blushing.
I strolled over to Nate, handed in the order and then went over to the elderly couple and took their orders while refilling their Ice teas. I had cleared two tables and taken two more orders when I heard a voice shout "Orders up for booth five".
When I went over to the counter and tried to pick up the three plates was when I remembered that I couldn't.
"Can I help you with that?" Jared was standing behind me smiling. "You know with your damaged hand and all"
"Well we wouldn't want Superman to be unemployed now do we?" I returned his smile with one of my shy ones.
"Is that what I am in your eyes? Superman?" He grinned.
I could only manage a nod. But his smile became even brighter. "Let me take those of your hands" he said; reaching for the plates, placing two on his arm and the third one in his hand. "Hand me three of the cokes will you?" I did and he grabbed them with his free arm. "I'll grab the other three." I replied. He nodded and started walking toward his booth.
I walked over to the booth with the drinks and set them down. But before I turned around I thanked Jared, who did the most adorable shrug while smiling at the ground. His smile left me a little hot and bothered, I've always been a sucker for shy smiles. Stupid, sexy Jared.
The rest of the day was pretty much the same. I took orders, cleared tables, talked to Chay and Nate a little bit and served food. I had caught Jared staring at me a couple of times, which made my knees weak. The time flashed by in a haze and before I knew it the clock was 10.
"Hey Kim, I hate to ask this of you but I just got off the phone with the babysitter and she just told me that she has to go home because she thinks she's caught the flu. She wasn't sure but she's been barfing for an hour now and she can't watch Lili anymore. Could you maybe close up for today? Please I wouldn't ask this of you if I had another choice, I'm really sorry" Chay looked at me with apologetic eyes.
"Yeah sure. It's fine! Really, go home Sorshe, Lili needs you. I understand"
"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" she exclaimed; throwing her arms around my neck, hugging me. "You are the best friend ever!"
I knew how hard Sorshe worked to keep everything in order at home. Chay is one of the strongest people I know. She's had a couple of rough months due to her sister; who felt like she wasn't ready to raise a child at twenty-two so instead left her with Sorshe and took off with some guy. I've only met the girl twice but both those times I wanted to rip out her hair, one strand at the time. She was so rude and obnoxious! And the way she spoke about and to people was awful, like they were beneath her. I don't usually dislike people because I believe that everyone has that one incredible quality that out ways all the bad ones, but I can safely say; she does not! She's a selfish immature brat.
"When were you supposed to close up?"
"At midnight. Is that a problem?" she replied worry etched on her face.
"No, No. No problem at all. Go home to Lili" I waved my hand dismissively. And with that she headed over to the counter, grabbed her purse and jacket but before she left she gave me a hug and whispered in my ear "I think he likes you. He's the only one here, go talk to him!"
After she left I turned around and was met by the sight of Jared. He was still here, alone. It took me a few minutes but I gathered enough courage to go and speak to him.
"Hi, where are Embry and Paul?" I asked.
"We decided to take a break. This whole meange-trois thing didn't work out like we expected it to; people got jealous, fist where thrown, hurtful words were uttered, most of them by me…. But still. All in all it didn't work out so they left me" He shrugged; his eyes lit up by a teasing glimmer.
"Oh you poor baby. Whatever shall you do now without the bromance in your life?" I laughed.
I felt myself lean in closer and before I knew it; I was raising my hand, aiming for his left cheek. I paused before I made contact, not really wanting to but I felt like I was overstepping some invisible boundary. I gazed into his eyes, asking silently for his permission, which I got when he did a little nod. I didn't hesitate this time; I wanted to feel his skin on mine. I wanted to see if it was rough, soft or perfectly in the middle of them both. I was pleasantly surprised when I felt his whiskers graze my hand, making it sting pleasurably. But what really chocked me in a good way was his reaction to my touch. He had inclined his cheek further into my hand, doing so with closed eyes; stroking his cheek against my palm. He seemed to enjoy our contact as much as I did. I wanted more, but I felt my gawkiness starting to grow. Coursing through my entire body; leaving me feeling silly and flushed. So I backed away; ignoring the enjoyable crackling sensation that now was my hand. It was when he felt the loss of contact that he reopened his eyes, staring at me with a tiny smile that made me smile as well.
It's strange now that I think about it. I've only really known Jared for less than twenty-four hours but still I feel like we've known each other for a lot longer than that. I really genuinely like this guy.
I cleared my throat in an attempt to drive the silence away, which only made it worse because now Jared was scratching the back of his neck; in an awkward gesture.
"So hey when are you closing up? I mean it must be closing time soon?" asked Jared.
I looked up at the clock over the counter, which said that the clock was half past ten.
"Well we usually close at twelve but there's not that many costumers" I replied; gesturing my hand around the empty room to prove my point. "So I guess I'll close earlier today, I don't really know yet. I think I'll give it an hour and if nobody comes in I'll close." I said shrugging.
"Wait. Why are you still here Jared? Don't you have anything better to do? It's Friday and you're hanging out alone in a diner? Odd" I quirked my eyebrow at him.
He shrugged "Well now you're just being rude. You're making me sound like a … Well loser with no friends. And I'm not like most people Kim" He looked at me; his former teasing expression now serious.
"What do you mean?" I asked intrigued; almost like a whisper.
"I mean that some pretty weird stuff has happened to me lately that changed me. I used to "party" but not anymore. I'm undecided if it's for better or worse." He replied
"What kind of weird things?" I asked, waiting anxiously for his reply.
He shrugged; giving a vague short answer. "Just stuff"
"Well I think it's for the better" I said with a smile. He turned to me with a chocked look on his face.
"Why do you think that?" He whispered; leaning so close that I could feel the warmth emitting from his body. I shivered.
"Because, whatever that stuff was it hasn't affected your behavior in a negative way. You're sweet, nice and funny. We didn't really talk to each other before today so I don't really know how you were like before but from what I can tell you seem like a better guy now. So why not focus on the good things or experiences these things have given you instead of the bad?" I continued on when I saw that he hung on every word I said. "Can you at least mention one good thing that came with – whatever it was?" I asked him slowly, trying not to pressure him.
He answered with one single word that chocked me all the way down to my core. "You"
I stared at him; my mouth opening and closing, like a fish. The only word I could manage was "What?"
Now he looked embarrassed, obviously realizing now how weird it had sounded when he said it. But it didn't look like he regretted saying it, only that he was bracing himself for rejection. "Well this "thing" is one of the main reasons of why we started talking today. I only wished it had happened sooner" He bowed his head down, blessing me with a tiny smile.
"Okay… Now I'm really interested, what happened?" I laughed. He looked at me, debating obviously on telling me. "A story for another time" he replied.
"I'm holding you to that" I said poking at his rock hard chest. He only laughed and mumbled something under his breath that sounded like, I'm sure you will.
I smiled again; I've been doing that a lot today. I glanced up at the watch and decided to call it a night. Marie, the chef had already left. She had left emergency food, just in case a costumer came after her shift ended. But as usual it went uneaten, not that many people came to the diner after eight o'clock but just in case Joe always wanted backup food.
"I think I'm going to close up. So what exactly are you going to do now?" I looked at Jared who stood leaning against the wall; looking directly at me.
"I thought maybe you could give me a ride home?" he said sheepishly. "My ride kind of ditched me, remember? Plus you shouldn't drive home alone, it's dark out.. lots of creeps out there"
"Define a lot? There's like 600 residents in La Push?" I replied. He only laughed and shrugged.
"Why do you have to contradict everything I say?" He asked.
"Because it brings me joy" I snapped back. To this he rolled his eyes. "Don't roll your eyes at me! It's rude" I said; pushing at his chest, not even moving him an inch.
"Are we going or what little princess Kimmy?" he smirked.
"Shut up, you jerk! I was like ten!" I snapped. He only laughed. He put his arm around my shoulder; dragging me towards the exit.
"Wait! We still have to fix the chairs, close all the windows, make sure all the tables are cleared, turn off all the lights and count the register" I said; urging him to stop pulling me.
"We?" he said with a quirked his eyebrow.
"Yes we! I'm not doing this alone!" I replied.
"Fine" he sighed annoyed.
"Good"
It took us a total of forty-two minutes to finish each and every task. I felt exhaustion take a hold of my body when I was locking up. All I wanted to do was curl up into a ball onto my bed and just relax; it's been a busy day. I yawned and stretched my arms as far as they could go. Jared was standing behind me, waiting for me by the car looking like a Greek god.
"Tired there Sweetheart?" he grinned. "You're really cute when you yawn."
I could feel the heat rising; spreading. I snapped at myself, I was being silly! I wasn't some ditz who bats her eyelashes or in my case blushes at a compliment from a cute boy. Fuck that shit! So I forced myself to stop blushing; to look him straight in the eyes.
"Well you're really cute when you shy smile" I replied pinching his cheeks with my fingers. I let go of his cheeks, walked around him and hopped into the car. "Are you coming or what? Honey bee" I said teasingly.
He shrugged and gave a short laugh. When he hopped into the passenger seat he said. "Really? Honey bee? That's the best you got?" he smirked.
"Shut up" I punched his arm, hard. I muttered asshole under my breath.
He just sat there smiling the entire ride home. We didn't speak, but for some reason it didn't feel quiet. It felt nice.
"Where should I drop you off Jared?" I asked after a while. He pointed at the end of the road and said "there will be fine"
It only took me four minutes to arrive to where he had pointed.
"Well I guess I'll see you in school on Monday?" I said. He only nodded. Goddammit! Another deafening silence had occurred. Before he could reach for the door handle, I suddenly hugged him. At first he was as surprised as I was by my sudden movement, but after a few seconds he relaxed and snuggled his arms around me too. He let out a soft sigh that turned my muscles into jelly and my heart race. It was really nice, warm. The hug ended way too quickly in my opinion but I still let go off him when he moved away, although I didn't want to.
"Bye Kim, be safe" He said before he closed the car door.
When I got home I instantly flung myself into bed and starred up at the ceiling with a huge grin on my face.
The Week-end went by slowly but also nicely. I spent most of the Saturday in the woods with a treasured friend, my guitar. The forest was the only place I could really sing alone. Nobody ever went to this part, which suited me fine, but although I am worried that if I injure myself that nobody will be able find me. But that probably won't happen. The singing was cut short when I heard weird noise coming from the bushes. One thing you got to know about me is that I'm not suicidal, I don't stick around to find out what the mysterious noise is, I run. So that's what I did, I ran. After that, I picked up an extra shift at work, Chay's shift.
The Sunday was a lazy day. I pretty much just watched TV and ate, a lot! It was a comfortable day, boring. But mom had gotten home earlier than usual and she did not come home with a smile on her face. The first thing she saw was the dirty dishes I had forgotten and she completely lost it and started screaming at me. She kept saying that I didn't appreciate what she did for me, how hard she had it. And then I lost it as well. I swear I think our neighbors teen miles away could hear us. After the "fight" mom did what she normally did when she felt bad for snapping, she tried to reconcile. Which meant that she came into my room an hour or so later and apologized, stroked my hair and hugged me. And as usual I forgave her. After she left I went to bed but I couldn't sleep. I just twisted and turned. One thought kept reappearing in my head, What if this was all there is? What if my life continued with its endless cycle of working, school, and fights with my mom? That thought scared the living shit out of me. I wanted more for myself. I want adventure, I want to do things I've never done.
Soon enough Monday came rolling back. I did my usual morning routine. Woke up, got dressed, checked if mom was home which surprise surprise she wasn't, ate and then I was on my way towards school. I drove into the school parking lot which was almost empty except for a couple of guys standing by their cars, smoking. And that's when I realized that this was an opportunity for me to cross something off my list, smoke a cigarette. The list was something I've had for a year now, something my shrink recommended to me. She thought it would help me to have goals, even tiny ones that pushed me outside of my comfort zone. I got out of my car and walked over with determination to the four guys. I stopped abruptly in front of them, my heart hammering away inside my chest.
"Hey, do you have a cigarette?" I asked the very tall guy, who I guess was cute with his curly hair and blue eyes. All four pair of eyes was now directed at me with clear interest in their eyes. Instead of squirming and blushing as I usually do, I straighten my back and stared at them, waiting for his answer.
"Yeah sure" He said, holding out a packet of Level to me. I took one and nodded thanks in his direction. He just shrugged and smiled.
"Got a light?" I smiled. It only took him a second to whip his lighter out; I leaned in while he lightened my smoke from his hand. I felt daring so I gazed up at him through my lashes, a slow smile curving my lip when I noticed how he watched me.
"Thank you"
"No problem" he replied. I took a draft and was instantly hit with a wave of disgust, my throat burned and tickled almost to the point of frustration, I wanted to cough so badly I could taste it but I pushed it down. That was until I took a new draft of the cigarette. I couldn't hold it in anymore so I coughed. The guys just looked at me and laughed.
"Shut up!" I laughed.
"I guess you've never smoked before?" said the guy with the wide shoulders.
"Guilty" I hang my head sideways and smiled. "I've always wanted to try it so I thought I would today."
"Do you want me to teach you how to inhale properly?" He asked. "I'm Dean by the way, and this is Adam" He said pointing at the guy standing on his left side. "The guy you bummed the smoke from is Liam and the ugly ass guy beside him is Gabriel." He continued. I shock their hands and told them my name as well.
"So Kim, still want me to show you how to smoke that thing" Dean grinned. He was super cute actually with his broad shoulders; He was tall but not too tall, average weight. But what really reached out to me were his eyes, they were such an odd mixture of the color green and brown and were covered by thick lashes. "Yeah sure" I replied.
"Okay first, take the cigarette to your mouth, inhale, remove the cigarette from your mouth and inhale again. You want the smoke to reach all the way down to your lungs" He said while gesturing with his hands to show me. "And then exhale" he continued. I did what he said and discovered that it went better this time. I actually enjoyed it.
"Wow" I said while placing a hand to my forehead. "I'm feeling a bit dizzy" I said flustered.
"That's just the nicotine rush it'll pass" said Liam. "You want to sit down?" He asked gesturing to the hood of his car.
"Well aren't you a sweetheart" I replied. "Help me up?"
"Sure" He said, reaching for my waist; picking me up like I weighed nothing at all. "Thank you" I smiled.
"No problem" he replied with a smile of his own.
"So how old are you guys?" I asked them while taking another draft. It was Gabriel who replied this time.
"We're eighteen, and you?" Gabriel was the shortest among them; he had a nice firm jaw, and a sharp nose. He looked just like the rest of them with his tanned skin and dark hair, except he had straight hair while the others had curls.
"I turned sixteen three months ago" I replied. "Oh shit how much is the clock?" It was Adam who took out his phone and checked.
"She's almost ten over eight, why?" said Adam, turning his attention toward me.
"Shit shit shit, I started ten minutes ago!" I jumped off the hood of the car in a haste which almost made me fall but Liam caught me.
"You okay there Kim?" He asked.
"Yeah I'm just dandy, but thanks again. I seem to always need everybody's assistance" I mumbled.
"I'm sorry, I have to go. But it was nice meeting you guys." I said apologetic to each one of them.
"Maybe we'll see you around? We're always packed with cigarettes if you are ever in need for one." said Dean.
"I'll hold you to that. Bye" I waved.
I ran up to the school building as fast as I could. Through the empty corridor, until I reached my English classroom. I stepped into the classroom still wheezing a little bit, mumbled a short apology to the teacher and then took a seat in the back.
"Today, as I was saying before. We're going to be watching a personal favorite of mine, Schindlers List. Because If I understand correctly, World War 2 is the general focus in History right now, correct?" asked Mr. Lidecker. Only a few students in the classroom nodded but that seemed to be enough for him. "See it's been decided that English and History are going to cooperate in their lesson plan this year. So I'm going to grade your work in History as well, the same goes for Mr. Shaw. That gives you twice the opportunity to raise your grade! Take advantage of that. So for the next three months we're going to be reading, watching and talking about World War 2. At the end of that time I want you to choose a subject that you think is fascinating about this area and write an essay about it."
Mr. Lidecker continued talking about the importance about this assignment. He suggested a few areas that might be off interest to write about and so on. But as he was talking I felt my mind wander. All I could think about was that I had my first cigarette today and that I talked to boys, cute boys. I felt giddy, excited and really happy. Not because I smoked a cigarette or talked to boys but because I tried something different, which means I'm one step closer to finding out whom I want to be. I'm indecisive about everything right now. That means In order to be decisive I have to try as much as possible to figure out what I like and I'm hoping to find out something useful along the way. I kept smiling throughout the entire lesson. I hadn't paid much attention to the movie but I'd already seen it three times so I didn't worry about it.
The bell rang and everyone scurried out the classroom, grabbing their books and pencils in haste. I headed out with the rest of the crowd and steered my direction towards my locker and took out my schedule. I had gym class next so I grabbed my bag and headed towards the building. I changed into my workout clothes as quickly as I could because I hated changing when it was too crowded. There weren't that many people in the gym yet, only a handful of girls and three guys. The gym teacher, Mr. Michaelson was repeatedly looking at his clock, sighing and tapping his foot in a very annoying way. The weird part was that nobody was even late yet. There was still good teen minutes left until gym class started. I shook my head in confusion and went over to sit on a bench across the room.
"Hi Kim"
I turned around, and was instantly surprised. "Oh my god, Paul. Hi!" I answered shocked.
"Fancy seeing you here, is your arm okay?" he asked. I looked down at my hand which was slightly swollen, but its size had decreased prominently since yesterday. "Yeah it doesn't hurt as much anymore, its fine really. Thanks for asking" I replied with a smile.
"No problem, but you do know that we're playing basketball today right?"
"Oh shit, well I guess I'll have to suffer through it won't I?" I mumbled.
"No you won't I'll take care of it for you" replied with a bored expression on his face.
"Why would you do that for me?" a hint of surprise lingering in my voice. Instead of answering he just gave me a look and walked over towards Mr. Michaelsson. They seemed to be talking and my guess was that it was about me. Paul came back a few minutes later and said that Mr. Michaelson understood and had said that I could leave, but only if I bring him a note from the nurse the next time I see him. So I thanked Paul and waved goodbye to him.
I took my time changing into my clothes, brushed my hair and I even but on a smidge of makeup. I did a quick spin and I was actually smiling at my reflection. I looked kind of pretty with my wavy long hair, my eyelashes looked extremely longer with the help of the mascara and my lips had a nice plump to them from all the biting. I headed out of the changing room with a smile on my face and decided to walk to the cafeteria it was lunch time anyways and I was starving. The cafeteria was packed full with kids, laughing, shouting even singing. And for once I didn't hate the vivacious sounds. I picked up a tray and choose a tuna sandwich, a banana and a coke. I turned around, gazing around the room looking for a seat when all of the sudden a waving motion caught my attention.
"Hey Kim! Kim! Over here" It was Dean. He was waving me forwards. I made my way across the room until I was left standing in front of Dean.
"Hi Dean" I replied.
"Here take a seat." He gestured to the empty chair across from him. I put down my tray and sat down. "So where are the others?" I asked curious.
"Oh they're coming. They're just grabbing some food. "He said pointing to the register where three guys were standing.
" Ah I see. You guys are pretty much hard to miss, you're kind of on the big side" I teased.
"Oh are you calling us fat Kim? Are you?" He feigned insulted.
"Moi? No never!" I grinned. He gave a short laugh at that and started picking at his own sandwich.
"So Kim how come I've never seen you around in school?" he asked; taking a bite out of his sandwich.
I should feel insulted but for some reason I didn't. It was my own fault nobody ever noticed me, I made myself invisible not the other way around. "Beats me. I'm just not the "outgoing" type I guess" I replied with a shrug.
"Well you could have fooled me. I must have been blind because you're pretty hard to miss. " He emphasized the word pretty, which succeeded into making me blush.
I smiled at that and gave a little shy head shake. A few seconds later I heard three trays thump down onto the table. I looked up and saw Adam smiling to my left, Liam to my right and Gabriel next to Dean.
"Hi Kim" said all three of them simultaneously. I nodded hi in their direction.
"Yeah hi to you guys too! What Am I? Chopped liver?" Dean scoffed and I laughed. "Oh Dean they're just being ass holes, forget about them" I replied patting his arm from across the table.
"Hey! We resent that!" they replied simultaneous again; which made me laugh.
"Is that rehearsed?" I asked astonished.
"Is what rehearsed?" they did it again.
"Are you serious right now!? You're all answering at the exact same time with the exact same words! Coincidence I think not!" I uttered.
"Shit I've never noticed that before Kim!" Dean looked amazed. He was waving his finger back and forth; like he was trying to collect his thoughts. "They do! They really fucking do "now he was laughing as well.
"Oh great, now we're a comedy act." said Liam, while rolling his eyes.
"I'm sorry" I replied apologetically; reaching for his arm and giving him a gentle squeeze.
Before I had the chance to pull my hand back, he had already grasped it and was tugging it towards his lip; giving it a soft kiss. "Thank you Kimberly" he said; a sweet smile curving his lips. Warning signals were screaming in my head almost to the point of deafening. I didn't dislike his touch but yet I didn't want it. I was just about to reply when a hand suddenly jerked me back. What the hell?
I turned around and saw Jared standing behind me, a very mad Jared.
"What the hell is your problem dude!?" Liam exclaimed angry.
"Don't touch her!" Jared hissed through clenched teeth.
"What's it to you huh!?"
"She's not yours! You don't get to kiss her asshole!"
"Oh what? She's yours!?"
And that's when I noticed that the cafeteria was completely silent. I looked around and noticed that every pair of eyes in there was directed at us.
"Both of you shut up!" I yelled "What the hell is your problem Jared? Jesus! And Liam calm the fuck down!"
"What are you doing Jared?" I asked him annoyed.
"Nothing" He hissed at me.
"Fine, fuck you very much too then!" I exclaimed angry.
That seemed to make his anger halt. "Kim, Shit. I- I'm sor- "I held up my hand to silence him, grabbed my bag and stormed out of there ignoring the looks I got. It wasn't until I was halfway to the parking lot that I heard a voice yelling at me.
"Kim please wait!" It was Jared, and he was literally running after me.
"Fuck off Jared!" I screamed back at him; flipping him off. He was fast. I hadn't even made it three steps until I felt a hand jolt me backwards.
"Let go off me!" he immediately released me and took a step back.
"What do you want?!" I asked him, trying hard to keep the venom out of my voice.
"I just wanted to apologize, it wasn't right of me to interfere that way."
"That's what you think I'm mad about?! That he didn't get to finish kissing my hand? Really?" I asked astonished.
"If it's not that then what is it?" He looked genuinely confused.
"You embarrassed me in front of everyone! Everyone was looking at us!" I exclaimed.
"So it's not for stopping him kiss your hand further?" he smiled.
"Didn't I already say that?!" i asked annoyed.
"Yeah you did" He was grinning now.
"What the fuck are you smiling about" I asked angry.
He just shrugged and said "Nothing"
"Really?! Go fuck yourself Jared" he was so infuriating. What's with him and the word nothing! To everything I ask he always replies with nothing. I started to walk away again but he grabbed me.
"Woah wait Kim" He said seriously. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry what can I do? I'll do anything"
"Tell me why you interrupted us!" I demanded
He looked sheepish for a second but quickly snapped out of it. "Because I saw that you didn't like him kissing your hand."
"Okay I'll give you that. But did you really have to make a scene?!" I asked; my anger slowly seeping away.
"Yes, because I need to protect you" he replied as quickly as I uttered my sentenced.
"It's not your job to protect me! And he wasn't hurting me" I snapped.
"Oh we're not getting anywhere are we?" He stated as a fact not a question." I said I was sorry and I'm never ever going to do it again"
"I'm still embarrassed" I muttered. He exhaled
"I know I'm really sorry, I let my anger get the best of me I guess" he said silently. "Forgive me?" he asked pleadingly.
I managed a nod, I was still angry and I didn't quite get why he did what he did but he said sorry and my dad had a saying that when it comes to friends it's good to have a little amnesia, forgive and forget. But my dad was an impeccable asshole so I don't know why I'm taking his advice.
He let out a sigh of relief before he enveloped me in his arms, into a crushing hug. I literally had to stand on my tippy toes just to reach his neck. I leaned my head into the crock of his neck and let my body mold into his. His body instantly replied to mines advances by crushing me tighter to him. He mumbles a soft thank you into my hair. After a while I weaseled my way out of his warmth, missing it almost instantly. I punched him in the arm and muttered jerk. He laughed.
"Shit I have to go Kim. Class starts in five minutes." He said apologetically
"It's fine, really I'm heading to biology class either way, walk me there?" I asked
"Sure"
"Thank you. Hey…. Jared, would you do something extremely childish and silly for me?" I stretched out the sentence.
"Depends on what that silly thing is" He said looking laughable suspicious.
"Could you give me a piggy back ride?" I asked giving him the puppy dog look.
"Hop on" He laughed while turning his back to me; blessing me with a fine view of his butt.
I sprinted trying to gain some speed that might make me able to jump on his back which it did. I was now securely fastened around Jared's waist with my legs and my arms hanging loosely down his chest. I started laughing when he started jumping.
"I haven't done this in years" I started laughing again. "Are you sure I'm not too heavy?" I asked worried.
"Trust me you're light as a feather" he replied.
"But that's only because you're arms are the size of coiled mattresses" I teased.
"Oh shut up! Just because you have chicken arms" He teased back.
"You better be nice to me Jared Cameron because my legs are near a very treasured place of yours and it would be ashamed if I "accidentally" kicked you there wouldn't it?"
"Fine, you win but if you kick me I'll drop you, it's a lose/lose situation." He sounded a bit smug. I leaned my head on his shoulder while he was walking. His heartbeat was so vibrant here and the thumping relaxed me and soon enough I fell asleep.
A short Jared's POV:
I love this girl. I utterly madly pathetically love this girl. I love her spark, I love her wit, her kindness, her bravery, her humor, and I even love her teases. Why had I never noticed her before? Someone as bright as her should have shined through the darkness that was my thick skull.
A soft snore broke my train of thought. I turned my head slightly in confusion and was gifted by the most wondrous sight ever; her sleeping on my back. I couldn't stop grinning. She felt safe enough to fall asleep on me, literally on me. She looked so peaceful there, like it was as natural as breathing. And for me it was.
I love everything about this girl, but the most tempting thing about her was her softness. She has soft plump lips made for kisses, creamy smooth skin, soft silky hair that was spilled over my arm. My fingertips itched to touch it, to wrap the silky strands around my fingers but I restrained myself, I didn't want to interrupt her sleep.
Now that she's finally with me I find myself feeling completely at peace for the first time since I turned. These three weeks have been the most confusing time of my life. I've been at war with myself, doubting every decisions I make, second guessing my values and my beliefs but when I saw her It was like every problem that came with my transformation sprouted wings and simply flew away. I'm finally at peace with myself and it's all because of her. And that gives me strength to fight for her; she's my superman not the other way around.
The weekend was excruciating, being so close to her but yet so far away was the worst torture possible. My whole body screamed out for her, my arms itched to envelope her in my arms, my nose longed for her scent. I actually rejoiced when Monday came rolling back. It meant that I could see her maybe even touch her. So imagine my surprise when the first thing I see is another guy kissing her hand. At first when I felt the rage boil up inside me I quelled it down because even though I felt like she belonged to me she wasn't really mine and I had to accept that if she didn't want me that way then that's the way it was. But then I saw the look on her face. She wasn't blushing or even fidgeting. She just looked so incredible uncomfortable and I couldn't handle it and before I knew it I snapped. My inner wolf was clawing, roaring with anger. But the animal got quelled by the hurt expression on my Kim's face when I let the anger go out on her. The remorse hit me so hard that even breathing felt painful and struggled. I knew that I had to go after her, to redeem myself in some way.
When she told me that it wasn't the interruption she was pissed about but rather the scene I caused, unimaginable joy cursed through my body leaving me filled with hope.
Every second, every minute makes my love for her grow bigger and more demanding but when I noticed how easy we could switch back into our comedy duo, that's when I realized that there was no possible way for me not to love her, even without me changing, even if I would have stayed human. I knew that no matter how long I took I would eventually fall in love with her. It was impossible not to love her.
I know now with certainty that as long as I draw breath that I will fight for her, I will bleed for her, and I will do everything in my power to make her as happy as possible. Though she may never be mine, I will always be hers; completely for as long as she wants me and even more so.
I love love love Jared! Don't you!? Who wouldn't want a sexy wolf boy that would do anything for you, I know I would! ;)
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