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Previously on 'Change'
"STOP!" I yelled. "STOP IT! Why are you even back? Why are you even nice to me!? I tried to forget you! I tried to ease my pain these last 5 years! But why? Why Naru? Do you really enjoy seeing me in pain? I hate you! I hate you!" I punched him on the chest, I kicked his legs, I swear, I was more brutal than a kangaroo.
Then suddenly, Naru pulled me into a tight hug.
"Mai…" I heard him say, his voice, it was soft yet painful.
I tried to free myself from his grip, from his hug. "Go away! Don't touch me!" I screamed once more. Why is he being like this? I could feel my heart ache.
I tried to pull away again and our eyes met. Those eyes, those indigo colored eyes that I loved.
"Mai, please just hear me out." He pleaded; I could see from his eyes that it was filled with pain. But who cares? I don't love him anymore, and neither did he love me from the beginning. But why does my heart ache by the thought of him not loving me? Am I still in love with him?
I looked away, avoiding his gaze. I don't want to love him anymore, I moved on. Or at least tried to move on. I tried to pull away once more, hoping I would be free from his strong embrace. But my hope betrayed me, rather than losing his embrace he tighten it, I could feel him loosing his patience.
"Idiot! Stay still! Why wont you just hear me out!?" he snapped back, I could hear anger from his voice.
That's it.
"Why should I hear your excuses!? You think that your excuses would persuade me!? Do you even realize what you did!? You always called me idiot and all those hurtful things, do you know how painful those words are? Considering the fact that it came out from the person I loved? I didn't know you were this insensitive Naru!" I started screaming again, tears pouring endlessly from my eyes.
"And did you know how painful your rejection was!? How dare you asked me whether I loved you or your dead brother!? How could you! Do you know how those painful words wounded me? It made my life a mess!" I continued. I was covering my face with my palms, crying frantically, pouring the tears I kept for five whole years.
He stared at me, dumbfounded.
Naru's POV
I am now seeing her crying frantically, what should I do? Why did I even snapped at her? Damn, I'm an idiot when it comes to dealing with girls. But, those words she just said to me, was it true? Did I hurt her that much? Did I… break her heart into pieces? Did she have a mental break down? Did she keep her tears all along? Did my words smash her? Did I… turn her life into a mess?
"Leave…" she continued, her voice was shaking.
I untangled her from my embrace and stood up, I walked towards the door and without saying another word, I left her apartment.
Still in Naru's POV
As I parked my car at the basement, I took the elevator to my condo. My condo is located not far from the SPR office, it has a simple design and everything was decorated in dark colors. When I opened the door, I was greeted by an awfully cheery voice.
"You're back Noll!" I heard Madoka's say, I wasn't in the mood for this. As I shot her a glare I saw Lin shooting me a glare. Hmph, lovebirds.
"From the reaction you just gave me, it seems it didn't turned out good eh?" Madoka asked, as she sat down at one of the couches.
"She hates me now" I spitted.
"She doesn't Noll, and you know it" Madoka ensured me.
"… I don't know Madoka… I don't know" I spoke desperately. I know what I did was disappointing. I broke her heart.
"Now, Noll, what happened?" Madoka asked me softly
"She, said it herself, that she hates me. And she has a reason to hate me. I freakin left her." I said. I looked down to the floor, as if there is something interested pasted on the floor. Madoka stood and soon placed her hand on my shoulder. I looked up to her and she spoke up.
"Noll, I think what she needs is time, I mean, after what you did, you can't expect her to hear you out and work with you again, let us just give her time to think and to calm down. Besides, we still have time until the case right?" Madoka smiled warmly.
I stayed silent, trying to digest her words to my brain, "Yeah Madoka, I think you're right."
Madoka smiled as she sat down again, and began to gulp her tea. "Madoka" I started, "Yes Noll?" she asked, still enjoying her tea.
"Is it too late if… I tell her that I… love her?" I ask hesitantly. Soon, I heard Madoka chocking her tea and Lin comforted her. "What is the matter?" I asked, partly annoyed.
"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL HER SOONER!?" she yelled.
"….."
"NOLL?" she asked inspecting me, before I could answer, Lin interrupted me.
"Because our dear Noll realized his feelings after he rejected her, Madoka." Lin said as I shot him a glare. Before Madoka could say something I rushed to my room and locked myself in.
For the rest of the night, I couldn't help but think of Mai.
Mai's POV
How long had it been since Naru came? How long had it been since I last ate? Bath? Drank? Slept? I laughed pitifully at myself, how did I become so attached to him? Since when was my life depending on him? Since when did I fall this hard for him? I feel so pathetic. I thought I've moved on, but I was wrong eh? After five whole years my feelings were still chained to him.
I found myself lying on a cold floor, not moving an inch from where I was after Naru left. My body felt weak. As I tried to sit up, I failed. My body won't work well, it won't move like how I want it to move… I felt nausea and began to feel dizzy, am I going to die? I felt so pathetic and started to pity myself. What the heck is wrong with me? Why am I so… glued to him?
My consciousness began to fade, before drowning into complete darkness I saw a man in black shouting my name.
Naru POV
Now I am here again. A week had passed since I last saw her, and just like the advice Madoka gave, I gave Mai a 'time'.
"Aren't you going to knock the door Noll?" Lin asked, snapping me to reality, which annoyed me.
"I was going to before you decided to speak up, Lin." I sighed, "Why are you here anyway?" I asked him in annoyance.
"I am here because Madoka asked me to, she told me to look after you" he replied calmly.
Shaking my head in irritation, I opened the door, as I expected, she didn't lock the door. Typical Mai.
I entered her apartment and looked around. Suddenly, my eyes landed on the unconscious body lying on the floor. The body was so small and tiny, her long brown hair tossed messily on her, covering her face.
"MAI!" I kneel down next to where her body is slumped. She had a pulse, but faint, all of a sudden panic struck me. Damn it! What happened to her? I carried her carefully, as if she is going to break if I hold her too tightly.
"LIN! Call an ambulance! Now!"
Mai POV
I opened my eyes just to see an old traditional Japanese room. This room. I know this room; I've seen it somewhere… but where? I was deep in my thought until a realization struck me. This room! That dream I had! It still looked the same but the wood seems much more older.
"I… can't forgive…" I heard a voice coming from my back. The voice was cold and painful. I turned around to see a figure of a woman sitting on the floor, this woman…. It's the woman from my previous dream! Her name…. Sumire was it? She was still wearing the same kimono I saw her wearing before but it looked dirtier and older, moreover, her clothes were covered in blood. She slowly turned to look at me.
Fear struck me that second, her face… it was distorted… her nose seems to broke causing her face to look flat… I could see blood dripping from her face, what dominated her face was her eyes, round bloodshed eyes looking coldly at me.
"I… can't… FORGIVE!" She yelled before turning into a mist.
I opened my eyes brutally and panting hardly, what a dream… I began to looked around and only finding white walls and ceilings… since when was my room white? I began to scan around the room, then my eyes landed to a black figure sitting next to my bed. He was reading a file.
Normal POV
Naru heard a sound coming from Mai's bed and he decided to look up, unexpectedly, his eyes met a pair of gorgeous brown eyes staring at him. Without another word, he stood up and sat next to her.
"Mai? Are you okay? How are you feeling?" he asked, but was only to be replied by Mai looking to the other side, avoiding his gaze. It hurt Naru to know that she hasn't forgiven him yet, but what can he expect? What he did was unforgiveable.
"What happened?" he heard Mai, oh how happy he was hearing her voice, he literally felt flowers blooming in his heart.
"You didn't sleep enough for a week, you haven't ate or drank anything for nearly a week." He said as Mai looked at him. "You suffered exhaustion and dehydration."
Mai nod at his words, at began to look at the other direction again. He slowly and bravely, placed his hand on her cheek. As he gently caress her cheeks, he said
"I nearly had a heart attack when I saw you slumped."
"And who's fault do you think it is?"
Naru took his hand away from Mai's face as he placed his hands on the bed, locking her.
"Mai, I would appreciate if you would stop making me as an excuse to death." He said, his eyes fixing hardly to Mai's eyes.
"Well, if I die, wouldn't you be happy? Since if I die, I could be with Gene, who you insisted that I was in love with." She spitted.
Naru's gaze tighten, he was furious now.
"Happy? You seriously think that I would be happy, Mai?" His voice was dangerously low. Before Mai could open her mouth to argue, Naru interrupt her,
"You think I would be happy to loose someone precious to me!? I can't even describe my own feelings when I lost Gene! And I can't stand loosing someone I love anymore!" He yelled.
Mai stared at him dumbfounded, not believing what he said, he… Oliver… Naru…. Wha… Naru… loves me?
SO THERE YOU GO :D CHAPTER 3! I AM WORKING ON CHAPTER 4 NOW :D
I AM SO SORRY FOR THE VERY LATE UPDATE, I WAS CHASED BY SCHOOL WORKS AND PRESENTATION AND STUFF :S FORGIVE ME! D:
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