To Close to Breathe
Well this has been a wonderful afternoon so far, I don't know what's more amusing watching Gabrielle go slightly mad or being thrown in to a well by an Israelite boy and his thug friends. Yes I could have thought of about a hundred things better to do than holding on to this rope after being thrown down the well. I find myself hearing the scream above and I know its Gabrielle's she suddenly flying past me the terror in her eyes. I don't think as a grab her hand stopping her from falling in mid flight. She breathes in as if trying to get over the shock ether from the drugs in her system or from the fall I'm not really sure which. I hear the sounds as the men leave above I look down realizing that I need to bring Gabrielle close to me. Oh why, oh why didn't I send her home? She's just a child she's not ready for this life. Ah yes I didn't send her home because as much as I find it hard to admit to myself she's my only friend and the first person to like my company.
I don't even like my own company but she just smiles at everything I say, I hated that at first and then I started to like it. She looks down and I hear the fear in her voice. "That's a long way down." I hold her hand tighter speaking as calmly as possible. "Just don't let go of my hand." She grips tighter holding on for dear life. I look down again okay this going to be awkward and I'm not sure I'm ready to do this. Oh to Tartarus with it! I pull her as close as possible. "Okay I need you to listen to me." She nods. "I need you to climb up my body." I pull her even closer seeing the uncertainty in her eyes I don't blame her for thinking this, we are friends but we don't get in to each others personal space. Well not this close at least oh gods why me? I get her even closer. "Go ahead, climb up my body." She moves grabbing my inner thigh damn it her hands are cold. I feel her start to crawl up even more. It's been ages since I've had a young woman climb up this body but that was because we were having. Don't think about it Xena!
She's a child! She's pure, kind and innocent and you shouldn't ever touch her as long as you live! She finally wraps around me fully her small voice hitting the air. "All right." There's a long pause. "Okay now what?" I breath in trying to stop the feeling that's spreading I must be out of my mind I'm enjoying this for all the wrong reasons. I grab the rope. "Now for the fun part." Like the climbing up is even fun the fact that she wrapped around me that's fun. Gods this is torture, she probably doesn't have any idea how hard this is for me. I've slept with young men and women her age in my warlord days for kicks now I'm going out of mind because this brings back that enjoyable feeling. I carry on moving upwards why am I telling myself this? She's too young to understand anyway she's had very few sexual experiences I doubt she even knows what the term sapphist means. She looks up her green eyes shining in the partial darkness speaking slowly. "Xena, ah, how could you this? Did I hurt you?"
I want laugh she thinks she did something to me, as if she could ever hurt me she's far to kind. My voice hit the air. "No, no loving every moment of it." That's actuality true although my voice makes it sound like I'm annoyed, she looks down. "How did we get in here anyway? And why does my head feel like it was kicked by a centaur?" I really swish she'd stop squirming its far too nice. "Does it? Good the henbane must be wearing off." She looks up the shock in her eyes. "Henbane!?" No she doesn't know what it is, or that it makes you tell your friend that there beautiful. I breathe in ignoring the pain in my hands as we carry on upward. "Long story." She looks down. "Yeah well if we fall tell it to me on the way down." I carry on moving trying to endure this slow torture only to hear the cracking above. Her frightened voice hits the air. "Xena?"
She squeezes tighter as everything jolts then goes still and I carry on the slow accent upwards she looks up her face slightly pale. "My stomach doesn't feel so good." Great she wants to throw up all over me. "Don't even think about it we are almost there." I feel bad I would have let her throw up on me in truth drugs can make you feel ill. All my thoughts are cut off as the pillar breaks and I find myself clutching the stone sides of the well. In fright she's shoved her knee right between my legs. Gods I hate myself right now trust me to have sexual thoughts about a young girl. I don't think as I grab on to the well heaving myself up in to the light. I grab her pulling her up only to feel her struggle all over me to get out. I breathe in gods I can't take this anymore, I watch as she tumbles to earth on the other side. Gods why me?
Set during Altered States well scene.
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