This Sad Stretching Darkness
It's a dark night you can see stars in the night sky sadly though the night air isn't fresh. You can smell the smoke from the battlefield even from this distance. I wanted us to camp somewhere far away from it, but I feel that's there no escaping it. I can see her sitting there staring in to fire which is causing her forest green eyes to flicker with lighter green hues. She saw far too much blood today and far too much suffering on the battlefield. The battlefield is a cruel place and I keep telling myself that I shouldn't have put her in charge I knew that she was capable of leading them but I don't think she was ready for the suffering she would see. I shouldn't have forced her in to it I should have led the army. That's not right though is it? She's so capable and brave she can do anything that I can to take it away from her would be make her feel that she's not good enough and I know she is. I know this day is going to haunt her I can see her thinking it over the death of Phlanagus playing over and over again in her head. She did what was right but I think in her eyes she sees it as a failure.
I stand up slowly walking over to her sitting myself down next to her watching as she looks up slightly coming out of her thoughts. I ease a hand up gently running it through her long golden hair watching as it spills through my fingers. "Hey." Gabrielle looked up slightly meeting the light blue eyes of her lover who was smiling down at her. "Hey." She eased up her hand running it through her lover's dark hair enjoying the feel. "How's your arm?" Xena turned looking at the bandage. "It's fine." She breathed in deeply as she put her arm around the younger woman. "How are you holding up?" Gabrielle looked at her hands. "I'm okay." She looked at her fingers again feeling the sting as the painfully emotions started to burn in her chest. "I just wish, I could have saved him." Xena pulled the smaller woman closer. "You did what was right Gabrielle." Gabrielle breathed in feeling the string of her tears as they began to run down her face as she lost control and the pain took over. "Then why does it hurt so much?" Xena eased her arms tighter around the younger woman's face feeling her as she cried in to her shoulder.
She knew that what she was going to do next was wrong but she just wanted to take away the other woman's pain in the only way she knew how. She leaned over gently kissing her lips she could feel the pain in her response and kissed her more deeply wanting so much to take away her suffering. She wished she could take away all the hurt and pain the other woman was suffering in the same way that the gods created wonders with no more than a hand movement. She couldn't do that though she was only human and she could only give her the one thing had which was her love. She knew this wound wouldn't heal in day and all she could do was guide her through it. She felt the kiss intensify and all she could do was give in to it. She loved her, she would do anything for her she pulled away hearing the words echo through my lips as she spoke them. "I love you Gabrielle." She felt the other woman tighten her grip as she held her in the darkness of the night rubbing her back and hearing her tears as the finally come to an end as the other woman's strength returned. She heard her soft words hit the air speaking softy to her soul. "I love you to Xena." She moved hands through her hair hoping that she could help her through this and rid her off all her pain.
Silvermoonlight
Set after A good Day