"You have to tell them." Jamie looked at him, she had a sarcastic reply rolling around her head but she didn't say anything, she just looked at the PADD in her lap. The Enterprise left earth as one of a group of ships to help Vulcan; there was the USS Antares, the USS Armstrong, the USS Farragut, the USS Hood, the USS Newton, the USS Odyssey, the USS Truman, and the USS Wolcott. The USS Mayflower was already near Vulcan when the call came for assistance and was in pieces when they got there. Aside from the groups of people they managed to beam over from various ships, there was a long list of casualties. Jamie didn't want to know but she had to look at it and now she was wishing that she hadn't. There were people on the list that she knew; people she served with or went to class with. Some she liked, others that she didn't but the ones that bothered her most were the names of her family members. She handed the PADD to her fiancé and watched the life drain from his face. Yeah, that's the look she was expecting.

NT289-0927NYK CAPTAIN Andrade-Moore, Sam.
Commanding Officer, USS Wolcott- KIA

TK837-9245NHV LIEUTENANT Braxim.
Tactical, USS Farragut- KIA

NE826-8265AKH LIEUTENANT (JG) Carney, Aaron Daniel.
Astrophysics, USS Odyssey- MISSING, presumed KIA

IR725-9475NEG ENSIGN Jackson, Arthur.
Engineering, USS Hood- KIA

NS236-7357HGS LIEUTENANT Kelso, Lee.
Navigation, USS Farragut- KIA

KH726-6529KHB ENSIGN Luther, Nadja.
Navigation, USS Wolcott- KIA

PW334-7444TVB LIEUTENANT COMMANDER Mitchell, Gary.
Helm, USS Farragut- KIA

VU783-2971VTY CHIEF PETTY OFFICER Olson, Allan James.
Engineering, USS Enterprise- KIA

BI976-1863HBV LIEUTENANT D'Sab S'Pisj Panak.
Biology, USS Truman- MISSING, presumed KIA

TC237-1139BUA COMMANDER Pell, Taylor.
Executive Officer and Tactical Officer, USS Armstrong- KIA

MP843-5937HUT COMMANDER Puri, Vala. M.D., PhD.
Chief Medical Officer, USS Enterprise- KIA

OB729-2869BTD LIEUTENANT Raynor, James Andrew.
Engineering, USS Armstrong- MISSING, presumed KIA

OC286-8865NTT ENSIGN Riley, Kevin Thomas.
Navigation, USS Hood- KIA

BU732-1970BVF LIEUTENANT Simmons, Samuel Edward.
Medical (Medic), USS Newton- KIA

BF837-2689NBE LIEUTENANT (JG) Thanas, Val'as.
Engineering, USS Hood- MISSING, presumed KIA

LN379-1001NYU COMMANDER Tomlin, Trevor.
Executive Officer, USS Odyssey- KIA

JE976-8019ABY COMMANDER Yin, Li.
Chief Science Officer, USS Newton- KIA

"What am I gonna say? What could I possibly say to make this better? And it's not just Gaila it's all of them. It's..." Bones walked around the desk in 'his' office and pulled her into his arms as the tears started to fall.

"It's that they're family and you don't know how to tell the others that part of our family is gone," he whispered. She nodded into his chest. Damn, Nero. If she could kill that crazy Romulan again, she would. "It's not your fault, Jim. Nero's just lucky you already killed him."

Jamie laughed, "I was thinking that." She looked up at him, Bones wiped the tears from her face.

"You know, Kev would tell you to stuck it up. I bet you taught him that," he said. Jamie nodded, she did.

"Don't cry, let me see, sweetie." The little boy held up his arm, it was broken. It wasn't a bad break, well, it wouldn't have been if they were in a normal medical situation. "Look at me, Kev. This hurts, I know it does but right now I need you to be strong. Can I see your muscles." The boy held up his good arm, "Look at that, I think you're stronger than me. I'm going to wrap this up really good. Now, I know it hurts but you can't cry about it all day, you don't have enough energy. You gotta show the other kids that you can be just as tough as they are. Can you do that?" He nodded as Jamie wrapped his arm. "I promise that I won't let him get away with this, Kevin. Even if it's the last thing I do."

Jamie was still in Bones' arms as he comm'ed Uhura and told her to grab the senior staff and Gaila. He sighed, "Come on. We need to do this before someone else tells them." Jamie nodded.

"Sit down, guys," she told everybody after the were all in the captain's ready room. Jamie didn't say anything for a moment.

"Who?" Uhura asked. The group looked at her.

"The list is really long," Jamie whispered. They all nodded and Sulu spoke.

"Give us the short version," the helmsman said.

"First things first, Hikaru, your sister Yuki is okay. She's on a Vulcan ship. Same goes Sybok." Spock's brother. She looked at the half Vulcan who nodded his relief. She took a breath, "We lost Brax, Lee, Kev and… Gary." Jamie looked at her green friend, she didn't know what to do, she didn't even realize that she was crying until Uhura reached over from her spot between the Orion and the Acting Captain and took Jamie's hand. Jamie didn't know what to do, "Gaila… I'm so…"

"Don't, don't… this wasn't your fault. You saved his family and everyone else on earth; we both know that he'd be okay with that. It sucks and it hurts but Gary would kick both our asses if we started blaming ourselves." Jamie laughed, that sounded like her friend.

"True," she whispered.

"Is it true what they say about you?" a voice asked from behind her. She rolled her eyes, "Don't know, what do they say?" Jamie looked at the handsome cadet. He smiled at her, "That you're only here because of your father." She shrugged, "I had a father? Huh? I never met the man." He laughed, "I guess you're sick of that. I'm sorry, I couldn't resist, I promise to never bring it up again. Gary Mitchell." He held out his hand, "Jamie Kirk, but you knew that." Jamie reached over and shook his hand, he held onto it for a second. "How about you let me make it up to you?" he offered. She smirked, "Whatcha have in mind?" He shrugged, "Well, I was thinking…" Jamie laughed, "You were thinking, wow, that must've hurt your brain." Gary looked at her with mock hurt on his face, "Ouch. I think I might like you, Kirk." Jamie looked at him and responded with sarcasm, "Finally, my life is complete."

Jamie tried to shake the memory from her brain but it didn't work, it seemed to be her penance for surviving something else that she shouldn't have. Her friends must have been reading her face because they spoke up. "Don't do that to yourself, Jamie," Sulu said as he stood next to her.

Scotty nodded, "The memories aren't punishment, lass." She nodded at him as Hawkins called them from the bridge, they were nearing Starbase Seven.

When they docked, Jamie learned that nobody planned to stay on the Starbase. To Jamie's utter amazement, everyone on the Enterprise decided to stay with the ship until they got back to earth, even all the Vulcans. They were still cramped for space but none of them seemed to mind. The ship's warp core was given a quick fix and prepped to head home.

Warping back to Sol brought relief like none other. Everyone on the bridge -including Bones and Scotty- watched as earth filled the viewscreen and listened as communications from Starbase One filled the speakers.

"You got us home, darlin'," Bones whispered from next to her. She looked at their world... their home and smiled, she never thought she'd miss Earth that much. Jamie looked around the room as they pulled in to the dock.

"Well, I guess this is it. I just want to say that despite everything that happened in the last thirty-six hours, it has been an honor to serve with each of you."

One of the officers behind her stepped forward, "Captain Kirk, I speak for everyone on this ship when I say that the honor is ours, ma'am."

AN: Everyone on the list is in the story somewhere. That isn't the whole thing, just Jamie and co. pulling familiar names out. If I tried to make the whole list, I'd be here for a loooooong time.