As Golden Sands Stream Through My Bloody Fingers
She angers me she annoys me every time I look at her I want to hit her and I do and she gives me that look that could melt ice. It burns out from her forest green eyes. It's all encompassing and at the same time frightening because of how dark it is and how powerful it seems. It's not fair why does she love Xena? She should love me? I could give her the world, I have the world I'm a rich noble with everything imaginable money, success and a villa. I've wanting her so badly I've been followed her for years. I read her scrolls watched her from afar always seated on the back row when she did her speeches in taverns and theatres. Every time though I've had to watch Xena touch her then watch her hold her the dirty sapphist! She so unclean so undeserving, she has nothing to offer her she's a penny less vagabond. How can Gabrielle stand her? She'd killed innocent people burnt down villages, no doubt forced men and women to sleep with her.
I couldn't stand it any more I watched the Warrior Princess kiss Gabrielle it was such a slow powerful kiss full of passion and desire as she touched her body gently and slowly only making this beautiful young woman respond all the more. I could give this beautiful blonde woman that I could shower her with all my love lust and desire. I guess at that moment I finally I lost it I couldn't' help it anymore I had to have this beautiful blonde woman. As soon as she walked away to go to the tavern I sent my men after her and they trapped her like a dove in a cage. I didn't mean for them to knock her out but it was for the best all doves must know what it is to be held. I look at her now standing in front of me inside the cell tried up by the two wooden pillars looking so defiant despite my punishment The ropes are bound tight keeping her standing up tall so I can look her body with its long beautiful blonde hair and ripple of muscle all of which I can see as she tenses ignoring the pain.
She wants to love me she needs me she just doesn't realize it yet. I watch as a small trickle of blood runs down her chin from her mouth from my blow. I don't want to hurt her but it's for her own good sometimes doves must lean to love their keepers. I move my finger using it to take the blood of her face with my finger I bring to my mouth tasting it. It's sweet like wine I want to cry I want to smile but I stop myself instead I move my hand up running it through her hair which reminds me of golden sands in the morning sun. It spills through my fingers I lean forward wanting to kiss her and no longer being in control of myself. I have to kiss her I need her so much that it hurts. The next moment suddenly turn to agony before my lips meet hers. I see the blood as it starts to soak my toga I feel my heart burning in pain as the blade comes right though between my breasts. I feel the ice cold and hear my own scream echo through the small musky room. I turn seeing that feral sneer and those ice blue eyes looking back at me in disgust.
I can smell the leather and see the damp dark black hair as she towers behind me the hatred as clear as day in her eyes. She's seen me causing her lover pain, she's seen me try to take what's hers and all mercy has left her eyes. I'm dead I know it the instant that I hit the floor hard on my knees her sword hasn't moved its still poking through from chest she hasn't bothered to remove it. She leaves it there as she moves past me no longer caring that I'm there because she knows I will be dead soon, her blow is a killer one and she knows it. She pulls her dagger free from her boot cutting the ropes causing Gabrielle to fall down on to her knees. It's too late for me, I hit the floor on my side as my red blood pours out soaking the floor in the dimly lit room.
I see Xena hold her as she opens her green eyes looking up with joy and pleasure in her face as she sees the taller woman. The Warrior Princess meets her lips in a sharing kiss as she holds her to her no longer caring that I'm even there. I reach out seeing their kiss and the tear as it runs down the warrior woman's face. I can't help but reach out my hand to Gabrielle wanting to touch the golden sands of the most beautiful shore the shore that I will never be able to touch or feel. I realize in this moment as everything turns to darkness as death takes me on swift wings that there are something's that can never be and that these golden sands are running through my bloody fingers disappearing in to the twilight.
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