Wildness Of My Heart
Its dark so dark I can see the stars burning in the sky filling the sky with wonder I'm sure if it's due to cold I feel in my heart it's been a long time since my sister fled these woods I still hate her even now even though its been so long I guess the scar in my side has left a mark which feels like a burden. I watch as Xena plays with her wolf brothers close by its very rough play but I have confess I admire her skill, these wolves are stronger than men yet she can outsmart and out manure them with pure skill. She can avoid the claws and teeth and still bring them to their knees, I confess I am happy now in her company but I still have dark days, I wish I could just forget but I can't I guess the fall from the waterfall hurt more than just my body. I still have nightmares about the fall and the dagger being trust in to my side sometimes. I know one day I will have revenge for this but not right now, right now I'm just happy being here, here I matter here I'm with Xena and I feel so free. I enjoy our moments I enjoy our kisses and I enjoy the freedom of these woods where I am safe and protected by her wolf family.
Gabrielle looked up watching as Xena landed in front of her causing her to jump in surprise almost causing her to drop the scroll she was working on a wide child like grin was on her face as she leaned forward. "What are you doing?" Gabrielle eyed the scroll in her hand. "Its nothing I was just writing down my thoughts." Xena eyed the scroll in her hand she knew the word but she always found it hard to voice. "Journal?" Gabrielle rolled the scroll up putting it to one side. "Yes just that." Xena felt her smile fade as she leaned over taking the other woman's hand in her own she brought it up to her face kissing it gently. "Are you alright, you've been quite all day?" Gabrielle breathed in sadly. "Just thinking about my sister that's all, I still wonder why Xena, why did she do this to me?" Xena looked up she knew the younger woman had, had a nightmare last night she had held her close until it had passed she kept hold of hand rubbing her finger with her thumb gently. "You shouldn't dwell on it she was a bad human and not like you, your kind."
Gabrielle felt a sad smile form her lover ever the kind and thoughtful in her words. "It's just hard Xena, we grew up together we loved each other as children, I never knew she was that way that she liked to kill and enjoyed it I wonder when it happened when she changed when she found out she liked drawing blood." Xena raised an eyebrow. "Maybe she was always bad Kaia told me some human's just have dark hearts." She paused leaning closer to the younger woman. "There's nothing you can do to change it Gabrielle and you're not at fault." Gabrielle eased up her hand running it through her lover's long dark hair. "You're always so kind." Xena shifted a little closer putting a hand on her white robes sleeves caressing very gently. "You know you're not like her Gabrielle you never could be." Gabrielle breathed in sharply she felt like her lover had just read her thoughts it was something she had a habit of doing now and again. "I just think that if she's bad maybe I could be just as bad that's all."
Xena pulled the other woman gently in to her lap. "No Gabrielle you could never be like her, so don't think you are, your good and kind." She moved forward gently kissing her lips enjoying the soft feel as the kiss turned more passionate. She moved her hands over her robes enjoying the feel of her body eve under the robe as she felt the twinge of desire take over. She had found this so hard to deal with in the early days but now she felt so in control of it in this woman's presence. She pulled away taking in a deep breath as the hands moved through her hair. "Let's go to the den, its quilt." Gabrielle smiled as she tried to control the intense fire which was burning deep in her soul it seemed so easy for Xena to nudge it at times and she felt as though she wasn't in control yet she didn't care and she wouldn't say no, she looked up meeting the other woman's intense light blue gaze as she kissed her again with even more passion half murmuring through the kiss. "Please take me there."
Silvermoonlight
Gift for Bex.