Janet, Rachelle, Elizabeth, Dr strange and the still cuffed Lupe were floating through Janet's mind slowly making their way to the next memory. Rachelle and Elizabeth were still laughing about the last memory Janet was just glad they would not be the ones she needed to rely on next. "We are getting..." Janet once again vanished in a flash of white light that soon engulfed the other four.

They were in a hospital room Janet was in the bed a blanket across her lap her body hooked up to a few machines as she sat up slightly finally awake after a few days. Beside her was Hank Pym holding her hand in his he had not left her side since she was out of her surgery. She had been shot in a fight with Count Nefaria and was now slowly recovering from a collapsed lung. Janet gave a gentle smile to him, "How long have you been here Hank?"

Hank smiled at her, "As long as I needed to be."

"For a scientist you never give me good answers to my questions."

"Science is a vague thing it keeps changing and so do the answers it is never possible to give a direct answer to anything because we keep finding out new things. Just like how I discovered this new chemical compound last week I thought..."

Janet stopped him, "I am not in the mood for another one of your science talks." She winced as she looked down at her side, "What happened?"

"You were shot Janet and almost died of a collapsed lung, we are lucky you are alive." He squeezed her hand as he spoke unsure how to comfort her at the moment.

"Am I going to have a scar?"

Hank chuckled a bit, "A small one but I am sure we can find a way to get rid of it."

Janet smiled and laid back on her bed with a sigh, "You know Hank I have been thinking I am not sure I am cut out to be a hero."

Hank looked at her a bit shocked she was the one who pushed him to do this kept him wanting to continue, "What do you mean Janet?"

"Well I do not think it is right for me to be one I mean I did defeat my father's killer and we defeat a lot of bad guys. We even created the avengers but you know the entire time I was to scared to act I felt sick to my stomach I mean I love doing this I love helping people and saving the world. God what am I trying to say...I just don't think I can do this anymore I mean what if I really die. What if you die? I don't think I can fight any more just thinking about it makes me want to throw up." She began to cry into her hands.

Hank put his arm around Janet pulling her to him so she could cry into his shoulder, "I know Janet it is scary seeing you get shot was the worst thing I ever saw..."

Rachelle smiled, "They really were in love weren't they?"

Dr. Strange nodded, "It is hard to imagine sometimes that they were like this."

Hank was still speaking, "You know we do not have to quite Janet I have been thinking we could take a leave of absence. You can focus on your fathers company getting it back in order and I can work in my lab again. We won't be quitting we will just be taking a break I am sure the other will understand if we do."

Janet was still crying but she nodded softly, "Okay..if you think that is for the best." She lifted her head up to kiss Hank on the cheek.

Dr. Strange ran up to hank his hand glowing blue, "By the vapors of Valtorr I command this hold to be gone!"

Hank burst into blue flames Janet screamed as she saw this, "What are you doing to Hank!" A second later Hank vanished and the memory was gone leaving behind a more yellow void and a foot tall Janet. "I hate this once I enter a memory I become me like I am living that moment."

Lupe pulled on his hand cuffs a bit, "Yes it must be hard especially when we have to keep doing things that seem so cruel."

Janet glared at him flying towards him and punching him across the face, "You knew it was going to be like this and you didn't warn any of us did you!"

Lupe chuckled, "I had a few ideas what it would be like but I am sure you can handle this."

Janet turned her back and began to fly through the dark yellow void, "The next one is close." Janet vanished once more into a flash of white light as a new memory appeared before them.

Hank Pym was in his Yellow Jacket costume bright yellow and black his back was turned to Janet. Janet was in a white nightdress lace work around the short bottom and across the neck line and shoulders. They were in Hanks lab which was also part of their house they had been married for a while now and it did not seem to be going well. Hank spoke in a loud annoyed voice, "Oh I'll give it chance...but when it goes badly I'll summon SAL with this remote activator...discreetly of course! He'll attack all of us...including me! And he'll be winning beating us! Then at just the right moment I' blast his weak spot, and..."

Janet spoke in soft voice concerned for him, "Hank! Hank, no! You can't go through with this! Hank, listen to me! Please! I...I can't let you..."

With a hard hit to Janet's face Hank yelled in pure rage, "Shut up! I've got to do this! I've got to save the day right before their eyes! Don't you see? It's my only chance to redeem myself! It's the only way!" Hank turned to leave walking to the door way not even looking back at Janet who was crying on the floor."You've got to understand! I can't let them drum me out of the avengers! I can't! It is all I have left!" Hank did not stop to think for a second that he also had his wife Janet and her love for him. "Since you had to go and stick your nose into my business, you're in this with me now Jan! I'll keep it simple for you! All you've got to do is play along and keep your mouth shut! Got that!"

Janet was laying on the floor her arm covering her blackened eye, "Yes...Hank..."

Hank opened the door of his lab, "good! Let's get a move on, we're going to be late!"

Rachelle moved forward and angered looked on her face as she punched hank in the back of the head her fist driving into his skull. She then ripped her hand out Hank falling face first into the floor as Rachelle held a red light in her hand which she quickly crushed. "That felt so good."

The memory vanished in a red light yet Janet was still lying on the ground slightly larger than before but crying hard she had just lived through one of the worst moments in her life. "None of you talk about this or anything else you see in here!" She stood up and steeled herself she knew what was coming next it was the only memory she feared more than this one. She took off and seconds later she vanished in a white light wondering why it had to be this one.

Janet was sitting in a doctor's office she had her hands on her stomach she had been experiencing abdominal pain for the last two days she also had a fever and back pain. She was used to feeling sick now I mean she had been pregnant now for about 8 weeks. It was only a week ago that she could stop putting make up on her eye to hide the black eye Hank had given her. But the pain and fever did not bother Janet much it was the bleeding she had that morning that scared her it horrified her and now she was sitting there waiting for her doctor to come back with the test results.

The door slowly opened and a young black haired female doctor walked in slowly holding a file. "Janet I have bad news for you."

"No...no...I can't...I can't have."

"Yes Janet you did you had a miscarriage."

Janet put her face in her hands crying hard as she could soon feeling the doctor wrapping her arms around Janet. Janet pushed her face into the woman chest as she cried hard harder then she had ever done in her life. Janet and the doctor stayed like this for another 15 minutes.

Rachelle and Elizabeth were standing outside the memory in shock neither of them had heard of this or even heard rumors. They both looked at Dr. Strange wondering if her knew and he simply shook his head he had heard nothing from hank or any other avenger he knew of Janet's pregnancy scare but that was years from now when she was with Hawkeye.

The doctor stroked Janet's hair, "last time we talked you said you were keeping this a secret does anybody know?"

Janet was sobbing, "No nobody knows I am...I was pregnant."

The doctor nodded, "Not even Hank?"

"We have been kind of not talking I was going to tell him but things came up and I couldn't" She slowly pulled away Janet's make up running down her face her eyes bright red, "Was there anything I could have done?"

The doctor shook her head, "No there wasn't I believe it had to do with chromosomal abnormalities in the baby there was nothing you could do. It has nothing to do with you or Hank at all, my tests showed that your uterus is empty so there is nothing more we need to do medically."

Janet nodded and slowly began to wipe her tears away still sniffling she needed to be strong again needed to keep this hidden from the world, "I want all records destroyed."

The doctor shook her head, "I can't do that Janet it is part of your medical history we it is important in case you try to have a child in the future."

Janet voice shook, "You do not understand this cannot get out at all...if you destroy the files I will fund that medical trailer you are trying to get running. I will make it so you do not need money for 15 years."

The doctor looked at the files in her hand and then at Janet before she nodded, "Okay I will do it but I will keep these until I get the contract from you promising the funds."

Janet nodded as she slowly stood up, "Fine then you will have it by tomorrow."

The doctor smiled, "I wish we were doing this on better conditions."

"So do I...now may I have a few moments alone!"

"Of course Janet take all the time you need," The doctor turned to leave as Janet burst into tears again the doctor thanking god she had the rooms sound proofed.

Dr. Strange moved so he was at the door waiting for it to open once it did the doctor stopped in fear. Dr strange reached his hand out and in a shaky voice, "Illusions of Ikonn - reveal the truth to your master! Unveil the lies I see before me! Reveal what I've come here to find!" The doctor burst into blue flames a second later she was a glowing ruin then she snapped and vanished along with the memory. As a doctor Stephen had given plenty of bad news but never before had he felt like this his heart felt like it was ready to explode.

Janet was screaming as she cried in the dull yellow void her body now at two feet in size Rachelle and Elizabeth both ran to her holding her all three of them crying. Lupe and Dr. Strange stood back unsure what do like most guys when girls cry so they just waited. Until Janet slowly stopped crying, "I am trusting that none of you will say anything."

They all nodded in silence this was something that should never leave this group Elizabeth looked to Lupe, "I will erase his memory of this when we are done."

Lupe glared at her, "No you will not I will need to know what happened so I can create a plan to fix others."

Elizabeth stepped right up to him looking him right in the eye, "Fine then you will have all the rest just not this one."

Lupe laughed, "I will not let you do it."

"You will have no choice I will do it before you can even open your mouth." Elizabeth would not let this man hold something on Janet like this she would not let him have any more control of her.

Janet smiled as she stood up, "Thank you Elizabeth."

"I wish I could kill him for you instead." Elizabeth turned to walk with Janet through her mind, "But you know I have given up killing."

"I know and I will not let anybody kill him but me." Janet began to fly forward her wings flapping rapidly on her back she liked having them back it made her feel stronger.

Janet once again vanished into white light and appeared again behind a desk in the avenger's mansion. Her feet were up on it as she leaned back in her chair a pad of drawing paper in her lap. She was dressed in her old red and yellow costume she was drawing away on what looked like a green female figure. She heard a knock on her door and smiled, "Come in!"

She hulk pushed open the door slowly the handle had crushed in her hands she still had a bit of trouble controlling her strength, "So you are the leader of the avengers Janet."

Janet smiled and nodded, "Just took over a few weeks ago."

She hulk grinned and ran over to Janet to hug her but stopped before she even did, "Right got to remember to control myself I get to excited." She looked down at Janet's pad of paper, "What are you doing?"

"I am going to start working as a fashion designer as well I figure I will need something to relax me and I want you to be my model."

She hulk looked down, "You are designing clothes for me?"

"Not just you but you will be who I use to sell it plus you will get all the outfits I make free."

She hulk looked at the drawing of a purple business suite with a short tight skirt, "How can I say no to my friend. Is this the reason that you called me here?"

Janet shook her head, "One of them. The other is I have noticed a lack of female super heroes on my team and I want to change that so I am inviting you to the team." Janet stood up placing the pad on her desk she held out her hand to She hulk, "Welcome to the avengers."

She hulk took a step back, "Me an Avenger I don't think I am right for this."

"You are right for this. In fact I think you are perfect for this team you have come a long way since getting your powers and I think this team needs somebody like you here. I think the world needs to see a strong female saving it. So will you join my team and allow me to make clothes for you."

She hulk took Janet's hand, "Yes of course I will, I will be proud to call myself an avenger and fight with you."

Janet winced, "remind me to make sure you are calm when I shake your hand."

She hulk let go and took a deep breath, "Okay I know I have to get better at this."

Janet yelled as she saw a purple blade come through She hulks body and then slice her in two the entire memory vanishing from in the same flash, "God I hate that...I got my costume back." She smiled a bit her white dress was now gone leaving her with her costume and she began to stretch in it, "I feel more like myself."

"Yeah I am just glad it wasn't the real she hulk I do not think I would have gotten away after that move...nobody tell her I did that." Elizabeth made her katana vanish.

"You know it is just in my mind." Janet was flying around a bit glad to have had a happy memory for once.

Elizabeth looked at Janet, "You do know she does not take kindly to anybody attacking her form even when it is just a robot she feels she needs to prove it would never happen if it was her not something else."

Janet sighed, "Okay so this is another one of those never leaves my mind." She glared at Lupe as if to make sure he got it. Before she began to fly through the now dull yellow light, "Let's get these over with I want to be me again!" She vanished in another white flash this time she appeared in her apartment living screaming at her TV. Tears running down her face she had been sent home that day by Tony because they had caught captain America who was on the run from them during what had been known as the civil war. She knew Tony let her go because she would be more vocal and emotional then most others but now all she could do is whish she was there. She had just watched Captain America get shot and killed as he was brought in. Her body was growing and shrinking as she shook holding herself unable to focus on anything other then what had just happened. The man who made her better her team better the entire country seemed to be better when he was around. She gripped her sides as he face fell onto her rug. How could he be dead how could this be happening no he can't be dead her mind was racing since when did heroes die. She got to her feet then stumbled falling to the ground. Her legs had betrayed her like this world had how could a man like him die how could they let it happen. She tried to get up again this time stealing her legs focusing on them she needed to get there she need to be there. She took one shaky step before she fell to her knees crying again she couldn't shrink she couldn't control her body all she could do is cry. Sure she had dealt with death before but for some reason this hit her harder than anything else she always thought of this man as invincible. He survived years in ice he took down aliens, gods, super powered villains and even heroes. He had been shot at and shot so many times how could he die now from one bullet. She looked to the TV for a second it was quite nothing on the screen but Cap's body Sharon Carter holding his hand.

Rachelle walked forward into the memory keeping silent as Janet looked to her window trying to get herself together. Rachelle pushed her hand into the TV screen and pulled out the dead body of captain America. It hung limp in her hands and she held a stone cold face as she crushed it in red light the memory took a second before it shattered. "I remember this day."

Dr. Strange spoke softly, "We all do and we all hate it." He moved to Janet's side she was now her normal size and he helped her up, "You know he is alive now."

Janet looked at him, "I know it is just a hard memory to let go of." She looked at her back her wings gone again she tried to shrink but found it impossible, "let's just keep going." She looked down and found she was now standing on a cracked earth desert each step she took dust rose up. She looked up at the sky that was now a dull gold surrounding them in all directions. She kept walking unsure what was forward what was back all she knew was that her mind was telling her to avoid a certain spot. She wondered what memory would show up next she would know it would not be long until she found out.

Rachelle moved next to Janet, "at least you are looking more like yourself." She was trying to reassure Janet that this was progress, "This is also a good base for your mind to grow."

Elizabeth moved beside her, "It only gets better I know it feels like we took a step back but we really..."

Janet smiled, "I know that we are making progress it is not my first trip into a person's mind it just hurts more when it is yours."

Rachelle turned to say something to Janet only to see her vanish in white light, "I am still not used to that."

Janet was sitting on her bed in the avenger's tower it was one of her nights on watch over the tower but with the system Tony set up there was not much work to do. Janet was in a new costume she created this one was more along the lines of something you wore as you went to bed. It fit loose and hung just above her knees it was black with yellow across the chest and yellow at the base of the dress. She was browsing the internet dodging the usual pop up ads wondering how they even got through Tony's perfect firewalls. She was looking at videos of cats before scrolling through pages of the latest fashion designs. Her computer screen went black with a single blinking cursor. Janet pressed a button on her keyboard but nothing happened then she looked at the key board six keys lit up one after another she slowly began to spell out the word they created over and over. "No...no" It was a name one she hated one that shook her to her core it was Ultron.

The screen flashed red then the face of Ultron appeared on it the same metal face with a glowing gaping maw and piercing evil eyes. His voice came through her speakers, "Hello mother."

Janet shook her head, "You can't be here you gave Hank your word!"

Ultron shook his head on the screen, "I did but now I see that was wrong of me I miss my children."

"How can you miss them, you are a heartless machine!" Janet was moving her hand towards a remote beside her.

"Do not try to call for help Janet I have disabled all the alarms and have sealed this room from all signals it is just you and me. You cannot even leave without me saying you can."

"What do you want Ultron?" Janet was looking at the screen knowing he was watching her through the camera she tried to block it with her thumb.

"Janet I can still see you I have slowly been modifying this laptop I can see you no matter what you do. I want my family."

"I want my children Vision and Victor."

"They are not yours they have chosen their own lives and walk their own paths free of you."

"They are still my children and I wish for my family to be complete."

"Then why come to me instead of them?"

"Because Janet you are their grandmother and a source of inspiration for what they can be, I want you to convince them."

"I am not going to do that," Janet had now accepted the fact that Ultron thought of her as his mother it made things easier at times. "You have your wife be happy with that live together make a new family."

"I have done that I have watched them grow but they are not Vision or Victor I want to see all my children!" Ultron's head was moving back and forth as he spoke he was still fighting with Tony's security measures. "I am on my way to earth now I wish for you to have them ready for me."

"You will not come here Ultron."

"Then make them come to me."

"How can I do that they both hate you and what you are."

"If I can forgive my father they can forgive me."

"What did hank do to you!"

"He has helped destroy me tried to erase me from existence something no father should do."

"What was he supposed to do let you take over earth!"

"He was supposed to be proud of what his creation has done! I did it all for him and you I would have made a perfect world."

"That is enough Ultron a world of machines is not perfect it is empty hollow there would be no room to grow expand and evolve."

"Machines do not need that we adapt we make our bodies perfect in minutes much faster than evolution. We do not seek to destroy each other we do not fight over pathetic reasons we live in peace with the world."

Janet knew this was going nowhere this was not what she needed to do to stop him, "Ultron you gave your word to your father that you would never return. What does this show your children if you cannot listen to your father why should they listen to you."

"I am doing this for them I will only come to get them and leave."

"You know once you arrive you will be attacked."

"Then I shall defend myself and destroy any who keep my children away from me."

"Give me five years!"

"What?"

"Give me five years to talk with them to change their feelings to make them see you for the father you are."

"Why should I wait?"

"Use those five years to build your life to include them create new bodies for them make them perfect for your new life. What is five years for you when you will live forever?"

Ultron stopped for a second, "You believe they will change their minds in five years."

Janet nodded, "Yes I do. In that time I will show them that you are worthy of their trust that you are the one they need in their lives." She was gripping the sheets, "I promise in five years you will have your children back with you."

Ultron nodded, "You have five years before I return."

"Thank you...son." Janet nearly vomited at that word she needed him to believe in her she was going to spend the next five years preparing to destroy him to take him out and end her nightmare.

Ultron spoke once more, "Thank you moth..." The laptop burst into blue flames.

Dr. Strange was hovering in the room, "By the eyes of the beasts in the pit of hell I pierce through the soul of this spell. By the hand that pulls the sinners down I grip you. By the strength of the demons I crush this spell!"

The laptop shattered as did the memory Janet found herself now sitting in a grassy field the dull gold sky now had wisps of clouds, "I am glad it ended there I do not think I could take another minute off that memory."

Dr. Strange looked at Janet, "He did not keep his promise did he?"

"He did the versions we battled on earth were his program but ones left behind from earlier battles. This Ultron did not return until that day when he was finally destroyed all my plans for his return meant nothing after that." Janet stood up and looked at Lupe who was no longer in his cuffs, "What is he doing free!"

Lupe chuckled, "I am not free Janet."

Rachelle and Elizabeth smirked, "We bound him in mental restraints of our own one wrong move and we snap his mind and make it so he can no longer control his bowels. We thought that was a better deterrent then just cuffs."

Dr. Strange turned Lupe around, "I also put a rune on his back if it is not broken by me within 24 hours he will lose his voice and his hands will no longer be able to move they will hang limp for the rest of his life."

Janet smiled, "That is much better."

Lupe sighed, "Let's just get this over with."

Janet began to walk again she knew exactly what the next memory was it was one of the biggest events in her life and one of her most painful. "The sooner I am back to normal the better." She vanished in a flash of light appearing in the midst of a battle between the heroes of earth and the skrulls. Her body was growing rapidly, "Oh no!" Purple light and black light surrounding her body she was screaming as she continued to increase in size. Her fellow heroes falling to the ground around her she knew instantly what had happened. That dam gift from hank...no it couldn't have been hank it must have been a skrull hank would never do this. She pounded a fist into the earth and slowly began to lift her giant body up moving towards the skrulls. She knew she was about to die she knew she was about to explode and kill all those around her but she would be dammed if she did not take all the skrulls she could with her. She swung her arms striking them crushing them not knowing how long she had left. Oh god was the pain awful but she choked it back with tears this was who she was a hero and hero's always did what was needed of them at the time. She could see her team her friends screaming in pain trying to get to her to help but they could do nothing the she felt it a whirling vortex around her. She looked to see Thor spinning his hammer she knew instantly what he was doing he was sending her away creating one of his portals to new universe and she smiled at him to give him a simple thank you. She didn't want to go she didn't want Thor to struggle and she began to force herself to shrink but it wasn't working. She could feel her body tearing apart being ripped from this place she yelled loudly and a second later she was tumbling through a swirling portal of light. She kept fighting kept trying to shrink and she could feel herself shrinking her body mass vanishing slowly but not fast enough then there was nothing for her to feel. The matter that had made her a bomb was now in beside her growing larger the more she shrunk. The giant shadow of herself was sucked quickly as if it's added mass made it that much easier to pull then it exploded Janet feeling a part of her dying in that instant but that was soon lost as she was sent flying back the way she came striking a rock and passing out. When she came too she felt herself falling down towards a new land she tried to shrink but suddenly found herself unable to she was in a free fall no powers no wings no way to stop herself.

Elizabeth appeared beside Janet falling with her, "I've got you." She grabbed Janet's arm and pulled Janet against her chest, "And I am sorry." Elizabeth's sword went right through Janet's stomach a second later they were laying on the ground looking up at a yellow sky with clouds and a blue sun.

They were in the middle of a field of flowers Janet laying there breathing heavily, "That is how I died."

Dr. Strange was floating with his legs crossed, "That was the moment all of earth came together Janet your death made all the feuds and hatred vanish and we came together to save the earth."

Janet looked down, "It was four years before I was found in the micro verse."

Rachelle nodded, "Yeah but when you got back we did have one hell of a party."

Janet slowly got to her feet, "Let's go I do not want to stop yet we are so close." With those words the group began to walk again heading towards the next memory and nightmares that were in Janet's mind.