A/N: Thank you for all the reviews keep it up! So now on with a very interesting chapter that was not easy for me to write. In fact I had to redo it like three times. But I hope you like my end result. And yes, if you were wondering, I even smiled to myself as i wrote the flashback scene from the last chapter. I couldn't help it, it was too cute to have young Bastila do that. Anyway on with the story.
Disclaimer: See chapter 1
The Fallen Knight
Back to Dantooine
Inside it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not so crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes.
-Hailie's Song, by Eminem.
1 day after leaving Taris.
Revan sat in the cockpit of the Ebon Hawk meditating. He could meditate anywhere and in any stance. He found himself calm since they left Taris but became increasingly unrested as they were headed to Dantooine. True he had in the past, sneaked onto the planet just to feel at peace in between battles during the Mandalorian Wars, but he hadn't been to the Enclave in seven years.
'Seven years,' he thought. 'Seven years since I saw her and now she sees me as I am, The Dark Lord of the Sith.' He sighed running his hand over his head. He felt pain every time Bastila glared at him or told him she despised him. He only cared about one person's opinion and she hated him. But somewhere deep down she cared. She cared about the man she once knew.
He didn't know if he wanted to protect her because he needed her or because he still cared. Did Sith care? He desperately wanted to believe he had still loved her but the twisted power of the Emperor did its damage on his mind corrupting him slightly. He managed to use the love he once had for her to keep him from falling too far but in the end he probably gave up that love to save the galaxy. He shook his head trying to figure out what he felt IF he felt anything. He wanted to feel the love for her again but it wasn't that simple. He needed to know that she loved him too or else there was no reason for him to fight or even exist.
He stood up and walked to the back looking for her. He found her meditating in the back room. He thought about talking to her but decided to just leave her be. He smiled down at her and walked away. They would be at Dantooine in a few hours. He thought it best to wake up Carth now.
He walked into the infirmary and stood over the unconscious man. Revan waved his hand and Carth started to wake up.
He opened his eyes and sat up. "Where am I? Who are you?" He said rubbing his head.
"I am a Jedi Knight and you survived the Sith attack on Taris." Revan said calmly.
"What the Sith attacked? How come I don't remember that?"
"I was sent to inform you when they started bombing the planet and a blast knocked you out. I grabbed you and fled on a civilian ship. The Republic shortly retreated afterward."
Carth shook his head and stood up. "Where are we headed?"
"We are on our way to the Jedi enclave on Dantooine, Bastila Shan needs to talk with the Jedi council."
Carth perked up a little. "Bastila Shan is alive? Where is she?"
"She is safe on this ship I found her on Taris and needed to escort her safely away from the Sith threat."
"Well at least there is some good news. After Dantooine am I to meet up with the Republic forces?"
Revan shook his head. "No I need you to go with us on some very important low profile missions, it is your choice though."
Carth raised an eyebrow at him. "Who are you?"
"I am Jedi Knight Nevar, I am a general to the Republic and I do not answer to the council and I am not allowed on Dantooine so when we arrive you are to keep my presence a secret."
Carth looked at him and thought it over for a little bit. "Will this secret mission help the Republic?"
"I can guarantee that when we are done this war will be over."
"How can you be so sure?"
"I know the location of the Sith's secret weapon."
Carth's eyes went wide. He slowly nodded his head. "Alright I will assist you."
Revan smiled and nodded. "Alright we need you at the cockpit I understand you are quite the pilot."
Carth smiled. "Best in the Republic I fought in the Mandalorian Wars and this war I can guarantee there is no better pilot in the galaxy."
"That is why I need you, you are dismissed captain." Revan said as he walked away. He walked back to the other dormitories and opened his pack. He grabbed his datapad and unlocked it.
Welcome Revan, you have an incoming message.
Revan answered it and saw HK-47 on the screen. "Thankful Explanation: Master it is so good to see you alive. Query: Are all your systems functioning properly?"
Revan rolled his eyes. "Yes HK I am alright. Are you still on the Star Forge?"
"Proud Answer: Yes Master I stayed like you said. Complication: It seems your meatbag apprentice has taken over and said that you betrayed the Sith and you are now dead. I knew this to be incorrect there had been fear in the meatbag's voice so I had to contact you personally."
Revan smirked at his second greatest creation, the first being Bastila's Battle Meditation. "Has Malak said anything about moving the forces yet?"
"Hesitant Answer: Master I think I should inform you not to get angry but he has begun activating the Star Forge's secondary systems. Warning: Master he has also sent out your personal assassins to hunt down the Jedi Bastila, though he does not know where she is you should know that your students will find her."
Revan took a deep breath and put his face in his hands. He looked back at HK. "Did he say anything to you yet?"
"Puzzling Answer: No Master he has not, I am surprised that he hasn't set me out to eliminate Bastila. Reassuring Statement: Don't worry Master even if he did I would never do anything against your wonderful programming I would simply lie to the meatbag then guard her like you instructed."
"Alright HK it is no longer safe there. I need you to meet me on Tython, you need to do this stealthily and no one must know where or when you are leaving."
"Acknowledgement: Of course Master my receptor core will be ecstatic to be with you again."
Revan turned it off and thought for a while. Malak had proceeded to convince the entire galaxy he killed him. Revan thought it was for the best, but he knew he could not step foot on Dantooine or else the Masters would spot him. No one knew what was under his mask except for Bastila, Malak, Meetra wherever she was, and the council on both Coruscant and Dantooine. He had to stay on the ship most of the time as to not blow his cover.
5 hours later.
Bastila watched as they landed near the Enclave. She didn't know why Revan was okay with being so near the council but clearly he had thought everything out. She felt relieved to be back at the only place she had called home for the past 15 years. She hadn't been back since she finished her Battle Meditation, instead she had been on different Republic ships and even a planet or two. She was only in war for about 8 months and she was already tired, overused, and underappreciated. Revan had experienced that for 7 years and he had learned to cope with it.
She sighed and walked to the back of the ship.
"Bastila wait a second." Revan said walking over to her.
"What is it Re- Nevar?" She quickly covered up.
"You need to say that I was last seen on the bridge when it collapsed. I need to remain dead for a while and as for the rest just listen to me okay?" He said looking into her eyes.
"What are you-" she was interrupted by his voice in her head.
'Trust me okay?'
She nodded and walked to the ramp and opened it.
"Bastila I want to go with you." Mission said catching up to her.
"Mission I don't think you would like it. It will be very boring and just talking for a while."
She shrugged. "Well it's better than being stuck on the ship with all the guys."
Bastila smiled. "Okay just don't cause any trouble."
"Oh don't worry I can be seen and not heard." They walked down the ramp towards the Enclave. "Thanks for this, you know we girls have to stick together, how old are you anyway?"
"Twenty."
"Wow and you are a general in the Republic? That is crazy you are like how old Revan was when he went to fight the Mandalorians. Are Jedi always this young when they are sent to fight?"
"Actually Revan was 18 when he left and I don't know I guess most of them are older but I'm not sure I don't fight in the battles."
"Well then what do you do?"
"I use the Force to help the Republic fight the Sith, it has helped in the past and I have won many battles."
"That's cool, I guess." Mission said shrugging.
"How old are you Mission?"
"Now I may not seem like it but I am 14, and I am not a kid." She warned Bastila. Bastila laughed. "What?"
"Nothing you certainly don't act 14. You seem much older."
"Well thanks."
They turned the corner and were in front of the council door. "Alright Mission wait out here I will be back soon."
Mission nodded and sat on a bench. Bastila took a deep breath and walked in.
"Bastila, good to see you alive, it is. News of your mission you have for us?" Master Vandar asked.
"Yes Masters it seems that when we confronted Revan on his ship that Malak wanted the title of Dark Lord of the Sith, so he fired on the bridge and killed everyone, I managed to escape because Revan fell on me but he didn't make it and I used a ship to escape to Taris where others assisted me to get off the planet."
Vrook spoke up. "Why didn't you simply go to the Republic forces stationed there? They would have assisted you."
Bastila was caught off guard, she opened her mouth then a voice came to her head.
'I needed Malak to believe I was dead so unfortunately I needed to keep secrecy until I could get back here.'
Sure enough Revan was helping her through this. She saw Vandar flinch but she ignored it. "I needed Malak to believe I was dead so unfortunately I needed to keep secrecy until I could get back here."
"But he discovered you were alive and attacked anyway, why is that?"
'Since the great mastermind Revan was dead he saw me as the only obstacle in his path of galactic domination. He knew I was alive because he tracked the ship I had used and followed me.'
Bastila rolled her eyes and paraphrased his words. "Since Revan was dead he saw me as the only obstacle in his path of galactic domination. He knew I was alive because he tracked the ship I had used and followed me."
"Well I am glad you had survived Bastila and know the Sith have been dealt a major blow but I fear this is only the beginning of this war, but it is in the favor of the Republic." Zhar spoke. "I realize that you just arrived but we have a situation that needs your attention. You will have to leave in about a week."
Bastila sighed and was about to accept when she heard him again.
'Masters if I can speak freely I have uncovered Revan's personal datapad and it reveals the secret weapon called the Star Forge.'
"Masters if I can speak freely I have uncovered Revan's personal datapad and it reveals the secret weapon called the Star Forge." Bastila repeated.
Zhar looked confused. "The Star Forge?"
Dorak spoke next. "I have no knowledge of this, I will have to contact Coruscant and see if they have any information on it."
"But what of Bastila?" Vrook spoke.
"Bastila do you have any more information?"
'It is the thing behind the power of the Sith that is all I found out.'
"It is the thing behind the power of the Sith that is all I found out." She repeated again.
"I see well come back tomorrow we will see what we should do." Zhar said.
"Very well masters." She said bowing.
Revan smiled down at their meeting. He had been standing on the roof over the entrance and listened to the whole thing. She was a good listener and played her part well. He waited until Bastila and Mission started walking back towards the ship then he took off using the Force to run faster than the human eye could see.
His Force manipulation was almost unparalleled. Except for the Sith Emperor and his ancient Jedi Master. He could use the Force to almost do anything. Almost. Immortality was probably the only thing he couldn't achieve. He didn't care though he wanted only one life to live anyway.
He got back on the ship and went to the back room to meditate. Though after five seconds of trying to clear his head he gave up. He stood up and paced. He needed to somehow get to Tython, he needed more training. At the thought of training he locked the door and went into his pack and grabbed one of the Sith holocrons. He set it on the ground and activated it.
Out of it came a long dead Sith. "Ah Revan you return, what is it you desire now?"
Revan kneeled before the Sith. "I wish to continue training Master Hord. My lightsaber has become somewhat sloppy."
Tulak Hord laughed. "Revan I doubt that, you are the greatest duelist besides myself and I have taught you almost everything I know. But if you wish to continue training then let us begin."
Bastila went back to the ship and saw that Revan was in his room with the door locked, obviously not wanting to be disturbed. She left and went to her room on Dantooine and relaxed. She wanted a good night's sleep, something she hadn't had in months. She laid down and fell fast asleep.
At around 4 in the morning she woke up suddenly. She felt something in the Force and went to go see what was wrong. She changed into her old robes and walked out of the Enclave.
Dantooine was peaceful at night, one of the moons was in perfect orbit and lit up the plains perfectly. She wandered around trying to figure out where the problem was. She walked up a hill and saw nothing. She sighed and shook her head walking back to the Enclave when she saw Revan.
He was sitting on a hill behind her. She walked over and stood next to him. "What are you doing out here?"
He had his eyes close and his hand was waving over some dead flowers. Instantly they perked up with life again. He picked one and stared at it. "I could never sleep more than a couple hours a day ever since I left here. And you were having a nightmare so I came out here and meditated. I was able to calm your mind." He looked up at her. "Why do you dream of such things?"
She sighed and closed her eyes remembering the dream.
Her mission had failed Revan had known the attack was coming and killed all the other Jedi and left her alive. Malak had never fired on his ship and now here she was, his prisoner. She was chained down on a rock and couldn't feel the Force anymore. The room was dark and cold she shivered against the cold stone.
Then the door swung open and filled the room with light. She closed her eyes at the blinding light.. Then a bone-chilling voice came to her ears.
"You are awake good." Revan said as he walked in. She opened her eyes and saw his dark figure approach her. "It is good you are uninjured, now we can begin."
"Revan wh-what are you doing?" She said in a soft voice.
"My dear Bastila did you possibly think I could hold anymore love for you? I am the Dark Lord of the Sith, I have no heart." He grabbed her throat causing her breathing to stop. "And now I shall take yours."
He released and she gasped for air. "R…Revan please… I-" She was cut off by lightning coming from his hand. She cried in pain. After what seemed like an eternity he stopped. Turning his back to her.
"Your words don't matter now, you can't say anything to convince me to stop." He pulled out his red lightsaber and activated it. "You weren't worth coming back for Bastila, why would you think I would ever give up the galaxy for you?" Darth Revan turned to stab her.
And this is when the REAL Revan saved her. Revan jumped into her dream and blocked the attack. He pushed the imaginary him with the Force and then pulled out both blue and red sabers and held them at Darth Revan's neck.
"No matter how hard you try to fight it, I am YOU." His alter ego spoke before Revan cut his head off. Revan lowered his head.
"Bas, I am not this, I hated myself every day after I returned to the galaxy. I would never betray you ever again." He unlocked the chains and then dissipated.
"Revan wait!"
That's when she woke up and felt him in distress. She looked back at him. He was still holding the flower staring at it. She gasped realizing what it was. It was the white flower with the blue center.
"Why do you dream of me like that? Do you think I could ever be like that?" He said hurt.
"Revan no matter how much you hide it you still have the darkside controlling you sometimes." She said sitting down next to him.
"I know but hopefully that won't be for long." He said twirling the stem in his hand. "I don't want to hurt you anymore Bas, I am truly sorry if I ever did."
She sighed and looked up at the sky. "Revan when you came back it crushed my heart, I cried for a week I couldn't feel happiness anymore. I couldn't believe what you had become."
Revan looked at her. "You truly still cared for me after all that time?"
"I did but I can't anymore Revan you have caused too much pain." She looked back at him. "I can't love you like I did."
He just looked back at her with a face she couldn't read. "Bastila I… I still care for you but I feel empty and without you I doubt I can come back."
"Revan…"
"Bas, please I know you are a Jedi but do you still love me?" He asked looking into her eyes.
"Revan I… I can't." She stood up and wiped the tears forming in her eyes. "I'm sorry." She ran back to the Enclave.
Revan looked at the spot she once was and then back to the flower in his hand. He looked up at the plains and crushed the flower in his hand. "I'm sorry too."
He looked out to the stars and sighed. Bastila was the only constant thing in his mind. He didn't know if he still loved her but he would die trying to protect her. Was that love? He shook his head and stood up. He looked out at the enclave and headed back.
The next morning
Revan and Bastila didn't see each other until she left to meet with the council. He ran undetected and sat up on the roof over the council chambers once again. He listened in on the meeting and waited.
"It seems that our archives have no knowledge of the Star Forge." Dorak spoke.
"Go by the information you have, we must. Location of the Star Forge, do you have?" Vandar asked Bastila.
Revan took a deep breath and spoke into her mind.
'No but the records from Revan indicate that there is more information on Tython.'
"No I don't know where it is." Bastila said.
Revan was shocked. She wasn't going to listen to him.
'Bastila what are you doing I need us to go to Tython just listen to me please!' Revan pleaded with her.
"That is unfortunate but do you know anything more on this secret weapon?" Zhar asked.
'Bastila please I need to get to Tython and I need you with me! Don't do this.'
"No I don't." She said. Revan's anger grew rapidly he quickly tried to calm himself before the masters would sense him.
"Bastila is something wrong?" Vrook asked.
Revan realized he had let Bastila feel his anger and quickly covered it up. Then he heard her speak again. "Yes I am alright, but there was something on the datapad. It pointed to the world Tython."
"The ancient home world of the Jedi it is. Curious why Revan would go there." Vandar said.
"It has long been abandoned by the Jedi, he probably went there seeking guidance from the Force before he turned to the darkside." Vrook said.
"Still it may be the clue we need to win this war. Bastila I think the council will agree with me by saying you are allowed to go to Tython. But first we have a mission right here on Dantooine that requires your attention." Zhar told her.
"We have a problem with the darkside tainting the ancient grove we think a Sith may be on the planet and we need you to cleanse it immediately." Vrook continued.
Revan waited until she said: "Of course masters." Then he called upon the Force to run at blinding speed to the plains of Dantooine and waited for her.
He stood there for a little while then Canderous, Mission, Carth, and Zaalbar walked up to him.
"Hey Nevar, what are you doing here?" Mission said.
"Waiting for Bastila, where were you guys?"
"We took care of some dishonorable Mandalorians that were preying on settlers. Oh and I got this." Canderous said handing him a lightsaber.
"Nice one, now you guys might want to get back to the ship we will be leaving soon." Revan said tucking the lightsaber on his belt.
"Alright you heard the man let's go." Carth said leading the group.
Revan waited around for a little bit longer and then Bastila came out. She didn't even look at him she just kept walking. He followed behind her keeping close.
"I apologize for letting you feel my anger, I did not intend-"
Bastila cut him off. "Revan I don't know what you are planning but I have trusted you this far and I will see it through to the end." She said with anger in her voice.
"Bas, why do you hold anger against me? I have apologized several times for what I have done."
Bastila stopped and turned to face him. "First stop calling me Bas, second I am not angry with you and third you can apologize all you want, that doesn't mean I can believe that you have changed."
He couldn't help but to see how cute she looked when she was angry. He smiled a little then wiped it away when she was glaring at him. "I know but if you would just give me a chance I will prove it to you."
She rolled her eyes and kept walking. "Thank you though, for getting us to leave for Tython." He said.
"We aren't out of here yet, and what are you doing out here during the day what if someone saw you?"
"Don't worry I have it all covered. And you know you are going to have to face this alone."
"Yes thanks I don't need you watching over me."
He smirked and walked with her to the grove.
They approached the ancient grove and Revan stopped and stood next to a large rock. "I will wait here." He said.
She shrugged her shoulders and kept walking. He stood back and watched as a Cathar woman stood up in the ancient grove and attacked Bastila.
He was impressed by her lightsaber skills as she matched her opponent's attacks. Bastila then went on the offensive and pushed her opponent back. But then the Cathar woman used the darkside to gain strength and knocked Bastila's lightsaber out of her hand. Bastila stepped back slowly as the Cathar approached her pointing the lightsaber at her. Revan grabbed the saber Canderous gave him off his belt and threw it at Bastila. Bastila caught it and slashed at her opponent's lightsaber destroying it.
Revan smirked then walked away. His job was done.
"So you were able to convince Juhani to come back to the light, you are indeed powerful my young Padawan." Vrook said as she stood before the council.
"Thank you master, will she be alright?" She asked.
"Juhani's fall to the darkside was not permanent, but we would like you to watch over her, she will accompany you on your mission to Tython. You may leave in the morning." Zhar said.
"Thank you masters." She bowed and left.
Mission was waiting outside the council chambers for Bastila. "So how did it go?"
"Good we will be able to leave in the morning."
"Yes, finally, no offense but this place is really boring."
Bastila laughed. "Yes I know I lived here for 15 years remember?"
"You must have been bored out of your mind, I mean all the Jedi here are annoying. How did you ever put up with them?"
Bastila sighed and let a smile come to her lips. "I had a good friend."
Revan waited until around midnight to leave the Hawk and walk the surface of Dantooine once more. He felt restless like always but even more so now that Bastila was not willing to associate with him anymore. He walked out to the plains again and walked to the hill he and Bastila spent most of their time when they were kids.
Revan sat down and looked out on the planet. He didn't feel like meditating, because when he did he could hear Bastila's thoughts as clear as day. He may have taught her how to keep him from hearing them but she needed more practice so that when he meditated he couldn't open her mind like a book.
Instead he sat on the hill looking out then he pulled his lightsaber out and used the Force to levitate it. He stayed like this for ten minutes.
"Troubling you, something is Revan." Master Vandar spoke walking up to the Knight. Revan grabbed his saber from the air and stood up facing the master with his blade activated. Master Vandar simply walked next to where Revan once sat and sat down next to him. "Come Revan I am not here to turn you in, just to talk." The master spoke.
Revan hesitantly deactivated his saber and sat down next to him. "You knew I was here the whole time?"
"The whole time, no. Communicating through your bond with Bastila, the moment I knew. Tell of your presence I did not." The Master spoke.
"Then you know I need to go to Tython. And Bastila must go with me."
"Indeed I sense much conflict in you young one. Questionable your allegiance is."
"I serve the good of the people master, I will explain everything when I end this war I promise."
"Tell that you are no longer a Sith I can. But be weary of what you put on young Bastila's shoulders."
"Master?"
Vandar looked up at Revan. "You depend on her Revan, that is good but you have placed all the good inside you believing on the fact she still cares for you. And if something were to happen to her, afraid I am of what you would do."
Revan looked down, closed his eyes, and sighed. "Master you can sense that I am not a Sith Lord…"
"No, in fact doubt, I do, that you ever were one. You are playing a very dangerous game, a game with the balance of the Force that you are losing inside yourself."
Revan nodded and looked up to the sky. "I have accepted the fact I can never be a Jedi again, and I will never be a Sith, but if I were to be something under the Jedi-"
"No Revan, you are above the Jedi. I know that your opinions on the council are not good, but some of us realize how the Order itself has been ruined by fear. Revan you decide your own path now, but if you succeed in your task then peace will really come to the galaxy. But know that if you fail, your power will control you, and that power was never meant to be wielded by one man."
"Yes master, but why are you helping me? If I am such a risk as you say then you should get the entire council to kill me."
"Revan you know as I do that no one living in this galaxy can stop you. But I believe that you will succeed."
Revan smiled at the confidence the old master had in him. He watched the small master stand up. "May the Force be with you young one." He said hobbling back towards the Enclave.
Revan watched him walk back then he looked back down at the flowers that were before him. They had fallen over dead once more. Revan waved his hand over them and they filled with life. Revan picked another one and inhaled its sweet scent. "It is Master."
Fin.
A/N: Confused? Okay allow me to explain a few things. So basically Revan is trying to create a balance between the light and dark within him but he had placed all the lightside in his love for Bastila as I stated back in Chapter 2. So each time Bastila was uncaring or shot him down his light went down so that is why Master Vandar is worried that he will not succeed in his task to create balance. SO that means that when he finally unlocks the unlimited power of the Sith he has hidden within himself it may overwhelm him and destroy him. BUT nobody wants that. Not even the Sith that gave him the power so they made it so that when his light power increases so does his dark. Where is he going to get unlimited lightside power you ask? WELL that will be explained in the next chapter…. maybe. So in turn, Revan's lightside power is faltering because Bastila BELIEVES she no longer loves him. But don't hate her, she is confused about Revan and her own feelings.
Okay anything else need explaining? If so don't be afraid to ask I will try to answer them if not in the story then in an author's note. So please review!