~~A.N.~~ REVIEW! PLEASE! ~~~~~~~~~ Kaya was gone, and with him he Took a bit of my heart with him, but... that was fine, that part was made for the one and only Kaya. He had talked to me about finding someone, to find someone to hold my heart, then he tilted his head knowingly towards the Doctor. Was Kaya saying that I should give my heart to the Doctor, that he was the one to love me and keep me safe? Kaya seemed rather sure of himself that this was the right thing to do... I did trust him... also ... I did have a bit of a thing for a guy wearing a bow tie. Maybe... this was the right thing to do... to finally open myself up to someone else. It would be nice to have someone to share in the pain and sadness that I feel by myself. The hollowness of my heart and the cold winds of my soul, to have someone to remove that. I was lost in thought, leaning against the TARDIS door, but what if Kaya was wrong, what if the Doctor just saw me as another companion. Just another person that he ran away with, nothing important to me, just someone else that would be discarded and forgotten. Just another voice in the wind, a shadow in the back of his mind, an echo in the dark, that's what the companions are once they leave. Nothing more than just a whimsy to him, he would never see us more than just that. I could feel eyes on me, they were staring at me, judging me, there was a warm wetness on my cheeks. I was crying, silently, yet uncontrollably, the tears flowed freely nothing to hold them back from running down my face. Amy's face was aglow with concern, Rory looked confused, Jack's eyebrows were furrowed in concentration. Maive, a cruel gleam in her soulless eyes, Mikel, jumpy and nervous, fear beaded his eyes. The Doctor, his face was trying to be cool and calculating, trying to act as though there wasn't any emotion inside his being. But, his dark forest green eyes were clouded with sadness and concern, he looked older, like his true age, his shoulders slumped from carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders. No one seemed to want to come and face me as I silently wept, I closed my eyes looking down as my shoulders trembled. Footsteps came towards me, then a soft touch to my trembling shoulders, strong arms wrapped around my slim frame. A scratch coat was pressed to my cheek, the strong smell of the Doctor surrounded me, he was holding me, more like cradling me as I cried. "Shhh... Alexandra... Don't cry... please," the Doctor sounded weak like everytime I sobbed he was stabbed in the heart. " I don't know why I'm crying..." my voice trailed off and I sniffled with each word I uttered. " I know... you're in shock... just... breath..." he was whispering in my ear in a low kind voice. He whispered kind nothings to me, called me beautiful and perfect, that I was amazing and had no reason to cry. Then... he whispered something else to me, so quietly that I didn't think I heard him correctly, I think I heard his whisper in my ear... that he loved me... his voice was soft like a summer breeze...had I actually heard him correctly? My heart began to pound harder than I ever thought possible... was this love?