Hello everyone! For those of you that remember the Manabu chapter, a little more shall be explained here. This is more a filler, or such, so I'm sorry if there's too much Shouta and not enough Hitsugaya. But, trust me, there will be plenty of him soon. :) I might get the next chapter up soon, seeing as my family is driving to Houston for Christmas with the extended family this Friday, like we do every year. So I'll have quite a bit of time to write. :)
The rest of the Holiday passed without any more incidents, though Shouta was a little distant. They were to leave that afternoon, and Harry had just finished packing.
"I'm going out." Shouta muttered, trudging out the door.
"Where are you going?" Harry asked suddenly, eager to be on good terms again.
"None of your business." The brunette snapped, before slamming the front door. Harry looked after him, frowning.
"It's not your fault." Came a voice from behind him. The boy jumped, whirling around to find Hitsugaya. The Japanese wizards seemed to love sneaking up on people.
"What do you mean?" Harry asked, relaxing when he realized who it was.
"I'm sure you've heard that he hasn't been on good terms with his… friend." Harry nodded. "Being back in this town has had him on edge. Normally he's at school, and he never comes back. He probably wants to try to make amends before we leave again." Hitsugaya explained, looking at the doorway his companion had left in.
Frowning, the boy-who-lived took out the invisibility cloak he had brought, draping it around himself.
"Where are you going?" Hitsugaya snapped, yanking the cloak back off.
"I want to see why Shouta's upset." He snapped back, yanking the cloak back. Hitsugaya sighed, crossing his arms. He knew where the brunette was going, and he knew that he would probably want to be left alone.
"If you get yourself killed, it's not my problem." He muttered, heading to the back. He watched out of the corner of his eye as Harry pulled the invisibility cloak back on, his spiritual pressure slipping out the front door. Looks like he was going to have to follow the brat.
Harry Potter hurried quietly along the streets, turning his head this way and that frantically. He continued to the edge of the town, where he stopped by a cemetery, gasping for breath. It was already evening. Harry was just about to give up, when he heard a soft humming coming from inside the cemetery gates. Curious, he followed the sound inside.
It came near the back, a soft, melancholy tune. As he got closer, it became singing.
"If we could always remember
How it feels to love someone
Hurtful words
Would never have come to be"
The lyrics were in perfect English, startling Harry, since he hadn't heard any language besides Japanese till now.
"Either full or withered
Our hearts are always
Pushing someone away, pulling them close
Again, putting all the blame on the moment"
Harry listened quietly from under the invisibility cloak, the soft, barely audible voice lilting in the breeze.
"Blurring away the faces of the ones we hurt
We search again for love
We are only kind because we want to be loved
Acting without shame
For that's what I believed humans are
Your words of love sounded
Like a crying whisper
Somehow I knew that one day your heart
Will be untrue to itself
You're so kind to others that I can't help but
Want you to care more about yourself
Do you have enough heart left in you for yourself?
Don't look at me, it's my heart
I'll use it for myself
How can you love someone like me?
Your eyes would only shed tears
Each time I lied for myself
God knew this
All of this would happen this way
And so he made your eyes all the bigger
There he watched me, knowing it
That I'd always love myself
More than anyone, anything
Even though you knew, even though you knew
You would tell me, the selfish me
That you loved me
More than anyone, more than anything
You did that without even realizing
That was Called kindness
I wonder how much your heart
your unselfish heart
Could love yourself
I wonder how much I
Who you were always too kind to
Could love "someone" else
Words were always
Trying to reflect who the speaker is
God, why did you make
Words this close?
My heart always kept quiet
Hiding behind my words
God, why did you make
a heart run so deep?
If my heart and words were to overlap,
Were to become one
Then many of these sad lies I gave you
Would have been a gentler color
(I was here to tell you why)
It's the same for all
Everyone has "someone" just for them
(You were here to tell me why)
Then why don't I
Exist for my "someone"?
Oh I know, this must be so
you like yourself for
"Having someone you love more than yourself"
I can say now
that I like the current me
"The me who loves you more than myself"
The tear that people shed for another
THAT is love's true testimony
You're the one who taught me that
The heart you created can now say
"For someone else, that's for myself as well"
And that's the way
We should live
That's what people do
I won't call that
An act of kindness anymore
The heart you always had
For others
Has probably loved you too
I wonder if I'll be able to love too
Learn to be like you
I wonder how many "someones" I can love
You cried, you really did cry
As your heart screamed "cry"
I pray and hope
You won't hate me
You loved me, you loved people so much
So that your heart almost withered
So I'll love your portion
Love for you, until I wither
Your words of love sounded
Like a crying whisper
You always knew someday a heart
Would save someone."
There was a long silence, and Harry looked up. Shouta sat in front of a grave, not moving an inch. Finally a quiet, tired voice-nothing like it was just a moment ago-spoke up. "I know you're there, Harry."
Harry, after a moment, took off the invisibility cloak, walking over so that he now stood behind the brunette. "What song was that?" He asked after a long while, and the other's shoulders sagged tiredly.
"Kanashi. Sadness. It was her favorite song. She always said that she loved hearing it in English." Harry read the name engraved in the stone. Miyazaki Tomomi.
"Is she…" Shouta nodded, quietly.
"Yeah. She's… the first and last person I loved."
Dundundun~! I mentioned the Manabu Hara chapter earlier right? Then can you guess how Tomomi died?~
Anyways, the lyrics are from Kanashi by Radwimps, an amazing (J-rock) band, and the lyrics in each of their songs is absolutely inspiring, beautiful, and rings true to your heart. You should probably look at it in the english-subbed versions, but they're my favorite band. Personally, I recommend Yuushinron, or Heart Theism in English.