THE 4th UNFORGIVABLE

you are. DISCLAIMER: Well the characters aren't mine what a surprise, but if anyone wants to give them to me it would make me very happy…

A/N. Tell me what you think…. And please be kind it's my first HP FF and I just hope it's a little good not even very good. It will be kinda OOC and AU…but we are talking about FF here so a last warning English isn't my native language not even close so YOU ARE WARNED!...Dedicated to Holly you know who

"Yes Hermione dear he is… thank you all my friends for your kind words is such a hard time. But right now I must explain you what agonia is and what it does… "

"Agonia is a old curse…when I was young my father used to tell us about a fourth unforgivable that the ministry had destroyed, they had burned all books containing the curse, they had given the death penalty to all dark wizards that had used the curse, the curse became an unspeakable in society, they even changed the law that said there were 4 unforgivables to one that said there were three. That curse was…is very powerful it could cause more pain that Crucio and it isn't as mercifully as an Avada Kadavra. It's a curse that is used to both torture and kill the person that is hit by it, but it's a nasty curse because it can affect both: the wizard that used it and the one that was hit by it. The one that uses it has to be sure he is power fuller than the person he hits or it won't have you could say the desired effect or that is what I was told." Albus took a moment to let his words sink in and to ordinate his thoughts he remembered what his father told him about the possibility of surviving the curse, but he didn't want to give them falls hope.

"The person hit by it will feel like he is hit by crucio but also like his whole body explodes over and over again until the person that is using it finishes the spell after that the one hit by it enters in coma and dies in a time lap of 20 hours, in that time the one who used the spell will feel more tired because his magic is killing the other. There have been cases very few ones in which the one hit by it was able to fight the spell and survived, but even if the person hit by it survive it won't be without consciences….and I don't know which ones those could be."

"If what you say is truth, why was Severus able to come here?" Asked Arthur to none in particular.

"I don't know I only know what my father told me…" Albus had got enough and wanted to spend all the time he could with Severus. "I am going to go to Severus and I think it…it would be the best that you people say your goodbyes to him now that he is still with us….Could any of you floo Pompey, Haggrit and Mad Eye?" After this he moved toward what would be the last place he spend time with his son while he was still alive.

"I think he is right don't you?…..we should not leave ffor tomorrow what we can do today." Said Hermione crying while she turned around and followed Albus upstairs.

The rest of the order followed them with a heavy heart knowing they would be saying their last words toward a friend in just minutes and paying their respect for him soon while the reporters will have a field day.

Once Albus and Hermione reached Severus room they took a breath before entering, when they entered Healer James got up from the chair he sat on and exited the room to give them some privacy. Severus room was one of the biggest in the save house because he needed space for a potions lab that was at the right side of the room while his dresser, table and bed were at the left side, there was some invisible line that separated the place where he lived and the place where he worked. Everything was very ordinate and clean like nothing had changed while everything was different….the only visible difference was Fawkes lying on Severus chest singing a soft melody that almost sounded like a lullaby to him. Albus and Hermione both witnessed how Fawkes was dropping tears everywhere he could, when Fawkes noticed them in the room he turned to look at them making a sound that reminded them of a cry of agony.

"Fawkes it's all right you can't heal him this time…." Albus told his familiar causing it to cry again.

Sensing it was a lost cause to try to convince Fawkes that he could not help this time Albus sat down onto the chair leaving the spot on the bed to Hermione. Hermione sat onto the bed and held Severus hand in hers while she tenderly brushed some hair out of his face.

"He looks so peaceful like he is asleep; do you think he is in peace?" Asked Hermione.

"Yes I do believe he is."Answered Albus as he left the second part of his thoughts to himself: Or at last I really hope he is.

They heard someone knock on the door and saw the twins enter the room first.

"Hey." They said at the same time and smiled but their smiles didn't reach their eyes.

"We came to." Started George.

"You know what." Ended Fred who was the first to say his good bye. "Well professor I don't know where to start, during my school years you were a real pain but I understand there are something's well a lot of things that would not have ended good if you weren't there and I have learned a lot of things from you about both life and potions…just thanks for everything I know it's kinda late now but anyway thanks for everything you have done…I suppose this is our bye"

"I agree with everything my dear brother just said and would like to add that we are also very thankful for your help to perfection the potions we sell in our store." Said George before moving closer and leaving a crystal orb in the hand that Hermione wasn't holding it turned green. "Green very Slyrithin like, it means he is in peace…it's an orb that changes from color according to the owners humor, green is also the color of serenity or peace." He told them both before whispering a bye in Severus ear and gesturing to Fred to leave the room, as they left Ron and Ginny entered. Ginny came close while Ron just stood there by the door.

"Hey Rus…I really don't know what to tell you, I'm not good at saying good-bye so I won't do it ok? Maybe if I don't do it I will feel like you never left." Ginny told Severus sweetly and kissed his cheek before turning to Hermione and hugging her. Hermione's eyes were full of tears as she bit back a sob she didn't want to cry anymore because Severus didn't need nor deserved that at the moment. After Ginny ended hugging Hermione she went to Albus giving him a hug that caught him by surprise. After this she went to the door waiting for her brother to end.

"I was wrong about you I should not have judged you nor should I have said the things I did even if I can't change them I'm sorry for saying them and for the way this is ending."

With those words said he turned around and left the room with Ginny. Remus entered next and sat down on the floor and just sat there looking at his friend a long time before he started to talk in a broken voice.

"After all these years I always thought you would outlive me…you know? This is incredible but in the wrong way, this should not be happening it isn't fair." He smiled bitterly. "But when has life fair to you hhmm? Never… I would like to thank you because you were the one that really helped me with my monthly problem, in the end you were the one that superadded his own fears to help someone else… what are we going to do without you? I really don't know but I promise you your death won't be in vane we well take revenge for you. And I will pay every reporter that dears to disrespect your name a visit during the next full moon." He smiled at his own idea, but changed his mind. "Or I could plan ways of killing them slowly but never do so, which would be better because I don't think you would like me to end in prison would you? I'm sure you would turn around in your grave and come back just to hex me for being so stupid which might make it a good idea…" Remus kept talking towards his friend without being answered but that didn't seam to irritate him. "This isn't very different from talking to you normally don't you think? Me talking while you are listening. The only differences are that you don't raise your eyebrow or can guide me now. I really would like it if you could guide me now, but that is asking too much right now not? No don't answer that question it was a rhetorical one…" He passed his hand through his own hair and let out a frustrated sigh. "I don't know how I will survive more than a week without your guidance…I'm sure that if you were awake you would tell me to man up, but I can't and I'm sorry for it but I can't." He started to cry: he cried for the lost of his friend, for the future his friend would not have, the things they would not be able to do again and the ones they never did…he just cried for everything. "I love you Rush you are like the older brother I never had even if you are younger and I'm going to miss you…" He stood up and kissed Severus head before hugging it awkwardly and leaving the room crying.

Hermione had tears streaming down her face she felt pained because Severus never knew how loved he was and now it was too late, Albus had put the chair closer to the bed and put an arm around Hermione he was determinate to be there for her and protect her now that his son wasn't able to do it anymore he would do it in his boy's honor. The next people to enter the room were Arthur and Molly.

"Hey sweetie, you have given us a…a few scares, bbut this one is the final one issn't itt? Please dear don't feel guilty for anyt…thing that has happened in the past not even in the far one you arenn't res…responsible for all the wrong in this world you…you have been light in the darkness for such a long time…..you tauggg…taught us to forgive and that our passt isn't an excu…cuse for our actions. We are proud of you never ever forget that…I love you, God knows I do."Molly's speech wasn't as large as Remus one but was just as emotional and both Arthur and Molly were crying.

Molly left the room everything was clearly too much for her, Arthur bent down kissed Severus head passed a hand through his hear and put a collar around his neck disturbing Fawkes who still was singing in the process. "This will protect you even in your condition right now; it will keep all dark magic and negative energy away from you…" Passing his hand thought Severus hair for one last time he nodded to Albus and Hermione and also left, Arthur's gesture made it very clear how much Severus meant to him. Harry slipped into the room silently and just sat down at the foot of the bed leaning onto the wall with his back and put a hand on Severus leg as if he was trying to convince himself he was still there.

"Sirius won't come…he doesn't see any reason as to why he should, it might be the best don't you guys think?" He asked Hermione and Albus.

"I don't know Harry…" Said Hermione.

"Neither do I." Came from a tired Albus.

"You know Rus it is unbelievable how many people care about you, it's just sad that they realize it now. In the end the saying will be true and all: 'you don't know what you have until you lose it.' I'm going to miss you...you still own me that revenge in chess, but relax the next time we see each other I will get it." He turned toward Hermione and Albus and asked them. "Would it be alright if I stay here tonight with you guys?…Pompey can't come she isn't feeling up to it she took it hard, Mad Eye and Haggrit are staying with her." Albus and Hermione looked at each other and then at Harry finally realizing how miserable they were, sitting there just waiting with red eyes and more tears to come.

"Of course you can." Said Albus.

"He looks asleep even if I know he isn't." Thought Harry out loud.

"I said almost the same thing."

"Hermione have you already you know…said your good-byes to him?"

"No, but I think it's time." After she said this Severus took in a sharp breath making it clear to everyone in the room that he would not last much more. She bent over Severus body and put her head on his chest to hear his heart, the moment Harry had asked her the question Fawkes had moved from the middle of Severus chest to the right laying his head on Severus shoulder singing softly into his ear. "Hey, Dear I know this wasn't what you had planned, but you could have been more careful…No, that sounds like I'm mad at you which isn't true I'm not mad at you please don't think that. I'm just afraid Rus I'm losing you and can't do anything to change that. I know you will always be there for me because you will never abandon me, but I'm still afraid I love you so much and soon I won't be able to spend time with you….. We have had so little time I know we would have had a brilliant future ahead, but this war has taken that away from you and me. I love you Rus please keep that in mind. I would beg you to stay but that would be selfish so please…When you arrive in heaven please wait for me." After this Hermione lifted her head and brushed her lips over his briefly before laying her head on his chest again.

Albus felt like his sons life was slipping away in front of his eyes and decided to say his last words also.

"My Dearest boy, my angle….What can I say to you in a moment like this? My heart screams that this can't be true that I can't be losing you, but my head knows it is. It's storming outside so I like to think that there are angels crying for you, I'm in shock and don't think I will realize that you aren't here until way after you left us…I see myself going to your quarters at Hogwards or your room at home only to realize you aren't with us anymore…" He took a breath. "You were the light and joy of my live since you were born, I made many mistakes in the past concerning you even so you forgave me. You were so wise from such a young age I remember once when you were 12/18 you had just come back from Azkaban and I told you who you were and what happened, you looked at me smiled and answered me this:

'Life is like a book from which you don't know the end and fear what you are reading. Soon after we are born we are exposed to pain and we have to learn to deal with it, to get over it, to believe in ourselves and with courage we will slowly grow up. And just like a book our heart will teach us that there are things we will fear, that we will fail, that there exists evil and that there will be battles we will have to win… And in every page of it love will make us winners, because if there is love there is hope and while there is hope nothing will be lost. There are very few that would risk everything for love, but whenever you have both hope and love inside you have everything. Don't fall down and stay down because living is learning to stand up to. You have nothing to fear as long as you believe in yourself and if you don't do it, remember I do. Only God knows when, where and why things happen and only he has right to judge us in the end of our lives… I don't believe you have done anything bad with the intention of doing so. I once have read an old cart somewhere it was from a parent to its child it said: My dearest child I write you this to ask for your forgiveness, I want you to know that none of the mistakes I made were one propose. I'm only human and you didn't came with an instruction book, I hope you understand that I never mend to hurt you and that my mistakes never came from hate or something like that they came from ignorance. I love you and hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me….I like to think of that cart at this moment and would like to tell you to not ask for forgiveness because that is what you ask for when you do something wrong, something you didn't. You are my Father and my hero, I love you with your good things and bad ones just remember I'm not the only one that came without instructions.'

"Those were your words and I could tell you really believed in them, but I don't think you ever understood the deepness of them I do still look at that memory often I never heard you say so many words before or after that…I love you my boy nothing will ever change that. The last thing I have to tell you is that you can stop fighting don't fight it more it's enough… sometimes when you stop fighting doesn't mean you abandon it means you let go and letting go is also winning. You need to stop fighting Lex you fought enough in your life just let go please don't suffer more let go…" While Albus said these last words a tear escaped his eye rolling down his face, his heart was begging him to beg his son to fight but he knew that wasn't fair to Severus and that when you really loved someone you set them free so he did just that….

None of the three noticed how the orb in his hand changed to yellow.

A/N: I really Hope you liked it…It is a pretty long chapter ...please review….please….pretty please….. I 'm begging you.