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16. Horror

Screaming and sobbing, he wanted to run away. The arm around his waist was firm, and the chuckles sent shivers down his spine. He didn't want to be here. He didn't want to be anywhere near here. He hated watching horror movies with his brother.

17. Acceptance

Eyes shining in delight, he tore open the letter and skimmed its contents. Running inside, he waved the letter in the air, calling for his parents. He was beaming as he nearly shoved it in his mother's face. "I got in! I got accepted to Seidou like aniki!"

18. Sympathy

He'd heard it many times. He couldn't even fake a smile or say thank you anymore. He stopped telling people. He didn't need their sympathy. They didn't understand. It wasn't their brother that died after all.

19. Holding

"What did you do?" Ryousuke smiled at his little brother, playing innocent. "What do you mean Haru-chan? I didn't do anything." Haruichi wasn't buying it. "Uh huh, then why are you in jail?" Chuckling lightly, he waved a hand, dismissing the question. "It's not jail Haru-chan, it's holding, there's a big difference."

20. Defeated

Haruichi fell back onto his bed. He couldn't believe it. It was over. They'd lost. They'd been defeated in the final round. Now he'd never get to play in the nationals with his big brother. Turning onto his side, he wondered if it was possible to feel so utterly defeated.

21. Pride

Ryousuke held his head high as he walked with his family to the park. He'd made a bet with his mother and lost, having to pay the price. There was a breeze between his legs and the straps on his shoes were itching, but he continued forward. While he was embarrassed about having to be her 'daughter for the day' and wear a dress she'd picked out, he wasn't going to hide or beg to leave. He still had his pride after all.

22. Knife

Clutching the knife in shaking hands, Haruichi stared at his reflection in the shining metal for a few seconds. Tears silently running down his face. Feeling a sudden rage build up, he threw the knife at the wall and watched it clatter to the ground before he curled up in a ball, sobbing. He still couldn't do it. He still wasn't strong enough.

23. Overwhelmed

Ever since he got his acceptance letter to Seidou, Haruichi felt his life suddenly picked up speed. There was packing to be done, arrangements to be made, tickets to be bought, questions to be answered, rules to go over, and so many tears. It was a little overwhelming, but a small price to pay to be able to play with his big brother again.

24. Depressed

Haruichi head them talk. He knew what they said. They thought he was depressed. Sure, he was reserved and quiet, but that didn't make him depressed. Smiling a little to himself as he practiced with his brother, he swung again. He wasn't depressed, not in the least.

25. Adoration

It was clear as day that Haruichi adored his big brother. He had since he was little. In his eyes, there was nobody as smart, strong, or amazing as Ryousuke was. He didn't care what others thought, he had always adored his big brother, and always would.

26. Worship

Ryousuke sometimes felt like he was worshiped by his younger brother. It was a strange feeling, having everything you do praised or copied. He didn't feel right, having such trusting and amazed eyes on him all the time. He didn't think he was worth it.

27. Zeal

He'd been too hasty, too excited. He hadn't realized what he was doing to himself until it was too late. All the time rushing to catch up to his big brother, and now he'd never reach him. Limping slightly to his seat, he smiled sadly as he watched his brother warm up. He'd been too excited to play, and now the most he could do was watch from the stands.

28. Light

Staring at the light, his vision was wavering. He couldn't feel anything, and couldn't make out any of the blurred faces that were above him. Letting his eyes fall shut, Ryousuke wondered why there was light in the distance, when everything was supposed to be dark.

29. Exhaustion

He was so tired. "You have to stay awake!" He wanted to sleep. "Come on, open your eyes!" He didn't understand why they were yelling. "You can't go to sleep! You have to stay awake!" Letting the pull of sleep overtake him, the voices above him began fading out. "Don't leave me Haruichi." He wanted to tell his brother he'd be right back, but his was too exhausted, and the promise of sleep was too tempting.

30. Obsession

Ryousuke was obsessed with his little brother's hair. He didn't know what it was, but the younger boy's hair was so soft and smooth and smelled nice. He could spend all day running his hand through the pink locks.