An: This ones for J2CaReese.I hope I captured what you were looking for.
You're everything I need and more, it's written all over your face Baby, I can feel your halo... I got my angel now"- Beyonce
Her mother had raised her to be strong and independent. She always told her that she should never rely on anyone to provide for her. Ever since then she had relied on herself and kept people at a distance. When she graduated High School she joined the military. Once she got out she put herself through law school.
Instead of sitting on her ass and crying about her situation with Paul, she took matters into her own hands and divorced him, not only to protect herself but to protect her son too. She busted her ass to become a detective and raise her income level, because she wasn't going to rely on Paul for child support. Most people, especially her colleagues thought she was a tight-assed bitch with an attitude problem. But she didn't care, nothing they said could penetrate her guard of steel.
She paid her own bills, bought her own stuff, and raised her child by herself. She always thought she would never feel like she needed anyone, because she could take care of herself. But all that changed with a chance meeting, when a homeless man beat up a bunch of punks on the subway.
She rolled over on her side and watched as John slept next to her. She watched the rise and fall of his chest as he lay on his back quietly snoring. She couldn't stop the smile that spread across her face, she never would have imagined this was how they'd end up. What started out as an investigation into an international criminal resulted in her falling in love.
Now that she thought about it she remembered the points in time where their relationship changed. The first time she started seeing him in a different light was when he saved her from getting killed by her CI. At that moment he became more than just a vigilante. When Snow tricked her and she almost got him killed was when she realized she didn't consider him her enemy. Slowly over time she realized that she could trust him and began to see him as her friend. She realized she had his trust when he came to her and asked her to help him find Finch.
Then somewhere in between those moments things changed without her realizing it. The moment she threw caution to the wind and tampered with federal evidence, was when she realized that he was more than just her friend. In the hallway in the DOD building, she realized she had feelings for him when she didn't want to let go of his arm. Even if she couldn't have disarmed the bomb she wanted to stay with him so he wouldn't be alone. When she was lying on the ground bleeding from being shot by Simmons, a claim took over her as she realized she was okay with dying and leaving her son, if it meant that he would live.
When she woke up in the hospital to see him slumped over her bedside, she decided she couldn't let him go. He was the only one she wanted to be with, the only one she needed to be with. He told her that she changed him, the funny thing was he changed her too. Whenever he was around her it was like the walls she built around herself didn't exist. It was like they tumbled and fell like dust around her feet whenever she was in his presence.
She snuggled closer to him and he subconsciously embraced her. He was her saving grace, he was everything she needed and more. He was her blue eyed angel in a nice suit. She closed her eyes and laid her head on his chest. It took them awhile to get to where they were now, but their love was like water, smooth, strong and calm, and just like water in time it could cut through anything.