I'm sorry for the long wait

I didn't know if anyone was actually reading

But here I am.

Enjoy ^-^

Ayumi~

I watch in jealousy as Nakashima waves goodbye to Mochida. The blush on his face is so adorable, I wish it was because of me.

"Soon, Ayumi, soon..." I tell myself, making my way towards Mochida who now stands alone.

"Hey Shinozaki," he says casually.

"Hello Mochida! Wondering if you want to go to the park with me?" I ask hastily, blushing hard.

"Uh... Sure," he replies.

As we walk, I note how hard he tries to keep a distance between us. It annoys me but I'll have you soon Mochida!

We find a bench in a rather secluded area and sit down.

"So what did you want, Shinozaki?" He asks.

"Just..." I smile, trying my best to look cute, "Just thought we could have... Some time alone."

I move closer to him.

Satoshi~

Shinozaki... What was she doing? And why is she smiling like that... It's kinda creepy.

"Satoshi..." She whispers. Why is she using my first name?

She touches my cheek.

Oh God, she's hitting on me?

She's so close she's practically sitting on my lap.

Awkwardly, I move my head away from hers, trying my best to get away. But she's heavier than she looks.

"Shino-" I am cut off by a gasp.

"Nakashima?" I hear Shinozaki ask and I turn my head to see a rather flustered looking Naomi.

"Naomi, I-" I begin but I'm cut off by Shinozaki who starts stroking my hair, ignoring Naomi.

I sigh and gently push her off. As I stand and make my way towards Naomi who looks confused and a little hurt, Shinozaki rubs her head and glares at Naomi.

"Can I have a word Nakashima?" She asks angrily.

Before I can say anything, she storms past me and the two girls disappear from my view.

I guess I can intervene if things get out of hand.

Naomi ~

"Bitch I was so close!" Shinozaki shouts at me.

I stare at her in disbelief.

"What!? Is THAT it!?" I yell back.

"Stay away from him!" She snarls at me.

"He doesn't even like you!"

"He does!"

I sigh, annoyed. She can be so oblivious sometimes.

She slaps me then.

Hard.

Across my face.

And I don't take shit lightly.

Not at all.

I touch my cheek were she hit me.

And I slap her back, even harder.

"How dare you..." She spits.

I have to dodge her as she charges me, her angry blue eyes full of determination. I move just in time.

She spins around, her hair falling out of the bunches.

I don't want to hurt her really. I'm not like that.

But she seems very intent on hurting me.

"So, Nakashima-San,' she hisses, "You better stay away from Mochida-Kun!"

I stand there, trying my best to calm myself down, ignoring the hateful glare Shinozaki was sending my way.

Ayumi~

I hate her. Hatehatehate her. For stealing Mochida's heart. It's not fair! She's pretty AND smart, she can get anyone she wants. But no- she goes for the guy I want most of all.

I hate her.

"Just die Nakashima. No one wants you.

Just die.

Nakashima.

Just die.

It will be a relief for everyone.

Especially Mochida," I think, trying to comfort myself.

But Nakashima's gasp confirms that I've said that all out loud. And I didn't mean to, not really.

Her eyes fill with tears and I realise how innocent, how sweet she looks.

How much I hurt her.

"Yeah. So shut up!" I say, running away. I try my best to direct my anger at Nakashima, but really I know I'm angry at myself.

Satoshi~

What's taking them so long?

I sigh and start walking to the place where Naomi and Shinozaki disappeared but they are not there. They are not anywhere.

How could I have been so stupid to let them go alone?

Naomi is strong... And she's soft hearted so I doubt anything she'd say would be bad.

Shinozaki, however, has a very sharp tongue. If she and Naomi had a fight... Who knows what she'll have said.

Why did I leave them alone?

Stupid.

Stupid.

Stupid.

I call Shinozaki. No answer.

I try Naomi. Same luck.

I make my way over to Naomi's house, the path being quite familiar. No car is in the drive so I assume her mother is out. The door is open a little, so I push it and let myself in. An eerie silence is in the air.

I sense a presence but I am left alone in the middle of the abandoned hallway.

Cautiously, I make my way up the stairs to where Naomi's room is. The door is locked.

"N-Naomi?" I call, answered by no one.

I chuck my jacket to the side and kick open the door.

I nearly fall back at the sight.

Ayumi~

I sit up and shake my head. The last thing I remember is running home, tears streaming down my face, as I imagine Mochida and Nakashima discussing me behind my back.

Shinozaki is insane.

Shinozaki is ugly.

Shinozaki is a loner.

Shinozaki is a bully.

Don't talk to Shinozaki, you might become mad too.

Don't listen to Shinozaki, the occult loving freak.

All I need is a chance to redeem myself.

Find some way to make up for what I did, what I said. I still remember the bright red hand print I left on Nakashima's face, the way her usually shining eyes glistened with tears.

But my words.

They were harsh, I hate to admit.

I want to be angry at Nakashima, blame it on her but I can't. It's not her fault Mochida likes her and not me. I was unfair.

My phone vibrates suddenly, and I pull it out my pocket.

{I don't care what happened between you two- just meet me at Naomi's house immediately- Satoshi}

What happened...? Whatever it is, I know I should help.

{On my way- Ayumi}

I stop just before walking out the door.

"Calm..." I tell myself.

"It's your fault.. so do something about it."

I set off.

Satoshi~

I rush over to Naomi who is unconscious in a pool of her own blood.

"NAOMI!" I yell, trying my best to get some reaction.

I check her breathing- a little forced but alright.

A small silver knife lies beside her, obviously the cause of the blood.

I check to see where its coming from and grimace as I see deep cuts along her once flawless arm.

"Oh Naomi..." I whisper as I text Shinozaki for help.

Naomi's eyes are closed, one arm bent to the side, the other lying on her chest. She looks like one of those corpses in murder films.

Not a happy thought.

I pick her up and take my shirt off, using it to stem the flow of blood pouring from her arm.

"Please Naomi... Be okay..." I whisper desperately.

Her eyes flutter open.

Naomi~

The first thing I notice is that I'm being hugged tightly by a shirtless Satoshi who seems to be whispering something. The second thing I notice is the throbbing pain in my left arm.

I remember.

Rushing home, Shinozaki's words fresh in my mind.

"Just die..."

I remember grabbing the sharpest knife I could find, locking my bedroom door and running it along my arm. So deep. So painful.

Only the first step.

I remember passing out from being so over whelmed, thanking Shinozaki for helping me realise the truth.

And here I am, covered in blood, being cradled in Satoshi's arms while he sobs into my hair.

"Satoshi..." I breathe, wincing in pain.

He gasps and pulls away.

"Naomi!?"

I smile weakly at him as his expression turns from desperate to relieved. Then concerned.

"You idiot..." He says before embracing me in another hug.

Everything blurs, and I focus on Satoshi's face only, so close to mine. I push away the pain and think about how happy I am with Satoshi. How much we need each other.

How much I love him.

Everything goes black and I think no more.

Satoshi~

"N-Naomi!?" I yell as her eyes close once more. I check her breathing- barely audible. The blood is now seeping through my shirt. Her face is pale.

Naomi was going to die.

I can't help her.

The medics can't help her.

It's too late.

Ayumi~

I run as fast as I can to Nakashima's house, already having thought ahead; several medics run in my wake.

I head straight to Nakashima's room to find Mochida cradling Nakashima's limp form in his arms.

But I don't think- I act.

He nods at me in acknowledgement as I press my palm against the deep wounds she inflicted upon herself; although I know it was actually me who did it.

The medics thank me and take Nakashima away with them- Mochida goes too, shaking violently.

I am left alone with nothing but a blood stained carpet.

I work at cleaning the stains as best as I can for when anyone returns. I don't know if Nakashima will ever forgive me. I wouldn't if I were her. But I am comforted by the fact that I helped her and Satoshi out. She would have died... And I would be left with that burden...

I really saved myself, not Nakashima. From guilt. Unbearable guilt.

But I did something and that's at least a little.

"I'm sorry Nakashima..." I whisper to myself.

Satoshi~

Please be okay...

Naomi...

Don't leave me...

Being taken to several hospital rooms, bleak and unwelcoming.

Naomi...

Stay with me...

I need you...

Waiting for an eternity, for some sign that she is okay.

I'm waiting for you...

Stay strong...

Naomi...

Nobody saying anything, ignoring my questions.

Is she okay?

Will she live?

When can I see her again?

And then...

"Satoshi Mochida?" A warm voice asks.

I look up, hopeful, to see one of the doctors smiling secretively at me.

"Is she okay?" Is my first question.

He laughs knowingly, annoying me quite a bit.

Just tell me, dammit.

"Go and see for yourself."

I am lead into a quiet room where an agitated Naomi is sitting up on a bed. Her worried expression is immediately replaced by an adorably happy smile as she sees me.

"Satoshi! You're here!" She says as I wrap my arms around her waist.

"I've been okay for a while... But they wanted to wait for my arm to fully heal," she says, her eyes shining.

I've missed her so much.

Once she is allowed to leave, we go straight to my house.

"Promise me you'll never do that again, okay?" I say.

She nods.

"So do you forgive Shinozaki?"

I wouldn't blame her if she says no.

"Of course I do..." She says, smiling.

"Oh Naomi..." I whisper as she wraps her arms around my neck.

"I love you Satoshi~!"

"I love you too, Naomi."

We sleep together that night, Naomi resting her head on my chest while I wrap my arms around her.

She is safe now.

I forgive you Shinozaki.

I'm sooo sorry for the wait

But I'm lazy :)

Hopefully I'll update more this week

As it's the half term

Thanks for reading •

Lav xx