A/N: Thanks to Sherry xx
Chapter 37
The weeks that followed my episode were tough. I felt ashamed of my actions. I knew I had let everyone down and I could tell that they were all disappointed with me. Conversations were dry. No one made eye contact. I don't think anyone other than Edward wanted to spend any time with me. I spent most of my time in my bedroom, dwelling on what I had done. I had never felt so alone.
I knew I had to make things up to them. I had to show them that I was going to change. That I was worthy of their concern and affection, and I wasn't going to make the same mistake again.
Carlisle had arranged for me to see one of his friends. A shrink. I wasn't overly happy at the idea, but I knew attending the appointments would show everyone that I was trying and in all honesty it wasn't that bad. Of course, I had to get used to talking instead of bottling things up. Once I got over that, I started to feel lighter, like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Dr. Foster had helped me set goals and it felt good to have something to aim for. I wanted to graduate from high school. So, I looked up the nearest Adult Education Center where I could obtain my GED. There was actually one in town, which was perfect. The only problem was that it cost money, and all the money I had was gone. I presume James had taken it when I was out, and I wasn't about to ask for anything else from Jasper or Edward. So, I had to find a job.
"What are you doing?" Jasper asked, eyeing me as he walked into the house. He looked drenched in sweat, like he had just been for a run.
I was sitting at the dining table, with the newspaper spread out in front of me, looking over the local ads. "Just looking for a job."
Jasper cocked his eyebrow. "Do you think that is such a good idea? Shouldn't you focus on your sessions with Dr. Foster first?"
"It was Dr. Foster's idea." Well, not really his idea, but he had helped me set some goals for myself.
"Oh. Do you need any help?"
I shook my head. It was important for me to do this on my own. I didn't want them to call in any more favors.
I found an ad for a waitress in a café down by the boardwalk. It was part-time, so I should be able to fit my classes and my appointments around it, hopefully. I called the number on the ad and spoke to a woman named Sue. She was eager to meet me and asked me to come down later that day for an interview.