Deidara wakes up that night, pleasantly warm and cuddling with his highly attractive, naked sub. Said sub's cute, perky little ass is pressed right up against his groin. Deidara is not going to take advantage of him in this state, however, and simply slips out of bed to make them breakfast. They have enough food in the house for it. Kakashi's pads out a little bit later, horrible bedhead and scratching his head lightly.

"Master? Can I do that?" Deidara shoos him to sit at the table, setting food down for both of them.

"Thank you, but I was already done, yeah." Kakashi nervously looks at the food then back at Dei.

"Um- What do you want me to do?"

"Eat, please, un. And keep it down, yeah." Deidara gives him a serious look that makes his ears burn with embarrassment even though he knows he's supposed to throw it up. So why does Deidara knowing about it make him nervous? Kakashi nervously eats the food, avoiding Deidara's gaze. Deidara eats as well. Kakashi does the dishes before Deidara can, needing to do something. When Deidara goes to head to the shower, Kakashi follows him a bit skittishly.

"Sir? Can I accompany you in the shower?"

"Um- I guess, if you want to, un. You need one too anyway, yeah." Kakashi strips then helps Deidara out of his clothes, turning on the shower and figuring out a nice temperature, all before Deidara gets in. Deidara makes Kakashi let Dei wash him, Kashi not having been looked after by anyone in a while. Kakashi shy about it, not like he is with the sexual stuff. He steals the scrubbie from Deidara to wash himself at certain points. Kakashi then washes Deidara, sinking to his knees once he's done and opening his mouth. Deidara carefully helps him up.

"Nu-uh. I just got you clean, yeah."

"O- Oh. Do you want me to grab the washcloth then instead? Or fill the tub? Master liked that." It sickens Deidara to realize that Kakashi's talking about torturing him. Kashi was offering himself up to be held under water until Dei decided otherwise or waste boarding for Deidara's entertainment.

"No thank you, un. We're going to be late to work, yeah." Deidara turns off the water, stepping out and making sure his sub gets thoroughly dried off before drying off himself. Kakashi clutches the towel close after they get out of the shower, looking completely out of his element. He just awkwardly stands and waits while Deidara gets dressed. Deidara helps him get dressed and bundle up in a coat before they go to work. Kisame is anxiously waiting, having heard the news.

Deidara glares at Kisame, but Kakashi seems glad to talk to him so Dei doesn't comment. Deidara helps Kakashi with makeup and wardrobe, and the show is an absolute hit. Kisame steals him after as well, talking quietly with Kakashi in the corner of the dressing room. Deidara can't hear what they're talking about, but whatever it is makes Kashi's eyes well up and him hide against Kisame for a bit. Deidara goes over there to tell Kakashi to wait in here for him while he goes to deal with Pein. Kakashi peeks at him from Kisame's shoulder, giving a little nod. Deidara leaves, going to see his Dom.

Pein's downstairs, as always, a rather tall girl draped across his bed. Deidara stops in the doorway. She's his opposite, thin and pretty and tall. He clears his throat to get her attention.

"Um- Where is Pein?" Deidara asks awkwardly.

"Mm… In the back. I could always help you, hun." She grins at him, all sharp teeth and bright bright eyes. He narrows his eyes at her, leaving to look for him. Pein's doing his paperwork in the back. He looks up when Deidara comes in.

"I don't have you scheduled for today."

"My schedule said differently, Sir. My mistake, yeah. But, since I'm down here… Why, um, why's that girl here?"

"Oh. I liked when I had someone else with you. Anko will be helping. You can stay for the rest of tonight, however, now that I have both of you."

"Kakashi's waiting for me-"

"I want you tonight. Go get dressed in your Puppy stuff. Now." Deidara runs off. When he goes to get the stuff from upstairs where he left it, he goes over to Kakashi.

"Change of plans, un. Will you go to my apartment and stay there tonight, un?" Kakashi nods, giving Deidara a shy little smile. He leaves as told. Deidara gets on his puppy stuff and heads back down to see Pein. Pein keeps him all night, playing with both him and Anko. The new dynamic works better for all of them. It makes Deidara's heart ache a little bit less when Pein allows them all to snuggle in his bed after. He stays through the day, waking up in time for the show. After the show, Deidara takes Kakashi home.

"How was last night without me, un?" Kakashi fiddles with his shirt, casting a longing glance back at the club as they go.

"I missed you, Sir. Will you fuck me tonight? I'm always lonely without you to keep me company. Please don't ever leave." And though the words sound kinda Kashi-like, they sound… rehearsed. Deidara shakes his head.

"I'm not going to fuck you, un. What happened last night, un?" Deidara unlocks the door.

"Oh. I came home. I made you dinner. Then I waited in the corner." Kakashi glances away guiltily. "I- I- um, I fell asleep. I'm sorry, Sir."

"Don't be sorry, un. I'm glad you got some sleep, yeah." Deidara stretches, glad to be home. He takes off their coats and puts them up. Kakashi follows nervously, waiting to be punished. He physically flinches when Deidara goes to the bathroom and finds some bandages still out. Deidara puts them away, not seeming angry, but worried.

"Did you get hurt, un?" He asks, looking over his sub. Kakashi hides his hands a little more.

"Y- Yes, Sir. I'm sorry, Sir, I- I thought I put those away-" Deidara holds out his hands.

"Show me, please." Kakashi holds out his hands for Deidara. There's what used to be a nasty blister along the inside of his palm, about the shape of one of their oven racks. The blister's popped and then rubbed raw from the long night on the pole. Deidara takes him over to the sink, gently washing it and murmuring that he has to be more careful. He rebandages Kakashi's palm, then gives it a very soft kiss.

"Anything else you didn't tell me, un?" Deidara asks softly. Kakashi bites his lip, looking away.

"I'm sorry, Sir. I- I, um- I fell asleep waiting for you. A- And I'm- I'm sorry, I- um, I a- ate some of y- yo- your dinner. I- I threw it u- up right af- after…" His eyes fill with tears, Kakashi dropping his gaze shamefully. "I- I burned my hand. A- And I- I- I touched th- that bear o- of yours a- and I- I sl- slept in one of your t- t-shirts." He is incredibly shocked when Deidara hugs him close as if he just wants to protect him from the world.

"Shh… It's okay, yeah. I'm so sorry, un. I shouldn't have left you alone, yeah. I'm sorry." Deidara kisses his head. Kakashi whimpers in confusion, hiding against his shoulder.

"S- Sir, I- I don't-" Deidara nuzzles his head.

"You don't have to be sorry for those things, yeah. You're free, remember, un?" Kakashi shakes his head, hiding further against him.

"S- Sir, please. Can you punish me? I know I- I fucked up."

"Kakashi, you didn't do anything wrong, un. Except for throwing up, yeah. I want you to keep down your food, okay, un?" Deidara pulls him back to look at him, blue eyes completely desperate. Kakashi gives an involuntary little nod, anything to make that look disappear from his eyes.

"I- I- y- yes, Sir. Will- Will you punish me, please Sir? I disobeyed the rules." Deidara shakes his head, hugging Kakashi close again instead, mostly so that Kakashi doesn't see the tears in his eyes.

"N-No. I'm not going to punish you, 'Kashi." Deidara says, voice barely staying even. Kakashi carefully hugs him back, making a soft confused sound in the back of his throat.

"Sir-?" Deidara gives a small shake of his head, positive that his voice will crack. Kakashi's cheeks burn in shame. "Pl- Please."

"Why?" As he expected, Deidara's voice cracks. He hides against Kakashi's shoulder in a very unDom-like fashion. Kakashi uncertainly hugs him.

"I- I'm sorry, Sir? Why are you sad?" Deidara shakes his head, voice barely able to be heard.

"I miss you." Deidara murmurs. He speaks louder, hoping that Kakashi didn't hear him. "I'm not sad, y-yeah." Deidara can almost physically feel Kakashi withdraw into himself at the softly spoken words, the progress pretty much gone.

"How can I help, Sir? I'll do anything, Sir." Deidara mentally curses himself for being so thoughtless, kissing Kakashi's head.

"I'm sorry, un. That was- That was uncalled for, yeah. I-I'm not sad, I promise, yeah."

"Sir, please, Sir. How can I help you, Sir? I'm always happier when Master's happier, Sir." Deidara gives a broken little sigh, letting him go and offering a weak smile.

"Why don't we get some sleep, un. You can sleep in bed with me, yeah. It's been a long night, yeah."

"Yes, Sir." Kakashi follows, keeping his eyes down. He curls up on the floor next to Deidara, like a good sub is supposed to. Deidara pulls Kakashi into the bed, cuddling up to him with an odd little whimper. Kakashi hesitantly snuggles a little closer, nuzzling into the crook between Deidara's shoulder and neck and just hiding there. Poor thing's yet again stripped bare. Deidara gets out of bed, dressing Kakashi in one of Dei's t-shirts and some boxers before hugging him close again.

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Deidara wakes up first that night, Kakashi fidgeting in his sleep beside him. The shirt's all rucked up to his armpits and he's slowly wiggling out of the boxers by doing his little puppy kicks. Deidara very carefully pulls the clothes back on, hugging him close. Kashi gives a little whine in his sleep, snuggling closer to the warm blonde beside him. Deidara holds him, giving his head gentle nuzzles. Kakashi slowly wakes up, humming softly and hiding in his neck like he did before.

"Mm… Dei…"

"Morning, un." Deidara murmurs. Kakashi makes a little happy sound, clearly still half asleep. He licks Deidara's neck, gently biting his spot.

"Wanna better wake up th'n that…" Deidara gives a little groan before chuckling softly and gently rubs his back.

"Come on, un. We've gotta get ready for work, yeah…" Kakashi nibbles on it a little more, flicking his tongue over the sensitive skin.

"We're not getting paid anyways this week. Just fuck me, Sir…" Deidara whines softly, gently pushing him back.

"I can't do that, Kashi. I'm not going to take advantage of you, yeah." Deidara says, looking at him. Kakashi looks up at him, fighting automatically slipping into the submissive headspace.

"Please."

"Are you sure, un?" Kakashi nods, leaning up to give him a kiss.

"If I address you as Master, please pull me back out of the headspace. I… It's easier to lock up all the memories in being a sub and being fucked brings that out."

"Kakashi, I don't know about this, un…" Deidara looks worried. Kakashi gives him another reassuring kiss.

"The prostate's a thing. As are condoms. Wait. Actually. Fuck. I have to get tested after Ma- Orochimaru. No sex." Deidara hugs him instead.

"Are you okay, un?" Kakashi snuggles closer, nibbling at his neck unfairly.

"... It's hard to stay out of. I used to hate my sub headspace. Then you came along and I loved it. And I kinda hate it again."

"Oh. I'm sorry, un." Kakashi works one a dark mark at the juncture of his shoulder, biting and sucking at it.

"Don't be. I'm just not quite me. And it's… frustrating. It's terrifying while I'm in that headspace. Like- when someone doesn't give aftercare and all you can feel is the subdrop. Once you're out of the headspace, you're fine. A bit lonely, but not bad. In the headspace, it's the end of the world. It's like that. Outside, I can look at it clinically and I'm here. Not so much when I'm in it. Just pull me out every now and again?"

"How?" Deidara sounds confused and feels useless. Kakashi gently cups his face, giving him a very sweet kiss.

"You'll know. Remind me of us. Something that'd pull me out of a scene on a normal day." Deidara nods, hugging him tightly and hiding against him like he's a sub instead of a Dom. Kakashi doesn't mind, holding him close. He croons softly to him, like Deidara's the one who needs to be taken care of. Deidara sniffles, clinging to him.

"I don't know how to do this, yeah." Kakashi rubs his back, kissing over his head.

"Well, anytime you get sick of my shit, just throw me out on my ass. I won't mind." Deidara smacks him lightly on the arm, not enough to hurt in the slightest.

"Don't be a dumbass, un. I'd never kick you out, yeah." Deidara says, voice muffled in Kakashi's neck. Kakashi grins and chuckles softly.

"Aww, thanks, sweetheart. Just remember that when you get fed up with me, 'kay?"

"I won't get fed up with you, un. I lo- you mean a lot to me, yeah." Kakashi pulls back a little, a shit-eating grin across his face.

"You gettin' all mushy on me, Iwa?" Deidara glances away, a light blush across his face.

"N-No. Of course not. Shut up, Hatake." He sounds flustered.

Kakashi kisses his cheek, getting a bit more serious. "You mean a lot to me, too." Deidara looks up at him, and it breaks his heart how confused his blonde looks.

"You what, un?"

Kakashi's the one blushing now, hiding in his hair. "I really care about you, jerk." Deidara nuzzles his neck.

"Thank you, un." Deidara mumbles. Kakashi steals another kiss, nuzzling him back. Deidara clings to him. "Please don't leave again, un."

"Never again." Kakashi holds him close, rubbing his back. He murmurs quietly to Deidara, just little things that he's noticed or he thinks will make Deidara happy. Deidara hides in the crook of his neck, mumbling an apology when Kakashi falls silent for a moment.

"Shh. I love- the way you are. Okay? It's not your fault what happened." Kakashi talks into his hair, voice muffled but still soft and Kakashi in control.

"I- I-" Deidara is trying to hold back tears, not knowing what to say. Kakashi lifts Deidara's face, kissing him very very softly so he doesn't have to say anything at all. He pretends not to notice when Deidara starts crying, gently cupping his face instead and thumbing over his cheeks. Deidara looks up at him helplessly. He looks so lost and even scared; a far cry from who he was when Kakashi first met him. Kakashi rubs their noses together, keeping his voice a soft rumble to preserve the moment.

"I'm always here for you. Even when it seems that everything else is gone and I might not be all here, I'm always here for you."

"Thank you." Deidara whispers. Kakashi hums an affirmative, lapsing into comfortable silence. Deidara manages to cry himself out in time for them to head to work. Deidara keeps watching Kakashi when he thinks he isn't looking, as if afraid that he won't notice Kakashi going back to his sub headspace. Pein eventually calls him down, no Anko tonight. He's forced to stop watching Kakashi.

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Deidara looks around the club for Kakashi that morning once everyone has headed home, Pein keeping him later than normal. He finds him quietly curled up in the room they made out in, worrying a spare shirt between his fingers. Kashi looks up and smiles brightly when he walks in, that familiar sub glow in his eyes.

"Hi, Sir. Ready to go home?" Kakashi watches Deidara's face fall before the blonde carefully schools his expression.

"Yeah. Come on, Love. You did a great job waiting for me, yeah." Deidara isn't exactly sure how to get Kakashi back, so he tries doing it through thinly veiled aftercare. Kakashi follows happily, shyly brushing the backs of their hands together as they walk. He seems better in the sub headspace after their little talk this morning. Deidara holds his hand, trying to keep his voice normal.

"How was work when I left, un?" He asks. Kakashi blushes, smiling widely at Deidara when he holds his hand.

"It was okay. I missed you, Sir. Kisame and I got booked for a room, Kisame on bottom and me on top. Did you have fun with Pein, Sir?"

"I guess so, un. I missed you, Love." He unlocks the door, holding it open for Kakashi. Kakashi walks in, bouncing lightly on his feet. He starts on dinner after a moment, like he had forgotten it.

"Really? Thank you, Sir. Um- May I ask a question, Sir?"

"Of course, un." Deidara helps him with dinner, careful to keep Kakashi from injury. Kakashi doesn't hurt himself with all Deidara's attention on him, cooking perfectly fine.

"Why do you call me Love, Sir?"

"I- I've always called you that during aftercare." Deidara explains, having to turn away for a moment to school his expression before resuming the chopping of his vegetables.

"Oh. But it's not after sex, Sir." Kakashi sounds happy, but confused at the whole process.

"Well- well yeah, but- still." Deidara stutters. He falls silent, finishing dinner and eating with Kakashi. Kashi brings it up again after dinner, when Deidara was having him pick out a movie to work on his independent skills again.

"Sir? Do you love me?"

"Wh-What?" Deidara asks, startled by his blunt question. Kakashi sticks out his tongue just the tiniest bit, having narrowed down the movies.

"Well, You call me Love outside of after sex. So I was wondering if I was Your love. So if You loved me."

"O-Oh. Um- Oh. I- I never thought about it that way." Kakashi carries three movies over, setting before Deidara to let him pick. It's an apparent tie between the third Lord of the Rings, The Princess Bride, and The Dark Crystal. Deidara picks the Princess Bride for him, putting it in with a yawn. Kakashi hesitantly inches closer during the previews, keeping his voice hushed.

"Sir? May I sit by Your feet?" Considering how awkward Deidara has been, his question takes Kakashi completely by surprise.

"Will you cuddle with me, un?" Kakashi nods a bit, immediately snuggling close to him. Deidara shifts so Kakashi is under him, a very unDom-like thing to do, and cuddles up to the larger guy. "Thank you, un."

Kakashi wraps his arms around his Dom, gently kissing his head. He holds him for the movie, carrying Deidara to bed when he falls asleep about halfway through. Deidara's grip on him basically forces Kakashi to lay down too. Kakashi snuggles down in bed with him, tucking Deidara in. He sheds his clothes before climbing in as well, kissing Deidara's forehead.

"Good night, Master." There's a soft whine from his blonde, Dei kissing at his neck sleepily. Kakashi shivers, arching his head for Deidara. Deidara makes a soft purr, hugging him around his waist.

"Mm… 'Kashi…" Kakashi makes a little sound in return, helpfully pressing up against Deidara. Deidara blinks up at him slowly. "May I fuck you, un?"

Kakashi shudders, tilting his head back more and arching against Deidara submissively. "P- Please, Sir." Deidara moves up, kissing him deeply. Kakashi kisses him back, whimpering softly against his lips. Deidara is surprisingly gentle, hand gently pinching a nipple. Kakashi gasps, moaning quietly. He immediately stifles it, arching more into his hand.

"I wanna hear you, Love…" Deidara gently nibbles his bottom lip so he'll let go of it. Kakashi releases the lip, dragging him into another kiss and moaning into his mouth. Kakashi tugs at Deidara's shirt, carefully pulling it off. Deidara pulls him close, licking along his bottom lip. Kakashi opens his mouth for Deidara, shyly meeting Dei's tongue with his own before letting him have complete control. Deidara explores his mouth, going over his sweet spots instead of violating his mouth. Kakashi trembles under him, kissing him back a little sloppily and clacking their teeth together in an effort to get closer.

Deidara chuckles softly, a sound in the back of his throat. He pulls Kakashi close, gently tracing over his ass as he continues. Kakashi keens softly, arching right up against him. He wraps his arms around Deidara, pressing himself flush to him. Deidara gently moves Kakashi under him, gently breaking the kiss and leaning down to lick one of his nipples.

"O- Oh…" He gasps, groaning breathily like he hasn't been touched since he was taken away from Deidara. Deidara continues, using teeth gently. Kakashi moans and squirms under him, occasionally biting his lip to hold in a particularly loud noise. He eventually detaches Deidara from his nipple, kissing him deeply. He reaches down to slowly stroke him through his underwear. Deidara groans softly, hips moving into his touch. Kakashi tugs at his underwear needily, whining softly. Deidara wiggles out of them, kicking them off the bed unceremoniously. Kakashi actually gives a little whimper, gently taking Deidara in his hand and thumbing over his head to spread the precum as he strokes him. Deidara moans softly.

"F-Fuck…" Kakashi smiles a little bit, a good Kakashi smile. He uses his other hand to fondle Deidara's balls, leaning down to lightly suck on his nipples. Deidara's eyes roll back in his head a bit with a groan, fingernails digging into Kakashi's shoulders a bit. He is careful not to do it enough to hurt, force of habit from being punished for leaving marks on Pein. Kakashi detaches a little, long enough to talk against his skin.

"Please, Sir. I l- like it when it hurts." Deidara gives a little nod, harshly digging his perfectly manicured claws into Kakashi's back. Kakashi moans louder, latching back onto a nipple and stroking him faster. Deidara arches against him with a moan, fingers moving up to tangle in Kakashi's hair, tugging at the wild silver locks. Kashi moves a little farther down him, licking at his cock and kissing over it. He licks the underside, hesitating before starting on a mark on his dick. He earns a string of moans and curses from Dei, the blonde obviously enjoying the pain. Kakashi nibbles and sucks on him before slowly taking Deidara into his mouth.

Deidara tugs at his hair, clinging to him and trying to keep quietish for the neighbors even though Kakashi can still hear the moans and whimpers spilling from his lips. Kakashi sucks and blows him till he cums in Kashi's mouth, the older man swallowing it all and gently pulling off him. Deidara pulls him up for a slow kiss, groaning softly at the taste of himself on Kakashi's lips.

"Mm.. I still have to fuck you, yeah…" He murmurs through the kiss. Kakashi blushes softly, kissing him back with a little whine. Kashi gasps a little when his dick rubs Deidara and gives an involuntary little hump toward him.

"You don't have to if you don't want to, Sir." Deidara slowly moves his hips against Kakashi, rubbing them together.

"No, un? But I want to, yeah…" Kakashi moans, grinding shamelessly against him for the friction.

"Pleasepleaseplease…"

"Go get lube and a condom, okay, un? I don't want to hurt you and we still need to get you tested after him, yeah." Deidara nuzzles him gently, in spite of the situation. Kakashi nods eagerly, going to get the stuff. He bounds back with it, all happy to be with Deidara.

"Sir? Why do I need to be tested? For what?" Deidara takes them with a 'thank you', rolling on the condom.

"Do you know if he had any STIs, un?" Kakashi comes close, settling on Deidara's left thigh. He's sure to keep his weight off his Dom.

"Master always used a condom. So did the guests that I served. They didn't want to catch 'any nasty skank viruses from a whore'." Deidara nods, pulling him up.

"'C'mere, un. You're too far away, yeah." Kakashi blinks, sitting up for him.

"Where do you want me, Sir?" Deidara attempts to open the lube, moving over for him.

"Lay on your back, please, un." Kakashi does so, automatically sticking a pillow under his hips so Deidara will be able to get in easier. He spreads his legs wide, blushing a bit deeper. His Dom curses, any serious air to this occasion thwarted as Kakashi giggles softly when Deidara drops the lube again, his sub seeing it slip out of his hands. Deidara scowls at it, talking to inanimate objects.

"Why are you being so difficult, un? I was trying to have a moment, yeah." He picks it up, groaning in frustration when he drops it again. Kakashi laughs again, moving and giving Deidara a messy kiss. He tries to grab it, only to have it slip out of his fingers. It elicits a giggle out of Deidara, both of them done for when they make eye contact and realize how ridiculous their situation is. They laugh together, the first time Kakashi has shown real emotion in a while. When it's all died down and Deidara is laying on Kakashi again, Kashi grins at him happily and grinds against his thigh to remind him of what they were doing. And it's the happiest Dei's been in a while. Those little butterflies start up again, Deidara realizing that he's totally and completely fucked.

He loves the little shit.