Over the next few days, Deidara sees more and more glimpses of the old Kashi. One afternoon, after being with Pein for hours after closing in order to secure him and Kakashi the night off, Deidara limps home and immediately falls onto the couch once he has cleared the doorway. He is exhausted. Kakashi comes in, nuzzling at him gently.
"Hi! How're you, Sir?" Deidara's response is a grumbled 'no work tonight'. Kakashi kisses his head, touching Deidara's hair.
"Thank you, Sir. Can I make you something to eat?" Deidara shakes his head, having had to give Pein head a few too many times.
"M- May I cuddle with you, Sir?" Kakashi still gets nervous about coupley stuff while in the headspace, Orochimaru having basically beaten it out of him. Deidara gives a small nod, but has no energy to move over to give him room. Kakashi doesn't mind. He moves Deidara, content to be the big spoon while he sleeps. They pass out on the couch, all entangled together. They finally get a full eight hours. Kakashi wakes up stiff that night from how he's sleeping, whining softly at his hand having fallen asleep. Kakashi steals out of their imprompto bed, running a bath for Deidara with lots of bubbles then dipping strawberries and other fruits in chocolate and sticking them in the fridge to cool for after the bath. He gently shakes Deidara awake. Deidara groans, rolling over and hiding from him with a mumble of 'five more minutes...'.
Kashi whines softly, nosing at him. "Please? I ran a bath for you, Sir…"
"A b'th, un?" Deidara turns looking up at him with adorable sleepy confusion. Kakashi grins at him.
"With lots of bubbles, Sir. I put that nice vanilla stuff you like in it." Since money is tight, has been since Kakashi left, he hasn't had a bath or any of the bath oil that smells like vanilla and feels heavenly. Kashi must have bought a little with his tips for Deidara. Deidara looks pleasantly surprised, smiling at him hugely.
"Really, un?" He asks hopefully. Kakashi nods, flushing lightly. Deidara pulls him down for a kiss before awkwardly standing. He still has a limp, incredibly sore. Kakashi can't quite help but growl at that, scurrying away when Deidara looks at him funny for it. Deidara limps to the bathroom, letting out a soft moan as the perfectly warm water relaxes his aching body. Kakashi comes in a little later, poking his head in. A fluffy pair of ears are clipped into the sides of his hair, giving him the appearance of a slightly curious cat. Deidara looks at him.
"Care to join me, un?" He asks. Kakashi sneaks in, an equally fluffy tail protruding out his backside. Deidara looks him over appreciatively, eyes darkening a bit. "Well, hello, un."
Kakashi grins cheekily at him, sidling up to the tub. "I made food. Do you want some?"
"What did you make, un?" Deidara practically purrs, definitely enjoying how his sub looks and obviously would jump him if he wasn't sore. Kakashi arches his back a little, bringing his head closer for attention.
"Fruit in chocolate, Sir. Should I bring it to you?" Deidara nods, gently smoothing back his hair.
"Take the tail out so you can join me, please, un." Kakashi instead turns so Deidara can do it, head going down and ass up for Dei can see the plug in his sub. Deidara very gently pulls it out for him, kissing his ass once he's done so. He also hands Kashi the tail once he's turned back around. "Will you put this in the room on your way back, un?"
Kakashi nods, taking it from him. He comes back with a tray of fruit and no tail. He takes off the ears as well, setting the fruit next to the tub before slipping in behind Deidara. Deidara leans back against his taller sub, making a sound of contentment. Kakashi nuzzles his head, feeding him slowly. They have a few awkward disintegrating chocolate moments before Dei gets the hang of it, the blonde tilting his head back so he can see his sub well enough to feed him one too. Kakashi carefully eats it, having watched Deidara and learned from his mistakes. He sucks off the piece of chocolate that lands on his skin. Deidara chuckles softly, kissing his chin as that is the only part of him that he can reach. Kakashi grins, stealing a kiss from him.
"Mm… You taste good mixed with strawberry, yeah." Deidara murmurs. Kakashi gives him a long kiss, licking off a piece of chocolate as they gently break it. Deidara turns over so his chest is on Kakashi's so that he can kiss his sub soundly. Kakashi wraps his arms around Deidara, making a soft content noise. Deidara gently licks his bottom lip, asking for permission. Kashi readily opens his mouth for Deidara, whimpering quietly. Deidara slowly explores his mouth.
"Nnn…" Kakashi opens his mouth a little wider, moaning softly. Deidara goes over all of his sweet spots. Kashi leans a little closer, tongue gently playing with his. He's mostly the opposite of Pein, all shy and cutesy while Pein is very aggressive and dominating. It is a nice change, and Deidara takes advantage of it to gain lots of cute noises from his less-guarded sub. Kakashi pulls Deidara closer, moaning quietly against his lips.
"S- Sir please..." Deidara gently nibbles his bottom lip.
"Please what, un?" Kakashi whimpers slightly, sticking his lip out further.
"F- Fuck me... Please, Sir?" Deidara gently breaks the kiss, chuckling darkly.
"Should we dry off and go to the bed, un? Or should I just take you in the bathroom like a whore, un?" He asks, ducking his head to lick over a nipple. Kakashi moans at the idea, hips moving involuntarily.
"S- Sir... O- Oh, please. In the bathtub. I- I'll be a good little slut for you..." That's all the goahead Deidara needs. He harshly bites and sucks at a nipple, hand pinching and twisting the other one. Kakashi moans loudly, arching into his touch. A constant stream of 'pleasepleaseplease' comes from his mouth. Deidara gently shushes him, leaving a dark hicky on the other one when he switches his hand with his mouth. Kashi bites his lip in response, tiny little whimpers still escaping as Deidara is equally as harsh with the new one. Deidara moves up to his neck, leaving dark marks.
"Mine, un." Deidara growls. Kakashi grabs Deidara's bicep, clinging for dear life. He moves his head further up for Deidara, hesitantly speaking up.
"Y- Yours! Sir, please..." Deidara moves his hips against Kakashi's.
"How badly do you want it, slut?" Kakashi moans, loud enough the neighbors'll hear.
"So so much, Sir. Oh pleasepleaseplease. I'll do anything. Please fuck me Sir... I just want you. Only you." Deidara smirks.
"Hands and knees, whore." Kakashi moves for him, floundering a bit to keep his head above water.
Kashi keeps his voice quiet and submissive, but Dei can tell he's nervous. "... Sir?" Deidara gently kisses his shoulder, opening the drain so that the water goes low enough to allow him to breathe easily.
"It's the easiest way not to slip, Love." Deidara explains.
"Oh. Thank you, Sir. S- Sir? May I ask a favor?"
"Anything, yeah."
"Will you take me without preparation, Sir?" Kakashi blushes darkly and hides a little in shame. Deidara shakes his head, gently kissing the back of his neck.
"Why don't we save that for another night, un?" Kakashi nods, pushing his ass up a little bit more for Deidara. Deidara uses the soapy water as lube, carefully pushing a finger into him. Kakashi makes a soft noise, clenching around him for a minute before relaxing to make it easier. He slowly adds a second and then a third, thoroughly stretching his sub. Kakashi eventually pushes back against his fingers, whining and whimpering for his Dom. Deidara pulls his fingers out, digging his nails into Kakashi's hips as he smoothly and quickly thrusts all the way into him. Kakashi chokes a little, clenching tightly around him.
"O- Oh- fuck, Sir- S- So big-" Kakashi moans loudly as Deidara starts to fuck him hard and fast. Kashi clenches spastically around him, moaning and whimpering loud enough to wake the neighbors. Little waves of water splash over the edge of the tub from the force of their motion.
"Shh..." Deidara covers Kakashi's mouth with his hand to quiet him down a bit, groaning a bit himself. "F-Fuck! Such a tight slut, so good..."
Kashi quiets down just a bit, shifting then crying out through Deidara's hand when the blonde hits his prostate. Deidara moans and curses loudly. He reaches down, stroking Kakashi's length.
"S- Sir- p- please- nngh... I- I need to cum... So fucking good..." Deidara groans against Kakashi's back.
"Cum for me, pet." Kakashi cums hard with a loud cry of Deidara's name, dirtying up the rest of their bath water. Deidara cums hard deep in him with a loud moan of his lovers name, feet slipping out from under him. He lands nicely on his sub's broad back, Kakashi trembling in the after shocks. Deidara pants, nuzzling at the back of Kakashi's neck.
"You were so good, Love. That was amazing, yeah." Kakashi makes a soft noise, slumping a little.
"Sir... Thank you."
"Mm?" Kakashi shifts a little, squeezing Deidara almost painfully with how sensitive he is.
"You're so perfect, Sir. 'm unworthy for you."
"Nu-uh. Y're perf'ct f'r me, Lov'." Deidara murmurs against his skin. Kakashi slumps further into the water, making little content noises.
"'m I really y'ur Love, Sir?" His answer is a tiny nod, his blonde gently pulling out of him.
"Let's g't t' bed, un. We're both 'xausted, yeah." Deidara cleans them up, then helps Kashi out of the tub. He dries them off, then heads to the bedroom. Kakashi follows like a lost puppy, worming his way into Deidara's arms. His voice is soft and sweet, the normal headspace he settles into for aftercare.
"I love you, Sir." There is a very long pause before Deidara hides against him in a surprisingly fragile manner.
"How do you know that?" He asks softly. Kashi's brow furrows, actually thinking hard about it.
"Because I know I do. You're my Sir. It's like... Like my heart is too full and you make me get little butterflies in my stomach when you call me your Love, Sir."
"O-Oh." Deidara clings to him a bit, hiding in the crook of his neck. Kakashi can feel moisture there. "Good- Good night, L-Love."
"Sir?"
"Y-Yes?" Deidara is fighting to keep his voice even. His heart aches because he knows that he loves Kakashi. But he also knows that this isn't his Kashi. It's the Kashi that Orochimaru twisted and broke and who might never be the same again.
"Please don't be sad. I won't say it again if it hurts you." Kakashi holds him close, tucking away the stab of hurt for when his Sir's not around. Deidara shakes his head with a ragged breath.
"It- It doesn't hurt, Love. It's okay." Deidara fights tears as he whispers quietly into Kakashi's neck. "I just miss you."
"Can I still love you, Sir?" Kakashi checks to make sure, nuzzling at him gently to try and comfort him. Deidara manages a little nod.
"Will- Will you call me 'Dei'? J-Just for a little while?" Deidara sounds so heartbroken, it worries his sub.
"O- Okay, S- Dei." Kakashi wraps himself around Deidara, being the big spoon. Deidara holds his hand, slowly falling asleep in his sub's strong arms.
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The next few weeks see Deidara home less and less, trying to escape from constantly helping Kakashi heal and having to be the strong one. He had come home one day to Kakashi obsessively cleaning the floor because 'Master would be home any minute and everything had to be nice'. It was long, tiring work that never really ended.
Kakashi was improving, little by little. The bar workers and patrons saw it more than Deidara, probably because he was always around Kashi. They could see more of the old him and less of the damage that Orochimaru had wrought. (Kiba! I needed make-up over here five minutes ago! ... You haven't yelled at anyone since- him, yeah.)
But one night it becomes obvious to Deidara when the blonde comes home around the time they would usually have to head to work and collapses on the couch as he does every so often when he has earned them a night off. Instead of a tentitive "Are you okay, Sir?" he hears a grumbled "Why the hell do you never call to warn me? I was just about to leave and now it's pointless." Kakashi flops right next to him however, always a sucker for cuddles, and nips playfully at him.
"Too sore, un..." Deidara groans, trying to escape his fiesty partner. Kakashi chuckles, nuzzling at him. He fidgets a little, scratching his head sheepishly.
"So, I know your supposed to be classy and shit with this stuff. But I don't do classy well. So just- yeah." Kakashi pulls slightly worn pair of gloves from his pocket, placing them on Dei's chest.
"What're those, un?" Deidara looks at him in absolute confusion.
"Um- when Mikoto helped raise me, I made her stay sober for a whole year. She used the money that would've gone toward alcohol to buy me a pair of gloves for the pole. And- and we've been together six months. So- yeah. They're yours now."
"Kakashi, I..." Deidara trails off, for once in his life at a loss for words. Kakashi gives him a playful little grin.
"Don't get all sappy on me now. I already used up all the anniversary sappiness and feelings talk." Deidara just stares at him in shock. Kashi's grin falters just a little.
"Fuck. Should I have done something else? Kisame said feelings would be good. W- We can just go get pizza if you want-" He is stunned when Deidara hugs him tightly around the waist, shaking his head.
"I love it, yeah. I- I love you, yeah." After a moment of shocked silence, Deidara glances up at Kakashi fearfully, waiting to be rejected. He's met with a rather enthusiastic kiss instead, Kakashi bumping their noses together and clacking their teeth a little but it's probably the best kiss ever. Deidara embraces it wholeheartedly, and when it is broken he looks up at Kakashi excitedly. Kakashi simply grins at him.
"I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you!" Kakashi peppers kisses all over his face, grin stretching across his face. Deidara smiles up at him hugely. Kakashi steals another kiss, gently cupping his face. Deidara kisses back, arms around Kakashi's neck. Kakashi shifts a little so Dei's under him, Kashi straddling his hips. Deidara pulls Kakashi down, deepening the kiss. Kakashi pulls back for air, stealing more chaste kisses.
"You're sore."
"And you're attractive, yeah. What's your point, un?" Kakashi chuckles softly.
"Let's move this to the bed? Or at least somewhere your ass will be cushioned." Deidara nods half heartedly, pulling him down for another kiss.
"Will- Mm." He breaks the kiss a bit to murmur against his lips. "Will you top me, un?"
Kakashi makes a surprised sound against his lips, pulling back a little. "Hun, you're sore... And Pein wasn't gentle with you tonight, was he?" Deidara awkwardly glances away for a moment before looking up at him with big puppydog eyes.
"Please, un?" Kakashi kisses his nose instead.
"Let's get you cleaned up. If you feel better, then maybe." Deidara whines softly, trying to pull him down for another kiss. He's used to taking advantage of the time with Kakashi out of his headspace while he can get it. Kakashi pulls back, picking him up instead.
"Bath or shower?"
"Bath, please, un." Deidara yawns, clinging to him a bit. Kakashi draws up a bath for him with lots of bubbles and nice smelling things. He gently puts Dei in the tub. Deidara pulls him in too, clothes and all, surprisingly strong for his size.
"'mere, un." Deidara giggles as the bubbles get trapped in Kakashi's spiky hair. Kashi groans softy as water slips over the side if the tub and he lands in between Dei's legs.
"You sir, make messes." Deidara grins cheekily up at him.
"You love it, though, yeah."
"Mm… I kinda have to." Kakashi grins at him, kissing his cheek.
"Damn straight, un!" Deidara laughs softly, nuzzling into his arms. Kakashi peels off his clothes, pulling Deidara into his lap and gently starting to wash him. Deidara kisses at his chest, hiding against him when Kakashi rinses out his hair. Kakashi thoroughly cleans him, getting his lover aroused when he carefully cleans up his ass and his dick. Deidara whines, squirming at his touch. Kakashi washes himself then drains the tub, drying them off. Deidara pulls the towel around himself, hands fisting in it as he looks up at Kakashi pleadingly. Kakashi chuckles lowly, pulling him close by the towel.
"C'mon, handsome. Let's get you into bed."
"Please, un?" Deidara practically begs, following him to the bedroom. Kakashi kisses him, slow and sweet.
"We do this my way if we do this."
"H-How, un?" Deidara looks up at him with wide, not quite innocent eyes. Kakashi murmurs a soft "trust me", just kissing Deidara as he helps him to the bed. Deidara kisses back, allowing himself to be led. Kashi takes it slow, just letting them lie in their towels and makeout like teenagers. He ditches them after they both get hard slowly, slowly grinding against Deidara. Deidara moans softly, moving back against him and kissing him deeply. Kakashi makes soft sounds back against his mouth, cupping his ass and lightly squeezing. Deidara tangles his fingers in the larger man's hair, just enjoying taking things slow. Kakashi rocks back against him, groaning softly.
"Mm... Dei..." Deidara squirms a little under him, trying to deepen the kiss more. Kakashi allows it this time, hand slipping down to trace his hole. Deidara's groan is muffled against Kakashi's mouth as he moves against his hand. Kakashi pulls his hand away and breaks the kiss to suck at his fingers before going back to slip the finger inside Deidara. Deidara grunts softly, but is looser than normal so it slides in fairly easily. Kakashi takes it slow, gently stroking his prostate and making him tremble with want before adding another finger. This one has actual lube. Deidara moans softly, shuddering with pleasure. Kakashi tenderly marks his neck, slowly adding another finger and stretching him lovingly. Deidara groans, relishing in the fact that this isn't rushed and is so very unlike work.
Kakashi mouths at his shoulders, slowly withdrawing his fingers. "So so pretty... So perfect, Deidara..." Deidara groans softly, hole clenching emptily. Kakashi rolls on a condom, giving himself plenty of lube and lining up with Deidara. He murmurs quiet 'iloveyou's as he pushes into Deidara. Deidara moans breathily, arching his back. Kakashi groans quietly, bottoming out in him and waiting to let Deidara adjust.
"Nng... God, baby..."
"M-Move please, u-un." Kakashi does so, motions slow and sweet. Deidara moans.
"So good, yeah… So big, un." Kashi moans quietly, sealing him into a deep kiss while he fucks the blonde. Deidara kisses back, clenching around him in all the right ways.
"O- Oh... God, Deidara... So good. Nngh- love you. Love you so so much..."
"L-Love you too. Ahn- Ohh…" Deidara moans as Kakashi finds his prostate. Kakashi moves a little faster, groaning into his skin. He wraps a hand around Deidara's cock, stroking him. Deidara bucks against his hand a little with a loud groan.
"Easy, Love... It's okay. I've got you. I love you. I love you." Kakashi talks against his skin, making more marks. Deidara whimpers softly, clinging to him with a little nod.
"I love you too, yeah." Kakashi gently kisses along his neck and jawline, letting Deidara feel how much he loves him. Dei finally understands what making love feels like. It surprises him how different it is than sex with Pein. And he is shocked to find he likes it way more. The climax is a lot more satisfying, Deidara coming a couple thrusts after Kakashi does. Kashi gently takes care of him, cleaning Deidara up and snuggling back into bed with him.
"L've you, 'Kashi." Deidara murmurs, nuzzling into his arms. Kakashi holds him close, curling around him protectively.
"Love you, Dei." Kakashi whispers against his hair, rubbing his back.
"Kashi?" Deidara whispers after a little while, quietly breaking the comfortable silence.
"Yes?" Kakashi's voice is a low rumble in the silence. What the silver haired man hears next nearly breaks his heart because he knows the underlying hurt. It reminds him of what was his life just a few short months ago.
"I- I don't have to share you with another love, right?" Deidara looks up at him with wet blue eyes, remembering all of the nights Konan kicked him out so she could have Pein, back when Deidara thought he was special to the mafia boss. Kakashi gently wipes away his tears, kissing his nose.
"You're the only love for me. I love you, and no one else. Okay? I'm yours." Deidara snuggles closer, hiding against his chest with a broken little "'kay". Kakashi hums softly, a lullaby he picked up from one of the strippers who raised him. Deidara slowly falls asleep to the song, still clinging to his love.
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Deidara wakes up that afternoon, his phone ringing. The revelations from last night come back to him quickly, with the help of the tall stripper wrapped around him. He yawns softly, stretching and reaching for the phone, managing to answer it blearily.
"H'llo, un?" Kakashi stirs a little, snuggling closer and pressing up against him.
"Deidara, it's Master. I want you. Now." Deidara attempts to wake up a little.
"Mm. Um- yessir. I'll be right over, un. The usual arrangement where Hatake gets paid time off, yeah?" Pein makes an affirmative noise, hanging up. Kakashi octopuses around him, snuggling close. Deidara gently nuzzles him. "Kashi? Wake up, Love…"
"Mm…" Kakashi mouths at his neck, clearly hoping for morning after sex. Deidara reluctantly pulls away a bit.
"I've got to go to work, yeah…" Kashi makes a soft noise, pulling away and hiding in the pillow. Deidara bites his lip nervously. "I- I got you more time off, though, so you don't have to sleep with anyone, yeah."
Kashi's mumbles softly, "I just want to sleep with you. Here. In this bed. Now."
"I-I'm sorry, un." Kakashi looks up at him, all rumpled sex hair and big, doe-like eyes.
"Will you stay? Please?" Deidara hesitates, biting his lip and looking like he really really wants to.
"I can't. You know I can't." He whispers after a moment. Kakashi gives a tiny nod, hiding back against the pillow.
"Do you want me to make you breakfast? I'll pack you leftovers for lunch."
"I, um, you know, I'm not super hungry. I think I'll just mooch off of Kisame again." Deidara awkwardly attempts to get out of bed and get dressed. Kakashi gets out of bed, pulling on underwear and going to make Deidara breakfast and lunch anyways. He won't eat otherwise.
"Look- I know you hate eating. But you've got people who you mean the world- who don't want you dead, alright? Just- Just do it for Pein. He likes you the way you are." Kakashi puts food into his hands when Deidara comes out of the bedroom. If the poorly hidden hurt in Deidara's eyes didn't do him in, then the mumbled 'I love you' as he hurries out the door finishes him off. Everything about Deidara contradicts himself, as his everything says that he wants to stay with Kakashi, but he still leaves for Pein.