The Evil Inside Us
By Elizthewiz
Chapter 5
There are two deaths that have affected me in my life. My Dad, and Madge.
My Dad died in a 20 car pile up, years before the epidemic happened. He was on his way to pick me up from soccer practice and then the next thing you know, he was gone. I quit soccer that very day. I didn't care that I was one of the best players, all I cared about was the guilt I felt because he died coming to pick me up. I should've just found a ride home with Madge that day.
Now Madge is dead. I remember how we were friends since we were just little toddlers. She was the rich one, I was the middle class, right on the edge of poorness. I was angry at her but I shouldn't have been. I cheated on Gale, like he cheated on me. I wish we hadn't drifted apart when this all happened. I don't know what to think anymore.
It was only right for me to kill her before she turned. I was her friend, I had a bond with her, and I was the one who watched her die.
Everyone left me alone when I told them to leave. I dragged Madge's body away, and personally buried her myself. I found myself crying silently, then turned into sobs. Two people, ripped out of my life, for good.
I can't let anything, happen to anyone now. If Prim was bitten, I don't think I would be able to move. If Peeta died... I can't even finish the thought. I can't think like this at all. I have to protect everyone from now on. I will sacrifice myself for anyone in this group just so they won't die. I'm not that important anyway.
I wipe my face, now that I've calmed myself down, I need to build a wall separating my emotions from everything else. I march back to camp, bidding Madge's grave one last glance. Everyone is where I expected them to be, by the tents.
"Everyone pack up, we're leaving," I command
"Katniss? What are you saying?" Cato questions me
"I'm saying, we're not staying here. We're going to move alll of our shit and move to a much better place. We're not safe on this mountain anymore, we have one less group memeber to prove that," I hiss at him. Cato nods, getting the hint that I'm not to be messed with at the moment.
Peeta waltz in the area and is confused seeing everyone packing their tents. "What are they doing?" He asks
"We're packing up and going to those houses you found. We're just moving in a bit earlier," I glance at him once, before resuming to pack.
He seems unsure of this idea but he eventually gives in. "Whatever you want, you're a leader also,"
I give Cato the keys to my RV so he can drive it for me. Prim, Johanna, Peeta, Gale, and I are in a car together, Finnick and Annie in another, and Haymitch, Rue, and Beetee in the last one. Gale insisted that he needed to ride with us, I don't see the point. I just want to strangle him for sleeping with Madge because I know he did not want anything more than just to flaunt it in my face while Madge really wanted him.
I sit up front with Peeta, naturally, Johanna and Gale sit in the middle, and Prim sits in the back. I can already tell that this is going to be a long car ride.
"I wish the radio stations still somehow played music. I really wanted to listen to Beyonce's album but you know she's probably dead like everyone else," Johanna wonders out loud.
"If you wanted to listen to something, I had a few CD's in the RV. You should've told me," I tell her
"Is our CD still in their Katniss?" Gale asks
I groan. "It wasn't ours, it was mine. I made it for you but you never listened to it, so it's mine," I spit my words out at him
"Gale, you bore me. Just stay quiet," Johanna shushes him
Gale looks defeated but he continues on. "Look is Peeta the one you've been in love with?"
Peeta sighs, choosing to ignore Gale and focus on the road. I simply answer Gale's question, "If you haven't noticed, yes he is. Is that all you need to know?"
Gale mumbles something to himself and eventually stays quiet. I'm thankful, he needed to be stopped.
When we arrive to our destination, everyone steps out of the cars and stands in front of them.
"Alright listen, groups of us will share a house. We checked, each house has 4 bedrooms. The first house will have Annie, and Finnick in one room. Beetee in another room, Gale in another, and Haymitch in the last room," Peeta tells them
"In the next house, Peeta and I will have a room, Prim and Rue will share another, Johanna will have the next room, and Cato will have the last room. The last house, is going to be our meeting place. If we have new members, they will take those rooms but until then, lets all move in," I inform everyone.
We all start moving our items into our assigned houses. I have a feeling these houses will last us a long while. Maybe we can restart civilization here somehow. Make our own town, as our group grows. I feel a poke and see that Peeta has interrupted me from my thoughts.
"It's like we're moving into a house together, except there's move people than I'd like," He smirks
"Well, it's nice to share a room with you. At least we can have a place of our own, in this type of world," I say looking off
He reaches to be for a hug and I accept it. "I'm so sorry, that happened to Madge," Peeta rubs my back and holds me tightly
"If I was quickier she would've been alive and I could've saved her but the stupid walkers ate her right in front of me. She's gone, Peeta. I don't know what to think right now," I let out
"Hey," He has my look in his eyes. "This wasn't your fault. Madge would've wanted you to stay strong through this," He reassures me.
I nod. "I have to get something out of my RV," I tell him.
I walk outside towards the RV and use my keys to open it. I close the door behind me and look for an extra blanket to give to Prim and Rue tonight, seeing that it might be a little chilly tonight. As I search, I notice something on the floor. I reach down and pick it up and realize that this is a letter.
Dear Katniss,
I really made an ass out of myself tonight, right? I don't know what to do to express to you how sorry I am. I know you know that I slept with Gale, and I regret it. Gale came to me for comfort and I gave in not thinking. I really did like him, until he called me worthless and stopped talking to me. I can't believe how stupid I was for betraying you. I just felt so alone ever since these walkers came and I know we've somehow stopped talking to each other through the process. I'm just so sorry for everything Katniss. I'm crying while writing this because of how much I miss my best friend. I spent nights thinking about our childhood memories together. I just want to make the best out of this new world with you. I don't care if you hate me right now about Gale but I just want you to know, I still love you, bestfriend. I never stopped caring about you, even though it seems like I didn't. I hope you find a way to forgive me. Maybe when you read this, you'll find me at my tent and we can talk our issues out. I'll always be there for you no matter what Katniss.
X.O.X.O,
Madge
And with that, I break down on the floor of my RV seeing me and my friend never had the chance to makeup.
Guys, first, I started crying while writing that letter Madge wrote. It reminded me of my past friendships in a way, and I just teared up. :') Second, can someone explain to my how I found it in myself to update a lot this week? I don't even understand myself! I really hope you enjoy this chapter. I had a rough time writing that letter but I pulled myself together and did it. What are your current thoughts about Madge right now? Tell me by reviewing! PM me to ask me questions or if you just want to talk.
Also, be sure to check out my other supernatural story called Secrets In The Shadows! See you guys later :)