„I love you" Karma whispered into Amy's ear. Amy froze for a second and then she felt a rush going through her body. She grabbed Karma's face and just looked into her eyes for what felt like an eternity.

„I love you, too Karma!" Amy pushed Karma onto her back on the bed and kissed her hard. With her right hand she went under Karma's shirt and made her way gently up her side. Karma pressed her body into the touch. At that Amy started kissing down Karma's body, from her chin, to her neck, to her collarbone where she bit her lightly. Karma let out a moan.

Amy looked up. „Do you want this?"

Karma looked at Amy for a second and as an answer she flipped Amy on her back and started undressing herself. Amy just stared at the outline of Karma's breasts covered by her bra. Oh, how badly she wanted that thing off. If she would just -

This time when Amy woke up she had tears on her face. And immediately she knew she wouldn't be

able to get up today.

It had been too much. The closeness she felt for Karma in that dream she had never felt for anybody else before in her life. Even though she knew it was just a dream she was still certain that there was a special bond between the two girls. At the same time she didn't know where that came from.

After that first night in the bar they hadn't spend much time together. Sure, they had seen eachother at work but it had been busy so there was not much time to talk to each other.

Amy would still catch herself looking around to search for Karma. It was like a habit. And everytime Amy looked at Karma she had to smile from ear to ear.

Last week Amy's heart started racing when Karma came into work. She could feel herself blush. If Karma had noticed she didn't say anything.

But Lauren, of course, had. She came into Amy's office yesterday and demanded to know what was distracting her lately. At that point Amy was ready to tell someone. And if anybody should know about this it should have been her best friend. She had already opened her mouth to say it but then Lauren just butted in: „I know! It is because I haven't spend so much time with you lately, isn't it? I noticed you beeing very defensive at dinner with Theo." Lauren walked around Amy's desk and positioned herself on her lap. „How about we go do a spa treatment this weekend? Just you and me, like old times!"

Amy cheered up at that and the weekend was a great distraction. It also felt good to have her friend back to herself for a bit.

Now this.

Amy picked up her phone and dialed Lauren's number. She picked up all cheerfully: „Hey best friend! Are you at the shop already? I'm gonna run a little late, I have a couple of things to do for tonight."

„What's tonight?"

„Haha, very funny! Could you do me a favor and buy a card for Karma and get everyone to sign it?"

Oh god, it's Karmas last day! I can't not be there.

„Hello, earth to Amy!" Lauren yelled. „Will you do that for me, please?"

„I'm sorry Lauren. I'm actually calling to tell you that I'm not going to be in the shop today. I'm not feeling good at all. Must've eaten something bad last night."

Lauren didn't respond for a couple of seconds. „Could you say that again please?"

Amy rolled her eyes. „You heard me."

„Yeah, of course I heard you. But I'm giving you the chance to not do such a foolish thing on a day like this."

„Well, I'm going to try to make it tonight. And if not I'll just stop by Karma's house in the next couple of days!" Amy was starting to feel agitated.

„Uhm, you do realize that Karma is leaving tomorrow, right?"

That shot a pain right through Amy's chest. „No, I did not know that."

„All the more reason for you to be there today."

„Alright, I'm coming tonight. But please take care of the card. I just feel like I'm going to be puking all day!"

„Eww, gross!" Lauren sighed. „Fine! But you owe me big time for all this. And you better be there tonight."

„Yeah, see you there!" Amy hung up and fell back on her back. She couldn't take this. It was all too much. Why did it have to be like this? She started crying again. That's when she took the decision.

She would not see Karma again.

Of course that wasn't really up to her. When it came closer and closer to evening Amy became very nervous. She paced through the living room of her apartment and tried to decide if she should really not go. She knew that would make her a coward and she also didn't want to upset Karma by not showing up. But at the same time Amy didn't know if she could take seeing Karma leave. She knew she would get drunk and then maybe do a stupid thing.

They were supposed to meet at eight and when Amy still sat in her apartment at nine her phone rang. Rolling her eyes she picked up. „I'm sorry Lauren but I can't -"

„Hey Amy, this is Karma."

Amy sat up straight on her couch. „Karma, hey! Listen I'm sorry-"

Karma interrupted her again. „Yeah Amy, don't worry about it. Lauren told me you are sick. The reason I'm calling is I have to talk to you before I leave."

Amy's heart started racing again. „Yeah sure, so talk."

„Actually, I'm standing right outside your apartent building. But I didn't want to just come up and walk in on you."

Amy completely blanked after Karma said that. She is hear? What is she doing? What am I supposed to say? Am I ready to see her again? Oh my god, what is she thinking?

„Amy? Are you still there?"

„Oh yeah, sorry. Hold on a sec, I'm going to buzz you in." Amy got up.

Karma hesitated. „Only if it's ok for you. I mean I'm sorry I'm just showing up like this."

Amy walked over to the door and pressed the door opener. „It's fine. Just come on up." She hung up. Ran to the bathroom. Checked herself in the mirror. Well, her hair didn't look so good but she couldn't do anything about that now. God, why couldn't she at least have showered this morning? She looked down on herself. Sweat pants and tshirt. Nice choice of clothing, Raudenfeld!

She heard a silent knock on the door. One last look into the mirror. This is it.

When Amy opened the door Karma stood in front of her. Wow. She was wearing jeans, shirt and blazer and some boots. She looked perfect.

Amy only realized she was staring at her when Karma started speaking. „Uhm, hey!"

Amy snapped out of it and moved back. „Come in. You look very good tonight."

Karma started smiling. „Oh thank you!"

They went into the living room and sat on the couch. Karma looked around and scanned the apartment. „Nice place."

Amy smiled. „Thank you. So what brought you here?"

Karma looked confused for a second like she'd forgotten that she was the one who called Amy. But then it hit her again. Amy could see the pain in her eyes. „Hey, what's up?"

Karma tried her best not to start crying. „Ah, you know it's really nothing."

Amy smiled encouragingly and moved closer to Karma. „Come on now. You wouldn't miss out on that party if it was for nothing."

Karma looked up at Amy and smiled. „How do you know me so well after only a few weeks?"

Amy blushed at this. „So tell me!"

Karma looked down to her feet. „Well it's just that, all of a sudden I'm not so sure about going to LA anymore."

„How come?"

„I got into a fight with my boyfriend last week and now I'm not so sure if this was such a great idea..."

Karma kept talking but Amy didn't hear her anymore. An incredible ache started spreading in her chest. Of course Karma had a boyfriend. A beautiful girl like that would be chased by boys. And of course Amy always suspected this but she didn't want to give her hopes up until she knew for sure. Which was now. What hopes, anyway? It wasn't like Amy planned on confessing her feelings to Karma anytime soon. So it really didn't matter.

Amy's head started spinning. She closed her eyes. Ok, deep breaths. This wasn't the time to get a panic attack or start freaking out.

„Amy are you ok?" Karma looked at Amy worried. „You look really pale all of a sudden."

Amy shook her head. „Yeah I'm ok. I just still feel a little bit sick."

Karma started to get up. „If you want I can just leave."

Amy held Karma's arm and pulled her back down, maybe a little too hard. „No, no! Please don't go."

„Ok, I'll stay. So what would you do? In my situation, I mean."

Amy didn't know what Karma had said after she blanked but she knew that the brunette hesitated to leave. This was her chance to keep her close.

But at the same time Amy knew that she couldn't be selfish on this. So she had to get her to go.

„Listen: I know this is scary. Believe me, I've been there. To be honest, I would love for you to stay. But if you don't go now you'll probably never go. I mean, who knows what is waiting for you out there. The only way for you to find out is if you go. And whatever it is you are going through with your boyfriend at the moment, I'm sure you can work it out. Maybe you realize after three months that it isn't going anywhere. But if that's the case you can always come back here. Whatever the outcome, you can always take the experience with you. So go! Live your dream. I'd be the last person to hold you back."

Karma just stared at Amy. The blonde couldn't stand looking into the other girls eyes for much longer so she just lowered her head. Then Karma pulled her into a hug. „Thank you! That was the one thing I needed to hear to encourage myself. I knew I had to come to you for this!"

Amy just pulled Karma closer and enjoyed the moment. Tried not to cry. She already knew this would be the last time they would see eachother in a very long time.