"Just cause I love you, and you love me It doesn't mean that we're meant to be…I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears…But I'm scared of loving you. "-Jazmine Sullivan
Ever since HR was taken down she had been avoiding John. Whenever he wanted to talk about them she'd always tell him she was busy. She had used every excuse in the book from being busy with work to bad cramps.
At first it had been because she was busy. The FBI had been breathing down her neck to make sure the case against HR held weight. After that it was just her making excuses, because every time she thought about them talking or thought about their kiss and what it meant, she freaked out.
Her of all people,freaked out. She had went toe-to toe with an entire organization of dirty cops, crippled the Russian mob, kidnapped heads of crime families, took on Elias, and been shot multiple times over her life so far. Yet for some reason talking to John about the change in their relationship made her cower.
If she was honest with herself their relationship had changed a long time ago and they both choose to ignore it. But now that the cat was out the bag, their feeling for each other were out in front, and dead center.
She was truly scared of the extent of her feelings for John. Had she not survived Simmons's bullet she would have been content dying to protect him. She was scared of loving John so much that if anything ever happened to him she'd loose her heart.
How was she suppose to tell John that out of all the craziness that surrounded her life daily that loving him and losing him scared her to death.