"It seems that wrong really loves my company…He's more than a man and this is more than love… I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside…To know that I am happy with some other guy"-Rihanna
Joss stood in the kitchen clad only in a white dress shirt as she stared out the windows looking at the moon as she held her phone. She let out a sigh as she got lost in her thoughts. She never thought she would ever find herself in a situation like her current one, she didn't know how it happened, it just did.
It started slowly over time but now that she thought back on it, it seemed like it happened in succession. It started off simple; he'd send texts to her asking for a favor, no big deal. Then those texts moved to quick meeting to exchange information, they never interfered with the rest of her evening. Then those quick meeting turned longer and happened more frequently, some of them even turned into overnight stakeouts. Before she knew it she was cancelling her dinner dates with Cal and making excuses as to why she hadn't introduced him to her son yet.
Eventually the quick passings between her and John became something more. They would spend more time together, talk more over the phone, and their banter turned from funny quips to unanswered solicitations. Then Rikers happened and he broke off all contact with her, she tried to go back to normal with Cal but she couldn't, she ended up making more excuses to avoid going out with him, to the point that Cal got feed up and out right asked her if she was cheating on him.
She told him she wasn't and deflected and said that she wasn't ready and that she needed more time. He sympathized with her being a single mother and trying to balance work, so he let up and eventually they got back on amicable ground. After pulling her gun on him and having him save her from getting shot by a serial killer, she felt like she owed him. Her plan for tonight had been to go out to dinner with Cal and since Taylor was at his father's for the weekend, she was going to go back to Cal's place for the night.
She started getting ready as soon as she got off work, she went though the pre-sex check list; new lingerie, hair done, shave, and get the nails done. But fate had another plan for her, while she was in the process of trying to zip up the back of her dress, John showed up. He said he just stopped by because he wanted to thank her for saving Finch and for saving him from the FBI and to apologize for cutting off his contact with her.
After she accepted his apology he offered to zip up the back of her dress, while he was zipping the zipper up she looked down at the floor and held her hair out of the way. When she felt his hands on her shoulder she looked up and saw him staring at her in the reflection in the mirror. He told her she looked beautiful. She didn't remember who initiated, but one thing led to another and they ended up in bed together.
Joss rubbed her hand over her face as she looked at her 6 missed calls and 1 text message. She couldn't do what she was doing anymore she had to end things with Cal, he was a decent man and he deserved better. She opened her text messages and looked at the text Cal left 2 hours after she stood him up on their date. 'Joss I know that there's someone else…I hope he makes you happy…goodbye'. Joss sighed, she felt like she should call him and apologize, but she had a feeling that he probably didn't want to speak to her now. She looked at the clock on the stove; it was 3:00AM. She would figure things out later on.
Joss made her way back upstairs with two water bottles. Once she was back in her room she put the water bottles and her phone on her night stand and crawled back into her bed. Once she was settled she turned on her side and stared at John sleeping form. She watched as his eyelashes fluttered softly against the top of his cheeks as he slept. Although she felt bad about how things ended with Cal, she knew she couldn't in good conscious be with him knowing full well that her heart belong to another man.
Joss reached out her hand and gently trailed her finger tips along the knife scar across John's bare chest. As soon as she touched him, his eyes opened and he turned to look at her. After a few seconds he smiled at her and pulled her half on top of him and kissed her.