We woke up a short while later to the phone ringing. She was nuzzled in the nook of my arm, my head resting on the top of her head. I prayed she wouldn't hear the phone, that we could stay like this for just a couple more minutes. Unfortunately, I heard her wake and blindly reach for her phone.

"Hello?" She said into her phone.

"Callie, it's Owen"

"I assumed," She said cooly.

"Did you just wake up? It's almost 10:00AM." He asked. She looked at me and couldn't help but hold back a smile.

"Not exactly. Are you on your way home?" She asked.

"No, I won't be home until tonight some time. I slept a couple hours here and have been in and out of surgeries and meetings since. Have you been watching the news? Things are crazy here. The whole hospital has been shut down for investigation, minus the staff and patients that were injured by Mr. Warren. Our surgical and ICU team are covering the wounded, which believe me, is significant. That bastard shot 14 of our own and 6 patients. Thankfully, only 3 fatalities so far" Callie's face dropped at that statement. I quietly kissed her forehead.

"How is Mr. Warren?" She asked.

"Oh he was dead on the scene. Police shot him down before he could do anymore damage," Owen said proudly.

"Oh" Callie said quietly.

"Hey, I gotta run. Turn on the TV, seriously." And he hung up without another word.

She sighed, setting her phone down. I pulled her closer and she resisted me. I propped myself up on my side, waiting for her to say something. But she didn't. She just laid there, looking at the ceiling.

"Do you want breakfast?" I asked. She shook her head

"Do you want a chai tea latte?" She shook her head again.

"Do you want to take a shower? Because I could be talked into that again." With that comment, she formed a small smile.

"Talk to me, Callie" I said. She sighed, closed her eyes and let tears fall down her face.

"I feel so horrible. All of those people died, because of me. I should have just let him shoot me instead of all of those innocent people". She said mid sob.

"Calliope Torres, there is no way in hell I would have ever had such a ridiculous thing to happen. Mr. Warren, was mad. Not that he didn't have a right to be, but he is in the wrong here, not you. I won't let you think that this was your fault. You did everything you could have for him." I said.

"Except stand up when I should have! I cowered in the corner of that med room for hours, shaking, listening to my colleagues get shot up, while I lay here and live to see another day. How am I supposed to live with myself?"

We locked eyes, a desperate look in her eyes. I felt her pain in that moment and would have done anything to take it away.

"You're going to be ok, Callie. I am so grateful that you are alive. I hope that you will try to be grateful, too" I said, squeezing her hand.

"I am going to make you a chai, ok? I can't really cook...but I could make like...I don't know...toast? I know you're like Miss Master Chef but I am not nearly as gifted nor talented as you" I said with a smile.

"How about left over pizza? And chai, yes, would be great. Thank you, Arizona" She said.

"Of course, that's what I am here for" I said with a smile. I rolled off the bed.

"Arizona?" She said.

"Yes, Calliope?"

With as big of a smile as she could bear under the weight of everything, she said, "You're officially unfired"

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The rest of the day was spent lounging in bed, with pizza in hand and the TV on. We didn't talk about the night before, or the shower, or about making love. She didn't bring up the fact that she was married, that Owen would be home in just a few short hours. She didn't address how complicated this all was. And I definitely didn't bring up the fact that I was head over heels in love with her. We just, were. Our connection was deeper than just an animalistic physical attraction.

During that day, I felt like we were in sync, like our needs were symbiotic. When she cried, I felt her sorrow. When she talked, I finished her thoughts. When she looked at me, with even the smallest expression, I knew what she wanted. As opposite as our temperaments could be at times (her- passionate and strong willed, me- calmer yet fully capable of sassy episodes), the energy between us fed off our individuality. Our cohesion felt as natural as breathing; and I couldn't believe I had existed before her. Yet, we didn't talk about any of this. If we did, reality would slap us in the face, hard. So we let ourselves focus on the tragedy that was the shooting, and allowed ourselves to ignore the enormous obstacles that were in our path.

"I should go, it's almost 5 o clock" I said to Callie, whose arm I was nestled under.

"I guess you should. Owen said he would be home this evening sometime.." She said taking her arm back.

"So…I will see you tomorrow?" I asked.

"Yeah…I'm planning on going back to work tomorrow" She said.

"5:30?"

"5:30" she confirmed with a smile. I smiled back and her, turning to leave.

"Arizona?" I stopped and turned to her. She had a sad smile on and tears in her eyes.

"Thank you..so much. I literally would not be here, without you". I wanted to say so many things in that moment. I wanted to tell her that I wouldn't be here without her. That I would refuse to exist in a world without her in it anymore…

"Any time"

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I walked through my apartment door at 5:30. I could already hear Teddy storming around the apartment. This was not going to be good…

"Arizona Robbins where the hell have you been?!" Teddy half asked half screamed at me before I even had one foot in the door.

"I…ugh….it's a long story" I said softly.

"Oh. My. God" She said covering her eyes with her hands in disbelief, "You weren't…."

Damn it. How did she always know. A small smile escaped my lips.

"Are you FUCKING kidding me? You stayed at Dr. Torres's place after the shooting? And didn't even to bother to call me? I had to look at the dead and wounded lists at the hospital to make sure you were alive!"

"…..yes I did. And I am so sorry, I got caught up in the...situation" I said. She gave me an even wider eye look.

"Oh my god. Oh my god. Arizona, you have that stupid look on your face."

"What stupid look?" I asked.

"The look. The 'I just had sexxxx' look. Tell me I am confusing THE look with some PTSD you are having residual from the shooting" She said.

"Well….I guess it could be a combination of the two?" I said with a forced smile. With that she began banging her head against the wall.

"Calm down, Teddy. It happened once. Owen knew I was there! He told me to watch over her!"

"Yeah, to WATCH OVER HER! Not fuck her! Jesus Christ Arizona, what were you thinking? Do you realize how bad this is? Do you? People DIED yesterday. Did you forget about that?"

"I guess I haven't thought…"

"She is MARRIED. To the chief of surgery! At the hospital WE work at! They are Johns Hopkins graduates! Do you realize the pull they have there, across the country even? He could single handedly have each and every medical school reject you just because HE said so!" She pulls out three large envelopes.

"Do you see these Arizona? I have three LARGE envelopes addressed to you, one from Mayo, one from Johns Hopkins and another from the University of Washington. Want to know what they say? That you are accepted to their freaking medical schools." She said.

"What! When did these come?" I asked, tearing the letters out her hands.

"Oh, I don't know. Probably sometime this morning while you were FUCKING THE CHIEF OF SURGERY'S WIFE!" She screamed at me.

"Teddy Teddy Teddy. Can we focus on the fact that I just got into medical school?! This is the best day ever!" I said with complete and utter glee.

"WE just got into medical school" She said with a smile. With that I practically jumped into her arms, hugging her, "Well then, WE need to celebrate. Lets go to Joe's!" I said.

"Don't you think that's in pretty poor taste, given everything that happened yesterday…?" Teddy asked.

"Teddy, yesterday was terrible, horrible. People died. I, in fact, almost died. But getting into medical school is a good thing. Just for tonight, I want to focus on that. I think we deserve to celebrate, just tonight."

"Ok fine. But seriously Arizona, we are talking about you and Dr. Torres later. You need to stop whatever is going on between you two. This could seriously affect your future" She said sternly.