Hi readers! Thanks again for your reviews and comments. I appreciate every single one of them.

A few of you have asked if anyone Arizona will ever get more from Callie than what she is getting right now. Well, I can't spoil the story for you, but this will be addressed further in the next 3 or so chapters. There is so much more to this story; we are just getting started.

Owen is also on many of your minds. Remember, Arizona has NO idea what is going on with Owen, because Callie in part refuses to tell her about that part of her life. There is reason for it and again, it will be addressed in upcoming chapters. In the end, this will all come full circle, trust me :)

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I sobbed the entire drive back to my apartment. I felt like I couldn't breathe, like my entire body was convulsing with tears so profuse I thought I was going to shrivel up. I didn't want to do anything but crawl into bed and lie there. Truthfully, I wasn't even mad at Callie. This situation was my mistake, my idiocracy. I had known what I was getting myself into and chose to ignore it. Now, I just missed her.

"What the hell happened?" Teddy asked me as I walked into our apartment door.

" I don't want to talk about it. I am going to bed," I said, sulking my way to the door. My head was pounding from all the crying. I needed my bed.

"Oh no you're not. Aren't you forgetting something?" She asked enthusiastically. I shrugged my shoulders and her face fell.

"It's my birthday you dink. Get dressed, we are going to Joe's and getting wasted." She said, patting my back. Fuck, I thought. This was the absolute last thing on my list of things to do right now. But, Teddy would never forgive me if I bailed, especially on her birthday. She had a thing for birthdays. God, this day just kept getting worse and worse.

"Fuck it," I mumbled quietly to myself, pouring a large glass of white wine. I threw back half of the glass as Teddy emerged from her bathroom.

"That's the spirit! Now come on, get dressed, do your make up and finish that bottle of wine. I told a bunch of our friends to meet us at Joe's. Wanna know who keeps asking about you AND promised to meet us out tonight?" She said proudly. I groaned.

"Alex Karev. The second year surgical resident! He is friends with Dr. Grey apparently and he asked her to ask me if he knew you. He thinks you're hot!"

"You do realize that I am into women, right?" I asked, taking another massive drink of my wine.

"Details Arizona, details. You have dated guys in the past! You have hooked up with guys tons of times. This Dr. Karev...I think he is worth considering" She said, slipping into her new dress.

"I am not considering anyone or anything tonight other than this bottle of wine and maybe a bottle of tequila." I said glumly. She took a seat at the bar stool next to me. Oh god, here comes the lecture.

"Look, Arizona. I know that you have...feelings for Dr. Torres. But you need to start really thinking about what you are getting yourself into. She is obviously jaw droppingly beautiful and brilliant, but she is, to say the least, UNAVAILABLE. She is MARRIED. Dr. Torres will never been there for your white coat ceremony, or your family dinners, or a night out with the rest of your friends. Hell, she can't even give you a date night at the movies. Because she is a surgeon, who is married to a man, who happens to be the chief of surgery. Yeah, she might sleep with you on rare occasional. But you deserve so much better than that. Soo much better"

I felt the hot tears rolling down my face. I wanted to lose it again. I wanted to confess to Teddy how little regard I had for what I deserved in that moment. How I knew it was wrong, but that the only thing I really wanted, all I have ever wanted in these last few months, was more time with Callie. I wanted Callie, for better or worse, for as much or as little as she could give me. And despite my anger about how little she had to offer me, I was willing to take it now. Because I loved her too much now to let her go. But these thoughts were better left unsaid. Tonight was Teddy's night. She deserved this night.

"Thanks Teds. What do you say we take some tequila shots?" I said with a forced smile on my face. She gave me a huge hug and playfully kissed me on the cheek.

"I knew you would come around! Let's get this party started!"

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The beginning of the night was a blur. Teddy and I finished that bottle of white wine before Henry picked us up from Joe's. And we took three tequila shots, each. When we got to Joe's, things were already a little fuzzy for me. Given it was a Friday night, it was a full house. About 10-15 of our friends had shown up, including April, Jackson, Leah and Stephanie. I immediately saw Alex Karev there, staring creepily in my direction. He was sitting at the bar next to Dr. Grey and Dr. Yang, both surgeons at Seattle Grace. They seemed to be having a good time. I remember ordering another drink, a gin and tonic, but not paying for it.

"Alex bought you that drink!" I remember Teddy screaming at me over the loud music. By that point, thoughts were fleeting. I likely didn't think anything of a cute surgical resident buying me a drink, despite his ever present staring and winking in my direction

Shortly after I had sucked down that drink, memeories of the night became very, very blurry. I remember dancing, swaying probably, to the crappy top 40s pop music they were playing. Sometime during this, Leah tried talking to me, possibly flirting with me? I have no idea what I said to her, but I remember her putting yet another drink in my hand. This time, a long island iced tea. About midway through this drink, my memory became extremely spotty. I have images of dancing, someone grinding behind on me. Alex Karev? maybe. Another patchy image of lying in a booth, someone on top of me, then suddenly, thrown off of me. A final image of a scuffle, yelling, creaming and a flash of a tall, black haired woman. Callie? Is that you?

Darkness.