Chapter 4

This chapter is exploring more of Lisbon and Jane's relationship. I was looking at the Amtrak schedule and noticed that the first transfer stop from Miami was in Washington D.C. I thought it was funny considering that Lisbon was on her way there on the plane. Also Pike is there. Once again thanks for all the reviews and follows for my story.

Sorry it took me so long to post this one. I ended up writing this one after the next chapter. I've been writing a couple of chapters at once.

Reservations were made for lunch in the dining car. He had enjoyed watching her. They soon got up. He took her hand. He now could fully enjoy the touch of her fingers wrapped around his. The past couple of days he had been completely honest with her. Since his confession on the plane, he could freely be himself. He was going to do his best to please her because he did not want to lose her. He knew he was not perfect. He was far from it considering his past hurts he had caused her and his brokeness. He was still broken but a lot better than before. The past 12 years knowing her proved it.

She had been his saving grace when all was lost and when his world was turned upside down when everything was taken from him from his stupid mistake. He nearly lost the other woman he loved by not saying how he felt about her.

He looked back when he heard his Saint Teresa. "How's your ankle?I forgot to ask and you drove." Lisbon asked. She had noticed his slight limp.

"It's a lot better. It was fine when I drove. It didn't hurt too much. The ice really helped." Jane admitted.

They arrived at the dining car and the host took them to their seats and set the menus on the table,one on each side. Both of them sat down across each other.

"Let's see what's on the menu." Jane held the menu and started. "See if there's eggs."

"It's noon, Patrick. They have a specific menu for it. I don't think they will now." Lisbon explained looking at her menu.

"Okay. Maybe I will ask." Jane replied. Soon the black haired waitress came with waters. "My name is Staci. May I interest you in a drink while you are looking at the menu?" She held her notepad and pen ready to write their orders down.

"I'll have tea." Jane said looking at the waitress.

"Coffee for me." Lisbon said looking up at the waitress too.

"Cream and sugar?"

"Yes." Lisbon responded.

The waitress wrote down the orders and left to the kitchen at the end of the car.

"I love you, Teresa. Now that I've said it. I don't think I'll stop." Jane smiled.

"That's good to know. I love you, Patrick. I would agree with you." Lisbon smiled. She was happy. It had been a long journey for them to get to this point. She herself was afraid to express her feelings as well. She kept smiling and could not stop. He was smiling as well. He then leaned across the table and kissed her. She kissed back. She then realized people were watching. Soon the waitress came up to bring their drinks. The waitress embarrassedly said, "Excuse me." Jane and Lisbon broke apart. Lisbon blushed intensely. She put the coffee and the tea on the table. "I'll be back to take your order." The waitress leaving.

"Are you going to make a habit out of this? Kissing me over tables. First the TSA holding room and now the table in the train dining car. Everybody saw it." Lisbon smiled still blushing that he kissed her across the table again. She herself had forgotten there was any people. She got lost too much in the moment.

"You want me to? I want to kiss you everywhere." Jane said smiling.

"We can't when we're at work." Lisbon pointed out. "We shouldn't do it in public too much."

"We're not at work now. I know." Jane also pointed out.

"I'm just telling you." Lisbon stated.

The waitress soon came back to take their orders. "May I take orders now? Or do you need a minute." The girl was still embarressed she walked in on them kissing.

"We're ready. I'll have the specialty sandwich." Lisbon said.

"Do you have eggs?" Jane asked.

"We have eggs in the morning, sir." The waitress said.

"Do you put water in your eggs?"

"I don't know, sir. I will have to ask the chef."

"I'm sorry, miss. He'll have the same as me. Jane, stop it. Don't be so picky." Lisbon scolded.

"I will have the burger." Jane said. The waitress wrote down the orders and left.

"Are you two newlyweds?" A n older lady asked looking at Jane and Lisbon from the booth across. Her husband was sitting across from her.

"Well, we're ..."Lisbon looked and then paused blushing multiple shades of red knowing people saw them kiss. She could not finish. She embarressed.

"What she means is we're not married yet." Jane finished.

"Don't worry. My husband couldn't keep his lips and hands off me when we first dated and when we first married. We didn't care if everybody saw." The woman said. Her husband nodded in agreement.

"Why do you make me blush?" Lisbon asked Jane still blushing.

"Because I'm so handsome and charming. You just can't help but blush. You blush so easily. I remember when you blushed when you thought I could read your mind." Jane smiled his millior dollar smile.

"What is the deal with you showing your affection for me on public transportation? First the plane and now a train. Lisbon smiled.

"I want everyone to know you're with me."

"Are you two newly a couple?" The woman asked again. Lisbon was not sure how to answer. She was seeing if Jane would respond. She told the lady next to her on the plane about Jane and Pike.

"Yes and no. We have known each other a long time."

Later they came back to their room. Jane sat in the chair. He was looking at the ticket.

"Teresa, did you realize that our first transfer stop is Washington D.C. tomorrow morning?" Lisbon looked at him while getting clothes ready. "What!" She looked at him still with her mouth open. Then quickly closed it. "Let me see that." She went over to him and he handed it to her. It was true. That's just what she needed. She gave it back to Jane.

"Well, at least you will get to go to D.C. after all, my dear. For a short time, anyway. I wonder if Abbott noticed that. That is funny." Jane grinned and then laughed.

"Let's hope we don't see Pike especially you." Lisbon stated shaking her head.

"Do you really think he'll be at the train station? What's the chance of that?" Jane asked knowing D.C. Was a big city and running into Pike was very unlikely. He really did not want to see the man. He was surprised that their stop would be in D.C.

"I don't know. No, not likely. He'll be going to work then."

"It looks like the train don't leave until 4:00 in the afternoon. We'll be there 8 hours." Jane looked at the ticket again. Lisbon then sat next to Jane. He put his arm around her.

"You have been so honest with me now." Lisbon stated. Ever since his confession on the plane had been willing to tell her what he was thinking and feeling.

"I want to be honest with you now. I know I haven't in the past. It hasn't always been my strength. It still may be some work but for sure I am going to be honest for you. I feel free to do it now. You have a question for me. I can tell by lines in your forehead." Jane pointed out looking at Lisbon.

"When did you know you loved me? It's not just recently, not just the other night on the plane." Lisbon asked knowing Jane must have had feelings for her way before then.

"Yes. It's been a while. For the first few years I knew you, you were a collegue but then I really started thinking you as a good friend and confidante and I cared for you as a friend. It has been a slow process like I told Cho.I think the first time I really realized my feelings was when I was in Las Vegas. I really did miss you then." Jane admitted.

"You never called me back when I called. I was really worried about you then." Lisbon said seriously. "I thought you were having a nervous breakdown."

"I know. I realize. I'm still sorry. I was too focused on trapping Red John then that I forgot to think about how you and the team felt. I listened to your messages. They kept me going. The first person I thought bailed me of jail was you."

"Do I even want to know what that was for?" Lisbon responded.

"I got in a fight with some guys. Lorelei was the one that bailed me out."

"Oh." Lisbon responded with a sad look. She did not want to think about Lorelei Martins now. She still could not believe Jane ended up sleeping with Red John's girl. He had told her it meant nothing to him.

Reading Lisbon's face he decided not to continue about Lorelei. "When I saw you go into the church and I came in there I was so happy to see you." Jane explained.

"I was so mad at you then but I was happy to see you. You told me your breakdown was fake. Can I ask you something?"

"I'm still sorry. Yes. I know what you're going to ask. You're going to ask about what I said before I "shot" you." Jane confessed.

"Yes. You acted like you didn't remember it." Lisbon pointed out.

"I remembered. I said good luck, Teresa. Love you. I meant it then. It was just that I didn't realize I said it out loud until you aked about it. I thought it was better I forgotten it."

"Okay. That explains it a little."

"When Red John was around I couldn't do anything about my feelings for you. I had to hide them. I couldn't risk you becoming a target. I was so afraid when he answered your phone and then he put Partridge's blood on your face and made his mark. I thought I lost you then. It was terrifying for me when I found you like that."

"Did you mean what you said during the sunset in Malibu? The night you gathered the suspects." Lisbon asked wondering about that night. He had told her how much she had meant to him. She wanted to know if he meant them.

"I did mean the words." Jane answered seriously.

"But then you left me on the side of the road without my phone and without explanation." Lisbon said seriously. She was hurt by that incident.

"I was protecting you." Jane confessed.

"It was a strange way to protect someone." Lisbon noted seriously.

"I know. I should have said something. It was another time I was afraid of my feelings then. I have felt guilty about it. At the time, I didn't want you involved because I wanted to go alone and I didn't want you to see me kill Red John if that was to course it didn't. I'm glad you weren't there because of the explosion. You didn't get harmed."

"I understand now. I'm a cop and things happen. It's a risk I take everyday. You are really being honest." Lisbon answered noticing the complete honesty in Jane. It surprised her.

"Yes. These are things are things I know you would want to know about. Ever since my confession, I feel like a weight have been lifted. After I killed McAllister there was a few seconds where I thought about ending it. I had the gun in my hand." It was then Lisbon felt the tears run down her cheeks. She was shocked he thought about killing himself.

"What! How could you have thought that?" Lisbon exclaimed.

"But then you came in my mind. I then knew I had to keep living, to keep going. I also thought about Angela and Charlotte and they wouldn't want that either. I knew you would be devistated if you found my body. So I stopped myself. I called you and ran."

"Of course I would have been devistated. My heart would have broke in two. I loved you then. I love you, Patrick." He then wiped her tears.

"I'm here now. I wanted to see you again. I know now I wouldn't be here at this moment. I am happy I didn't pull the trigger. I thought about you then. You were my light then. My Saint Teresa. On a more lighter note, I want to know. When you realized you loved me? "

"Well, it started off as a crush. Well, I was attracted to your keen observation skills too."

"And my good looks and charm. Like a teenage crush?" Jane grinned.

"Don't be too sure of yourself. Yes."

"I suppose you brought energy back to my boring existance. You brought a light to my world too."

"An energy?"

"Yes, you knew how to enjoy life despite the circumstances."

"Some of it was a facade to help me get by. When I presented to you it was real."

"Well, your smile melts me everytime I see it."

"If I melt you why aren't you a pool of water?" Jane grinned.

"Your antics drive and drove me crazy, but I was happy when you solved the cases."

"I know. You need me. Do you know the exact moment you fell in love with me?" Jane asked.

"It's been gradual for me too. I really felt it when I thought I almost lost you, like when you nearly drowned and when you were kidnapped, and when you drank the poisoned tea. It was when I really worried for your life. I especially felt it when you went to Las Vegas and when you were gone for two years in South America. Your letters really helped. I was glad you let me know you were okay."

"I really missed you too. I felt it too. I imagined you with me sometimes."

"Did you notice there were many people that noticed our feelings before we admitted them to ourselves?" Lisbon asked.

"Yes. I did notice." Jane responded.

"I remember Bosco saying something. He noticed we were close. Fischer asked me if we were ever involved the first case at the FBI. I was surprised she asked that." Lisbon admitted remembering.

"Really? Lorelei told me I worked with the CBI to be close to you because I was a little bit in love with you, which was true. Sean Barlow said the same thing about you and that you laid in bed thinking of me. Abott immediately called you my girlfriend when he found me in South America. He's been for us the entire time. Did you really think of me lying in bed?" Jane described and questioned smiling.

"Yes, I did think of you. Abbott referred to you as my boyfriend. I guess I heard what Lorelei said too. I guess we're a couple of idiots that didn't see what was in front of us and was obvious to other people." Lisbon contemplated.

"I was scared of my feelings like I said in my confession. I guess I still am even with Red John gone.I was so happy to say them."

"I guess I was just as bad."

Around 10:00, both were ready for bed. Their train would arrive in D.C. At 7:20 in the morning. They were both shocked they would stop there for a few hours.

"I'm tired now. Let's see how to do the bed. We talked a lot tonight."Lisbon mentioned. Jane and Lisbon got ready for bed and pulled down the seats that were made into a bed. Lisbon immediately went to the bed. She went under the covers. Jane then joined her. "So what do you think about us?" Jane asked as he laid to his side looking at Lisbon who was also on her side.

"I love us. We need to really work on it." Lisbon stated.

"I love us too. Of course I am going to try my hardest. I don't want to lose you. I love you so much. I know I'm not perfect. I'm still somewhat broken. I'm less broken with you." Jane admitted.

"I'm not perfect either. We've been through so much over the years more than any couple. We're a good team." Lisbon smiled.

"Now we'll make a better team if we kiss. I'll make up for lost time."

"Of course. I really enjoy it." Lisbon turned to him and kissed him and the kiss got stronger and deeper.