Ahh! The comment section exploded after this chapter; I love it. Thank you all so much.
Callie is officially back, yay!
As for the sarcastic 'guest' posters that are wondering if I am a Leah fan or ANTI-Callie...Anyone who reads this story carefully should fully realize that this is a Calzona fanfic. Of course, there are going to be supporting characters, as there is with ANY story, but this story in particular revolves around Arizona and her relationship with Callie. I love love love Callie Torres and everything her character represents. Readers have to realize that she is a human being, who has flaws, and is not going to make the right decisions 100%, or even 50%, of the time. Find the beauty in both Callie AND Arizona's flaws. At the very least try to recognize that flaws are what make people who they are, for better or worse!
Enough of my rambling. Here's another chapter. Enjoy :)
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Teddy was waiting for me in her car. She drove me home in silence, waiting for me to spill the contents of my conversation with Callie. I'm sure she was as shocked as I was to see Callie there, pregnant no less. As she put the car in park in front of our apartment, she could hold back no longer.
"Okay, I'm sorry, I tried to be polite for a little while. But I have to know. What the hell did Callie say to you? Was she apologetic? Did she want you back? Did she make you quit the program? WHAT HAPPENED?" She exclaimed. I rolled by eyes at her.
"Teddy, chill out. She just said that she didn't expect to see me there" I mumbled.
"And you said?" She asked
"Basically the same thing" I said. Teddy frowned.
"You know what I hate about all of this? You look happier today than I have seen you in the last two, almost three, months" She said.
"Oh please. I do not"
"YES, you do. Even though you have your stupid mopey slash shocked face on, your eyes are bright again. You aren't walking around like you have 50 pound weights strapped to your back. And the fact that you're being secretive about your conversation with her means you're protecting her which means you have hope again"
"I do NOT have hope. Believe me, I saw her pregnant belly just like you did" I said, slouching in the car seat.
"It makes me feel so much better than you are dismissing your chances with Callie just because she is pregnant. Not because she is married, or because she is now our professor and a high ranking surgeon at the hospital we will be working at for the next seven years, or even because she literally told you to move across the country away from her. All of which left you devastated, lower than I have ever seen a person in my life. No...it's just the baby that is keeping you away. Great" Teddy said, getting out of the car and slamming the door.
"Teddy, wait" I said, chasing after her. I grabbed her arm and turned her around.
"Look" I said "I don't like this either. This whole situation is complicated beyond comprehension. I can't help that when I am around Callie, even when we aren't talking to each other, I feel better. I don't want to feel better! I want so much to hate her! But...we are like magnets. I know, it's literally the cheesiest analogy ever, but it's true. We are drawn to one another in a way that I can't even begin to understand, much less explain to you. It doesn't mean we are together in any way...it's just...the way we are. The way we have always been. But I am going to try to ignore her because I can't go through what I did these last few weeks and I sure as hell don't want to put you through that again" I said. Teddy sighed, taking my hand.
"She has this hold on you, Zona. It scares me, your feelings towards her. I just want you to be happy" Teddy said. I pulled her into a hug, overwhelmed with gratitude. Like many of us in this situation, she deserved so much better.
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The next two week of classes came and went. With Teddy's help, Callie and I hardly looked at one another, much less spoke to one another.
Despite this and the dramatic conversation we had after the first class, I felt better now that Callie was around me again. It didn't make sense, given the fact that she had ripped my heart out and now I had to see her two afternoons a week. But for whatever reason, just having her in my life, even if it wasn't the way either of us wanted, felt better than not having her at all.
During our sixth lab session, three weeks after classes had started, I noticed Callie was pacing back and forth incessantly. She lectured for a few minutes at the beginning of the lab, then paced. Back and forth, in the front of her classroom, to the office, between students, she paced. She answered questions, but only with minimal responses. Usually, she gave long, drawn out explanations to any questions we asked. Not today. I am sure no one noticed these slight disturbances in her behavior, but they were as obvious as night and day to me. She was anxious about something. I tried to remind myself that it wasn't my business and that I needed to stay out of it. But I felt that all too familiar pull to her, to ask her what was wrong, to make sure she was okay. When lab was over and the time came to leave, I just couldn't get myself to leave that classroom.
"Leah, Teddy, you guys go on. I am going to review some of this material. I couldn't get myself to remember the brachial plexus for some reason" I said. Teddy glared at me, knowing something was up.
"Do you want me to stay back and help you out?" Leah asked.
"No, seriously, I got it. I think I just need some one on one cadaver time. Thank you, though" I said in the nicest tone possible.
"Okay, well I will see you later tonight then" Leah said. Teddy followed behind her, then turned back to me.
"You may have Leah fooled, but I know you had the brachial plexus memorized our first day of class. Don't be an idiot" She whispered in my hear.
"You coming Teddy?" Leah asked.
"Yep! Bye Arizona! Remember what I said" She said, chasing after Leah.
I sighed; Callie was now chewing on her left thumb nail, pacing in front of her office again. Teddy was right, I was an idiot. I shouldn't be hanging around to check on Callie. Yet, here I was.
When everyone had left lab except Callie and I, I turned towards her.
"Are you..." I started to say before she cut me off.
"I'm bleeding" She blurted out.
"Ok...bleeding from where?" I asked.
"Down there" She said, pointing sheepishly towards her crotch.
"Callie, I am a medical student, you are a surgeon and on top of that, we have slept together. You can say that you have vaginal bleeding without getting all weird" I said.
"I know, I know...I just..."
"You're freaking out"
"I'm freaking out" She said with panic in her eyes.
"How much?"
"Just some spotting" She said.
"You know mild bleeding is normal in pregnancy" I said.
"I know"
"And you know at 25 weeks, risk of miscarriage is extremely low"
"I know" She said. She looked like she was about to burst into tears. I put my hand on her shoulder, forcing her to look at me.
"Look at me, Calliope. You and baby are going to be just fine. You know the chances of a little spotting becoming something serious at 25 weeks is very minimal. Who is your OBGYN?"
"Addison Montgomery" She said. Of course she is, I thought.
"Perfect! Let's call her. It's not even 5 o clock yet. I bet she would examine you and do an ultrasound today if you called her right now" I said.
"I feel stupid" Callie said, looking ashamed.
"You're not stupid, Callie. You have the right to be concerned. I'll call her for you, okay? And we can go see her together. She is my 'physician mentor' now and I haven't formally met her yet" I said.
"Really? You'll come with me?" She asked.
"Uh...Yeah, if you want me to. Unless you're going to call Owen or..."
"No, Owen is in surgery until later tonight..." She trailed off briefly, tears welling in her eyes, "I really don't want to be alone"
"Hey, you are not alone. This is going to be no big deal, okay? I promise. Come on, I will drive you" I said.