Hi readers! Here's a quick chapter. Sorry it is so short, but I will update again soon :)
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I ran out of the hospital doors as soon as Leah was out of sight. I must have looked ridiculous running through the parking lot and streets in a fancy black dress and heels. But in my mind, there was no other option. I needed to get away from everything as quickly as possible, and unfortunately, Leah had driven us. The run itself actually relaxed me. The hospital wasn't far from Teddy and I's apartment and it felt good to clear my head. Or at least, attempt to clear my head.
How had everything gotten so complicated? It seemed like yesterday that I was watching Callie from afar in the OR, secretly fantasizing about the beautiful Latina surgeon I worked so frequently with. I missed the days when everything was so simple, when our connection to one another was an unspoken secret between us instead of a dramatic scandal that more and more people seemed to be learning of. I understood what Callie was asking now, what did all of this mean? Not just the sex, but the rest of it: Owen, the baby, our inability to stay away from one another. Where did we go from here?
Opening the door to my apartment, I was startled to see both Teddy and Henry sitting at the kitchen table, both still dressed in their formal attire.
"I didn't expect to see you two sitting here. The party isn't over yet" I said.
"Eh, we got bored. Too much doctor talk for me" Henry said, taking a swig of his beer.
"I can only assume that you are coming home early, without Leah and a relieved look on your face, only means one thing" Teddy said.
"We ended things..." I said quietly. Teddy gave me a sad look. She was disappointed, as I knew she would be.
"Oh, Arizona. What happened?" Teddy asked. I opened my mouth to respond, but there was a knock at the door. Had Leah forgotten something here? Had Henry invited people over? I looked to Teddy and Henry, they shrugged. I walked to the door, opening it slowly. To my surprise, standing in front of me, was Callie. Stunned, I stood there, staring at her. She had never been to my apartment before. I was surprised she even knew where I lived.
"Hi" Callie said softly. My mouth hung open.
"Hi" I responded, gathering myself. I never expected her to come here.
"Can I...come in?" Callie said, peaking over my shoulder into the apartment. "Hi Teddy, Hi Henry" I imagined Teddy's mouth hanging open further than mine.
"We will leave you two to...uh...talk. Come on, Teddy" Henry said, pulling Teddy to her feet. They shuffled past Callie out of the apartment. When they were both out of sight, I stepped aside and waved Callie inside. She stopped a few feet in front of the doorway, resting on hand on her pregnant belly and let her eyes wander the apartment. A smile grew across her face.
"It's so similar to how I imagined it. Simple, bright, light colors. Small TV, close living space. It's homey. It's you, Arizona" Callie said. I nodded, remembering how uncomfortable I had felt in her living space. I realized that her place felt like Owen, not at all like Callie.
"So, what does this mean?" I asked, leaning against the kitchen counter.
"I'm sorry I left you there, with Leah, at the hospital. I...I figured you two needed a moment..." She said softly. I nodded in agreement, searching her face for answers like I so often did. Callie had her subtle facial expressions that I had picked up on over the last year, a pinched brow here, a scowl there. But her emotions weren't as readily available in her expressions as mine are to her. Sometimes I felt like I was playing at a disadvantage because of this, but more often I loved how she kept me guessing. Her complexities made her, her.
"In that moment...after... I had so much I wanted to say to you. I wanted...to say" She stuttered for a moment, trying to find the right words. Callie, no, Dr. Torres, never stuttered, never hesitated. She always knew what to say and how to say it. This was important, something she has been thinking about for a while. I tiled my head to the side, waiting for her response.
"But now, all I can say...is that I love you. I love you, Arizona. I have been in love with you...forever. I'm sorry it took me so long to acknowledge it, to you and to myself" She paused for a moment, tears welling in her eyes as well as mine.
"You have a choice to make, Arizona. I want you to take all the time you need. I want you to think about you, what's best for you. I will be here, waiting for you. And I will wait for you, as long as it takes for you to make the right choice, for you. Because when I had to make a choice, between being with you or staying with Owen, I chose wrong" Callie said as her voice began to crack, tears streaming down my face. She turned around and put her hand on the door knob.
"Good night, Arizona."
