Let Me Hold You
chapter nine
Sorry guys it took so long. but I'm lazy...and too lazy to write anything else. Sorry, no Zim in this chapter, but the next one.
After Zim had left I was bored, so I started to dance around my room and sing. I had finally moved out of Gaz's room and got my own. Since red is my favorite color, it was of course decked out in red. But I didn't have that bright red color. It was a little on the dark side, but not too dark. Anyway, I had my Ipod in the dock and was blasting away not caring about the complaints.
Gaz finally opened my door and started shouting.
"What," I said through the loud music. All I seen was her mouth moving in all shorts of directions. She went over and turned it off.
"I said, "TURN THE DAMN THING OFF!"
"Gee Gaz. You don't have to shout." She growled and walked out the door.
"Fine, I"ll just go for a walk," I shouted after her. I took my ipod and headphones and walked downstairs.
"See you finally turned it off," said my dad reading the paper.
"Nope. Gaz did." He looked at me puzzled.
"Where are you going?"
"Just out for a walk," I said opening the door about to walk out.
"OHHHHH. What's his name?"
"A walk."
"That's an…interesting name." I rolled my eyes.
"No dad, I'm just going for a walk. That's it."
"Right. Well any way, I talked to your mother today and she said that she was coming down to visit over the weekend." I just stared at him blankly.
"Umm, why?"
"She said she misses you."
"That's not what she said when she walked out on us," I said crossing my arms. "I barely see her. Only one time out of the whole year and I'm tired of it. Either she tries harder or get out of our life for good." He chuckled.
"What is so funny?"
"Your mom, she visiting because she's looking for houses here."
"I take back what I said. Once a year is fine with me."
"Just give her a chance Bianca."
"I have. Now see you later." I walked out and turned on my ipod. I walked down the street just listening to the songs that were playing just trying not to get upset. My mother,huh? That woman is not my mother. Who does she think she is trying to come over here? I just know she's gonna try and tell me what I can cannot do and set some rules. Especially if i'm in her house.
"Well I got news for you lady. I'm not gonna be at your house. Now what!" I got a couple of stares from people at the park. "Ummm, just practicing for a play. You should come see it." They looked away and I put my head down and started walking again. Then again, now that I think about it, dad will probably make me go stay with her on the weekend or something. I wonder if he told her about his new girlfriend. Now there was an idea. Make mom fall in love with dad again and then when she's about to put out her feelings, BAM. Dad's getting married to Ms. Kate. Perfect. Oh, i'm good.
I was giggleing to myself not bothering to notice what was in front of me. Thump! I bumped into something soft and firm.
"What a weird pole," I said out loud. There was a chuckle. I knew that chuckle. Oh no!
"Not a pole." I looked up into the eyes of my mother. Fuck. My. Life. "Hi, baby!" She grabbed me in a tight hug almost cutting off my oxygen.
"Need...to...breath."
"Oh sorry, bunny. I just missed you so much and out of luck I bump into right here." I sighed. Great, back to that nick-name.
"Luck,huh? For who?" She laughed her laughed that I loved. And the only thing I would love about her. She had a nice laugh. If anyone else had that laugh, I'd still like it.
"You're so silly."
"Mom," I said my voice straining. "What are you doing here?"
"Didn't your father tell you?"
"Yeah, but so soon? You didn't even give me time."
"Time for what?"
"Ummm, nothing. Just...busy." She raised her eyebrows.
"Busy with boys." I almost choked on my spit. Not a way I want to die.
"Noooo."
"Sure, sure. Well I was just on my way over to where you were staying."
"That's nice," I nodded. "See ya later." I started to walk around her. She grabbed my arm a little too tight.
"Not so fast missy. Maybe we should go grab something to eat. My treat." She let go of my arm. She that tinkle in her eye she always got when she felt that she was getting the end of the boot. Not wanting her to cause a scene I agreed and told her I wanted to go to O'Charleys. If she wanted to take me some where, it was not gonna be some cheap little fast food place. And just to let you know, my mom is Bipolar. So, you can see why I woulnd't want her to make a scene in public. It's the most stressful thing to go through with her. Especially when she has more Mania days than depressed days. So I try to keep her happy. That's why I try to avoid her at all costs.
"Good, I'll call your father and tell him."
God, help me.
Okay, I know it's a little short, but i'm typing this at school cause my computer at home is down for right now. And I wanted to hurry and get another chapter out there asap. Sorry for the wait. Don't hate me!
oh and the bipolar thing, Mania is just a medical term for when a person's mood changes to really high and can have some deep anxiety and can get very irritated causing them to cause a scene sometimes. Not to offend anyone who suffers from bipolar disorder.