Let me hold you

chapter 15

JEEEEEEZ! I'm really sorry guys, it's just been crazy. I have now entered the college world. Yeah, I know. But hey I'll try my hardest t update on this story. I really missed writing for it.

It was around 3 in the morning and I could not just fall asleep. You want to know who has been on my mind? Fucking Zim. Why, I don't know. He just is. Maybe he gave me something. Okay, now I'm just being paranoid. Though, I don't think there is such a thing when it comes to Zim. He's an...alien. Not human. Different DNA. Who says I shouldn't be a little paranoid. I rolled onto my side to look out the window. I don't even know where he comes from, let alone how far he's from.

I couldn't worry about him now. I had to worry what I was going to do for the talent show next Friday. Gaz just had to tell me that she couldn't do it any more. Everything was just going so wrong. Except for Zim. Okay, stop. You're acting like a teenager. Oh wait, I am. So it's okay. No, no it's not okay. I sat up and hit myself in the head.

Ow. Okay that is not going to help. This was all so frustrating and stupid and all this worry is making me hungry. I got up and made my way down stairs. I could just hear my mom say " you're not suppose to eat after 10 pm." Please, fuck that. Eating at 3 in the morning was great. I don't know what she was talking about. I took out some pizza rolls, so good. I couldn't wait till they were done. My insides were killing for some and if they didn't get some soon then they would probably start to eat me from inside out just to punish me.

Wow, I have weird thinking.

Few hours later...

"Wake up!" I screamed and landed on the floor.

"Ow," I said rubbing my butt.

"Wow, fun time last night," said Dib smirking.

"Why yes I did." I got up and punched him in the arm.

"What was that for." I punched him again.

"Stop! why do you keep hitting me?"

"For begin stupid. I hope you'll be able to take me to school today. Unlike the rest."

"Hey, I have stuff to do and you take too long."

"Oh yeah. Like anybody at school reads the school paper," I said walking to my room.

"They do too," he yelled.

"Whatever." I fell on my bed. I was still tired. Only three hours of sleep doesn't do me any Justice. At least it was Friday. And I would see Zim. Damnit, let it go. After one afternoon of almost hot sex, haha if it was even going to be that, and I feel all loopy and have the stupid butterfly's. Anyway, what should I wear? DAMNIT!

So after four changes and a bump to the head thanks to my dresser I just settled with what I normally wear. T-shirt and jeans. If Zim really likes me, he wont care what I wear right? Right? Wrong. Okay right! I'm a mess. I just want this day to be over with.

"Aren't you going to get out," asked Dib.

"What?"

"We're at school." I looked around. Sure enough, there it was. looking all...schooly and lame. "Are you okay, Bianca. You seem...different."

"Are you trying to say I'm trying to hard, Dib. i'm not trying hard at all. This is how I look all the damn time. God, Dib," I said slamming the car door. "You're so stupid." I marched up the school steps not saying "hello" back. I was on a mission and it involved the bathroom. I stopped in my tracks. There was Zim. He was about to look my way. Oh no. I ducked into the bathroom as quickly as possible. Did he see me? Will he come over here? Is he standing in front of the door waiting for me to come out.

There was a flush and Bianta came out the stall. Oh no. This day is just starting out all wrong. That, that... B word. Good for me. No cussing. She gave me a "what the hell" look then smirked. I probably looked weird with my back up against the door. Then aging, it's not her right to judge.

"What's the problem Bi-an-ka," she said washing her hands looking at me from the mirror. I straightened up and fixed my hair. Not that it needed fixing.

"Now of your concern."

"It wouldn't have to do with a certain...boy?" I narrowed my eyes at her. She turned around.

"What makes you say that?" She shrugged all innocent like. Yeah as innocent as a snake can get.

"Well, class is about to start soon. See ya in class." She flicked nasty water from her hands on me. I think i may melt. Ick. Germs! I wiped my face then looked at my watch. Three minutes left. I would wait till the very last minuet to run up stairs and dodge into the classroom. Come on. Can time go any faster. My heart was beating from the adrenalin that started to rush through me. I couldn't stay still. Only two more minutes. Man I had to get this out of my system before I explode. I really hate adrenalin. Okay here I go. I swung open the and ran through the hall way and up the stairs. Thirty seconds left.

I don't think I'll make it. I could hear my heartbeat through my whole body. Come on. Lessssts GO! I made it into the classroom as soon as the bell rung. Oh yeah, I'm good. But i'm never doing that again. I walked to my desk not looking around. I was not going to make eye contact. I was feeling a little awkward. Sigh. Have I ever been mean to life? Why is life punishing me?

"I was wondering when you were going to get here," said Dib.

"Aw, well just a little bathroom problem. Nothing I can't handle. Why do you think I can't handle it. Is it cause i'm a girl. You're really sexist, Dib." Dib sat there like he was lost. Haha, lost. I like that show.

"Sorry," I whispered. He turned around and shook his head and mumbled something about women. I shifted in my chair trying to get comfortable. Is it hot in here? All i could do was stare at Zim's head. He hadn't turned around and I was praying that he wouldn't. I'm such a weirdo. A voice came over the PA system and started to talk about what was going on around school and what was for lunch today.

I laid my head on the table. That voice was really annoying. I just want a nap. But if I nap i'll probably end up snoring. Not good. Oddly I felt eyes on me. I don't i've ever felt like I was being watched and if this is what it feels like then I don't like it.

"Okay, all heads up."Oh no. I couldn't bring myself to pull up my head. How can someone make me feel this way. It's all so strange. I took a deep breath and lifted my head up slowly. I told myself not to look in Zim's direction. But stupid me, I did and came up to meet his eyes. I think my face just went into a coma cause it felt hot and tingly. He gave a small smile, but it disappeared as quickly as it came. I gave a wave. A very awkward wave.

"So, last class we talked about space. Today we'll look into human life and how we relate to monkeys." Again with the monkeys. For the last time, I didn't come from no stinkin' monkey.

"And then I want you to work in pairs. I will pick the groups because some of you children don't understand how to manage work and talking about...other things." I rolled my eyes. Oh yeah, I still had to find a way to rub dad's and Ms. Kate's relationship in mom's face. And that will not be easy. She looked around the classroom.

"Ah, Bianca and Zim. You can be group one." Fuck. My. Life.

Well i know it's not long, but I wanted to hurry and just get a chapter out there. Love it or hate it, review. I don't care if it's mean, just review.