Tris pov
After the odd and embarrassing moment that occurred this morning, I quickly make my way to the fear landscape room. I go to the machine and start it up like Tobias showed me, inserting the needle in the vein in my neck.
When it starts, everything goes black for a second before I'm laying in the field. I hear the awful sound of crows and the smell of burning fire. It's not real. I tell myself. The crows are attacking me and are everywhere until I find the refreshing puddle that saves me.
Next I'm in the glass container with the water filling it. I close my eyes and tap on the glass.
The glass is ice.
The glass is ice.
The glass is ic-
I bursts to my relief, but now I'm in the next fear. I'm being whipped around by waves until I crash into the rock and hold onto dear life. As my legs get thrown around I work on controlling my breathing until I open my eyes to find I'm tied up to the pole, Peter talking to Christina and her laughing.
Then he walks up and sets fire to my feet. I can feel the heat licking at my ankles and panic for a while.
"Smell that stiff? It's the smell of burning flesh."
"All I smell is rain."
I feel a drop on my nose and smile never have I been so happy for the rain. But to my dismay, my next fear is up. I especially hate this one because of my incident when I was an initiate. My arms and legs are tied and there's a bag on my head. I know my attackers have me but I still struggle.
Get a hold of yourself Tris! It's just a simulation.
Slowly my heart beat slows and I find myself in a room with Caleb, my parents, and the newest edition, Tobias.
"Shoot them." Jeanine tells me.
"No."I say, turning the gun on myself.
I look into Tobias' eyes when I do so. I'm expecting another fear, the one I've been waiting for, but it never comes. Because before I can realize it, I'm back in the fear landscape room staring at the poster in the back.
I'm not afraid of being with Tobias. Not anymore.
That explains why I didn't look away like I normally would have. It's because I'm not afraid to be with Tobias anymore. I'm not afraid of intimacy. This makes me realize that we can move on with our relationship and not be afraid of it.
I'm now six.
I make my way out the doors and to the hall. I hear footsteps coming from the other end and see a familiar figure. "I've been looking for you." Tobias says.
"Sorry, I came to go through my fear landscape."
"And?" He asks.
"I'm six."
It takes him a moment, whether it's shock or him blundering I don't know but soon he asks,"which one?"
"Guess."
"Crows?"
"No."
"Kidnapping?"
"I think you know which one..."I say challenging him.
"I think you're right."
"Guess we'll have to find out."
He leans into kiss me on the lips and slowly moves us to the wall. His hand slips up to my hip and moves under my shirt just slightly. He bites my lower lip causing me to moan.
But then it's all ruined by a gasp followed by clunk noise.
We freeze. I look over his shoulder to see Christina, Shauna, Lauren, and Marlene. Christina was the one to gasp, Shauna was the one to drop the box she had, Lauren looks confused slightly, and Marlene just looks happy.
I feel my cheeks burning and bury my face in his chest.
"What's happening here?" Christina asks playfully.
"Hmmm, looks suspicious..."Shauna jokes.
"Looks sexual,"Marlene adds with a wink.
If I was red before, it's nothing compared to how red I am now. They bust up laughing and then add,"okay, okay, we'll let you to be." With that they continue down the hall. Tobias lets out a sigh. I lean up to kiss him, which he accepts but it's definitely not like the other one.
"Should we go eat?"He asks.
"Yeah, I'm starving."
He takes my hand and leads me to the cafeteria. Uriah joins the group with enough Dauntless cake to feed an army. "Planning on eating that all by yourself, Uri?"Tobias asks.
"Duh, it's only cake! What else would I do? Share it? That's crazy talk."
"That would be terrible!" Tobias says in a mock terror voice.
"A true tragedy,"I add.
"You know it!"
We all laugh together. Then after we finish eating, Tobias asks me if I want to go back to the apartment. I see a hint of something in his eyes, but I don't know what? Love? Lust?
He leads the way back to the apartment, not paying attention to anyone we pass. He fumbles with the keys a little bit but soon we're in. He slowly turns to me and I watch as he stalks over to me.
He leans in, close to me. His chest against mine. His lips ghost past my ears. His breath tickling me.
"Tris,"he whispers.
I shiver and he gently places his lips on my ear, then moves below my ear to a spot I didn't know was so sensitive. He moves his mouth down to my neck, sending shivers up my spine. I close my eyes, think about how I'm not afraid anymore.
And something clicks.
He places a hand under my shirt but I stop him.
"I'm sorry, Tris, I went too far-"
"Stop! Don't say anything. It's not that you went too far. I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not afraid to be with you, Tobias Eaton. I love you and want to be with you. I wanted you to know that there's no doubt in my mind."
"I love you, Beatrice Prior."