TW: #Im Not Really Even Sorry But There May Be Some Self Harm Or Drug Use In This But I Dont Know Just Watch Out Okay?

DATE: Fri Oct 24th, 2014
TIME: 07:31 PM.

So, I have been having dreams, nightmares even, from my past. God, no wonder I wanted to die, I've been bullied, broken-hearted, cheated, lied to, and even messed with. I've been recording my dreams lately and I can confirm from talking to my friends and family about them they are memories I keep trying to remember. I hope that I can remember them before the year's over. Jesus I am seriously bored.

So I talked to Dave about the whole kiss thing, he kept denying it. I'm starting to wonder why he keeps denying it, but then I just try and forget about it. If he won't talk to me about it then so be it. I'll talk to him about it eventually though. Eventually.

TIME: 07:42 PM.

You sighed, getting up and laying in your bed. You didn't want to even fall asleep, you just sort of did. You hated it.

FLASHBACK:

"Karkat you've been really quiet. What's wrong sweetie?" "Nothing." "Now now, Karkat you should answer your mother." "Nothing's wrong, haven't you thought about maybe I just don't have anything to say?" "It's 6ecause he g9t kissed at sch99l t9day." "SHUT UP KANKRI!" "Who kissed you sweetie?" "Nobody, leave me alone about it!" "I didn't know my son had someone who liked him, who is she?" "No." "...Okay, who is HE?" "I don't want to talk about it, I'm going up to my room." "Sweetie, aren't you gonna finish, or even START your dinner?" "I'll eat it tomorrow morning." "N9 y9u w9n't. Y9u d9n't even eat lunch at sch99l." "What?" "Karkat you aren't eating?" "KANKRI I FUCKING HATE YOU!" "Karkat get back here!" "NO!" "KARKAT VANTAS YOU GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE NOW!" "Sweetie, just let him go to his room. He just needs to vent his anger out." "How?" "M9st likely 6y ranting a69ut everything 9n Face699k." "He never rants on Facebook." "His private Face699k. He has a separate Face699k s9 n969dy can 6ug him." "Oh dear." "WHY ARE YOU GUYS STILL TALKING ABOUT ME!?" "SON!" "DAD!"

FLASHBACK:

"Karkat, your uncle Slick is here!" "Fine, I'm downstairs." "Hey Karkat." "Hey Slick." "Hi Karkat!" "Hey Miss. Paint." "Oh boy Karkat, you've gotten bigger since I last saw you, have you been eating your vegetables." "...Yes?" "Ah, well my dear sister, I've got news for you guys." "What is it." "Me and Miss. Paint have decided to tie the knot." "Erm...what?" "We're getting married, I swear this kid doesn't even know what most of the things I say even mean." "Oh." "I'm excited about it, aren't you Slick?" "Of course I am doll." "Hehehe." "Excuse me while I go and hide in my room and pretend not to vomit." "Karkat, you better not." "Ah, Signy, just let him go." "Don't call me Signy." "Ah, well you are my sisters husband, just live with it, we're family." "Don't mind Slick, he's be-"

FLASHBACK:

"S0 Karkat, wh0 d0 y0u have a crush 0n?" "Hey KK, who ii2 the lucky giirl, or guy, whatever you liike?" "Come on Karkitty! Who is it? Is she/he purrfect!?" "I don't wanna say." "WWhy Kar? Is it one of us?...Is it Strider?" "W-WHAT!? FUCK NO!" "It's Strider." "NO IT'S NOT AMPORA!" "KK, II thiink ED'2 riight.""IT'S NOT STRIDER!" "Guys, I think Karkitty knows who he wants. But we all know it's Dave, omg, I ship it SOOOOOO HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRDDD! 333333K!" "Oh my GOD NEPETA! Can you NOT make my life fucking worse?" "Aw, Crabkat. It's okay. Besides, even if you don't like Dave, I t)(ink you two would be good toget)(er." "Thanks Feferi." "Hehehe." "Sollux, don't be mean to Karcrab. Same with you -Eridan." "Nyeh!" "Whatever FF, II'm 2tiill wiith AA." "0h S0llux."

You woke up, groaning loudly before laying back down. Why is everyone in your life always angry with you? Or even teasing you. Or anything. You sat up again, sighing. You looked over towards your desk, soon getting up. You sat in your computer chair, looking through your desk drawers. You sighed and pulled out a pack of cigarettes, quickly sighing and wheeling over to your window, sighing and opening it, lighting one of them and smoking it. You did this for three more cigarettes before putting them away and laying in your bed, sighing. You sigh a lot.

You guess you could call it a night, even if it was only 2 am. You didn't care anyways, so why even bother?

HEY~~~ AN UPDATE~~~

This story is sort of getting a bit..."?" so um...yeah...

FUCK I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

WHY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I AM TOO YOUNG TO GO TO PRISON!

I have to start High School. God help me.