Tris pov
Our honeymoon ends all too soon. Now we are back in dauntless and back to work. But every morning I wake up in the arms of my husband. Today is Saturday, our day off.
I wake up to Tobias kissing me on the neck. I moan and roll over to kiss him.
"Morning beautiful,"he says and kisses me again. I roll over and straddle him. He moans and pushes his hips into mine. I attack his neck and face with my lips. I giggle as he rolls me over and bites my shoulder.
After as I lay on his chest, I look over at the wall. There's a small calendar on it. Today is the 25.
Sitting up really fast, I startle Tobias.
"What is it?"he asks.
"I was supposed to take my birth control on the 4th but that was our wedding so I forgot. And I'm a week late."
I feel like I'm going to be sick. This can't be happening.
He sits up fast, his eyes wide.
"We need to go to the hospital now,"he says and hops out of bed struggling to find some pants. I feel like I can't move, frozen in a state of fear I've never experienced. Tobias hands me my clothes and then notices that I haven't moved.
He pulls me into a hug and says,"whatever happens, I want you to know that I love you."
"I love you too." I said plainly.
He gives me a worried look and then leads me to the hospital. We sit there in agony waiting for a doctor. But finally one comes.
"Hello, I'm Dr. Cline, what can I do for the two of you?" She asks.
"I forgot to take my birth control and I'm a week late on my period, so I'm afraid that I might be pregnant."
"Okay, when we're you supposed to take it?"
"I was supposed to take it on the 4th, but that was my wedding day so it slipped my mind."
"Okay,"she says and jots down something on her clip board.
"I will run a blood test to see. Just let me go get the materials I need." She says.
When she comes back, she takes my blood and says the results should be ready in an hour and for us to come back then. Tobias takes me to a small cafe for breakfast and at first we sit in silence.
"Tris..."He starts but then trails off like he isn't sure how to say something. "How would you feel if you were pregnant?"
"I'm not sure...terrified, maybe."
"Would it be that bad?"he asks.
"Do you want me to be pregnant?"I ask him.
"I don't know...I think you would make a great mother. But I, I just don't know, maybe?"
"I'm not sure if I'm ready?"I say.
"I know that I want to have a baby with you eventually. But I'm not sure if I'm ready to be a dad just yet. I mean we just got married. And I'm not sure how to be a loving father. I try to go off of your dad but other than that, I haven't been taught."
"Tobias, you are one of the most loving people I know. You love with all your heart and I know that you would do anything for your child. You will make a great father."
"Are we ready for this?"he asks.
"I don't think anyone is ever ready for a child."
"I guess we just have to let things happen."
As we walk back to the hospital, I think about what it would be like to have a baby. A little baby with his dark blue eyes and my hair, or my eyes and his dark hair. Tobias holding a little tiny baby in his arms. I could imagine him rocking it and cooing to it. And maybe he would fall asleep with it on his chest...
When we get back we have to wait again until the Dr comes in. Tobias holds my hand and says,"no matter what, I love you."
"I love you too," this time I'm able to say it with love and affection.
He leans in and kisses me quickly.
That's when the door opens and Dr Cline steps in. "Hello, Mr and Mrs Eaton. So the results came back and you are not pregnant. You see, the way birth control works, is that it makes your body think that you are pregnant by the hormones and how it effects them. Your body still thought it was pregnant, but at the time the effect of not taking your birth control mixed with that, so the egg was never released causing you to be late. You will have to start it up next month on the same day that you would usually take it and I suggest using protection with any sexual intercourse. You also might be a little emotional this next week or so, just so you have a heads up."
When she tells me this, I would expect that the weight would be lifted off my chest, but instead I feel worse. I feel like even more pressure is there now. Like I'm disappointed.
I look at Tobias but he has his Four mask on. I wish he didn't because I want to know how he feels.
"Thank you, doctor," Tobias says and shakes her hand.
We don't speak until we get home. I take a seat on the couch and he sits next to me. He takes my hand in his and rubs circles on it. "How do you feel?"he asks.
"I don't know."
I look into his eyes and see worry.
"Did you want me to be pregnant?"I ask him.
"I was starting to get used to the idea,"he admits.
"Me too,"I say...