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Chapter 17

Emma was so late.

But Killian didn't have to start running his fingers from her cheek down to her neck, untying his robe on her and keep running his fingers down and down and down while she attempted to dress.

She had tried to resist, she really did,

In order to not have any over eager employee catch them together, Emma had gotten off at the Starbucks so she could chat with Mulan and have at least a ten-minute window before she showed up at the office. Her cell vibrated as Killian's name showed up on the screen, but she ignored it as she was busing making plans with Mulan for a girls night out with Ruby and Mary Margaret as well, missing her girl time.

Once she walked inside, pushing open the glass doors she found almost everyone huddled together speaking in hushed voices.

"What's up?" she asked, everyone's head moving to her. Finally Janice spoke, "Didn't you see the news today or TMZ?"

"No" Emma answered, a blush creeping her as she remembers exactly why she didn't.

"Well seems like Killian's mystery woman is revealed" another employees spoke, grinning.

"What?" Emma froze. They knew, they somehow all knew. But how they'd been so careful! Maybe Shira saw her at his house, or maybe David slipped, or Smee said, or mayb-

"I always knew it was Shira!" Janice sneered, "They both couldn't stop touching each other"

"Shira?" Emma looked incredulous, "No way"

"Ya! See" Janice hopped off, shoving the magazine in Emma's face that had a picture of Shira leaving Killian's apartment this Sunday with her head bowed down and a sly smile on her face with big bold letters in pink saying "Walk of Shame".

"This is ridiculous!" Emma said to no one in particular. Shira had come and spent an hour talking about their new arrangement while Emma hid in Killian's bedroom. They had talked about how Shira really needed this partnership to save her father's business from going bankrupt, not having sex!

Below her picture was a little bubble saying, "a close friend of Shira's disclosed that this thing between Shira and Killian has been going on since his trip to L.A. He said all those beautiful things in his interview for Shira and later sent flowers to her house which prompted her to give this a chance. They're really in love"

If Emma wasn't so incredulous at this statement, she would actually laugh.

She felt a hand on her back and she craned her neck to find David nodding at her, "Emma come with me" he said as he took her hand and guided her towards Killian's office. He explained to the others in his 'boss' voice, "Legal needs to damage control" as the others nodded.

He opened the door to reveal Killian hurrying towards her, his hair sticking out as if he ran his fingers through them.

He walked the distance between them and took Emma's hands in his own, "Love, I didn't know about this. I swear there's nothing going on between us. Please trust me, I'll talk to Shi-"

"Killian, it's okay, I know" Emma interrupted, squeezing his hands. She heard the door close behind her as David left them alone.

His eyebrows shot up and his nose scrunched in confusion. Emma brought her hand up to cradle his cheek, "Hey, of course, I trust you!"

He smiled, tilting his head as if he was trying to understand her. Was this really the same Emma who ran away rom him every time they connected?

He kissed her forehead as he wrapped his arms around her waist, "I'm sorry about all of this, Swan"

"It's alright. I guess it comes with the deal" she whispered, "Although I'm kind of jealous, everyone's been talking about you guys"

"You have no reason to be jealous, my love" he smiled, and as if to prove his point, crushed his lips onto hers, his tongue sliding inside her as she threw her arms around his neck, pulling him down. It wasn't long before Emma elicited a moan and Killian's arousal hit her.

Once they separated Killian was blown away with the desire evident in her eyes, his own arousal evident of his own. He sneaked a quick glance to the door which was closed, and made his decision. He was going to prove to Emma just how much he really just wants her and that she has no reason to be jealous.

He entwined his fingers with hers, pulling her towards him till they were beside his table. He moved his keyboard away and cleared up the few pens and papers on his desk as he pushed Emma down to sit on it gently.

He sat on his chair and rested his palms over her thigh that was now visible as Emma's skirt had ridden up. She cocked an eyebrow up and Killian replied back with a smirk.

Emma blushed, "In here?"

"Aye"

"It's dangerous Killian, what if someone comes in?" she asked, getting a little excited, as it was hot. And the fear of being caught was just making her even wetter.

"Everyone knocks before they come in, except of you" he grinned, separating her legs tantalizingly slow.

"Also, love, the only way we could get caught is if you don't stay quiet" he winked at her, earning a slap on his shoulder. He separated her thighs and moved them until her skirt was bucked up around her waist, his hands caressing her thigh. She was wearing a blue lace which they had bought together when they went shopping on Saturday so Emma could stay the weekend.

He kissed the top of her knee, slowly moving upwards as Emma's thighs shivered, heat pooling even more as she waited in anticipation. Killian nibbled at the skin just before where she needed him the most, and his hand grazed her knee causing Emma to let out a whine in frustration.

Deciding to take things into her own hands, she pulled at his hair until he was sitting straight again, an eyebrow raised in question. "Just do it"

He smirked, "As you wish, my love"

Never leaving her eyes, he ran a finger over her damp underwear, eliciting a hiss from Emma. He slid her panty down to one side as he ran two fingers over her wet folds, using his other hand to unbuckle his belt to give his prominent erection some room.

He brought his thumb to her clit, circling her swollen nub as she grabbed his shoulders, bringing his face down to him to kiss him, Killian swallowing all her moans and pants.

Emma yelped in surprise as Killian stood up, bringing his hands below her thigh and pulling her forward until she was sitting on the edge of his desk. He leaned on her body and brought his arms around her to move the few files behind her. After the area was cleared up, he slanted his mouth down to hers, using his body to gently push her backwards until she was lying down on his desk, her feet dangling down.

Killian took his place in his seat again and brought her legs over his shoulders, her heels digging in the back of his seat. He watched as she prepped herself on her elbows, nodding her head towards her core, making Killian chuckle.

Emma moaned as she felt Killian's thumb rubbing against her swollen clit again, shutting her eyes and thanking that his office walls were soundproof.

"You're dripping, Swan" he smirked, and all Emma could manage was an "mmm" in response. She bit her lip to suppress her scream once she felt his hot tongue moving against her soaking folds, Killian lapping at them like a man starved. Emma slipped off her heels that fell somewhere behind him as she was afraid she'd hurt him as she had lost all control over her body.

He continued his slow torture, switching between his fingers, mouth, and sometimes both – nibbling, sucking, and licking until Emma fell all over his tongue with a suppressed scream of his name.

Once Emma came down from her high, she felt Killian lay on top of her, brushing the hair strands that had stuck to her forehead. She buried a hand in his ruffled hair from all her yanking and pulled him down, tasting herself on his tongue and feeling his erection pressing against her thigh.

She was bringing a hand down to cup him when a knock broke them apart. Emma looked up at him, panic seeping in her bones. He stood up quickly, "Get under the desk. Hurry!" he said, Emma hiding under his desk in record time as Killian wiped his mouth and tried fixing his hair.

The knock erupted again and Killian called out, "A moment" his voice still a bit hoarse from before.

Emma sat on her knees under his desk, thankful that it was an antique wooden one which had no open spaces except the one in front of her. He sat down on his chair and looked down at her, "You alright there, Swan?"

She nodded and Killian adjusted his pants a bit that were now very tight and confining. Emma giggled slightly as all she could see was Killian's hand moving over his pants.

Finally he called out, "Come in"

Shira entered his office, dressed in an extremely tight cream dress which had her breasts bouncing off. She took off the scarf and the oversized sunglasses as she sat on one of the visitors chairs, "So many fucking paparazzi all outside your office" she complained in her singsong voice that was evident of her posh upbringing.

"They weren't here when I got here" Killian wondered, leaning forwards so his elbows were on the desk.

"Well, I'm sure they sneaked pictures of me just now. Also everyone in your office was staring at me" Shira continued, crossing her legs, "So what do we do now?"

"What do you mean, lass?"

"Well, this situation of course! The world thinks we're dating!"

Killian feels Emma's hand around his calf, "We are not dating, Shira"

"I know but what do we do of the media?"

"Just ignore it" Killain shrugged his shoulders.

"Ignore it?" Shira asked, as if it was the most insane thing she'd ever heard.

Emma gritted her teeth in frustration as Shira's presence making her jealous (not that she'd ever admit it). She didn't like the woman much, not that she had anything personal against her but since the party where she was hung onto Killian's arm, flaring the jealous inside of Emma. Although because of it, Emma did end up finally kissing him and now because of that they're here now. So in a way she owes Shira.

But right now again, the little jealousy spot in Emma is flaming a bit as Shira keeps talking about the pictures. She looked up from her knees to the only thing visible: Killian's hard on. Feeling a bit jealous and territorial, and a bit brave, she brings her hand up to run a finger along his zipper.

"They'll be over it once a Kardashian or someone does something cra- Ah!" he screamed in surprise as he felt Emma's finger run down his zipper.

Shira gave him a weird look and he continued to babble on about how they should just ignore it, as if his little scream had meant nothing.

Emma knew it was stupid and risky but she just had so much fun having him react like that. She wanted to see just how much control can she make him lose. She moved forward a bit on her knees and brought a hand to lower his zipper.

"Or we could give in to the rumors?" Shira stated, pouting her lips as she stared at the man in front of her who was running his hands through his hair as if he was barely controlling it.

"What? No!" Killian snapped, "Why'd we do that?"

"Cause it's good for both of us! We're getting free publicity!"

Emma had long drowned out the conversation, focusing on her next move as she took him in her hands – her thumb circling on his tip as her other hand moved along the length of him slowly. She felt Killian tense above him, his breath caught in his throat.

"Killian?" Shira repeated, clearly annoyed, "We don't have to actually date. Just fake it so we get all the publicity. You know my father desperately needs it, please for fucks sake!"

Killian brought his hand down to his thighs, clutching on the fabric of his pants tightly as he spoke with a slight tremble to his voice all the credit going to the blonde, "Shira I have no interest in proving these accusations right". He took a few breaths to compose himself as Emma started moving her hand up and down, "What I said in the interview was true. There's someone else"

"I see" Shira said, nodding to herself as she stared behind him for a moment, "All right then, I will stay silent"

"Good" Killian replied, biting his lip to suppress a grunt as he felt Emma fondle his balls.

Shira nodded and left, slamming the door slightly behind her.

Killian pulled his chair back violently, causing Emma to lose her hold on him. He ducked his head lower, "What in the bloody hell Emma!" he said, and she smiled.

Returning her smile, he pulled her out from under the desk and fished for a condom in his wallet, "You'll be the death of me"

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After Emma and Killian were both sated she reluctantly left his room, fixing her hair and clothes, and grabbing her heels and bag from beside his table. Once she headed towards her office she was surprised to find some of her colleagues coming inside her office without knocking.

"So what happened inside?" Janice asked eagerly.

"What?" Emma panicked for a moment. As much as she's happy in this relationship, she will probably get a heart attack if people say things like these to her.

"Well you were inside for a long time and Shira walked out like ten minutes ago! Tell us everything!"

"Oh nothing. Killian and I were just" she clears her throat, "discussing what actions should we take against TMZ about this rumor"

"Rumor? So they aren't actually dating?"

"Oh no! No no no! They have agreed to not sue TMZ" Emma said as she honestly had no idea what Shira and Killian talked about since her desire had flooded her thoughts.

"I still don't buy it. Whatever" Janice said, and walked out.

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Emma heard a knock on her door and spoke without looking up, "I'm almost done the review Janice just two minutes!"

"Hey" David spoke and Emma looked up in surprise.

"Oh sorry David, what's up?"

"Nothing just checking – are you fine?" he stood near the door, his hands on his hips.

"Oh yes, don't worry. Thank you David" she smiled.

"Anytime" he said, turning around his hand on the doorknob, "Just be careful with him Emma"

Emma nodded, smiling gratefully for the familial worry she always gets from David and Mary Margaret.

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A week later, Emma had a huge smile plastered on her face (which was quite a normal sight these days) as she hurried to the restaurant that the girls loved. Her mood had soured a bit in the morning when Killian had informed her of a trip he had to make to Alberta for about a week.

"But that's in Canada!" she whined.

"I'm aware of that, darling"

"Killian it's snowing there. What if you get stuck in a snow storm?"

"Then I will dig my way through to you" he joked, Emma rolling her eyes at his stupid little romantic lines, "Or you could come with me and get stuck as well"

"You know I shouldn't. I already spend way too much time in your office, if the other's learn about this trip they'll grow suspicious"

"Well then we'd just have to be separated for a little while"

"There's even a time difference, ugh alright" she said, "I guess we'd be looking at the same moon or something at night"

"Look at that. Emma Swan trying to be romantic!"

"Shut up"

Emma was greeted by her girlfriends with smiles and hugs.

They caught up on their lives – Ruby excited as she and Victor were apartment hunting, Mulan telling them all about the kindergarten teacher she was quite smitten with named Aurora, and Mary Margaret dropping the bombshell that her and David were trying for a baby.

All the women erupted in "aww's" and other pleasantries and hugs as Mary Margaret touched her stomach, growing more anxious to finally be pregnant and have a baby with her husband. She smiled at Emma who smiled back, and Mary Margaret covered her hand, squeezing it.

"So do you think you guys will get married?" Mary Margaret asked Ruby, once they all had settled back down, "I mean moving in is a pretty big step"

"I don't know" Ruby answered, slipping her martini, "I'm not really the marriage type you know? For me moving in is as good as marriage. The only thing we don't have is a legal document and a ring"

"That's true" Mary nodded, "Everyone has their own views. David and I took the old-fashioned route and got married once we were ready. But whatever works for people!"

"Ya" Ruby smiled, "Anyways" her tone grew naughtier, "How are you and lover boy? With the permanent smile plastered, I'm gathering it's all good" she toyed with Emma's hair who blushed.

"It's amazing" she said, still quite the woman who likes her privacy and isn't the expert in talking about feelings.

"By the glow on your face it's definitely better than good" Ruby snickered, earning a laugh from the ladies.

"I have to say I've never seen you this happy Emma. It's a nice change" Mary Margaret smiled fondly, remembering the utterly broken woman she had met all those years ago.

"He makes me happy" Emma blurted out, "He's just amazing"

"That's so sweet" Mulan sighed, "The first time you guys met each other I could've sworn you'd rip his head off!"

"I wanted to" Emma joked.

"So do you love him?" Mary Margaret asked.

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It was late when Emma got home, Killian's home. She had contemplated between going back to her apartment as she was tired, but decided maybe she could get Killian to make her a hot cocoa and show off those massage skills he's been bragging about. Plus he was leaving two days later so she needed to spend as much time with him before his trip.

She needn't worry about clothes since she'd shopped quite a bit on the weekend they'd spent together and Killian had insisted her to leave them at his place in one of the drawers in his massive walk-in closet. Some of her stuff had already been at his place and some found its way since then - like her red leather jacket, her favorite blue scarf, a pair of boots, some earrings, a mascara, her copy of the Pride and Prejudice and Harry Potter (which she had gotten him to read – seriously how could anyone not read the series?), and many more little things that were ignorable at her house, but in his house, beside his own stuff felt so much better.

Once Emma had folded her clothes into her drawer at his place, Killian had made a comment about getting her a key to his place, shrugging it off with a dangerous smirk and a comment about "we'll be staying in the house for quite some time" once he noticed her expression and Emma could do nothing but smile and nod.

She used the key he'd gotten her, finding him in his office. Once he saw her he greeted her with a huge smile as he enveloped her in his arms and kissed her soundly.

"How was dinner with your friends, my love?" he asked once she was settled on the couch with a hot cocoa in her hands and his arm around her shoulders.

"It was good. I really needed it, it's been a while" she answered, snuggling more into him, "They want to meet you"

"Really?" he asked, tilting his head to look down at her.

"Ya they wanted to make like a four date thing - Ruby with Victor, Mulan and Aurora, Mary Margaret and David, and us"

"I would love to" he said, "Although, I'm afraid David might kill me"

"Don't worry I'll save you" she grinned.

"Of course you would, darling" he kissed her forehead, "Also, Smee has sent me a few ticket options for Ireland. He printed another sheet out and left it at your desk, so let me know tomorrow which day works for you?"

Emma nodded, surprised as the fear didn't come of spending time with him and his family for Thanksgiving. She was rather excited – the foster families never really celebrated, and there was one Thanksgiving with Neal which they spent huddled in a car eating McDonalds. She's been with Mary Margaret and David over the last few years as they drag her to them, but she's always been a bit uncomfortable. For the first time ever she's looking forward to something, all credit to Killian.

She intertwines her fingers with him, and wonders why she ever denied herself this? And the answer comes automatically – Neal. It bothers her a bit that Killian still doesn't know anything about Neal or why they broke up or just how fucked up she really was after that. He told her everything about Milah, sometimes making comments of how "Milah had always..." and Emma never felt jealous as she knew Milah was his past just like Neal was hers. Except she knew everything about his past, while he only knew about her pre-Neal past.

She left the most fucked up part of her past away from him because it was embarrassing. She was furious at it, of course she was, but she was more insecure about it as she wasn't sure if Killian would even understand. Or how low would he think about her then?

But watching him as he ran his fingers through her hair and smiled that stupid smile which made him look younger than he was, and naïve and sweet, she decided to for once and all let it all out.

"Killian I know I never talk about my past with Neal but" she started, noticing his fingers still in her hair only to drop at her shoulder.

He smiled at her, encouraging her to continue.

"I met Neal when I was sixteen. I had just ran away from this crazy lady who wanted to adopt me, and had been kicked out by this family when Lily showed up" she breathed in, "Anyways, so he was the first person ever who showed any interest in me – he cared for me and he actually wanted me"

Her voice broke in the end, gulping hard. Killian brought his hand down to hers, lacing his fingers with her as he offered her a small smile.

"I loved him, I really did. We had made plans to elope to Tallahassee but he got in trouble as the cops started looking for him as he had stolen some pretty expensive watches. Long story short - he ditched me; took the watches and ran away leaving me to take the fall for his crime"

His hold on her hand tightened as tears welled up in her eyes.

"That's not even the worst part" she whispered, "I was pregnant. I had to deliver the baby with my legs cuffed as I could somehow run away when a human was coming out of me!" tears streamed down her cheeks as she grew angrier, "I didn't even ever hold my baby. Because I couldn't have him – I couldn't raise him. I had to give him his best shot!"

She broke down then, letting all the tears she buries deep inside of her whenever the lingering thought of those little brown eyes and tiny body comes to her and she turns for comfort to her stash of alcohol. This time she turns to Killian as she clutches onto his shirt, and sobs into his chest.

"Oh Emma" Killian whispers, his own voice shaky as he wraps her in his arms, his hand running up and down her spine soothingly and his lips pressed to her forehead as he holds her while she lets it all out.

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It's in the early hours of the morning when Emma turns around in Killian's arms. It's when in his sleep he nuzzles her neck and sighs and Emma runs her palm over his cheek when she knows, she knows that she is in love with him.

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