*I don't own the hunger games! So, as I promised this chapter is bigger. Actually is much bigger, But I thought it's really good! ^^

Finally some Peetniss moment! :D

We wanted to show them our respect in every way. So Peeta was giving them warm bread and I was giving them, fresh game. We were avoiding the fact that we had to ask them about their children so a day, Mrs. Maisy –Foxface's mom, invited us for dinner. I was so nervous! I was literally trembling. I couldn't even focus on my hunting. I had even forgotten to look at the snares. I was totally out of mind! When the time came my heart was beating faster than ever. Being invited by the mother of the person you killed. I was guessing that Peeta was in worst situation than me. Probably!

I wore a blue dress Cinna had sent me. I was so much greatful that he wasn't dead. As it seems Plutarch had helped him run away to another place out of Panem when I was still in the Arena. I braided my hair and while I was opening my door to leave I pumped into Peeta. He was watching me with such a desire and hunger that made me blush. "You're gorgeous" he managed to say and slipped his hand to hold mine. We walked to the orange looking house and when we arrived he looked at me. "How I look?" he asks. I laugh a little and stroke his yellow shirt where his stomach is. "Good-looking" I answer looking in his eyes. Then he leaned over and whispers to me before he rings the bell: "you too". Mrs. Maisy opens the door and greets us with an unexpected happiness. While we were eating she was telling us everything for her daughter. As it seems Foxface… I mean Finch was really clever. Back in their district she was the first in her class, she knew how to select the poisonous fruits from the good ones. And that made me think… If she knew about the nightlock, why she ate it? And then I got it. IT was a thought that had come into my mind a few nights after the arena. I had seen her in the training center choosing the good fruits like a master, she must have suicide. That time I thrown away that thought but now I was sure that this is what had happened. I thought she was going to cry or get mad but instead, she seemed happy talking about Finch. She was proud of her.
"The fish is really good-cooked Mrs. Maisy" I could see that the whole time he was trying to impress her or something. She thanked him and offered us some tea to the back yard. We nod in answer and head to the back yard.
As soon as I stepped in the green grass I had been left with an open mouth. It was wonderful. Green grass, rocks with amazing grey colors, hidden lights between them, lakes with fishes and in the corner a small place with some chairs and a table made of steel. I stayed staring at the beauty of it but Peeta showed me the way to the chairs. He sat in a chair in front of me and never loses eye contact. Mrs. Maisy appeared and sat in the chair between us and started serving tea. With her she also brought a plate with biscuits. I got one on my hand and instantly realized that it was Peeta's. We were talking, and she was smiling so friendly, that you would have never guessed that we had being in the hunger games with her daughter.
"Peeta, the biscuits are amazing! You have to teach me how to do them!" Peeta's eyes widen for a moment, I was shocked too but then he nod in agreement.
"Are you thinking of getting married?" She asked innocently while drinking her tea. Hearing that Peeta and me choked. We cough a couple of times; Peeta swallowed hard and shook his head in answer. Mrs. Maisy put her hand above her mouth in disbelief.
"You are not lovers, right?" Peeta was looking the ground so this time; I shook my head for answer. She was looking embarrassed away, knowing that she wanted to say something and before saying anything Peeta spoke. "Say it… We were doing this for so long. It's ok…"
"I would bet that you were lovers. I mean, not after all those kisses … not even when you got engaged … no I mean" she took a deep breath and continued "I mean, after the kiss in the Quell. I could even bet!" I swallowed hard avoiding Peeta's gaze. That kiss, that was the kiss that made me realize. It was the kiss that made the warmth into my heart turn into hunger. Hunger for more of him. I was really dump to understand that before. We fell on silence as Mrs. Maisy was trying to figure out what and why. When in her face was written the underestimate, Peeta broke the silence.
"So, where is your husband?" when he asked that her face lit up. It was like she was in her own world. Like my mother was looking like when my father was coming home after his job in the mines. "He found a work in district 3. It's not permanent. He will return in a few months." Her voice had a tone that I never used before. A tone that I've also heard my mom doing it. I look at Peeta and saw his blue eyes looking straight into me. That made me smile, and for the first time, I look at her straight in the eyes. And instead of the cold, deadly eyes of Foxface, I saw the warm friendly eyes of .

"Thank you for the dinner !" Peeta said shaking hands with her. "Oh, nothing! If you need anything, you know where I am." She said and then she closed the door. He held my hand in the whole way, till the victor's village. He seemed happier than before. Peeta came with me until my house door. I pushed my back on the wall next to my house and Peeta had his hands next to my head pushing his weight on the wall. "I had fun today" I eventually said. "Yeah, me too." I turned my eyes up and saw Peeta's eyes trying to find mine, and then I realized that he was just a breath away. His eyes full of desire, the same hunger. I was totally lost into his gaze. And when I thought he was going to kiss me he leaned over and gave me an open kiss on the cheek. I kissed his cheek too and the move surprised him. Then with fast moves I opened the door and get lost into my house darkness. I closed the door with force leaving him outside. I sneak a peek from the window, and see him leaning still on the wall with his hand on fists. Then he dug his hands into his pocket and left to his house with his head bowed. I pushed my back on the door and fell down and then a thought came into my mind; "Why I was feeling like that?" I went to my room and fall into my bed. As soon as my head fell on the pillow I fell in a dreamless sleep.

Foxface's page on the book was over. I had written what I knew for her and Peeta drew an amazing picture of her. It was Finch looking at the sky and smiling. Her orange wavy hair falling on her arms and the sun light was making her eyes light. It was like I was watching her in front of me. Happy, alive... It was Glimmer's turn. I had to wake up the memory of me throwing the tracker jackers nest above her. Glimmer's family saw us leaving form Mrs. Maisy's house and they invited us for lunch. This time was lunch so Peeta had to come home early from the re-built of bakery and I didn't go hunting. We headed together to Glimmer's family. When we arrived, he did the same thing. He looked at me and said: "How I look?" I smile and I whisper "Really nice!" he shivered from my voice and rung the door bell. A woman in a baby pink dress opened the door. She greeted us with a friendly voice, but I could see that she was feeling more uncomfortable than Foxface's mother. As we were approaching the dining room we realized that we weren't alone. Marvel's family was there too. That made me feel weirder if you consider the fact that I … I killed Marvel and Glimmer.

Marvel didn't have many relatives. He only had an older sister and her husband but still…It was his family. Her eyes lit up when she saw me. Not with excitement but something I would call … fear. We shook hands and I tried to keep my tears. When she held my hand she looked at me. Her face straight. But her eyes were telling me that she didn't hate me. A small spark of warmth. Her name was Tulie and her husband's name was Avery. Glimmer's parents' names were Velvet and Jack. District ones names were just funny. It was so awkward hearing their stories. I never really thought of them. And I was mostly shocked when I heard that they were friends. Good friends actually. Marvel wasn't the strongest guy. He was always the second. Always the second. But he was good-hearted. Even for a career. That made my stomach squeeze. I never thought that Careers are good-hearted. When Glimmer was reaped, it was meant that Marvel was going to get reaped too. Glimmer wasn't really clever. Her beauty was always her weapon. I remembered her. The blond wavy hair of her. Even dead she was amazingly beautiful. Her beauty made her the most desirable girl in the whole district, and when she got reaped there was a big depression all over the district. We've learnt, actually, many things about them. Things that I've never thought of. I knew that Tulie was going to be afraid of me. She was avoiding me, even before she met me. Anyway, I was the one who killed her little brother. I was aware of my movements. When I stretch the blow and left the arrow to go through his heart. The panic was written all over my face while we were heading home. Peeta wanting to comfort me said: "We are the end! Two more families left!" But those two families were the worst… Clove and Cato… I swallowed hard and gave him a small smile. I leaded him to the living room and sat next to him on the sofa. "When are you opening the bakery?" I asked trying to forget about everything that distracted me. "Next week is the grand opening!" he said and his face lit up "You should come and help more, you know! Tom likes you!" he teased me. I laughed a little. "Yeah maybe I have to come more." He stayed with me to watch Plutarch's music show. It wasn't that bad. I actually smiled listening to the songs. But I really wanted to back down from all the cameras for a little while. I knew that I wouldn't be able to back down for ever.

The show ended with Plutarch's voice promising for more songs the next week. I turned my head to Peeta who was obviously sleeping. He looked really peaceful so I guess he wasn't having any nightmares. I went closer to him. "Peeta" I whisper. He moaned a little in his sleep. "Peetaaa" I said louder shaking him a little. Still nothing. I wouldn't be able to make him walk until my room so I left him sleeping on the couch. The sofa it was really big that it could fit me too. I brought two blankets and with the one cover him. As I was going to leave, Peeta's eyes open and he gave me a small kiss on my cheek bone. I knew he wouldn't remember it tomorrow. I left the air-condition open and walked to the other sofa. I lied there and cover myself with the other blanket. I was hoping to have no nightmares so I won't wake him up. But I never have such luck.

I woke up feeling dizzy from all the nightmares I had the night before. I was so scared when I saw Clove smirking to me while throwing a knife staright into my heart that I found myself dialing Peeta's number and then hung up. I had barely slept. The day before we had visited Mr. Clot and Mrs. Clay. Clove's parents. Their house was full of pictures of their daughter. The whole house was hunting me. I thought that every picture was looking at me. Peeta felt that too. I could see it into his eyes. As it seems, Clove was the best at the trowing-knives-thing. She wanted to be the best. Whenever she was winning something she wanted everyone to know that SHE did it. And then I understood. I was really wandering why she was talking to me so much instead of killing me when she had the chance in the arena. She wanted everyone to stuck their ears into the televisions hearing her little speech and so everyone will remember the one that killed the girl in fire… It was pretty scared. Let me not to think about all those knives.

The worst was that today we were going to visit Cato

's family. I was in terror. Shaking from head to toes. I was the one that gave Cato a slow death even If I killed him when he was being tortured. Peeta was frightened too. He could remember the fight they had before Cato tried to kill him. I knew this day was going to be terrific and slow. I prepared myself. Peeta came to my house earlier than usual. He was trying to calm me down but he couldn't calm even himself. He was less nervous than I was but still he was nervous too. When the time came to go to Cato's family's house we started walking slowly. He was holding me from my waist really tight, but that made me feel better so left his hand there. He didn't turn to me to ask me or even look at me. We were in silence. Afraid that a single word will make us break down. He rang the bell with a shaking hand. We both wanted this to end as soon as possible. The door opened fast and a fair man greets us. No smile. Straight face. They understood our nervousness, so they didn't talk much about the Games or Cato. We sat on the chairs around the table and started eating silently. His brother was … unbearable. He was like hell. No good word at all. When we were bringing the arena's subject he was always saying how horrible death his brother had. His every word made my mind melt, my heart raise and my stomach squeeze. It was painful as scenes from the arena were coming into my mind. Peeta's eyes got smaller and darker. He had 3 flashbacks in only 2 hours He was going to the bathroom locking him in and trying to fight his flashbacks before he hurt anyone. Mr. Max and Mrs. Georgia understood that something bad was going to happen, they tried to prevent the worst and send us home. As soon as we stepped outside Peeta left running. He had another flashback. He looked at me in anger and then in worry. He didn't want to harm me or anyone else. I wanted to help him but I didn't know how. Holing his head and heading home. I turned to the fair woman with the blue eyes.
"Mrs. Georgia… thanks for everything. And sorry we have to leave so soon."
"No, Katniss" she said and took a deep breath "I'm deeply sorry for Seez's attitude. I know how hard was for you coming here today!" He sighted and bowed her head. Why she was so good with me? I had killed her son. Seez was completely right to be mean to me. Not with Peeta. But only with me! I was going to accept everything he was saying because it was true!
"I know that you did this for us. So I wrote this for you." She gave me a piece of paper with some words on it "These are some information you can write on your book for... Cato" And she turned and closed the door behind her. After closing the door I heard shouts from inside. It looked like they were shouting to Seez. I started going home with slow steps holding the paper like treasure. I looked at Peeta's house but it seemed that no one was there. I sighted and went inside my house. I took of my shoes and headed to the living room. I sat on the floor with the coffee table in front of me. I placed the book on the table. I held the paper between my hands and started reading it with interest. I was really shocked about what I was reading. Cato was a natural talent in sword fighting. He was being trained earlier than anyone else his age. When he turned 17 he volunteered as a tribute. He always wanted to be the best of best. He was the most handsome boy in the district. But arrogant. He had the best idea for himself. Even his own parents were saying that. But as everyone, Cato had a soft side. He loved his brother like nothing in the world. "That's why Sooz was attacking us" I thought. I smiled a little to myself. As it seems me and Cato had something in common. As soon as I read what was written on the piece of paper I started witting them on the book with the best letters I could do. Peeta's job was over he had draw the best pictures of Marvel, Glimmer, Clove and Cato. I turned the pages to appreciate them. The first one was the picture of Marvel. He was looking straight away having a small smile. His hair was falling down to his forehead looking wet. His eyes were smiling in warmth. In his hand, he was holding a long spear kicking it a little with his leg. Glimmer's picture was really awesome. Maybe the best one. It was only Glimmer's face. Her eyes little closed and her lips little open making you think how sexy she looked. Her blond hair a little untidy. Her arms were placed on her head, making her hair look more. Clove's picture was very good. It was a small-built girl with her black hair on a ponytail. Her black eyes looking brave. It was like she was going to the war or something. Her hands were opening her jacket that was full of knives. Cato's picture was so realistic. It was him, with his arms crossed above his chest. His sword was behind his back, where he usually kept it. A smirk drawn on his lips, his eyes lighting up, it was like he was ready for something. My fingers slipped to the other page but I closed the book with force. I think I had enough dead people for tonight. Suddenly I threw the book away, as far as I could. The book hit the wall in front of me and fell with force above a vase breaking it. I avoid the mess I had created and started going to my room. As I was going to my bed, memories from the arena were into my mind. I couldn't think about something else. I changed into my pajamas and lied to my bed. The memories were stuck into my head and I hid my face into the pillow. I didn't allow myself to fall asleep but then my eyes started hurting me. And I fell slowly to a dangerous sleep.

I woke up to my old house. Prim was sitting on a chair with my mom and Gale nearby. "Good morning sunshine" my mom said. I started looking around mw crazily and then I mumbled "Peeta?" "Oh, he is bringing you some tea with bread to eat. You were so sick. You were sleeping two whole days!" Prim answered looking really happy. "So everything was a dream" I said to myself and then I jumped from the bed full of happiness. I ran to my family and hugged them tightly. When I finished with the hug I looked at them, but their faces weren't the familiar ones I knew. They were turning into Cato, Marvel and Glimmer. Three people I obviously killed. "Why so scared… sweetheart?" Cato said with a smirk. They started laughing at me, and I was scared. Then I hear a familiar voice from behind me. "KATNISS! KATNISS HELP!" I turned around and I was back into the arena. The voice was coming from Rue. She was lying to the ground with the spear into her heart, but still she was screaming for help. Then Glimmers voice started saying "Where is the girl on fire?" Their laughter started getting stronger and louder. "WAKE UP! THIS IS A NIGHTMARE!" I yelled to myself. But I couldn't wake up. I was a prisoner of my own nightmare. When I opened my eyes, I was still in district 13. I looked around in panic. Peeta was in front of me ready to hug me but his hands went around my neck. He started choking me yelling "MUTT!" as I started looking around me for help, I could see everyone that I loved turning into bones and then ash. I looked at Peeta's eyes and started thinking "Peeta I'm not a mutt. Leave me please! You love me!" hot tears started streaming down my cheeks. I closed my eyes but then Peeta suddenly moved and he was lying next to me, bleeding to death with a spear into his heart. Snow's laughter was all over the room. "PEETA!" I started screaming while crying louder. The smell of blood and roses filled the air and I was feeling like I couldn't breathe.

"PEETA!" I screamed while I fell from the bed. I hit the floor with a big force. I stood fast on my legs trying to balance my weight. I was so dizzy and scared. I couldn't see in front of me clear. Everything was spinning around me and I was hitting the one wall after the other. I was so scared from the nightmare and I was crying unstoppable. My throat was hurting me really bad and I realized I was still calling Peeta's name. In my dizziness and sacredness I managed to go outside, falling down the stairs. The warm summer air made my tears flew away, but new took their place fast. On my mouth was still Peeta's name. I needed him. I kept walking. I couldn't see clear, It was a big fog in front of me. Suddenly my legs can't bare my weight and I fell on the ground making myself a small ball. I was still saying Peeta's name. I was feeling completely lost and alone. I closed my eyes ready to accept my situation when a pair of warm hands touched my shoulders making me shiver. "I'm here Katniss! I will protect you. Not real." I heard him saying. Still shivering from fear he lifted me up. Still crying and mumbling Peeta's name I curled up against his chest. I could hear some footsteps and then the hot summer air vanished and its place was the cool air of air-condition. He left me somewhere soft and continued patting my back and playing with my hair, and I finally opened my eyes and returned to the reality. The only thing I could focus one was a pair of bright blue eyes looking at me worriedly. I started feeling fear again, but I let my body's muscles to relax and the eyes started smiling at me again.

Peeta's POV

I run home as fast as I could. I felt the familiar feeling when a flashback hits me. I locked myself in the house and started punching the walls around me. Flashbacks from the arena where on my head. Me fighting Cato, Cato trying to kill me and Katniss, Cato gets killed by the mutts…

When the flashbacks stopped, I exhausted, walked to my room. I fell on the bed and started thinking. Katniss will probably be really worried. What is she doing now? Is she ok? Those thoughts stayed into my head until I tiredly fell asleep.

*The careers. I can hear them. And someone is screaming. Katniss. "Katniss!" I shout her name as I was searching for her. Suddenly the careers are in the cornucopia. Katniss is standing and she can't move at all. All of them laughing and killing her slowly. Then Cato turns to me and says: "What are you looking at…loverboy?" and sending his sward through her heart making me scream from panic*

I jumped off the bed and sat up on the bed in dizziness. I was saying Katniss's name desperately. I would give anything to be here now. But that made me remember. "Katniss!" I said while standing up. Was she ok? Was my nightmare true? My heart started beating on my chest like crazy and I headed outside my house. I was almost running when I heard a familiar voice shouting for me. It was the same voice that was making the birds stop to listen. The voice was scared and in pain. Someone was hurting her?! Then in front of my eyes a black figure started falling in the ground. The figure was saying my name desperately. I run faster next to her. I found her in a small ball crying while mumbling my name. I tried to comfort her like I did in the train so many times, but she couldn't relax with nothing. Her nightmare should have been terrific. Giving up, I lifted her up and started heading to my house. She was curled up against my chest, feeling her warm tears falling down my bare chest. I left her to the other side of my bed and sat on my knees in front of her while playing her with her hair and patting her back. I realized that she was still saying my name. She was searching for me into the darkness. Before I could fell happiness or something else Katniss opened her eyes making me worried. Then she started letting her body relax. I could feel all of her fear fly away, I smiled to her and I felt a relief. She sat up and hugged me. She hid her face on my shoulder and I could feel her tears still falling on my skin. When she left me she was still sobbing a little. She was suffering in silence. Her eyes were still red from the tears and again the thought of her having a terrific nightmare made me shiver. She stopped crying and suddenly she throws her arms around my neck pushing me close to her into a tight hug. I placed my hands to her upper back pushing her closer to me. We stayed like that for a while and then she broke the hug to look into my eyes. I noticed she was dirty from falling in the ground; her eyes were red from the tears. She was looking still so beautiful into her baby pink pajamas. She relaxed her hands to my neck and looked the ground. I cupped her face with my palms. Her cheeks still wet. The sun light that was coming through the window reminds me that it was early dawn but it was making her eyes glow and her hair into her broken braid… and everything… She looked at me with her pure look making me lose completely control. I forcedly pushed my lips against hers. She didn't stop me as I thought she would do. She wasn't even shocked. Instead, she welcomed the kiss. Warm and steady. She seemed that she was waiting for it as long as I did. She moved her hands to my hair pushing me against her, and I placed my hands to her waist. After a long time we broke the kiss and rest our foreheads. She gave me a soft kiss and lied to the bed against the pillow falling again asleep. I leaned over and kiss her forehead. I put my arms around her waist and before I close my eyes, I whisper to her the only word that could describe me…

"Always"

In the middle of the night she woke up three times. Crying and screaming my name. I was holding her to my arms and she was always finding her way up to my lips. The fourth time she woke up, she refused to sleep again. It was almost 6 o'clock but we both needed more sleep.

"No, I won't sleep again!" "Katniss, you need more sleep! You had a terrible night!" "Peeta… they are hunting me…" I couldn't answer on that. I just pulled her into my warm embrace. Her head against my chest and her feet between mine. The fourth time she woke up it was because of me. I woke up screaming an she was next to me, placing kisses all over my arms, letting me know that I wasn't alone. "Peeta, we can't keep going on like that. The nightmares are killing us" she said against my skin. "Let's take every day. Day after day." "Day after day?" she asks searching for my eyes. "Day after day!" I answer.

The days were passing and we were together, I had moved in her house. We were together. For real. She says that this is not acting. It's real. I believe her. Because I love her, and I know she loves me too. She is looking at me like I'm her treasure. And a day that I woke up screaming, I kissed her more and more. And for a second I opened my eyes during the kiss. Her face meant everything; she was looking like she was melting. That was enough to let me know that this time was real.

*Thanks for reading and supporting my stories! ^^
-Girl in Darkness