A/N: Holy feels. Sorry for making you wait THIS long for just a chapter. grrr... school keeps me so busy that I can't upload or even touch my computer. Uploading from phone is soooo hard! -_- This chapter is deticated to N_the_Shadowhunter ((wattpad account)) Thank you for believing in me and my crazy stories :'). Thanks for you concideration :3

Katniss POV

I woke up feeling the side next to me cold. My finger clenched to find Peeta's familiar warmth but found the side abandoned. I force opened my eyes in panic. My heart beat increasing. My hands getting sweaty, feeling my blood thought my veins run faster.
"Peeta?" I asked loudly. I looked around me. I feel my chest tightening.
The answer came from the shower. The sound of the water falling. And a low humming coming from the shower. I let a sigh of relief and smile to myself as I hear him humming a common song from 12. I let my body fall on his side of the bed. Take a deep breath smelling his smell on the pillow. Smells so familiar. So… Peeta…
HEY! When did I became so… in love?
I am out of my thoughts when I hear the water stop and the door of the bathroom opening. I look up at him. His blond hair wet, with water drops falling on his forehead. My eyes trailed to his chest. From sleeping next to him I know exactly where the hair on his chest are, but the hair are so blond that are hard to see. My eyes fall on his flat stomach and I feel I can't control them anymore as they trail to his abs and stay there not able to move. He smiled at me and chuckle. His hand scratched the back of his neck shyly and soon after I realized that he was wearing only a white towel around his waist. I look at his eyes. A dark shade of blue looking at me intensely and I can feel an electric volt through me. That one look it was so intense that I can't stand looking at him anymore. I bit my bottom lip and looked away blushing. He chuckled a again and to take his clothes from his bag.

"Morning by the way." He said while trying to wear his shirt.
"Morning!" I answered while picking up my clothes. We got dressed in no time without talking much.
"The bell rung before 5 minutes. We should go!" he informs me while hugging me from behind. While we were walking on the long hallway I looked at the window with my eyes trying to see the known beach. But my eyes fly to a bunch of people with cameras taking pictures of us. Other just knocking the windows and waving at us. I am holding tightly on Peeta's hand trying to avoid them. We walked faster and stepped fast outside the train.
The people with the cameras still following us. Asking us questions that no one of us wanting to answer so we ignored them and started searching for someone we knew through the crowd. None sight of Finnick or Annie. I turn to look at Peeta who was searching too. I noticed that he was smiling at someone. I followed his gaze and I saw an axe sparkling in the sun. Under the axe I saw the brown hair that obviously had grown from the last time I saw them. The known smirk drawn on the lips and the known spark lighting in the eyes.

…Johanna…

I smile at the sight of my old friend.

If I can actually call her my friend.

We have a complicated and weird friendship.

"Well, hello guys!" she greets us.
"Hey, Johanna! Long time no see!" Peeta joke her. "Where is Finnick and Annie?" I asked while looking around. Johanna started laughing a little.
"Annie was getting better with her panic attacks, but with the pregnancy and all her hormones flying around the place…" she started moving around her hands "Let's say that she is kinda… weird. Finnick's with her!" she explain.

She started leading us to their house in Victor's Village. The house was like mine and Peeta's and Haymitch's. But with one difference. The houses here were making you think of the sea. A light blue color on the walls. White windows. Smell of the sea. May seashells are decorated on the outside and sea rocks.

"Peeta! Katniss!" Finnick greets us with a big smile while opening the door. He hugged us and leads us to the house.
"Where is A-" I started telling.
"FINNICK!" Annie shouts from upstairs. "COME HERE!" she continued. I was shocked. Annie was usually sweet yet scared to shout like that. Johanna was right. Annie was different! Finnick rolled his eyes and mumble silently.
"Hormones" then he turned around and run upstairs.
""She is like that two months now. Don't listen to whatever she is saying!" Johanna explained to us while we were walking in the main room. The room was different than ours. Deep blue walls. Fishing net and a trident decorating the walls. You could understand that the room was Finnick's only with one look. We approached the big double bed where Annie was laying. They stood next to Finnick who was holding Annie's hand tightly.
"Hey Annie!" I greet her with a hug.
"Hey Katniss! Peeta!" she answered us while trying to give us a smile. Her hands were above the blankets holding her huge belly. Her eyes tired with black circles around them. Her hair in a messy ponytail. I looked at Peeta whose eyes were sparkling. His blue eyes reminded me something I was thinking a few nights before. When I first came to district 4 I was convinced that his eyes were the same color as the sea. I wanted to see if I was right in the first place. I looked at him and realize… He was staring at her belly. Everyone had realize that.
"Want to touch?"Annie asked while smiling. Peeta smiled widely and nod his head. Peeta's hand moved slowly to her belly and when he finally reached her stomach he instantly grin to her.
"I-It's kicking…" he said while swallowing hard.
"Y-Yeah… I-It is…" Annie answered while crying. Finnick grin to her. His face so happy. I never saw him like that. Either Peeta. Johanna made a vomit sound while Finnick started kissing every inch of Annie's face. I faked laughter but the truth is that… I was feeling jealous. Was I?
A feeling I never had felt before.
Peeta seemed so happy when he felt Annie's baby. He, of course, want a big family. Something I can't give it to him. I would never be able to give him children.

Instantly I left the room before I do something stupid like crying. I fast run outside the room and desperately search for the bathroom. I reached for the door knot a pair of hands locked me in a tight hug.
"Are you ok?" Peeta asked me with a worried voice. I nodded twice and he whipped a tear with his thump.
"I-It's just, y-you seemed so happy, a-and…" I started explaining with broken voice.
"No need to explain!" he said and kissed me. He placed his hands on my lower back and I placed mine around his neck. We held each other tightly not letting go. The kiss was long and made the warmth of the kiss reach my toes. I let a low moan between our lips. He was the first one who pulled away. He rest his forehead on mine and started talking.
"We should go back, you know."
"Maybe not!" Johanna's voice heard from behind us. We pulled away and look at the ground embarrassed. Finnick, Johanna and even Annie were staring at us.
"How long…" Peeta started telling but Finnick interrupted him.
"Long enough!" and then he burst out laughing with Johanna joining him. I felt my cheeks turning hotter and hotter with result making Johanna and Finnick laugh even harder. Annie smile at us and slowly came close to us and holding our hands she started walking with us leading us downstairs.
"Avoid them! Is just when you left from the room they started telling that something was between you two. Whatever, let's go for a walk." Oh my god… I thought, I never thought of hearing Annie talking like that. Hormones brought the confident self of Annie. We started walking outside in silence when Finnick started running towards us.
"Hey! Wait for us!" he said. The way to the beach wasn't far. Finnick wanted to have the nearest house to the beach. We walked less than a minute when I started hearing the waves crushing to the rocks. We kept walking when I started feeling my shoes filling with sand. Then the smell of fresh salt in the air, and finally my eyes reached the blue. The blue I was looking at every morning I was waking up. I looked up at Peeta's eyes and then I looked back at the sea. I smiled at myself. The same pure, blue color.
"What?" a voice brought me back to reality.
"Wa- what?" I asked back shaking my head.
"You were looking at me weird." Peeta kept explaining.
"No… I wasn't!" I fought back but my voice was really high. 'Why am I acting like that?' I asked myself. Finnick and Annie were walking far from us. Going close to the water. Finnick bend down and placed a kiss on Annie's belly.
It was a beautiful moment so we left them alone.
Something Finnick don't know is "privacy".

We spent the rest of the day at the beach. Finnick was too pleased to get some fish and oysters. Johanna cut some fire woods with her new axe. She wasn't leaving it, she was brining it everywhere.

It was late afternoon. Johanna had left to go home saying that she was tired looking at Annie and Finnick being so… cheesy.
"I'm going for a walk!" I inform the rest of them and got up.
"I'm coming with you. Can you help me?" Annie asked me.
"Yea, it would be boring walking alone." I joke her while helping her stand up. She was too big to stand up by herself.
We started walking far from the others hearing the waves. Annie was walking slowly so I had to keep up with her. I could sense she wanted to say something.
"You can ask me whatever you want, you know!" I said to her and look her in the eyes.
"Ok, so, I really want to ask. What is going on with you and Peeta?" Annie ask like a little girl. 'I knew she was going to ask that.' I thought and roll my eyes.
"We are… ehm… You know, how these stuffs are…" I started saying nervously. I don't like talking about my feelings. It's hard, uncomfortable and I feel exposed.
"I know, he loves you. You?" Annie asked more serious. "I know, you don't like talking for your feelings, but you have to do it eventually. Or he will think you don't love him. And by the expression I got when I asked you If you love him, I bet you have fall for him. And really bad!" she continued. I didn't answer. How am I supposed to tell him that I love him when, when is even hard, thinking that I do love him.

When we returned from our walk, Annie almost ran towards Finnick. Finnick hugged her for a moment and even If they had been apart for just some minutes you could say that Finnick had missed her. The left together again. Hand-in-hand. And I actually felt jealous for them- again. Johanna had left to go to the hotel she was staying for when she was visiting Finnick and Annie. I searched for Peeta for a while. He was sitting where we had left him focused on what he was doing. I approached him slowly, making as less noise as possible.
He was drawing.
With the sketchbook in his lap, he was so focused that you it will look like a sin to interrupt his thoughts. His hands were moving fast in the piece of paper, with the pencil in his hands he was making lines, carves and slowly it started making sense. The draw was still unfinished, but it was amazing. It was showing Annie and Finnick.
Finnick was sitting in on knee and he was kissing Annie's huge belly. Annie had a grin drawn all over her face and her fingers were through his messy hair. Her head was falling behind with her long hair falling in waves. The background was a beautiful sunset. It was maybe one of the best draws Peeta had ever done. One of the most realistic. One of the most happy.
Even if it was only in black and white
It was amazing.
"Peeta, this is so …beautiful!" I say and gasp. Peeta seemed startled at first but then smile to me. One of those smiles that make me love him more.
"I hoped you will like it!" he answer and kiss him hand, that was on his shoulder. Before saying anything, Annie and Finnick walk close to them.
"It's getting late. We will head home." Annie said still holding into Finnick's hand.
"Don't overdo it, lovebird!" Finnick said jokily putting much weight on the word 'lovebirds' Katniss kicked his leg and Finnick sticked out his tongue while he was leaving with Annie resting her head on his shoulder.
"It was a big day, right?" Peeta said after a few minutes of silence.
"Yea.." I answer looking nowhere "Should we go back too?" I asked and turn to face him.
"We have some time, you know…" he said and leaned in to kiss me. We kissed again, like we did in the arena. The warmth overwhelming my stomach. I push all my little weight on his chest. His hand holding my hips steadily while I am on top him having control. Our mouths moving together in sync and I feel his hot breath inside my mouth. He moves his lips from mine and leaves a trail of kiss to my jaw line. I close my eyes feeling his breath on my neck now. I brush my lips on his for one last time and he push me down to his chest hugging me tightly.
"I love you" he whisper against my hair and kiss my head. I feel the sting on my chest. I feel guilty that I can't tell him too.

I love you too

I say inside of my head. I am afraid to say it aloud. The words are at the end of my tongue but I can't let them slip out of my mouth.
"I know…" I answer instantly and give him a smile.
He pushed me harder against him. Her ear listening to the steady pace of his heart. It's so surprising how this little thing can actually convince me for his love. And I am a wave of nervousness hit me hard. Does he know that I love him? He have to! What If he doesn't? What If a day he will be tired of waiting for me and just live? I can't live without him.
I can't survive without him.
I need to tell him. Before is too late. But when the right times come. The right moment…
The train of thoughts stops when I fell asleep on the soft sand with his arms wrapped tightly around me…

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