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Katniss POV

"Annie! Change the channel! All those cooking channels are making me hungry!" Johanna shrugs angrily at Annie. I smile at my friends arguing for the control of the tv. Finnick never talks. No one wants to mess with Annie now. Except of Johanna!
"Shut up Jo! I will watch what I want!" Annie fights back giving her a death glare.
"Damn it. If you are like a witch, how will be Katniss when she will be pregnant?" Johanna said ironically and both I and Peeta almost choke. How did she even think of that?
She is Johanna! She has to be like that by law! I thought.
"How did you even think about that?" I ask her angrily.
"Just saying that I feel sorry for Peeta!" Johanna said giving Peeta a fake sorry look.
"She won't be that bad." Peeta said and I give him a meaningful look "When the time comes we will learn I guess!" he continue and avoid my eyes.
"Wait, so as soon as you get married, we will have little Mellarks?" Finnick ask and laugh a bit.
Wait. WHAT? Who started talking about children!
"Wait, WHAT?" I say and sit up looking Finnick confused.
"Oh my god! I bet they will look like Katniss!" Annie said with her happy mood. All of her mood swings are so tiring!
"JUST STOP!" I shout at them after a little while of them talking about me and Peeta. Why they started talking about that like we are not even there?
"Who has ever told you we are even getting married?" Peeta said and I keep my eyes on Finnick and Annie.
"Who has even told you that we are going to have children?" he continue, he is looking at everyone now. Avoiding my gaze as I am dead-curious to see what he is going to say next. But he don't say anything next as someone cut him off.
"I am pretty sure this one here." Johanna said and shows me making my eyes trailed to her curiously. "…is going to get pregnant soon!" Johanna said and laughed ironically and smirked at me. My eyes turned to Peeta. Asking what she meant. Was something I should get mad? But the answer came to me by the bright red color on his cheeks. My eyes widen as I realize what Johanna meant. I look at my lap embarrassed and I feel my cheeks getting hot.
"Why you feel embarrassed love birds? Did I say anything wrong?" Johanna keep saying and I shot her a death glare.
"Oh my! You are like that because…" Johanna starts and looks at Finnick who instantly understands too. "…you too haven't done anything yet!" she continues and starts laughing hard. Now I can't even look at my lap and I close my eyes shut praying the earth to open right now and make me disappear. I can even hear Annie chuckle a little.
"How could this even be possible?" Finnick said and laugh hard too. "You too like, radiate sex!" he continues almost choking.
"SHUT UP FINNICK!" Peeta and I say in unison angrily. But this made things worse as I can see Finnick and Johanna clutching their stomachs while laughing. "We don't radiate …-"Peeta try to say still embarrassed when we hear a known voice from the tv and we all stop making any noise.
Caesar Flickerman
"We have to hear from them for so long! And they are finally here. The star-cross lovers from district 12!" he said and instantly a picture of us appears in the screen. I can feel my cheeks from hot turn to cold. And I can see Peeta turning pale. We are like getting ready for the worst.
"We found them in district 4. Where we made a research. Our people followed them and we found out that they came to visit their friends –and victors- Finnick and Annie Odair."
Another picture of Finnick, Annie, Peeta and I in the beach.
"As we can see, Annie is going through the last month of her pregnancy and many friends came to see her like Beetee from district 3 –who is now living in district 2 and Johanna Mason from district 7 who is currently living with the two couples in district 4."
While more pictures of us came to the screen I like out a sigh of disbelief. Will we ever be able to do something without everyone following us? I can see that Peeta is thinking the same because he is looking at me with an apologetic look. I give him a sly smile telling him like he doesn't have to worry. It's ok. We both knew that there was no way we could be away from the cameras.
"This keeps happening a lot!" Finnick said and sigh. "The past months- From the day Annie started showing up- we are in the news every day. Caesar called a bunch of times asking for interviews but we refused saying that Annie can't leave the house and I have to be with her…" Finnick explained with his charming self disappearing.
"It's ok Finnick." Peeta started. "Katniss? Are you ok with that?" he turned to me. I let out a deep sigh I don't know how I long I was holding. "Yes. I am fine. Shocked." I say and roll my eyes. We stayed in silence for a little while letting the tv be the only noise in the room. But soon after the phone rang and Annie picked it up.
"Hello?" … "Fine, you?" … "Yes. Yes it's true." … "Ok, uhm… Let me tell her." Annie said and paused to look at me.
"It's for you." She said and hand me the phone. I give her a confused look and place the phone on my ear.
"Hello?" I say unsure of what to wait.
"Katniss?" I hear a familiar voice on the other line.
"Mom?" I ask realizing who the other person was. A mix with feeling hit me. My mom. She came to 4. She couldn't come to 12. She works here equals… she lives here.
"Oh, Katniss. I saw you in the news and I just wanted to talk to you." My mom keeps talking with an apologetic tone. I don't answer. My eyes looking nowhere while I am trying to focus on the voice on my ear.
"Katniss please… I know you are angry at me. But please talk to me." She begs while I still try to focus. My mind is not working properly right now.
"I need to see you Katniss." She continues. I still don't know how to feel. My mom found the courage to talk to me. I am angry because she left me when I needed her the most. But still I couldn't say anything after the other sentence she said:
"Katniss… you are the only one I have…" My heart beats fast. The moments are passing in front of me.

Prim screaming my name.
I scream back at Prim.
Then everything is over.
Prim has become a human torch.

"M-mom…" I find the strength to say. I feel a pair of warm hands on my shoulders and the familiar smell of him waking me up to reality. "We need to talk face-to-face. Not through the phone." I say weakly as I put the puzzle in my head. Maybe seeing my mom isn't a good idea after all.
"Whatever you want Katniss. I want to tell you so many things." She says in one breath. I can feel her voice relaxing a bit after hearing me.
"C-can you come by?" I say looking at Annie and Finnick. They give a nod. Telling me it's fine. Telling me they understand.
"I will be there in 5 minutes!" she said but before hanging up she says the words I wanted to hear from her since I was 11. "I am truly sorry Katniss." And then hang up. I turn to look at Peeta who is still holding my shoulders steadily.
"She is coming here." I manage to say. "You will do great." Peeta said before gives me a peck on the lips.

I am waiting. Waiting for the bell to ring. The ringing means she is here. My mom is here. I have to see her just a few months but everything has change. I can feel it. We both have change. Johanna left to her room. Annie and Finnick left to their room. Peeta is to our room. I am all alone to face my mother. Everything seems to have past so fast. After the phone rang everything started moving too fast for me to keep up with.
The door knocks.
I stand up and grab the door knob ready to open it.
The door knocks again.
I open it with fast moves and here she is. Standing in front of me with her purse around her arm.
"Katniss…" she says and looks at me with her lips carving a little into a faint smile.
"Mom…" I say and clear my throat. We sit on the sofa the one in front of the other. No one of us is ready to speak. I can see the guilt, the pain and the emptiness in her eyes.
"Katniss. I know you will never forgive me…" My mom starts. "Mom, please." I cut her off but she is has more to say and she shows it. "No Katniss. I know I wasn't there when you needed me. I wasn't the mother you asked for. I am not perfect." , "Mom! I know. I tried to forgive you. I really did. For dad's sake…" I tried to be honest with her but she I could feel that wasn't enough. She wanted me to forgive her. "I won't ask you to forgive me."
Or maybe she doesn't.
"I will ask you to let me be in your life again. And start over again. I won't let you alone this time."
I let her words sink in. She just told me she wants me again. She just confessed that she is sorry. But my brain isn't working now and the only thing I want is to shout at her.
"You never were there for me. You were watching me and Prim die from starvation." I say letting the angry words fly away with no coming back. "I only tried to forgive you for dad. If I will accept you again is for her." I say standing up angrily "For Prim" I say without realizing what my words done to her. I run upstairs feeling the tears running down my cheeks. I need to leave.
My hands trialed to a door knob and burst in the room.
"Katniss?" Peeta said shocked and rush next to me. He hugged me tightly and I cry against his shirt.
"What happened?" he ask while stroking my hair.
"I can't face her. I can't be with her." I say between sobs.
"Come here sweetheart." Peeta said and look me in the eyes. "You can do it. It's only your mom." He continued saying giving me a small smile.
I want you to come with me. I can do it only with you.
I can't say such a thing. But he seems to understand.
"Let's go together!" he says and helps me stand up. I hold into his hand tightly as we walk back downstairs.
"Katniss…" her voice sounds worriedly. And suddenly I feel my eyes teary. I let go off Peeta's hand and run towards her. She seems startled as I stand in front of her bravely.
"Mom..." I say with a broken voice.

I can't break down in front of her.

"I am sorry. I just wanted to be in your life again." My mom said the same bravely as she can be. Suddenly I do something I never thought of doing after my 11. I open my arms and pull her into a hug.
"I know." I say still holding her.
"I am sorry, I let you. I never wanted to. But it was more than what I could handle." My mom keeps saying and I feel her tears falling down my arm.
"I should have understood. You loved him so much." I say finally realizing that I might have been wrong for her.
Yes. She let us starve when we needed her. She had to be strong for us.
"I would have reacted the same if he ever dies." I say and I can't believe that I said it. Is something I only realize when I almost lost him.

When I thought we would never be the same.

When I almost let myself die.

When I wanted to die.

"He changed you." My mom said and cup my face.
"I know. He did." I say and smile a little. I also know he is right behind me. And he can hear everything we are saying. And I am not sure if I want him to hear everything she will say. Or I will say.
"I am sorry again Katniss. I let you after the war and came here. It's just… without his… and her…" she started saying and her voice started shaking.
"I am not angry for that. You had too many memories back in 12." I say while she whips a tear away from my cheek.
"You have every right to be angry at me."
I don't answer.
"You were better mother than what I was."
I don't answer.
"You were there for her when I couldn't." she says and looks at me with a mixture of emotions, that makes me thinking.
Is she angry?

Is she sad?

She means it?

"Oh mom!" I say and she pulls me again in a hug. When she pulls away she turns to look at Peeta like she just now realized he was here. He gives him her hand. He seems surprised but she takes her hand.
"Thank you." She tells him. "For making her what she is today." She continues. "Without you, she would never be able to give me another chance!" she ends. Peeta smiled lovingly to her and then gave to me one of those smiles that make me want to kiss him so bad. I pull myself together.
"It was my pleasure !" Peeta says wrap his arm around my waist.
"What are you going to do now, mom?" I ask her even If I know the answer. She would never come back to 12.
"I know, you just gave me a second chance to make everything up. But I can't come back. I am so sorry." Mom says and I just smile.
"It's ok. I never thought you would come." I say and give her a sly smile.

And here we are again. Me and my thoughts. I still can't forget what my mom told me before she left.

"He loves you so much, you know." She says while standing in the door.
"I know mom!" I answer feeling a little guilty.
"You love him. I can see it in your eyes!" she says and my head automatically turns to make eye contact with her. "You have the same look as I had when I was looking at your dad. Ready to give everything up and run to him." She continues and she smiled at thought of him.
"Mom.." I try to cut her off but fail.
"It's time to grow up Katniss. It's your time to make him realize that you are there for him." She explains "…before is too late." She ends and I know. I just know that is what she is feeling. About her and dad. She has regret that she never showed him how much she love him.
"Jus have in mind that he loves you. That he will never do anything to betray you. He will never judge you Katniss!" she says before closing the door behind her.

I walk back in the room and close the door behind me slowly and noisless. I walk towards the bed and find Peeta already under the sheets with his sketchbook on his lap. I walk on my side of the bed and jumped on under the sheets. He doesn't notice me. The thoughts are a mess on my mind.

Should I say I love him? I have to.
Do I love him? Yes I do.

But I can feel my mind relaxing when I look up at his face.
His curls falling on his forehead.
His eyes blinking with his eyelashes touching together every time.
His eyes sparkling from the light of the lamb.
His lips a little open with tongue a little out, like he always does when he is too focus on something.
His hands moving gently on the paper, coloring and shading.
His legs criss crossed under the blankets.

And I am lying on my side watching him while he is making something beautiful. I can't hold myself of thinking how much I crave his lips.
But the point is not that.
I feel the sting on my chest. My stomach squeezes tightly.

And just then is when I finally realize.

I am so in love with this boy.
I push his sketch away and push him against me crushing our lips together. Trying to tell him how much I love him without words.
But eventually I will have to use words.

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