A/N: I am so so so so sorry.
You will see why... *sigh*

The phone at my house couldn't stop ringing from the day we got engaged

"Congratulations!"
Everyone in the district were saying, If they were about to see me. It was hard when I was going to trade. People would take my hand and look at the ring. Then comments like "aww" and "It's beautiful". I tried to hide it under my sleeves so I will avoid it. But it was impossible. They realize it every single time. When I will pass them the game or when we will shake hands. It was a little annoying so I tried to hide it on my pocket once.
I ALMOST LOST IT. Damn it pockets!

"About time, don't you think?"
so this was said by Mrs. Masy. I was waiting it for her. She was really friendly with us. She was from the people that were really happy to see us together. For real. But I was shocked when Tulie, Avery, Jack, Velvet, Mr. Max and Mrs. Georgia told me that. I had gotten used to them keeping their distance from me but since we had to live in the same district they started becoming slightly friendlier with us. Except Seez. I don't really think he will ever be friendly towards us. I don't blame him. He has every right.

"Finally he made the move, huh?"
When I heard my mother saying that I started coughing. It was a shock and mostly because when I called her it was on the speaker and Peeta was next to me. He patted my back while laughing. He was the happiest person about our engagement. I don't say anything. He told me straight.

"I was imagining this moment since I was five" he said and kiss my forehead
"You are saying this and I feel guilty!" I answered and frown. "I only wanted this to happen since we started working on the tribute book!" I add. It was shocking for him. I never actually told him when I started felling for him.
I guess it all started in the victory tour. When we became friends.
But I realized it when I almost lost the Peeta that love me.
It was when I kept watching him drawing the pictures for the book.

"WE KNEW IT!"
Annie and Finnick shouted in the phone. Ok, that freaked me a little. But I like that they were happy for us. Finnick said he knew it. Annie said he realized it.
Ok, what are they? WIZARDS?

"You aren't kidding me, right?"
I didn't really expect something more from Haymitch. But I really think he is happy for us. Well, deep inside.

These are the basic people. Cinna and Portia also called. They were really happy. They kept talking to us on the phone for hours. Mostly Portia talking to Peeta. Cinna knows, I wouldn't like to sit on the phones for hours talking for something I am a little shy of. I really like that I am engaged, and I will actually get married. But I don't…
I am not…
I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT!

Let's just say that Peeta and I were talking to the phone for hours and hours. Even Caesar Flickerman called us.
Well, someone took a photo of me wearing the ring and everyone in the Capitol went crazy. Literally.

"Katniss! Hey how're you?" a familiar voice said
"I am good thank you. Uhm.. Who is it?" I ask and look at Peeta with a confused look.
"Caesar Flickerman here, girl on fire!" he said in a little offended tone.
"Oh. I am sorry Caesar!" I say and Peeta widen his eyes.
"Look. I will forgive you that you didn't remember me but I need to say it fast because some people have work to do. So. You and Peeta will come to the Capitol for an interview based on your engagement! I don't take no for answer!" he said and hung up leaving me speechless with the phone still on my ear. Caesar had talked so loud that Peeta heard it because he had the same shocked expression as me.

As hard as we tried to hide it and not publish it, the whole "Victor's and Legends of Panem" made it even harder so we gave up. Peeta gave up begging people not to say it and I stopped hiding the ring on my pocket.
I guess it's official
All those thought are bagging in my head while I help Peeta move his things entirely in my house. So, Yes! It's official. We are engaged and officially staying together. How could I ask for more?
Something feels wrong though.
I never had the chance to feel that happy and nothing to come and ruin everything.
"Oh shut up Katniss!"

I let the box I was holding into the empty room me and Peeta will make as an art studio. Well, Peeta wanted to make one and why should I say no?
I leave the room closing the door behind me. I walk past all the boxes along the corridor until I am on the top of the ladder. I see him opening the door with the light snowflakes on his hair. He is dragging something big and heavy inside. I rest my weight on the wall and cross my hand on my chest watching him.
"Can you stop staring and help me?" he shoutes from the door when he sees me looking at him. I shook my head and don't move a muscle.
"That was the last box, Katniss!" he adds and still struggling to move the big box he was holding. I laugh a little and walk downstairs.
"You can place it there and I can help you later to place it in the room!" I say and walk close to him.
"Well, that was heavy!" he says and throws his jacket on the sofa.
"Yea, but was it worth it?" I ask with a seductive voice, I swear I have never use that tone again. I am as shocked as he is but his expression softens.
"Absolutely sweetheart" he says and holds my waist with both of his hands. I can see him smirking before crushing our lips together.
Wow, he has never kissed me so intently from the start.
He pushes me closer to me so our bodies are flashed against each other.
Somehow we manage to walk upstairs never breaking the kiss. He pushes me against the door and I open it making us walk clumsily inside.
Where is this going?
IT's feeling so good. I have kissed him so many times. But there are only a few times that make me feel like that. It's a new state of hunger. It's when I want to feel him close to me.
I am lying on my back and he is on top of me. In the middle of our actions our shirts got lost somewhere on the floor. He starts kissing my neck and my chest making my breath heavy and my heart beat rapidly. I make him turn so I sit on top of him. He looks at me with a mixture of emotions. I leaned in and kis him while my hands move down his chest, stomach and finally meet with the belt around his trouser. I hesitate for a moment.
What am I doing?
Am I really ready for this?
What If something goes wrong?
I shook my head. If it will happen, I want it to be with him.
My hands move carefully to his belt and try to take off his trouser. But Suddenly I am on the ground. My cheek and back hurts. I groan in pain and something helps me up. It's too forcefully that makes me lose my balance. My eyes meet with the unfamiliar black ones.
Peeta?
"YOU ARE A SLUTTY MUTT!" HE shouts to me and shoves me.
No, no, no, no… He is back. His hijacked version is back. What should I do?
"YOU DESSERVE DEATH!" He screams and pushes me hard against the wall. My back hurts really badly.
"Peeta" I say with a low voice but he places his hand against my neck. I can't breathe. I start choking begging for air.
"EVERYTHING IS YOUR FAULT!" He keeps shouting and he pushes me to the door. The door opens and I fall to the ground again. He walks next to me and kicks me hard making me fall under the stairs. Every time I fall a new form of pain comes through my body. Tears are streaming down my face as I pray to god. I try to stand up but my leg hurts, unfortunately he grabs and makes me stand up.
"WHAT IS IT STINCKY MUTT? GIVING UP SO EASY?"
I stand up and take a few steps backwards.
"Peeta. Please. I didn't kill-" I make an attempt to wake him up but he throws me into the kitchen and against the table.
I hear the table breaking under my bare back. Then I feel something warm on my back and leg. No, no. It's all over me All along my body. With the little energy I have, I make my hand trail to see what this is.
My hand is covered in a red thing. No, no. It's blood.
Tears are streaming down my face.
Why he isn't coming to kill me already?
It will be easier to do it now!
But the real Peeta would never hurt me.
I am too weak to run. I am too weak to scream for help.
I feel a sudden weight on me.
"CRY MUTT! CRY! BUT YOU WON'T HAVE MERCY!" he hisses and his words are the most pain I get. I feel something cold on my cheek.
a knife.
A KNIFE
NO, NO, NO, NO!
I try to break free but his grip is tightening even more around me.
He laughs devilish and pain coming from my cheek and all over my neck. I feel the warm blood. He is cutting me.
I wince in pain and everything start to spin.
"YOU DESERVE DEATH MUTT! LIKE YOU DID TO MY FAMILY!" he screams before stabbing me on the chest. I let a breath and everything starts to go black.
"…Peeta…" I manage to say before he buries the knife on my arm this time.

The last thing I can hear is the metallic sound of the knife and his normal voice shouting my name.

Is this how death looks like?

A long journey without destination?

I am not sure where I am.

Who I am. Or what I am.
But I feel no pain.

No worries.
Life is harder.

Death feels… Desirable…

A/N: sorry again... :'/
I won't say "hope you like it" Because I know you didn't.
Uhm... write in the comment below what you want to happen next. you might help me a lot!
Peace an may the odds be ever in your favor