sorry for not posting but a certain reader who I'll dedicate this chapter to, made me write again :D
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-Peeta's POV-
Katniss was released from the hospital four months after she woke up. Dr. Sage said that her condition was stable and we shouldn't be worried.
like I am able not to be worried for her
Mrs. Everdeen left district twelve and went back to four. I know it does bothers Katniss but she can't let it show. She knows the pain is too much for her mother to bear. Even though the district is being built again, is tough for everyone but now Katniss seems so vulnerable that the memories seem to swallow her more and more everyday.
All I can do is be there for her as much as I can because I want to.
I need to
I must prove that I am there for her that I will always be and that I care and love her more than anything in the whole world.
Because I do. And I wouldn't change that feeling to everything in the world.
If they would ever. EVER. come to my door and tell me there is a cure for hijacking but I would lose that feeling, that warmth, that love- because I always knew it was love- I have for Katniss...
I would tell them to screw off.

Where we are now as in a relationship, I don't know. She kisses me when she is an emotional wreck. She would hold me tightly until our hearts beat as one.
I would hold her until she stops shaking and crying.

Then the confusion comes. She would look at me after kissing. Her grey eyes have an unreadable expression which makes me want to disappear but I stay there, holding onto her.
Her lips would open and slowly she would mouth an unfinished sentence. The same sentence she is never able to finish.
"I... I..."
but then I will lay her down on her pillow.
Kiss her head and whisper soothing words while petting her hair.

As I watch her work on fixing the arrows on her bow. The focused amd yet worried look on her face, I know she hasn't forgave me completely but I don't give up.
It has become my life goal to get her back.

She keeps the engagement ring I gave her inside a drawer in her bedside table. She almost never opens it but sometimes I catch her staring at the drawer like it's cursed.
Like it will bring more problems to her.
I always leave when I catch her do that.

"Hey" I say leaning against her counter as I have arrived to her house. I tap my fingers on the counter as she turns to look at me.
"Hey" she says and stands up. She already got her quiver on her back and she looks like she forgot to eat breakfast and she is ready to hit the woods.
"You can leave in a while. I didn't stayed up all night making cheesebuns for nothing" I say and hold up a basket with her favorite baked good.
Her eyes lit up for a moment but then she glances at me
"You stayed up all night..." she says like she is trying to take it in, "To make something for... me?"
I nod smiling warmly to her. She should already know that I am willing to do anything for her and staying up all night is really nothing.
Suddenly I have her arms around my middle. Her head is resting to my shoulder and I can breath in her fragrant scent.
All I can think is that she again does that as an emotional need.
"Thank you" she says and smiles slightly, "You didn't have to but you did" she adds and just then I know she means everything. She didn't do that to feel good for herself.
A wave of happiness penetrates my body as I hold her tight.

Since now she was holding me grudge for abandoning her.
Five months of waiting for her to forgive me again.
And that small gesture makes me understand that she had long forgave me.

We eat together without much talking. She informs me that she is going hunting and I tell her that I am going to the bakery and we go on on our days.

As I walk there, I bump into someone. I murmured a 'sorry' but the someone is holding onto me arm,
"You're not talking to your best friend stranger?" Delly says and I turn to look at her
"Hey Dells" I say and hug her, squeezing her lightly. She giggles as I let go off her.
"You were so busy with Katniss' condition and I didn't tell you the news" she says excitedly.
I study her expression and raise my eyebrows.
"I am getting married!" she beams and I stay wide eyed. I knew her and Thom were serious but... Indian expected that.
"Congratulations Dells" I say and hug her tightly again. I can't let it show that I am actually jealous of her. She is just twenty. Like both Katniss and I and she is getting married the man she loves, Thom, who is twenty-five.
I am happy for her.
She passed me a white envelop and I smile when I see the date is just two months away.
"Winter wedding, huh?" I say Anf she nods eagerly while we walk to the bakery. The rest of the day goes on with Delly ranting about her wedding. She continues with how she wants her wedding cake which I will make.

At the end of the day I walk with her to her home, where she, Thom and her brother are living and then I head home.
Thanks to Delly's rant, I managed to keep my mind off everything that I have. Off all the worries I have for Katniss and how I will keep my flashbacks away. I feel myself coming closer to the edge every single day but somehow I manage to keep them away before the images conclude me and I turn into the mutt I am not.

I don't want to hurt Katniss or anyone again.
I forbid it

When I reach my home all I hear is music but it's not coming from my home. I spin around and walk to Katniss' household, following the music that makes the birds stop to listen. I open the always unlocked door and walk in the kitchen. It's an unknown amd foreign image to me.

Katniss is skinning her game while singing. I don't know what got onto her and she sings but I like it.

I have the urge to go close to her and listen to her melodic voice more but I don't.
I turn around and leave.
I don't want her to stop.

When I go around her house around late evening, when I usually go around her place for dinner. As I cook, I keep in mind the melody of her voice and as always she watches me cook- she says it is calming her.

We eat again without much talking.

She tells me she is going to sleep while I stay and clean up the mess I made while cooking.
I was the dishes and clean the counter and table when I hearth first screams.

I leave the wet cloth and rush upstairs. I see Katniss's small form fighting the darkness amd trying to wake up from the amd of nightmares but she fails.

I hold her tightly until our hearts beat as one.
I would hold her until she stops shaking and crying and she slowly wakes up.

This time I am th one who leans in and capture her lips in a heated kiss

After we pull away she looks at me a little confused. Her grey eyes light up from the moonlight showing the room. Her eyes boar into mine and for a moment everything is good again.
Her lips wopen and slowly she mouths an unfinished sentence. The same sentence she is never able to finish.
"I... I..."
she swallows and tries to get the sentence in order. She seems to be in pain so I lay her head back down panther pillow and kiss her head. I pet her hair and whisper soothing words to her.
Just then I realize what she is trying to tell me. Her eyes are desperately searching for mine.
"I know..." I whisper and she shakes her head
"I... I..." she starts saying again
"I love you" I finish her sentence and she looks at me for a second
Then unexpectedly nods.

First time in my life I love nods
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This story is slowly coming to an end... I might do three or four chapters and then the epilogue.

I am seriously thinking writing a sequel but later because I have a couple of stories to finish and I will start a new one named "Song to you" with my best friend

so... I don't know... :/

Question of the chapter 1:What would you like to see in the next chapters?

Question of the chapter 2:Would you guys read my upcoming story or nahh ?

Question of the chapter 3:Do you think I should write a sequel? Would you read it?

Till next time; ~Girl in Darkeness~