Chapter 3
My heart didn't only race but it beat like a drum. I was near the door in the hallway but my both feet were planted in one spot that the energy I had in me could move them. Not only anger make tears flow down my cheek but disgust and repulse.
The memory of him cornering me in front of the library to ask him one question which turned into a fest of vulnerability. So confident he said " Lacey, I think about that kiss all day, everday" I saw the hurt nearly sweeping his face if I had reject him. My stomach tie knots and ribbons as I could not give an answer to him. However, somehow he thought he know I felt the same way. You see, that boy Danny Desai could read me like he was the author and I was the book. He could read all my emotions.
Whilst standing there the words said in the diner" I wished, I never met you" felt much more pleasing to me because of the scene framed before me. " Come on, we are now in a relationship, kiss me" the now straight haired blonde who found a sense of style since dating him she sung in a singy-songy voice. Why the f**k didn't Charlie just took up on minute of my time? Why did seeing and hearing this brought more pain than Charlie pulling me into an an unlit, dark, scary room. I saw Danny giving her a reluctant smile and whispered word so softly that I could not decipher what he was telling her. I only saw when her face dropped, that she was disappointed.
They nearly, kissed in front of me, my former two best friends , Danny and Jo. It seemed as though I got enough strength to speedily walk to the bathroom.
Ms. Porter you are tardy with the bell. My back was turned however he spot Jo and Danny and call them into. You three, my office now, Mr Tang pointed with his voice raised a few decibels than normal. I was reluctant to sit beside these two. These two who I build hatred and animosity for. "What class should all of you be in?" "Psychology sir," Danny said. "Well get there now" " Don't let me see you lurking in the hallways and the bell has rung!" Ms. Porter, a minute with you. "Ms. Lavsky and other teachers are concerned with your grades you have been receiving this term?" "Is something wrong?" "I noticed you never look to see Danny and Jo." "Why?" "Aren't you still friends?" His sentence was not finished before I said a sudden no. Principal Tang, may I go now?
I wanted to jump in my car and forget about the integration class we would have today. However, the principal escorted me to the class to explain my reason for lateness. I looked around for available seats, Dustin waved his hand to alert me of a seat next to him. I smiled as I faced him walking towards the seat. " I'm hurt, you stood me up Ms. Porter". Don't let it happen again he said smiling. " I just could not make it and I did not have a number to call you she smiled back. He took my phone and saved his number. " Now you do not have a reason". He gave me the sweet eye, I knocked him playfully. No doubt Daniel Desai, saw the exchange. He saw when Dustin played with my fingers and I smiled broadly at him. He whispered something in my ear that tickled my earlobe. " Don't bring your earlobe to close or I'll do something to it which might turn you on. I was shocked at his choice of words but I loved his teasing. I enjoyed his attention directed at only me.
Danny Desai seemed as though he was ought to be shared. His face which was red as he laughed at Rico's joke whitened when he saw Dustin and I being too friendly.
Mrs. Fisk placed us groups of 5 we each got a topic to discuss and to elaborate further when we would have the class discussion. Everyone seemed to fully engage in their work as Ms. Fisk promised then incentives if they pleased her with their work. The time was up for group discussion and called on group 7, the last group to elaborate how learning that piece of information has helped them in gaining knowledge and how would they put it in to practice?
After her class, I'd have one session to endure until school was over. As soon as the bell rang I remembered Charlie saying what he wanted. I grabbed a sandwich for him and soda. I thank god Dustin did not see me. So he would stop me and I would have to lie. I knocked the door quietly, as footsteps become louder as he approached the door. She came in quickly. " Glad to see you complied". "You did not want to her hurt those two brats or that boy you are getting friendly with" said Charlie. I never answered. "You know I could make you forget those boys and I could be man and really please you as he jammed me to a couch he seemed he had put in there" Charlie stop, stop!" I begged. He got off of me. Anytime you are feeling hot and bothered, call me he said jokingly. I scuffed at him. I came out as quietly as I could. More than anything I wished to see my house, my bed and everything I called home. I never knew a pair of eyes were watching me. Studying my every move until I got outside the school into my car and went home. I was never anxious to get home but today was a day, I needed to free myself of the occurring events of today.
"Lacey, everything okay?" My mom asked. I reliped I'm fine. I did not want to explain myself I just needed to be in bed and inhale the aroma the atmosphere in my room. I took of my clothes and took a bath I so required. I gasped when I heard my bathroom door unlock and closed. A feeling of fear crippled my whole body as I sense his presence.
Droplets of water trickled my back as a familiar hand caress my neck to my waist. He kissed every inch of my body. Not a spot was left unmarked to waist as he sucked created little red spots. Most of them were scattered around my name. Moans filled the bathroom as he continued assaulting my neck. He says he wants more but I am reluctant, however at the same time I want him, no I need him. Sometimes he makes me so confused. Are you there? Please continue to touch me. When you touch it gives me a sense of security and I feel safe in your arms. Embrace me in your arms. Let me feel your lips again, please let me taste those lips, please I need them. He groaned assuring me he'd pleased me the way I asked.
No sooner this fantasy was over and reality hit me hard. "F**k I muttered to myself. Please let me forget about him I repeated but my I repeated it I knew it was a lie.
My back towards the window I slowly wiped away the wetness of my skin. I thought I heard feet crunching on the grass but it was nothing as I never heard them again. Those steps had receded in front of my porch and someone knock and was welcomed.
"Danny," Judy welcome. She greeted them with a smile. "Are you hear to see Lacey?" She is up in her room. She looked quite sad when she got here but her ultimate response was I am fine. Danny smiled sweetly then went to her room.
Startled someone opened my door without knocking. I sat on my bed facing the window so I could not see the person behind. "Lace" he breathed. I took a silent minute before turning around. My eyes were welled with water, I told him get out. I hate you. I f**king hate you. "Lace, we need to talk" I said to get the f**k out you don't deserve to be in my f**king presence. "I am sorry, I know I hurt you". "Sorry," I stood up, you tell me you are sorry, I don't believe for a split second. Stop telling me that you've said it enough. You are always apologizing for hurting me. "You can't fix the hurt you have caused me" I may have pushed you to Jo saying what I said but you threw me down like a filthy cloth like I meant nothing to you. You say you are trying to protect but protect me from what. The night of the breakup I cried so much but you did not bother to run after like you always do this time. This time, you ran to Jo, this time you thought she was your anchor. Remember that swift handhold with her, I say that. I was crushed, I swallowed deeply and I ran to my car ignoring Whitney and drove home, no one was there so I wallowed in my own tears, I cried like a baby desiring for a mother. The thought of me pushing you and Jo haunted me for days because I knew I had lost you to her. But here you are inside of my room for what Danny? Why are you here? What she doesnot kiss you like I do? What, she doesnot touch you like I do? Doesnot want you like , I do? I sighed I said the last part. Yes Danny I wanted you up until I saw that I shouldn't bother to cry for you. I woke up today, Danny. Any day before today you could have gotten me, how I wanted you back so bad. But I have decided you are no good for me. I should move on as you have done too.
His face spelt remorse, he just wanted to touch my face but I was not having it. Above a whisper he said,"Lacey, I am only here to ask you one question?" And what is that Daniel? I saw you at school coming outside of a room which is restricted from us who were you talking to?