A/N:

I'm going to treat you guys with two chapters today because I feel this chapter isn't written to the best of my ability.

"The most difficult thing in life is to know yourself"

-Thales

A week later...

Sheldon surfed through the channels, hoping to find a good movie or show. Leonard had gone off to work, and Amy was still not answering his calls.

No new memories had resurfaced, but he wasn't even trying to remember them.

He rediscovered his passion for science, mainly physics. Sheldon began reading the many books they owned about physics, and was drawn to every word he came across. He pulled up his papers containing information about theories he had come up with, and knew he was a brilliant man. There was an unfinished document saved on his computer, and so he started to see where he left off.

And then a memory appeared inside his mind.

Sheldon typed on his keyboard just as Amy gathered her belongings and was ready to leave. Amy cleared her throat loud enough to make Sheldon stop his actions and caused him turn around at her.

"Sheldon, can you walk me downstairs to my vehicle?" Amy asked sweetly.

"But I'm currently finishing up my paper that I have been working on for weeks." Sheldon responded.

Amy walked over next to her boyfriend and placed her hand on his shoulder. "Sheldon, it's not very gentleman like to let his woman stroll outside at night by herself where there are possibly marauders lurking around at every corner."

He sighed in exasperation. "Fine. Let me get my windbreaker and we'll head out."

Sheldon knew that scene occurred before he was attack. It was ironic how Amy was afraid of encountering someone when it was Sheldon who actually did.

And look where that got him.

His train of thought derailed when the phone next to him began to ring. Sheldon picked it up and read the caller I.D. He answered it, and waited for a response. "Sheldon?"

"Amy, you haven't spoken to me for that much. Is everything alright?"

"Yes, there's no need to worry." Amy said.

"Good."

They didn't speak a word for a moment before Amy sighed. "Sheldon? I apologize for not being there for you as promised. It's just that I'm not dealing with the memory loss that well."

"I see."

"The reason why is because we've been through so much Sheldon. I've been patient with you for the past four years, and it was only two months back when you first initiated a kiss with me. In the hospital, you seem to be adverse to physical contact again and I'm upset because it was a long way to get you to kiss me. Now, it's all gone. All the progress we had are probably gone." Amy explained, sobbing through the last few words.

Sheldon didn't like it when anyone was upset. "I understand, Amy-"

"No you don't," she interjected. "You don't remember how we met or any other memories we made and shared. I'm afraid that you'll never get them back and the past four years is now wasted. I waited long enough for you to grow and love me as much as I do. It seems unlikely that you'll remember all those things and you'll lose feelings for me."

"Y-you love me?" He stuttered.

"Damn it, I do. Yes, Sheldon, for a while now. You make me feel love and complete. You are my first boyfriend and it was always about us against them."

"Amy, please understand that the doctor did say that it may take a while to regain all my memories. What if you tell me, and see if they'll come back?"

Amy stopped her sniffling. "I'm scared of the likelihood that it won't"

Sheldon had no idea what to say. "Oh, but still, why not see if I'll remember?"

"Okay." She breathed out. "I'll stop by in a few minutes."

After their conversation, Sheldon hung up and paced around the apartment. He didn't mention to her how he was upset about her avoiding him. When Amy revealed that she loved him, Sheldon felt something different. He wasn't too happy about hearing that and wondered why. To summarize what Amy had said, Sheldon learned that they have been together for a while, but he never touched her in an intimate way. It took him three years to kiss her, and she was afraid of losing their progress in their relationship.

Truth be told, Sheldon didn't want to kiss her. Not even touch her.

A part of him wanted to take a break with Amy until he sets his priorities straight.

Sheldon had to look his friends at a different way now after learning about their betrayal. He also had to figure out what he's going to do if he doesn't remember everything, and if that happens, he wondered if Amy still wants to be with him.

He knew he would be a different man without the memories that made him who he was.

"Feeling better?" He handed her a box of tissues, and Amy gratefully accepted one to wipe her salty tears away that streamed down her cheeks.

She disposed of the tissues and calmed herself. "Not entirely. He wants to see if he can remember any of them."

"How?"

"Go there and tell him." Amy picked up her purse and coat, then stood up and headed to the door.

She felt a hand grip her shoulder and turn her body around. "Remember Amy, if things don't work out, I'll be here for you."

"But, I love him. And without his memory, it would be like losing the Sheldon I love." She tried her hardest not to cry again.

"I'm here for you Amy. He's not like regular boyfriends. You told me about how he doesn't touch you or express his true emotions."

Amy nodded. He wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close. "I'll be able to take care of those needs for you."

"That's not fair. I can't just drop all the feeling I have for him if he doesn't remember a single thing. I'll always love him; he's the one that brought me out of my shell."

"First boyfriends aren't always going to be your last, Amy."

"I don't want to believe that."

"Believe it or not, it's your choice." He let go of her, but not before kissing the top of her head. "I do have feelings for you, and I hope someday, you'll realize that he may not be the one. Whatever you decide, you have my number if anything."

Amy smiled and reached out for the doorknob, twisting it slowly as she looked at her closest friend at the moment. "Thank you, Bert. For everything."

Bert grinned and watched as Amy exited the apartment.

"Do you want something to drink?" Sheldon asked Amy from the kitchen as he pulled out two glasses from the cupboards.

Amy shook her head as she laid her hands on her lap. "No, thank you."

"It's the non-optional social convention, Amy, to offer one's guest a drink."

She shot her head up. "You remember that, huh?"

"Yes, just now when I saw my tea bags over there in the counter."

"Um, thank you again, but I'm fine. It's not necessary."

Sheldon sighed, and poured the pitcher of ice tea in his hand into his glass before making his way back to his spot next to Amy. "How do you want to proceed?"

Amy turned ninety degrees to face Sheldon. "You told me that you regain your memories by doing tasks that remind you of that or by someone just mentioning it to you, is that right?"

"Yes. Although, it doesn't always work."

Amy sighed. "Let's begin. I will say a memory that we have shared and you tell me if you remember anything about it. Please be honest with me because I'm already upset as it is." Sheldon nodded. "Okay. We first met each other back in 2010. Your friends Howard and Rajesh put up a fake dating profile with your picture and information. They pretended to be you until I asked for us to meet in person. Those two hooligans blackmailed you with a dirty sock until you agreed to see me. Anything coming up?"

Sheldon thought hard, but his mind was not regaining that memory he met Amy on that day. With every passing second of silence, Amy was becoming more worried than before. Even without him answering the question, she knew he did not.

"We'll come back to that. How about our first kiss? It's almost a year after that. You swung by my apartment after Priya, Leonard's girlfriend at the time, forced you to eat lamb kebab. Before you arrived, I had just come home from a congratulatory party and consumed alcohol. With my inhibitions lowered, I kissed you right there on my couch, and you even said 'fascinating.' I was even more surprised when you didn't yelp and leave right away. You were kind enough to stay with me until I passed out from vomiting on and off."

He remembered the part about the lamb kebab.

"This is Greek food? Leonard, you hate Greek food."

Leonard smirked. "Not as much as you."

Aside from Sheldon's hatred for Greek food, nothing else new came up.

The blank stare on Sheldon's face told Amy what she was hoping not to hear. Amy wanted to give him more time to remember it. Hell, it only had been close to two weeks since he lost his memory. She had invested so much of her time into their relationship that losing what they had would be a waste. Another thing was Bert. Lately, she had thought of giving him a chance. He promised to love and take care of her like normal boyfriends do. He'll be able give her the physical intimacy that she has always craved from Sheldon.

But Amy loves Sheldon, and the dissolution to their relationship would hurt her deeply.

"Moving on. Please, tell me you remember the Relationship Agreement."

"The what?"

"The Relationship Agreement is the thirty-one paged contract that you drew up after we become boyfriend and girlfriend. It covers pretty much anything from date nights, hand-holding, and boo-boos and ouchies. At first, it seemed romantic, and then I just thought it was stupid to have an accord govern our relationship. I always felt that the agreement was written to work in your favor." Amy added. "Though it annoyed me during certain times, I believed it was the foundation of our successful relationship, lasting almost four years now. We do not fight, we only have a few disagreements but we were able to overcome them."

He could lie. Sheldon could lie about knowing the agreement, despite having little idea about it. If he says yes, Amy won't be upset anymore and they will resume their relationship from where they left off, which to Sheldon had no clue to where. If he says no... Sheldon didn't even know what events may occur if he did.

Sheldon was stuck between lying and telling the truth. His brain was going back and forth, but he froze when he felt Amy's lips on his.

He didn't close his eyes. He didn't tilt his head to accommodate both of their lips. He didn't try to kiss back. It was only Amy kissing him and him not responding. Sheldon pushed her away and rose from his seat, shuffling backwards away from her. They stared at each other, waiting for one of them to say something. Amy stood up slowly, her hands across her chest with a downhearted face.

"I-I..." Amy stammered. "I am really sorry, Sheldon. I should have known better."

"No one got hurt, we are fine." Sheldon said calmly, glancing down on the floor to avoid eye contact.

"It's not, Sheldon. I am so sorry. I know you don't want to be touched, and I just wanted to see your reaction to my kiss."

"I see."

"Look, I want to give you more time, but it seems like it'll never come back. I am an expert at brains, and there was one case I was studying that it took almost two years! We've spent so much time and effort in our relationship what I will be devastated if it's all gone."

"Amy, you promised me that you will be there for me." Sheldon reminded her.

She sank down back to her seat. "I did. Sheldon, you initiated a kiss for the first time two months ago. It took you that long to get comfortable enough for you to touch me. I'm wondering if we'll ever be intimate. Losing our progress, I may have to wait years till we do consummate our relationship."

Sheldon shrugged his shoulders, and then shifted near her. He bent down and laid his lips on Amy's, to which she pulled back immediately. "Don't kiss me to try to make me feel better." She said, noting how stiff his body was and the lack of passion in his kiss.

He backed away, and let Amy stand up once more. She picked up her coat and purse. "Please don't contact me. I need some time to think." Without another word, Amy walked out and shut the door behind her.

Sheldon was a loss for words. He wasn't sure what to do. He lost one of the two people he could trust at that time.

Sighing, he pulled out his phone and started to type out a message.

Penny, it's Sheldon. Are you available to talk?

He hesitated to press send, but did it anyway knowing that somehow she'll be able to make him feel better.

A/N:

Up next: Shenny meeting once again.