Chapter 4: That Butler, Worry

Shadow: Snake. You wanna do the disclaimer?

Snake: Shadow does not own kuroshitsuji or any characters... says Wordsworth

Shadow: yay! ONWARD!

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"Smile?..." Snake said shyly wandering around the ship trying to find the master. Soon after Sebastian was produced dead by the medical staff on board, Ciel took off running against the protests of his ankle. That was over 4 hours ago. It was now 6 A.M. Snake wandered aimlessly continuing to call for the Earl. Not good . Not good . Not good. I can't lose him too. Where is he?

"Smile!?" He called a bit louder. At this point, Snake had wandered to just about every room and compartment on the ship... including cargo. He grew continually worried for not finding the master. He didn't know where he was anymore. He had gotten lost wandering around the ship. (A/N. That's actually not hard to do... I've been on board my ship for almost a year and still get lost) He leaned against the wall hoping Ciel hadn't done something stupid. Why does my family always get taken away? All I wanted was someone to care for me... Joker, Beast, Doll, Dagger, Peter and Wendy, Jumbo... now Smile and Black too... I always lose the ones I care about. I can't keep doing this! I've been hurt too much! At this point, Snake was in tears. He couldn't keep in all his emotions anymore. Memories came flooding back. He became more and more panicked at the thought of losing Ciel. He was worried he would never see the Earl again. He knew their real names... but he liked to continue to call them by their circus stage names. I can't lose him! I can't! ! I have to find him!

Another hour later, still no sign of Ciel. Snakes worry only grew more and more. He was definitely lost inside the ship. He couldn't find the way out. Tears clouded his vision. Once he relized he was stuck, no where to go, lost inside of this giant vessel. He collapsed to his knees. Only one thing came to his mind

"SMILE!" He screamed out. I just lost the only family I have. What do I do now?

It was nearly 10 P.M. when a crew member found Snake passed out from exhaustion and hunger. He hadn't eaten, or been able to keep anything down since the Campania sunk. The crew member carried him back up to the medical unit and laid him on a bed across the room from where a sheet covers Sebastian's lifeless form.

"Black... Smile..." the 2 words the crew member hears before exiting. Around 4 that next morning Snake awakes to a sudden warmth to his left side. He looks over to see Ciel curled up against him. Tears automatically started spilling from his eyes as he rolled over and pulled Ciel close to his chest in heartbreaking sobs.

"Snake, what is the meaning of this!? Compose yourself! " Ciel said more shocked from the sudden wake up and the outburst rather than anger.

"Smile... d-dont..." was all Snake could say.

"Don't what?"

"You're. ... all I have left... I... I th-thought you l-left me too! Don't run away again! SMILE!" Snake wailed. Ciel was stunned as his footman completely broke down infront of him. He wasn't sure what to do. Snake never spoke for himself so this outburst was truly a new experience. Snake grew up in a cage at a freak show so after meeting the Noah's Arc Circus was his first true taste at freedom . Ciel wasn't even sure how old Snake was. He was always so quiet and kept to himself. He never acted out. And was a fantastic servant.

Snake continuedto cry for nearly twenty minutes before his throat felt raw and his eyes couldn't produce tears anymore. He just laird there for a few minutes whimpering and sniffling.

"Snake? I won't go anywhere. I'm sorry I scared you. I promise." Ciel said finally understanding that he really was Snake's FAMILY. Ciel himself had lost his family at a young age, but Snake had never experienced anything like it. After Noah's Arc Circus rescued him, he had only been there a few months. Ciel knew he needed to tell Snake what happened to the rest of them, but he couldn't. Not now. Not seeing how bad this boy was hurting. Snake was still trembling holding back a new onslaught of tears. How old is he? Had he spent his life cooped up in a cage? Ceil thought. He was brought out of his thoughts by the footman's choked sobs.

"Please don't start crying again. Please don't. .. it's alright Snake. I'm not going anywhere. Don't worry..." he continued to say soothing words until Snake calmed.

"Smile... please stay here..." Snake begged quietly, sounding more like a small child.

"I will... it's okay. .. Snake? How old are you?" The older male shrugged. He couldn't remember.

"Do you even remember your birthday?" Again, a shrug. Ciel started piecing things together. He's probably about seventeen or eighteen. ... being kept in a cage with little human interaction from a young age could lead to mental issues. I remember Aunt Ann saying something like that.

Snake eased is grip on Ciel, confident he wouldn't run away. Ciel finally figured out that Snake never really did grow up mentally. Sure he was mature, but it was mostly his "friends" that made the conversation. Snake himself rarely spoke and when he did it was usually one or two words, but this outburst was all him. I'll have to work on that when we get back. Ciel mused. For now he wanted ti sleep . Snake was already deep in sleep by the time Ciel's thoughts were done. But Ciel? He couldn't sleep. He kept thinking about his butlers death. Atleast you followed the order, but you did die before the master, and you broke the contract, Sebastian.

A/N : woo well this was fun to write! Again thanks for the review s! I know it's a bit OOC but still! NVCiel I live on a ship an constantly pull in and out of port... do you know how hard it is to to stay awake at 1:00 A.M. and drive while the ships rocking is putting you to sleep!? Wow haha. Welp I hope you enjoy and is Sebastian really dead?! Read the next chapter!?