Chapter 3: A Confession
2:00 PM Phantomhive manor
If it had not been for the fact that the manors idiotic collection of servants were on a long over due vacation, if it were up to the demon he would make it permanent, he would not have torn apart the study and the various guestrooms. Ciel was always a constant to the butler. No mater what, Ciel's presence could always be felt even from long distances. This was not an ordinary occurrence and so the demon butler was in a panic. He would not have been caught dead in such an unstable emotional state but his priorities were on finding the whereabouts of his young master. How pathetic of him. He was beginning to act very human as of late and though it was not a bad thing it tended to get on his nerves. He supposed the young Phantomhive had something to do with the way he now experienced the world. The raven-haired demon smiled slightly to him. Yes that was what Ciel did to him on a daily basis. In a now calmer state of mind the raven began to check the manor over for another time to make sure he had not missed anything. In his panic like anxiety it was quite possible that something was clearly over looked.
4:00PM Phantomhive manor
In all his centuries dealing with human contractors and be chained to them if you will, Sebastian was baffled. He knew something was wrong. The thing that was most curious in the study was the shards of the broken mirror with no blood to stain the shattered tips. Humans were creatures of emotion, which sent Sebastian to get a sick feeling in his stomach. He decided to investigate the desk again in an attempt to prove his theory wrong. One small piece of parchment was crumbled up next to the quill on Ciel's desk. Sebastian knew the boy to well to assume that he just set the scrap off to the side. His young master was meticulous and highly organized. NOTHING was ever out of place in Ciel's study, ever. The anxious butler opened the piece with white clad fingertips. It was not a note at all but a flow of consciousness written on a piece of paper with various words scribbled out to replace new ones. What he read made the pit forming in this stomach worse.
To Sebastian Michaelis Head Butler of the Phantomhive Estate:
Sebastian… I… have such a hard time telling you how I feel. I think maybe its because I know your reaction will tear me apart. You don't mean to be cruel with your words , I really believe you don't I really hope you don't. The truth is that over the months time years of your employment I have grown to have certain… feelings. I would never be able to tell you how I feel so I thought I might try writing it down. It is hard for me to admit anything but you already know that. I feel so vulnerable so lost in how I feel. You are the one I have always trusted. I hope that I can confide in you as well. I truly don't know what I want anymore. The flame The lust I had for revenge is so small now. I feel as though I have lost everyone everything. My life existence just feels so forced and pointless. The truth is that I have affection admiration for you Sebastian I love you. I know you will laugh… or use it against me. I understand that is just the way you are I suppose. I ask that you try not to for my sake. I know you hate me with a passion and it burdens my heart to think of you hating me so. I don't have much to live for anymore… its too hard.
I love you Sebastian,
Ciel Phantomhive
The demon had never been so shaken in his entire eternity. Ciel had written the feelings of his inner most heart of this small scrap of paper. The boy had said he loved him, that he was afraid, and that he felt his life had no one use. Sebastian's heart felt crushed behind his ribcage. He had caused Ciel's pain and heartbreak. How could he look at his young master again after what he just read? The demon shook his head slowly; he was going to find Ciel even if it took his last shred of energy, yet he still feared the worse. Ciel would not have taken his life had he? He felt sick to his stomach as he walked over to the mirror.
Ciel… where are you?!
Hi all sorry for the late update. I have been getting a lot of positive feedback on this particular story this time. It makes my day when you guys post comments so please do so if you think I should continue. This chapter I wanted to focus more on Sebastian then Ciel and the world in which he has found himself in. To not make it super confusion I have added time stamps whenever Sebastian from Ciel's world is present. That may have to change later but for now it works. Hope you enjoy it and more will be on the way. On a side note I thought it was really important to have this in a separate chapter that is why it is so short.
~Ciel