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TRIGGER: this chapter includes mentions of suicide, if you feel you may be affected please don't feel like you have to read this.
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Chapter 18:
Finn ran through the village, he didn't know where he was going or what he was doing; he just wanted to get away. To get away from his home, his family but more importantly his thoughts. The thoughts that plagued him day and night, the feelings that were always there and never went away no matter what he tried.
Finn carried on running until he was out into a country field, far the village. He then stopped, gasping for breath, and fell the ground. He lay there crying, his whole life was a mess, he'd lost control and everyone thought he was a mad man. There was nothing anyone could do to help him, nothing, or at least that's what Finn thought.
James made his way downstairs, he going out to the shop and he was going to ask Finn if he wanted anything, that's if Finn was downstairs. James walked into the living room and froze; Finn wasn't there. "Ross, Pete get down here now!", James screamed up the stairs. Ross and Pete casually made their way down the stairs ready what ever lecture their dad was about to give them.
"Where's Finn?", James asked sternly and the brothers could tell that whatever James was about to tell them wasn't good. "He's in the living room", Ross said. James shook his head, "yeah well he's not there now." Ross and Pete looked at each other, shock written across both their faces. "Well we need to find him then", Pete said already making his way out the door, followed by his dad and Ross.
Finn lay in the field and stared up at the sky, he had to move otherwise someone would. Finn slowly got up and staggered through the field. He stumbled and cried, groaned and moaned and yelled and shouted. He wanted all the thoughts and feelings to go. He wanted to feel numb, to feel nothing. Everywhere he went, everything that he did, he always felt guilty and it didn't matter how many times someone told him it wasn't his fault, Finn's guilt just wouldn't go away.
As Finn made it towards the end of the field he spotted a bridge, a quiet peaceful bridge, Finn knew he had found the answer to all his problems. As he staggered towards it Finn knew what he was going to do. He was going to take his own life.
"Right me and Ross will take the car, you look round the village", Pete instructed, James and Ross both agreed. James walked off into the village and Ross got into the car with Pete. "We do you think he'll be?", Ross asked and Pete shrugged. "I don't know", he replied, "we've just got to look everywhere." The brothers drove out of the village in search of their little brother, praying that nothing had happened to him.
As James hurried into the village he was constantly on the lookout for Finn. He looked around the back of buildings and in people's windows, he didn't care if he looked weird all James cared about was finding Finn and he wasn't going to stop until he did. James walked into the B&B and spotted Tracey cleaning the tables.
"Have you seen Finn?", James asked rather panicked. "No I haven't, in fact I haven't seen Finn for weeks, you wanna tell me where he is", Tracey said and James just shook his head. "Never mind", he said turning around and walking back out sighing to himself. "Well thanks for the answer then!", Tracey shouted sarcastically.
James walked in the pub where he spotted Emma. "Have you seen Finn?", he asked walking over to her. "No I haven't, and it seems these days I never see him because you've got him locked up in the house!", Emma said sharply. "You didn't answer my question, now have you seen him or not?", James asked again, this time getting frustrated.
"No i haven't!" Why what's happened?", Emma asked getting quite concerned. "Nothing", James said bathing out of the pub. "Everything alright?", Chas asked from behind the bar. "Fine!", James shouted.
"Oh where is he?", Ross groaned looking out the window for any sign of Finn. Him and Pete had been driving for 20 minutes without any sign of Finn. "Hold on, what's that?", Ross asked as Pete slowed down. He'd spotted a man that looked like Finn standing on a bridge. "Oh my god", Pete said in barely a whisper. "Drive!", Ross shouted and and Pete raced down the road.
The car screeched as it arrived at the bridge and when both men looked, they realised it was definitely Finn. Ross quickly got out the car and made his way cautiously over to Finn. While Pete sat in the car and rang their dad, "dad you're gonna want to get down here, fast."
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