It Aint Pretty
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I was going to tell Jake. I decided while I was still sitting beside Sue and Emily, feeling the warmth of the fire flicker at my legs and feet. It warmed me up, even though I wasn't cold and gave me comfort. It was a nice night out and I figured that there was no better time to tell Jake. We would go for a walk down the beach and I would let him know. I had no idea what his reaction would be and I was terrified, but he needed to know.
"Jake?" I got up from the fire and walked away from the logs and over to Jake and the rest of the pack guys. They were kicking around a soccer ball and it looked like it was getting intense. I stood a bit away, wanting to give them space, and I didn't want to get hit with the ball.
"Hold up." Jake grabbed the ball and threw it to Seth, before he jogged over to me. His tall frame towered over me and I smiled at him. He was beautiful, it was strange to think of a man as beautiful but he was.
"Hi beautiful." Jake pulled me into him and pressed his lips against mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him in further. My eyes closed and I felt a flood of emotions rush through my body and I felt at peace. I felt like nothing was wrong. I felt normal.
"Jake...we need to talk." I pulled away and broke eyes contact, trying to ignore the feeling of Sue and Emily staring at me. They were watching me and I knew they meant good, but we needed privacy.
"Of course." Jake grabbed my hand and his large, warm hand, wrapped around mine. He made me feel safe and secure and protected. But even Jake couldn't protect me from this.
Jake and I walked along the beach, past the pack boys, away from the fire and once we were far enough away, I stopped and looked at him. Jake stopped and looked at me, his full attention directed towards me, and his smile still present on his face. He didn't lose his smile and he didn't seem to think anything was wrong judging from the look on his face and in his eyes.
"Jake…I don't know how to say this. Or even where to begin. But…" I frowned and closed my eyes, damning my emotions as I started to tear up. I promised myself I was going to stay strong and not cry. I promised that I was going to just spit it out.
"Bailey? What's wrong?" Warmth on my arms from Jake's hands. Warmth spreading through my body, but I never felt colder.
"I'm sick Jake. I have cancer." I moved my hair aside and let him see the bald spot on my head. I looked at him, waiting to see his reaction. He reached up and touched the skin that lacked hair. His eyes were showing me shock, anger and disbelief.
"Jake? Say something?" I begged him to speak, but he stared at the spot and ran his fingers over it. He dropped his hand like he got burnt and stepped away from me, shaking. I took a few steps back, making sure I gave him distance. Jake continued to shake and growl until Jake was no longer there, but in his place was his wolf.
He didn't hesitate to take off, leaving me standing on the beach by myself. I looked over to the spot where he once was and saw shredded clothes lying on the beach. I frowned and stood there, thinking about all the reactions he could've had and decided that maybe that was the best.
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I hoped the leech could hear my thoughts. I didn't care if I wasn't supposed to be on their land. I was. I was in front of their house and I was pacing back and forth, trying to get myself to calm down enough so I could shift. I needed to talk to Carlisle.
'Dammit! Just calm down!' I tried to tell myself to calm down but the image of Bailey lying in a hospital bed with tubes in her arms and her head void of hair, made me even angrier. I couldn't just let her be taken from me. I needed to do something from her. I had to.
"Jacob. You can't be here." Edward stood in front of me and I growled at him and lunged at him, knocking him to the ground. He didn't move, he just lay there as I growled and snarled in his face.
"Jacob! Stop!" I looked away from Edward and saw Bella standing there, a vampire, glaring at me. I snarled at her and got off of Edward and crouched down low. I was pissed and I didn't trust myself to not try and attack Bella or Edward or any of the others.
"Jacob you need to calm down." The rest of the leeches were out of the house now and staring at me. I was angry, I was angry and I was dangerous. I couldn't calm down and I couldn't keep my thoughts together. There were too many things going through my mind.
"Emmett go and grab Jacob some clothes. Jasper calm him down so he can phase back and then we will go talk." Emmett disappeared and came back in less than a minute with clothes and threw them at me. They landed at my feet and once Jasper had calmed me down, I phased, butt naked and changed in front of them. I didn't care whether they saw me like that. I was only worried about one thing.
"She's dying." The first thing I said and it made me want to phase again. I was on edge, I didn't think I could stop myself from phasing. I was too mad.
"Jacob, she is not dying. She has cancer. There is a big difference." I growled and jumped down and stalked towards Carlisle. I stood in front of him, seething.
"Tell the difference. My imprint, my soul mate has cancer." Carlisle didn't flinch. He put his hand on my shoulder and I pushed it off. I didn't want him to touch me. It was bad enough that I had to wear a leeches clothing.
"She can get treatments. She can beat this." Edward spoke to my left and I looked at him. Did he know?
"I found out. I was there when she went in." I pushed Edward against the side of the house and held him by the collar of his shirt.
"You knew before me? You didn't think to tell me that my soul mate was sick? What if that was Bella?" Edward flicked his eyes towards Bella and turned back to me.
"Bella is a vampire. She can't."
"That doesn't matter!" I pushed him further into the frame of the house and heard the frame start to crack.
"Jacob please…Let's go inside and talk." I dropped Edward when I felt calm and knew Jasper was to blame. He was the one that was making me calm.
"Talk about what? I should've known! You should've called me! You should've let me know!" The anger returned and I started shaking. Nobody told me and I should've known.
"I couldn't Jacob. It wasn't my place to tell you." I started feeling my bones crack and change. My breathing picked up and I started losing control of my body. I was going to phase. I knew it.
"Jacob, there are treatments. There are things that can be done. Chemotherapy can start as soon as she is ready. She can beat this." I heard what he was saying but all I saw in my head, was Bailey.
She was dying. She was withering away in a hospital bed. She was afraid and I was going to lose her. My heart was breaking as I sat next to her. I held her cold, pale hand and watched she died in front of my eyes. There was nothing I could do. My thoughts pushed me over the edge and I felt all my bones crack and I phased, destroying the leeches clothes.
I didn't wait for anything to say anything, I took off back into the woods and started running back towards La Push. I blocked any of the pack members who tried to communicate with me. I needed space and I didn't need them in my head.
I didn't know where I was running, I just need to run.
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So Jake knows. And he freaked which was to be expected.
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