The couple were entwined in the bench of the car. Pressed against each other, Julia let her fingers dance in the dark hair of William while he tenderly stroked her bare back. They did not leave the look, sometimes sharing a tender kiss, a smile. William was in an uncomfortable position, his back abutting against the door post was painful to him, but yet, for anything he would change places. He just squeeze against him the young woman who snuggled in his arms as often as possible, so close to him that he felt her breasts rise with her slow breathing.
-The rain seems to have stopped, Julia murmured with regrets while William placed a tender kiss on her neck.
-Yes, he said simply, sitting up to meet his eyes, I can fix the car and we can leave.
Julia nodded and she kissed him again tenderly, without bothering to open her eyes she rested her forehead against his, brushing his lips when she spoke again.
-I did not want to go to Toronto William, she sighed, I would give everything I have to stay here with you, just you and me, just one more day.
-I know, William sighed still down once his hand along her spine, I too would like more than to stay with you here. Away from everything.
She anchored her looked into his and she spoke.
-What will it happen now?
-Well, I will continue to investigate about Darcy and the people in the club.
-And us?
-I would like to tell you that it does not change anything between us. But this is wrong and you know it. No one must know Julia, for your safety and that of Olivia.
-I know you're right, sighed the young woman, but I will not stand to live without you.
-I will say that I have to talk with you to the investigation, we'll find a way.
-If I leave Darcy, nothing will prevent us from seeing at my home and ...
-Do not leave Darcy.
-I beg your pardon? Julia threw away from him abruptly. I'm not that kind of woman William. And besides, I do not think you would accept this kind of thing.
-I do not ask you to ... to make love with him, the young man winced, and that he lives with you and Olivia makes me mad with jealousy but ...
-But? Julia always repeated stunned.
-But it could serve the investigation if you stayed to live with him. You could help us. I know the idea is not the best I've had, you risk putting yourself in danger and I will die if it happens to you anything at all. But I promise to watch over you and your daughter. I promise I will do everything to protect you, so no one ever hurt you.
-Do you want me to investigate with you? Gave the young woman, smiling broadly.
-Well, I thought ...
-It's exciting William, exclaimed the young woman, I want to help.
-Really? William threw a frown.
-Yes, really, criminology always fascinated me and also psychology. I can study Darcy and ...
-Not so fast, cut William stroking her cheek, there is no way you studying anything at all, I do not want him to doubt something. You will play your role as if nothing had changed between you, as if we ... we had never spent the night together. You'll have to watch for convincing him that he do not suspect.
-Should I make love with him if he wishes? Julia threw bitterly.
She crossed the sad eyes of William and she lay against him again.
-I can not stop you, he murmured, dipping his face in her bushy hair undone and to have dried without being brushed, but I beg you, do not to let him make love to you. I can not imagine him touch and caress you.
-And I will not let him do William, whispered Julia plunging her face into his neck to place a kiss, it is only you that matters to me. I'll be careful and I will be faithful to you. I promise you.
He smiled, pleased that he was quite important to her that she no longer wants any other man than him. He was happy to have found the woman who was made for him and she also loved him as much as he did. He was happy, thinking the path he had traveled. He remembered the first time he had met her gaze, and at that moment, he held her in his arms. He could caress her soft skin, he could whisper words of love in her ear. Today he was the happiest man on Earth and he gently took conscience.
He dropped another kiss in her hair and Julia straightened. He met her eyes and the next moment the young woman slid down her body, making him shudder. She smiled at him, noticing his condition and she placed a hand on each side of his face on the car door to be placed above him. She stroked his cheek and he no longer resisted to place his fingers on her hips and kiss her bare chest.
-William, wait, Julia whispered, closing her eyes, I have a question for you.
-I'm listening to you?
She looked again and she pursed her lips a few moments before speaking again seriously.
-Why ... why do you refuse to drive? Why do not you drink alcohol? Is it because of your religion?
-No I ... it's an old story.
-I would like to know, I'd like to know more things about you.
-I do not know if the time is right, muttered William.
-Is it ... is it about Liza?
He kept his eyes deep in hers. He had to admit that besides being beautiful, she was intelligent and perceptive. How had she guessed that all this had to do with his dead fiancee? How could she have imagined all this with so little information in her possession? William knew she had to be an exceptional woman and he had once again proof. He wondered if he could still be love her more than this moment.
-Excuse me, sighed Julia wanting to get away from him, I should not ask you this if you do not want to talk.
-This was six years old, William began trembling voice, Liza and I had gone to a birthday ...
-William, you do not have to, cut Julia, I understand.
-I've never talked about it, the young man answered, to nobody. It was my secret, my pain, my colleagues knew she was dead but they did not know the circumstances.
-Had you had a car accident, is it not?
William nodded and pursed his lips before speaking again.
-We were back late this party which was held in Hamilton. I took the wheel ... but I had too much to drink that night. The snow was falling hard. Liza asked me several times to stop on the low side of the road, we would ride the next day. I did not want. The night was cold and I did not want to risk that we fell asleep and we would die of cold. So I rode, despite the fatigue, despite her protests. Well then ... in a bend, I ... I lost control. The car slipped on the floor. I tried to straighten it, I tried Julia, William gave her eyes full of tears, but ... but I hit the tree. The car made barrels and slid down a small slope and ... I saw the look of Liza, a second, just a second before losing consciousness. I saw blood running down her forehead and when I woke up, I was in a hospital room. It took several minutes to remember what had happened. And Liza ... Liza was dead, she died in the car before help arrived. I ... I have not been able to do anything. I killed her and I have not been able to do anything.
-You did not you killed her William, Julia whispered tenderly stroking his cheek to wipe away his tears, it was an accident.
-If I had not drunk if ...
-The road was bad, it's not your fault.
-I have never drunk alcohol after that day. I rode once in the car, when I resumed my service but the memories of that night came back in memory and without I knew it, I again lost control. Fortunately I was not driving fast, I hit a lamppost and nobody was injured. But I vowed never to drive a car. Never.
The eyes full of pain and regret, William looked down to watch his hands. Immediately, Julia took it and approached them to her lips to place a tender kiss. She leaned William again and she covered his face with kisses. She grabbed his lips and tenderly kissed him gently, then draw close against her and her arms around his neck as he buried his face on her chest and he was crying softly. He held her tightly in his arms, as if she was responsible for his survival. William had never talked about had happened that night. And at that moment, he finally felt at peace. He knew he had let Liza permanently go. He knew he had to learn to live again, and he knew he might if the young woman who was holding him in her arms right now, was with him. William was sad, he felt the pain lacerate his heart, yet he knew deep down that even if such events had not produced, he never would be in this car with Julia. He never would have met, he would never be allowed to fall for her. William had loved Liza, he had suffered her loss. But he still love even more Julia, and he knew he could never lose her.
to be continued...