Chapter 3

I raced to Tori's bed and said her name as loud as I dared. I didn't want to wake any one up especially Derek. I really needed a girl's opinion.

"What. What!" she finally stammered.

"Thank god. I seriously need to talk to you." I said quickly.

"Ugh can't it wait I'm exhausted." she said sleepily putting her head back down on her pillow.

"No!" I screamed as loud as I dared. "It can't wait." I said quieter.

"Fine." she said sitting up and turning on her lamp. She took one look at me and sighed.

"You were crying." she said. What. I had been crying. I didn't even realize it.

"That's not really important right now. Tori. I-I kissed Simon. Like not just he kissed me. No, I kissed him back. God I don't know what to do." Tori stared at me wide eyed.

"You kissed him." she hissed.

"Yeah I know it was stupid, I didn't know what was going on I-I. He left me a note. Saying to meet him downstairs because he had to tell me something important so I did and then t-this happened. I don't know what to do. One second he's staring at me and the next he's kissing me. That's not even the bad part. I kissed him back. I'm such an idiot. I can't be mad at him either because he doesn't know about Derek and I." I let it all out. Tori just sat and listened until I was done and then told me

"You need to tell Derek."

"I know. I just don't want him to get mad." I said wincing at the thought of telling him.

"Why." she said. "You have handled him before when he's mad.

"I know it's just. He's, you know." I said looking down. "I can't believe it."

"Chloe are you...are you scared of him." Tori said shocked.

"No. Maybe. I don't know. I just don't like seeing him mad. I already know it's my fault, I don't need him telling me that too. I also can't lose him. I can't." I started to cry again.

"Look Chloe you need to tell him. Sooner rather than later. It will be fine. You guys will work through it, okay." she said smiling at me.

"Alright." I said climbing back into my bed. "Thank you."

When I woke up I realized I didn't want to wake up. Being asleep was much easier than having to deal with Simon and Derek. I guess I should just get it over with. I got up and headed downstairs to get some breakfast. Once I got down there Derek and Simon came down.

"Great." I muttered under my breath.

"What's great?" Derek asked coming over to me. He tried to put his arm around me but I sidestepped pretending I hadn't noticed and opened the fridge. I grabbed the orange juice but he took it from me.

"I was looking forward to that." I said harsher than I meant it to be. He winced.

"What's wrong Chloe." When I didn't answer Simon stepped in.

"If it's about last nig-"

"I'm fine." I said interrupting Simon. I wasn't ready to deal with this. Not yet.

"What happened last night?" Derek asked looking from me to Simon.

"Well I told her to meet me down here and I ki-"

"Look!" I screamed. "I appreciate your concern but really I'm fine."I said turning to head back upstairs.

"Wait Chloe." Simon said grabbing my arm. "I'm sorry about last night it wont happen again if it's not what you want."

I looked from Simon to Derek. Derek looked concerned and a little mad at the same time. I hope he hadn't figured it out.

Before I realized it I was running up the stairs tears once again streaming down my face. I went into the bathroom and locked the door. Determined not to open it until I was ready to talk to Derek.

I could hear muffled voiced coming from downstairs, one of them a lot angrier than the other. Derek. It must have been. Simon told him everything including me kissing him back and Derek is yelling because he's mad at me. I cringed when I heard footsteps getting closer. The doorknob suddenly shook as if someone tried to open it. I shrunk into the corner hoping they didn't know it was me.

"Chloe!" Someone shouted. I didn't know who it was and I didn't really care. I was trying to block it out. I wasn't ready to talk to him. I was in the middle of a mental breakdown, I couldn't just explain to my boyfriend why I kissed someone else while crying. The knocking on the door continued until I gave in. The pounding was hurting my ears. I silently unlocked the door, and as soon as I did it was shoved open pushing me backwards.

I hit the cold tile as Derek entered. My elbow rammed into the ground and I could hear the crunch it made. I felt it to. I was already crying so I just started to cry even harder. Derek looked so angry, and it was my fault. Suddenly his anger changed when he saw me. He looked worried and sad.

"Chloe...I-I'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you." He said reaching down to me. I pushed myself back into the corner using my bad arm and whimpered. The door to my Aunt's room shot open and she was on me at once, pushing Derek out of the way.

"Chloe, baby. Are you alright? Are you hurt?" she said and then she noticed the bruise forming on my elbow. Derek stood there shocked. My Aunt turned on him. I tried to reach out for her to stop but I was too late. She was screaming at Derek. Yelling at him. Saying all of the things I feared she would say to him. Tears came to his eyes when he saw me. He whimpered and was about to reach for me but my aunt slapped his hand away. His gaze turned to her and he winced backing away. He whispered something under his breath but I couldn't make it out. He said it louder. "What have I done. I'm a monster." and with that he turned and ran down the stairs. I heard the door open and slam behind him. He was gone.