I am really really REALLY sorry for having not updated this since July! I really had no idea that it had been this long since I last updated this! I was suffering MAJOR writer's block for this story. Thankfully that has now passed. I'll be doing this chapter from Tyler's pov. Just in case any one has forgotten Tyler was Carly's boyfriend, and she thinks he died. Anyways, I really hope that you all enjoy this chapter of Abused, Broken, and Loved?
Chapter 10: I Love Her and I Miss Her
Tyler's POV
Pain and sadness. Those were two words that I had become very familiar with in these past few months. Those two words perfectly describe what I have been feeling for the last few months. And it was all because of one thing. Well, person actually. Her name was Carly and lord knows how much I have missed her. But now she was forbidden to me.
I did not know just how much I was in love with her until now. Of course, even before I was forced to leave her I knew that I was in love with her. It's just now, with this long and painful separation, I'm only beginning to realize just how much I was in love with her. Charlie tells me that it is just that my emotions have magnified and that is why I'm feeling this way. Maybe he is right. All that I know is that I love her, and that I miss her so much. I would do anything just to be near her again. Even that meant giving up my vampirism.
All I wanted was Carly. I missed her so damned much that it hurt. I was also very worried about her. Who was going to be there to protect her from her abusive parents? How was she coping with my 'death'. It was hard for me. I wanted nothing more then to run to her and tell her what I was. I wanted nothing more then to be with her again.
I've done all that I could to retain all of the memories that I have her. Yes, they were all human ones so that made them blurry to me. It was like trying to look through mud. But I didn't want to lose them. I knew that if I thought of them often enough and hard enough that I would never lose those memories of her. I never wanted to forget her.
If it weren't for that stupid car accident months ago then I would be with her and I would be happy right now. Because I would be with her. We were on our way to the movies together when some idiot ran a red light and hit my side of the car. Somehow I was still alive when we got to the hospital; not that I was really aware of what was going on around me at that time.
Charlie says that when he saw me he knew that I would not survive, not as a human anyway. He took me away to a place where no one would find me and that is when he bit me. When I woke up a few days later I had no idea what had happened to me. All I knew was that I had this horrible, awful burring pain in my throat that would not go away. I had no idea what happened to me or what I had become.
That is when Dr. Brown came in. I always knew that he was different. I always knew that there was something different, special, and unique about him. I just never, in my wildest dreams, imagined what it could be. He explained to me what he was, what I now was myself. He said that he chose to save my life because he wanted a companion. He was alone, and he wanted company. So he made the snap decision to change me since I was going to die anyway.
I was happy at first because I thought that I could go back to Carly right away. I thought that I could share my secret with her and that we could still be happy together. Those dreams were crushed instantly the second that Dr. Brown, who I just call Charlie now, told me that I could not let her know that I was 'alive' for two reasons. The first one is that humans are not allowed to know about the existence of vampires. The second is that it is extremely dangerous for a human to be around a vampire. I could accidentally kill her. I didn't want to endanger her so I listened to him.
Throughout the past few months Charlie has been teaching me how to control my vampire abilities. I also had an extra 'gift' as it is called. I had the ability to sense when danger was coming. It was my 'spidey sense' so to speak. I accidentally discovered it when we discovered another vampire in the area. It turns out the vampire wanted to kill us so that he could take over our territory.
My mind wondered back to Carly again. I just wanted to have her here with me again. I loved her more then anything else in the world. She was the only thing that mattered to me in this world and it hurt beyond all possible belief that I would never see her again. I wanted to have her in my arms again. That is where she said she felt the most safe. She felt safe and protected when I was holding her. I wanted to know that she was okay. I was so worried about her. Her parents abused her heavily and I wasn't there to protect her or help her! She needed me as much as I needed her!
I loved her and there was nothing that would ever make me stop loving her.
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