Chapter 2: Numb

"There was no other way to say it. After being heartbroken for so long, I had made myself completely numb inside. Maybe not from physical pain, but anything emotional, yes. Sexual pleasure? Numb to that, too. I'd have been a great actress. After all, I had the perfect, mind-blowing orgasm down to an art. Suppose I deserve an Oscar for that."

― Jennifer Salaiz

Everything passed so fast. I was numb. I couldn't believe I was in that predicament. Me. Bonnie Bennett. I am considered the victim. No way it's me! That women that we don't understand why she's stayed all this time. They don't understand... Police trying to push me to report this. I don't want to. I want to get out of here and just forget this happened.

It's been weeks I'm in the hospital. I just want to go back to Mystic Falls. Kol has been trying to see me but the police and hospital are not allowing him to. It's hard, I miss him. He's a complicated mix of things. He can be sweet loving and he can dangerous. I almost died. I almost got a concoction. It's been a miracle that I'm still alive. I'm trying to focus on my recovery. It's hard I will probably never will see him again. I'm scared to go take my things at our apartment. Who knows what he has done? Hopefully nothing crazy! I can't go back now with him, even though part of me want to.

Jo has been so understanding. She's not trying to push me into anything. I feel she's not judging me like some of my friends. They are mad at me, that I don't want to report this. They just see him as a scumbag. They see just what he did, but forget that he's a human being. I can't stop loving him. It's difficult to explain. I know he needs help, by condemning him, it won't. Does anybody see that?

I just want to forget, I don't want to go to court and make this dragged forever. I don't want to expose myself even more. I know I've been stupid to stay in that relationship don't want the world to know. Right now, I am in so much pain that I just want close my eyes and sleep it away. I am too tired to deal with it.

I confide myself to Jo, and she suggested me to check what I am going to do, when I will be released. I know I have to call Elena and Caroline, they are not aware of this. I don't how they will react. It's been years we didn't see each other. They were my childhood best friends. We deal with so many difficult situations when I was in Mystic Falls. I can't believe we lost contact and we went to our separate ways. Another thing I did in a name of love! Get away for everyone and being here. I wanted to cry, but I have no more tears left. I feel so empty.

Let me close my eyes, sleep a little bit more...

2 hours later...

Jo came to my room after her shift. "Bonnie! Wake up! You need to eat some food! "

"I am not hungry... I don't feel like eating."

"You have to... Force yourself... I know it's hard."

I took of of bite of the cafeteria food. Ewrk! Can't wait to eat normal food. We were silent for a while.

"Did you call Elena and Caroline?"

"No..."

"What are waiting for...? Soon the hospital will release you. Are you thinking to go back with Kol ?"

"No, not at all... It's just... I don't know... what to say... It's been ages I didn't talk to them." I felt uneasy. " I can't just called them and be like hey I almost die, how you doing."

"I can called them, if you want."

I sighed, contemplating that option and agreed with her. The way I'm feeling right now, probably it would take me forever to do so. It's almost a month I'm here. I didn't called them yet.

Jo had to go. I closed my eyes just wanted to sleep and make the pain disappear. It was so grant that I was feeling numb.

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