Chapter Four: Stitches

The alarm wake me up realized I was in the Boarding House. 7:30am! I didn't put that! Probably it's Caroline. A wave of sadness just hit me. I'm missing Kol like crazy. I don't want to wake up. I just want to sleep off the pain. Then I heard the radio start to play. The MC start to present the next song "Stiches". First time I heard it. I felt it was about me.

I thought that I'd been hurt before

But no one's ever left me quite this sore

(yes... Kol... You hurt me so badly...)

Your words cut deeper than a knife

Now I need someone to breathe me back to life

(I don't think it's possible... I will never be the same)

Got a feeling that I'm going under

But I know that I'll make it out alive

If I quit calling you my lover

Move on

(move on... How do I move on from this? How can I just stop loving you... So it won't hurt anymore)

You watch me bleed until I can't breathe

Shaking, falling onto my knees

And now that I'm without your kisses

I'll be needing stitches

(I need a lot of them... A lot of reparations...)

...

Just like a moth drawn to a flame

Oh, you lured me in, I couldn't sense the pain

(so much pain it is...)

...

At the end of the song, I was crying like a baby. I didn't know I've still have it in me. I know Caroline and Elena were hearing my sobs. I was happy they let me be. I needed that time of release. I've cried so much I've felt asleep.

Later, Jo wake me up. She was already dressed, the sun was completely out, from my alarm clock it was past noon.

She smile and said "Wake up, sleeping beauty! Kai is here! Caroline invite him for lunch."

Then, she left my room.

I felt butterflies fluttering in my stomach. Out of sudden, I felt nervous. What's wrong with me? Yes, Kai has been my crush for a long time. I was dreaming about him every night during my high school years, but he never saw me more than a friend. Then Kol came into the picture, and I totally forgot about him and my feelings. Kol said he wanted me, I felt things for him. I thought he was the One. And look what has brought me. I don't think my heart is not a good judge of character. So why this now? Frustrated, I quickly took a shower.

I didn't know what to wear. A dress? A skirt? What's wrong with me? I decide to wear a simple white t-shirt with jeans. I had braids, so unraveled them so it create nice beach waves. Caroline entered a little bit frustrated.

"What are you doing-"

I didn't have any make up so she can see all the bruises on my face. An awkward silence was surrounding us.

"I just need to finish my make up, Care, I'll be done. You can go downstairs."

"It's ok I can do your make up."

She didn't let me stopped her, with vampire speed, she did my make up. I'm happy she did it with speed couldn't see her reaction to my face. She did a nice smokey eyes that enhance the green color of them. While I was watching my reflection. I saw Caroline wanted to say something but was hesitating. For her to do so, it has to be bad. I sigh and said " I know you want to say something, just say it."

"I don't get it, Bonnie, why you didn't ask for my blood or Elena's, theses bruises will be gone..."

" I don't know I thought about it but I feel if they are gone... I'll come back to him... And my pain will not be visible to me... I don't make sense... I'll do it soon, lets go downstairs."

I quickly rush out from my room, took the stairs, I heard a masculine laugh with my friends voice in the living room. I approached, I saw Kol's back, my heart stopped to beat. I start to shiver by fear, look Jo confused. How can she let him here? "Kol..." He turned I saw Kai's face, looking at me worried, then it went blank.

I regained consciousness, I was on the couch laying down. I can't believe I faint. I hate to not have control over my body. I heard my two vampire friends fighting about if they should or not give me blood . Jo and Kai was talking to know what happened. I didn't want to scared them. "Hey everyone, I'm ok, let's go eat!" I tried to get up Kai rushed to assist me. Everyone was silent while we were going to the kitchen and the dining room. I couldn't helped glance beside me and looking this raven young man. It's been ages, that I didn't see him. Was he always that handsome? All these emotions make me feel confused. It's like a part of me that was dormant became alive now. I remembered the song Stitches...

Now I need someone to breathe me back to life

Is it Kai? Or it's just imagining things. Come on, Bonnie, it's just a song! Get yourself together! I saw Elena and Caroline shared a secret smile. They know about my huge crush I had on him.

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