Memories
Rose sighed throwing her keys onto the counter as she entered the house, "Doctor?!" She yelled into the quiet house. "Mum?! Dad?! Doctor?! Tony?! Hello?!"
"In here sweetie!" A voice yelled back and she walked towards the kitchen, smiling when she saw her mum and Tony covered in flour.
"Wose! We're making cookies!" The young boy smiled, obviously proud of the fact.
"I gather," Rose replied laughing as she dodged her younger brother's dirty hands. "Oh no you don't, this dress is new."
Her laugh turned into a snort as she watched the three year old withdrawal, his lip pulled out in a pout.
"Not fair," he grumbled, but soon became too distracted by his cookies to care about the dilemma anymore.
"How are you sweetheart?" Jackie asked, looking up from the mixing bowl.
"I'm fine," Rose answered smiling, as she looked around the room. "Where's the Doctor?"
"You see that Tony," Jackie told the toddler. "No, how are you or I love you, it's always the Doctor."
Tony giggled, "always about the Doc'tah." He agreed. "Wose and the Doc'tah sitting in a tree, K-I—" Tony froze frowning, "K-I-S-S-N-G."
Jackie laughed, "Close enough."
"Did you two practice this?"
"Course not darling," but the older woman's eyes danced with mischief. "I was just simply explaining Tony that he's not allowed to run off with any aliens in magically boxes and that you were the result if he did."
"Mum," Rose whined, Jackie just laughed.
"The Doctor's in his room sweetheart."
"Thanks mum," and she was off.
"Doctor?" She asked, knocking on the door softly. "Are you in there?"
No answer.
"Doctor?"
Still no answer.
An unexplainable sense of panic began to seize her. "Doctor I'm coming in." And with that she opened the door or rather tried to, realizing in frustration that it was locked.
"Doctor! Doctor, open the door!" She screamed, still no answer.
Panic continued to seize her as she blindly reached for the key atop the door before inserting it and bursting into the room, her eyes searching for the Time Lord.
She found him lying on the floor, curled up tightly, whimpering and groaning in pain, he looked as if he had tried to make it to the bed only to fail and simply collapse. She was by his side in an instant.
"Doctor?! Doctor! What's wrong?" She yells quickly as she searches him for any sign of injury.
"It hurts," he groans, his eyes squeezing shut even tighter, as if he was trying to block out something. "Rose, it burns, and I can't control them. I can't make them go away."
The fear is continuing to grow, swelling up inside her and spreading like a forest fire, "what hurts? Is it you're hand? Is it bugging you again?" She was semi-aware of the fact that the Doctor had hurt himself and while she'd never been told the whole story she knew about it.
A weak shake of the head, "no not that, Martha took care of that."
"Then what's wrong? What hurts?"
"There's too many of them, I can't keep them all at bay," he gasps, his fingers tugging on his hair desperately.
"Too many of what?"
"Memories," he groans. "It's too much. 900 years of time and space and it hurts. I can't handle them all. It burns.
She doesn't know it, but at this moment wild memories of Donna are flooding through his head, but they're not his memories of Donna. They're Donna's memories rushing into his skull, flooding through his walls at this moment of weakness.
"They hurt so much, she hurt so much, and then she was happy and he's going to take that from her," he screams and Rose backs off, suddenly scared, as the Doctor's eyes fly open and stare at her, his eyes fearful. "Those aren't mine, those memories aren't mine. Those are Donna's, I shouldn't be able to see those. Those shouldn't be there."
He whimpers and closes his eyes again and Rose getting over her initial shock kneels back down next to him. "What can I do?" She whispers. "What do you need?"
"You can't, I can't—"
"Doctor, what do you need?"
"Someone to help keep the memories, but I can't—"
"What about me?"
"They're not my memories to share Rose! I can't just give them away!"
"Then give me some of yours!"
"I can't, I can't," he mumbles. "It will hurt you," he protested. "I don't want to hurt you, not again."
"No, no, Doctor you've never hurt me."
"Yes I have."
"No, Doctor please, I want to help."
He stares up at her as the memories burn through him and he realizes with a regret that it's either this or he's going to die, burn up the same way Donna would've. Gulping he traces his fingers up to Rose's temples.
"I'm sorry," he whispers. "I'm so sorry."
She's not prepared for the onslaught that hits her, the waves of memories that suddenly cram themselves into her head and the emotions she feels that aren't hers.
She feels fear, anger, sorrow, and sometimes rare moments of happiness, but these moments and few. However, mostly feels regret. Regret and loathing, and not loathing towards others, no loathing towards himself.
She wants to cry as the memories fly through her mind's eye. He was so lonely, he still is lonely, she realizes suddenly and her heart aches for him.
She realizes with a start that he can't see all the good that he's done and all the people that he's changed for the better, all he can see is the bad and the lives he ruins (or thinks that he has ruined) and then suddenly it's over.
She gasps loudly as he pulls away from her and just now realizes that she had been holding her breath.
"Doctor," she breaths out, looking at him, she notices she's crying.
His arms have gone back around himself and he's shaking, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I should have, that was stupid. It's okay if you leave now, or kick me out or something. I wouldn't blame you."
Rose's heart aches even more and she feels like she's going to start crying even more, as she tries to think of a way to explain to this wonderful amazing man, just how truly wonderful he is, but she doesn't know how to do so.
She sits there for a moment, before she gently pries his arms away from his shaking body and makes him look her in the face.
"Why would I ever leave you? After everything you've done for me, why would I ever leave?"
"Because now you know the truth," he whispers, breaking eye contact. "Now you know how truly horrible I am. How I bring nothing, but death and destruction. How I ruin everything I touch. I'm a monster, I can't—"
She doesn't let him continue his rant instead she grabs him and pulls him into a tight hug and she can feel him nuzzling his face into her shoulder.
"You're not a monster," she tells him softly. "You've never been a monster."
He doesn't reply, he just clings to her, his body shaking with light sobs.
She pulls away and it hurts when his grasp tightens, before loosening as if waiting for her to go.
Instead she cups his face in her hands, "I'm never ever going to leave you." She promises. "Forever, right?"
He gulps and looks at her, as if searching for the truth, only to realize that she is already telling it and he relaxes.
"Forever," he agrees and she kisses him softly as they sit on the floor and envelop each other.
I figure that since TenToo is technically half-human the amount of memories would also overwhelm him, however since he is mostly Time Lord and sprouts from regeneration energy he can handle them usually.
He just sometimes has to get rid of some pressure, but don't worry brilliant Rose Tyler is there to help!
Now for….
ANNOUNCEMENTS
#1 THIS IS THE IMPORTANT ONE! PLEASE READ THIS!
I really want to write a spin-off story, it would be tied to this (more specifically Injuries) and would revolve around Martha Jones. It would probably be about five or six chapters long and would focus on Alt!Martha and her discovery that Mr. James Smith (aka TenToo) isn't exactly as human as he says he is.
It would involve TenToo!Whumpage and the inner struggles of Doctor Martha Jones as she discovers exactly who James Smith really is.
It would also directly tie into the same story line as Human Life and would probably be reference throughout this story if I do write this spin-off. Human Life would also be referance in the Spin-Off
Sorta like Agents of S.H.E.I.L.D does with the other Marvel Movies.
There would also most likely be a chapter of Human Life that would lead directly into the spin-off, then Human Life would be put on hold until the Spin-Off was done and then it would reboot back up, make sense?
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